Listen to the song to know the beauty

Miao Yu's shoulders trembled unconsciously. Ye Jingzhi's eyes were a little surprised, but he still reached out to support him and patiently waited for him to finish speaking.

"Actually...it's not my birthday today."

The moment he finally said these words, Miao Yu felt a burst of relief.

He has never been a person who is good at lying, let alone the target is Ye Jingzhi.

Ye Jingzhi was not as surprised as he imagined, and even held his hand firmly on his shoulder.Miao Yu didn't dare to look him in the eyes, afraid to hear his heartbeat, so he lowered his head and hurriedly explained: "You have been to Tongxin, I don't know if the old director told you, I don't have a specific date of birth... …Because I can't be sure what day I was born in June or July.

Children like us all celebrate their birthdays on Children’s Day, even on their ID cards, June 6st.I just wanted you back so badly... sorry! "

Obviously it's something I've gotten used to all these years, yet my eyes feel sour while talking.

Miao Yu took a deep breath and bit her lip hard, trying to hold back the damn tears and prevent them from flowing out, making the whole scene even more embarrassing.

He thought he was prepared for any reaction from Ye Jingzhi, whether it was a violent storm or a disappointment and scolding, but the gentle force on his shoulder did not let him go, and he still patted him comfortingly. the spine.

Miao Yu raised his head in a daze. At that moment, he didn't even notice that the tears were flowing wantonly on his face, but caught off guard and ran into a pair of gentle eyes.

Ye Jingzhi looked at him with intoxicating warmth, and Miao Yu indulged in it without any resistance.When he was stared at by that soft gaze, he would have the illusion that he was also cherished and taken seriously by the people in front of him.

Ye Jingzhi only asked him: "Do you wish today is your birthday?"

Miao Yu couldn't speak, but nodded vigorously.

Why not?This was the first time someone took this matter to heart, seriously, and celebrated his birthday only for him.Even Miao Yu's childhood wish, which Miao Yu himself had forgotten, was picked up with great care and delivered to him after more than ten years.

"Then from today, it is your birthday." Ye Jingzhi said firmly.

"Then next year, the year after..." Miao Yu said eagerly, "No, can we spend the day after tomorrow together?"

His expectant eyes are shining, if there is warmth in his eyes, Ye Jingzhi will feel that he has been burned.

He froze for a moment, and replied almost in embarrassment: "If...you want."

It's a promise.

But when he said these words, Ye Jingzhi felt that his heartbeat, which had always been stable, suddenly became violent. He felt an unprecedented joy, but also uncontrollably panic.

At this moment, his heart seemed to be clenched tightly by an invisible giant hand, and the ghost that had been entrenched in his heart since childhood seemed to wake up again, whispering in his ear: You are a sinner.

You are carrying an innocent life on your back and destroying a happy family.

Do you deserve such happiness?

No, you are not worthy at all!

That voice was like a heavy hammer, hitting his chest hard word by word. Ye Jing subconsciously clenched the clothes on his chest. He felt unable to breathe, and he didn't even realize that he had started to gasp violently.

No, no, at least not now, not today...

Ye Jingzhi thought desperately, but his body's reaction was completely uncontrollable. All he could do was to curl up as much as possible, so as not to look too ugly and embarrassing when he was out of control.

In Miao Yu's eyes, all of this could only be said to have been caught off guard.

When Ye Jingzhi agreed, he was so happy, but before he could even show a smile on his face, he realized that something was wrong with him. In just a split second, the person who once made him feel unattainable fell down and sat down. He began to gasp and tremble violently, and Miao Yu didn't even know what he could do, so he could only hug him tightly, calling his name over and over again in his ear: "Jing Zhi, Jing Zhi!"

"Are you okay? Where is it uncomfortable?"

"It'll be fine, it's okay, I'm here."

"I'll always be here..."

Although Ye Jingzhi was very thin, his strength was terribly great. Miao Yu exhausted all his strength to control his unconscious struggle. When he felt the uncontrollable trembling of his body, his nose was sore, and tears rolled down uncontrollably, but he couldn't help it. If you dare to make too much noise, you can only try your best to restrain your emotions.

Is this how he survived all these years?

After knowing that Ye Jingzhi's language barrier was psychogenic, Miao Yu deliberately learned about it, and had a rough understanding of the symptoms of relatively common mental illnesses. Ye Jingzhi is now a very typical anxiety disorder. Symptoms of a panic attack.

This was very painful for the patient himself, because he could not control the onset of this symptom, and could not even find a specific cause. Although Miao Yu had guessed it before, after seeing it with his own eyes, his heartache was still undeniable.

Like Ye Jingzhi comforting him just now, he put his hand on Ye Jingzhi's back and patted it gently, trying to give him some comfort.

But the moment Miao Yu touched the overly obvious bones on the thin back, Miao Yu's restrained emotions collapsed

His heart was stabbed violently like being pricked by a needle.

Most people think that Ye Jingzhi is indifferent and tough, with no one in his eyes; a few people know that he is modest and prudent, conscientious; very few people know that he has a gentle personality, is considerate and considerate, and never embarrasses others.

And Miao Yu, after going through all the stages, finally touched the deepest part of his heart.

But at this moment, he couldn't feel a little joy about it, he just felt that he was caught by a long-lasting pain.

Amidst the sarcasm, overwhelming misunderstandings, and endless malicious speculation, Ye Jingzhi straightened his spine, bearing these pains, and lived earnestly, powerfully, and gently.

Miao Yu didn't know what she could do, so she could only hug him tightly, trying to give him some warmth and comfort.

Ye Jingzhi lost consciousness for a while.

But at the moment of regaining consciousness, shame, shame, frustration, all kinds of complex emotions came to my heart, and finally intertwined into familiar and inescapable pain.

——Today is Miao Yu's birthday.

He thought he had prepared a surprise to make this day special enough to be memorable.

Ye Jingzhi originally thought that he had reached the bottom of hell just now, but when he realized that he had messed up Miao Yu's first birthday with his own hands, a brand new pain overwhelmed him.

Until someone gently brushed away the sweat-soaked black hair on his face, and gently kissed his forehead, Ye Jingzhi suddenly opened his eyes in surprise!

Because of his physical exhaustion and complete collapse, he could barely feel his limbs. It wasn't until then that he realized that the two of them were already in a position where their limbs were tightly intertwined. Miao Yu's hand was still resting on the back of his head. At this time, the tip of the nose is facing the tip of the nose, and the eyes are facing each other, and the eyes of the two people are full of general consternation.

"Yes yes yes sorry!"

The impulsive impulse of being unable to control himself was caught, Miao Yu was afraid that Ye Jingzhi would feel unwell, so he used all his strength to retreat, but it failed because the two of them were too tightly entangled; he frantically tried to get up from him , and was afraid that if he broke free from Ye Jingzhi, he would fall, so even struggling became restrained.

His face was flushed, he was so embarrassed that he didn't dare to look at Ye Jingzhi again, just when he didn't know what to do, he was suppressed by an unquestionable force.

Unknowingly falling into the wind, Miao Yu, who was pressed to the ground, raised his eyes in a daze.

He saw a pair of dark eyes.

This was the first time he saw a strong possessive desire in Ye Jingzhi's eyes, as well as some complex emotions that he couldn't understand, like a drowning person grabbing driftwood, and a person falling into the abyss holding on to the safety rope.

The slightly cool thin lips were getting closer and closer, and finally covered his lips.

During the whole process of his approaching, Miao Yu was so shocked that he completely lost his reaction. He stared blankly, until the temperature that didn't belong to him kissed his lips, and then he opened his mouth stupidly to say something, Ye Jing But Zhizhi took the initiative in one fell swoop and drove straight in, covering his eyes with his slender fingers.

Miao Yu was bewitched by this powerful tenderness, and almost forgot to breathe, until Ye Jingzhi finally kissed the corner of his lips, announcing the end of the kiss, and his eyes were bright again, and he reacted and began to pant violently .

They both looked embarrassed, Ye Jingzhi's face was pale, his hair was wet with sweat from the previous attack, and his black hair stuck to his thin cheeks, showing a sharp outline.

Miao Yu was afraid that he would hurt herself in a fit, so she hugged him almost the whole time, and was almost exhausted. After the sudden kiss ended, both of them seemed to be comforted, and the tense atmosphere before was gone. Even the air seemed to become sweeter.

The two sat on the ground with their eyes facing each other. They both wanted to say something, but they were burned again. They looked away at the same time and said in unison: "I'm sorry, I..."

Realizing that the other party said the same thing as himself, he said at the same time: "Then you first..."

Miao Yu burst out laughing, knowing that Ye Jingzhi was as nervous as himself, and the last embarrassment in his heart disappeared, so he touched his nose and said calmly: "Forget it, you go first."

Ye Jingzhi's psychological struggle was obviously more complicated. He paused for a moment, and finally bowed his head and said, "I'm sorry, your birthday... was messed up by me."

Miao Yu was dumbfounded.

"what???"

He realized that he had to say something and couldn't care about anything else, so he simply sat in front of Ye Jingzhi and looked him intently in the eyes: "You can't say that. This is the best life I've ever had since I was born." A birthday, I've never been happier than today!"

His eyes are black and white, clear to the bottom, Ye Jing can understand at a glance, his words are from the heart.

At this moment, he made a decision.

作者有话要说：搞了个小抽奖，祝大家元旦快乐，新年新气象！感谢在2020-12-2903:06:35~2021-01-0123:59:43期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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