[Twilight] Bright sunshine

The car accident made the boring high school life more rippling. Me and Rick, as well as Bella and Edward were all involved in this whirlpool of gossip.The students at the school never tire of watching me quietly during class, or watching Rick and me while passing by during recess.Best mascot for Fox High, I just have this weird feeling.

About that strange vampire, like a thorn, stuck in my heart and made people feel uncomfortable.I saw Taylor, that strong young man walking in a hurry, he was chasing Bella, I saw Bella pass me by with a particularly ugly face, she probably didn't see me, because she was not used to it at all I have always been in the center of the topic, and now I even lower my head when I go to the classroom.

Maybe she has another very unpopular admirer. I am glad that I have Rick by my side. As long as he is by my side, basically no one would dare to join us in the fun.

When I saw Bella, Rick's eyes were particularly dark. The feeling of being without any emotion, like looking at a dead object, made me confused.Noticing my concern, he closed his eyes and opened them calmly a second later, as if his hostility towards Bella was just an illusion of my excessive paranoia.

"She's my cousin, I like her very much." I didn't even know why I mentioned Bella to him so cautiously, I had the illusion that I was holding a dynamite bag and handing him the ignition.

We were walking to the next classroom. I saw Edward just now at lunch time. He was still the same dead man, but I could feel the vague nervousness.I don't know what they're going to do with it, it doesn't look like any vampires are breaking into the campus and committing murders, and luckily Bella has adjusted her story without anyone asking her to.

Edward rescued her.This is real.

Edward stood by her side all the time.Bella said that to everyone.

I was relieved that she hadn't revealed anything, but I somehow avoided Bella.She looked at me suspiciously. In her eyes, I seemed to be a pumpkin figure for Halloween, and I would turn into a monster at any time.

She watched me curiously and silently, and I timidly ignored her gaze.

"Like? That kind of guy." Rick gave me a nonchalant look, and a very uncomfortable smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

Well, I'm finally sure. "Are you hostile to her?" I always thought I was being overwhelmed, because the two of them didn't know each other at all, and it was impossible for Rick to hate Bella that much.But now, he doesn't hide his malicious thoughts at all.

He and I have already walked into the classroom, when Rick heard my words, the strong malice could not be concealed at last, he looked down at me, and said coldly and harshly: "That woman named Isabella has nothing, It was worth your life to save her. You almost died because of her, Claire, she was a nuisance in my eyes."

Disgust was such a shocking word, I reached out and grabbed his arm, his clothes were so thick I could barely feel his muscles.This is not the point, I retorted in disbelief, "Why do you have this idea, I should protect her, and it was just an accident, no one wanted it to happen. You can't implicate Bella in the car accident, Worst of all are the frozen roads, not any of the wounded." Doesn't he have the right sense of right and wrong in his head?An accident, not a murder.

"Protect her? You want to protect her?" His voice suddenly sharpened, as if I had said something terrible that made him go berserk.

The dynamite pack somehow detonated without my knowledge?Is this sentence wrong, the problem is that I don't think I did anything wrong.I want to stop his angry questioning, but I haven't figured out how to speak. He has already thrown away my hand, so hard that my fingers are numb. I have no chance of breaking free.

"Listen, Claire." When he bowed his head against the light, the darkness stained his fair side face, making him look even harsher and crueler.He almost turned every word into a bloody sharp knife, wishing to carve it into my bones. "No one is qualified to ask you to sacrifice your life to protect him. The most important thing you should do is to protect yourself. If that car really hits you, you must push everyone around you out, not Stand in the front. Your life is more important than anyone else, and no one has the right to take you away."

The anger in his eyes was about to turn into real anger, wishing to burn everyone to death, but his words were so cold that my blood froze.

"It's impossible, everyone's life is equally precious." He asked me to push others out as a shield?Such a cruel and terrible suggestion made me feel at a loss and puzzled.

"To me, everything that threatens your life—no matter what it is—is a loathsome, enemy that I hate."

He laughed, showing no sympathy, viciously crazily shattering the peace in his eyes. For him, these words were so natural and correct.

God, tell me who taught his adult education.I was silent for a while, and then I asked, "Rick, do you have, uh, anti-human or anti-social...personality or something."

I think he has another attack of anxiety. I don't believe that he can be so selfish in his heart. It's impossible. No one would be so indifferent to other people's lives.

"What's that?" He said disinterestedly, not paying attention to what should be noticed at all, he didn't know that we were very conspicuous blocking the classroom aisle.

"No, that's wrong. Could it be that one day you hurt me, you also want to hurt yourself as an enemy?" Regarding his words, I couldn't laugh or cry, I was terrified and terrified.

He simply regards everyone as an enemy, just like a child with a bad personality that is hopelessly bad.

"I am your protector." He corrected me indignantly.

"Of course, my knight. But there are always some injuries you can't avoid, and I don't know when you will leave, Rick." How difficult it is for me to say these words, it is difficult for me to face my heart Such a negative and pessimistic side.I raised my hand and touched his cuff lightly, he was holding me a little hard.

"You will leave with me." He said softly, loosening the shackles on me.

"Maybe one day you will realize that I am not the girl you were destined to be. If there is such a day, then the end you said will be my end." very serious.

"Are you doubting me again?" His gentleness was immediately distorted into irritability, I really don't know how many times his emotions can change in a second.

"I'm just giving an example. Some injuries may be unavoidable, and these pains are not your enemy." I don't know how to change his concept, and I am in a mess.

"I can't leave you, Claire."

This promise sounds so sweet and warm, although the person who said it is not convincing at all, his anxiety will always make people uneasy.

If this moment is going to be our forever, I'd rather it freeze.I looked at his face, he was so serious that I had the confidence to be with him.

"Hey, do you need a witness? Two angels with broken wings who fell in love." The teacher of the health class came in, and he looked at us exaggeratedly, and the rest of the students snickered suddenly.

Rick gave them a gloomy look, and the whole classroom returned to silence.

I was so embarrassed that I quickly lowered my head and walked to the back of the classroom, where our seats were.Rick followed quickly. He had a much thicker skin than I did, and no one dared to tease him.

We must have had a romantic attack just now. Love will lower people's IQ. I don't know what I'm arguing with him in the public.

"Youth is really beautiful." The teacher muttered magnanimously. "So let's talk about 'sexual abstinence' today."

Although I know that these educations are necessary, when he was still sitting next to me, listening to the teacher talk about sexual knowledge and diseases, including premarital sex... The teacher looked at us specially when he said that.

Why did you focus on us? I guess the teacher in the health class didn't believe it at all. We didn't even receive a serious kiss.

I sneaked a look at him and found that he was distracted again, he looked like an old hand... I suppressed this guess.

But he is actually more like a clean freak, I looked at his gloves again, such a person would even kiss me in the water, I can hardly imagine how he would do that kind of behavior.

He suddenly squinted at me, strangely serious.

I just realized that my cheeks were burning badly. Sure enough, I really didn't have the courage to think about this kind of problem.Uncomfortably, I reached out to stroke my long hair, tilted my head and turned my face, trying to let my hair cover my blushing.

"You, do you have experience?" I asked very quietly, this is just an academic discussion, no big deal.I grabbed my hair, covered my face, and lowered my head timidly.

"Experience?" He repeated, with a few traces of weird charm, his voice seemed to be floating.

"That kind of experience." It's normal to discuss this kind of topic with a man, and he is also my boyfriend... I hypnotized myself desperately.Then I got farther away from him, my body was almost tilted outside, and my eyes were fixed on other places.

He became silent, very strangely silent.

I went from being shy to gloomy, and the atmosphere between the two of us suddenly became gloomy.

"With whom?" I was very depressed, and a kind of uncomfortable sourness surged from my heart.Although I am aware of the openness of sex education here, and I don't expect him to have not experienced those things, but after knowing it, I am still very... I am jealous that he has an ex-girlfriend.

"No." He said very calmly, expressionless and righteous.

I,……

Why do I think he is lying?

His honesty face was not like that at all.

"Really?" If he repeated the answer again, I would believe him.

"Those women are nothing, and it was a long time ago, they are not worth mentioning at all." He said disdainfully, a grin flashed across his face, completely unrepentant.

Those... women?

Why is the unit "those", not just one?

It happened a long time ago, how old are you, don't tell me you were open to messing around when you were thirteen or fourteen.I was stunned at first, my brain was overwhelmed, and I analyzed his words tremblingly, and then I became angry. I finally knew why anger can control people's actions.I was shaking with anger that he said such things in such a disrespectful tone.

"Did you ever go whoring?" I almost wanted to flip the table, and stood up abruptly, gritted my teeth and asked.

If it's a girlfriend, he can't have no feelings at all, he even said it in a mocking tone.

Rick was confused for a moment, he seemed a little unable to respond to my words, and he acted so innocent.

I thought I misunderstood his words, he didn't look like that kind of guy.

"You care?" His noncommittal look was so innocent that he even asked very purely.

But isn't this answer telling me that he really did that kind of thing?

Why can't I see that he is so open, I'm going to be mad at him.

"That's very boring, Claire, those women can't ignite the fire in my heart at all." He answered carefully, his tone a little cautious.

"Could it be sexual frigidity?" The teacher of the health class suddenly interrupted and asked.

I just realized that we are still in class.All the students stared at me dumbfounded, it was so bold, and I felt so ashamed that I wanted to disappear immediately. "I'm sorry." I took a slow breath, trying to make myself look calm, to cover up what I had just done.Then I packed up my things neatly, turned around and ran with my books in my arms before the class was over, I swear I have never been so humiliated.

The teacher properly re-educated the rest of the students before I walked out of the classroom, "call girls are illegal, if any of you have such thoughts, be careful standing on the street police."

I was so stimulated by this topic that I staggered and almost fell. Rick grabbed me very nimbly. He followed me at an amazing speed. I shook off his hand and rushed out of the classroom and walked forward aggressively.

"You don't need to be angry with those women at all, they don't mean anything, they're just ants, Claire." Rick's pace was much faster than mine, I ran three steps and he obviously only needed one step to catch up.He seemed to have more reason to be angry than I did, as if my unreasonable appearance made him very incomprehensible.

They, they... God knows how many of them there are, I hate this kind of unit quantifier.Returning ants, I don't believe you can do that kind of thing to ants.He really is a big carrot, an experienced bastard.

Those damn sweet words are all lies, I bit my lip, the first time I wanted to bite a person to death.

"Are you jealous?" he snapped back, shocked by the answer, the way he looked.

"No." I retorted mercilessly, suppressing the pain in my throat.

"No one can make you jealous of her, no one will." He grinned slowly, joy was clearly revealed from his smile, and he immediately became elated, as if a villain had succeeded.

Am I jealous of the great satisfaction his vanity gets from his angry face?

I really wanted to slap the book in my hand on his face, "Shut up." I yelled at him angrily, and then ran away without looking back.

Although I don't expect him to have no experience, I can't accept his casual attitude towards this aspect.

But with my speed, I can't get rid of Rick at all. His physical strength and foot speed are much higher than mine, and he can follow me no matter how I walk.The thing that drives me crazy is how he keeps explaining, "It was just my father gave it to me, they were ugly, and then...the women who came to me by themselves bored me, I haven't touched those boring things in a long time, Claire, they don't deserve your anger."

Your father is really tough, giving you a woman?

There are also those who come to you by yourself. You are so unclean and have a bad reputation that you let girls come to you and return them... you have experienced many battles, right?

"Don't follow me, you playboy." I turned around and slammed the books in my hand on him fiercely. He quickly reached out and grabbed the books in his hand, folded them standardly and put them under his armpit. Like a circus acrobat.

"I said it was just a meaningless little thing." He also started to get angry, without any empathy for me.

"You are also a meaningless little thing to me." I lifted my foot and kicked his calf, and he reflexively became vigilant, his whole body resembled a frightened cat, the darkness in his eyes was terrifyingly sharp, but he didn't Jump away immediately, I have kicked his calf.Then I froze for a moment, the pain came from my ankle, and instantly swept through my pain-sensitive nerves.I took a deep breath and continued to walk forward in unbearable pain. Why are his feet so hard? Maybe he tied iron blocks on his feet.

Of course I don't care about these things anymore, I have to find a place to calm down.But the damn radish behind him never repented. I never found this sticky candy so annoying.I found the classroom where the 12th graders were in class. The bell after class let me enter the place where they were in class as I wished. Emmett saw me winking, and he was very happy that I ran to them.Rosalie stretched out her slender fingers and brushed her disobedient blond hair behind her. She came to me in a blink of an eye, took my hand, and looked behind me with hostility. She followed me in a low voice. I said, "Come with me, Claire."

I turned around, and sure enough, I found that Rick was not coming up. He looked at us indifferently, and that expression made my frown even tighter.

Emmett also came up behind us, smiling and raising his eyebrows provocatively.We walked out of the classroom, and I figured I could just follow them home and go see Esme.

"What did he do to you?" Rosalie asked grimly. She didn't like Rick from the beginning, and she never hid it.

"It's nothing." I shook my head, trying to drive away all the pessimistic emotions in my brain. Every time I felt that something worse could not happen, that guy would let me know what was wrong.

His life experience is really too exaggerated.

"Didn't you take a health class? Could it be that he couldn't help it." Emmett slid his thumb across his lips ambiguously, and he laughed, especially malicious.

"Shut up your thoughts." Rosalie rarely showed embarrassment, and she elbowed Emmett so hard that Emmett clutched his stomach and coughed a few times.

"I just want to popularize the content of the health class with Claire, otherwise she may die if she doesn't understand anything, Rose." Emmett folded his arms, and when he laughed, he was similar to those hooligans on the street who like to watch the wind lift their skirts , Forgive me for describing this big man in this way.

"I have attended lectures and know how to use condoms well." After I finished speaking, I couldn't stand it anymore. Sure enough, I couldn't hold on to such open jokes. I have no such experience.

So I can't understand whether in Rick's head, he knows what it means to be loyal, or to be responsible.He probably didn't know why such an unreliable father would give his son a woman.

"Come on, Claire, it's beautiful, if the two are happy." Not seeing my bitter face, Emmett said with a smile. In his eyes, I was an incredible existence. Conservative and old-fashioned, even more exaggerated than Edward.

"Of course, but I don't support premarital sex." I'm not as open as Emmett, who has almost no restrictions on such jokes, and few people can stand his dirty jokes.

"This is the correct attitude. You have to cherish yourself." Rosalie said solemnly, she held my hand, and the icy fragrance became clear because of her closeness.

"Our health school doesn't teach that. Condoms don't work." Emmett pulled the car keys out of his pocket, and as we walked to the parking lot, I heard Emmett continue, "You know vampires When I face my lover, it is natural to feel that kind of feeling. That kind of passionate desire|desire is not the same as that of human beings. You human beings can still pour cold water on you to save yourself, but yes For us, apart from being satisfied, there is no other way. Once we are in love, we will never be able to change, and love will make us passionate at any time. Once the fire of passion surges up, except for the hug of the loved one—”

Emmett's voice sank, and she looked at Rosalie affectionately. The hug in his mouth was not pure at all, "Except for your hug, nothing can make this terrible and painful lust|desire go away."

Rosalie looked at him expressionlessly, and before Emmett was about to jump over to hug her, she quickly lifted her high heels and kicked him in the stomach.Emmett's face was distorted in pain, and he reached out to grab his jeep, shaking it.

"Has it disappeared?" Rosalie moved her wrist coldly and looked at him from above.

"Ross, aren't you embarrassing me? You know I can't control it." Emmett began to talk helplessly.

"Won't it disappear forever?" Creatures like vampires are constantly breaking my three views. I can't help but stay away from Emmett. He said that he can't solve it by himself except for Rosalie.

"It's different from what you imagined. You can endure it, but you can't disappear. A vampire with strong endurance may look calm on the outside, but if you stay by your loved one's side every day, you will feel the burning fire at any time. Pain, and that kind of flame will only increase because it cannot be relieved. Unless you take a 'health class' together, don't expect it to disappear automatically." Emmett recovered very quickly, he was taken by Rosalie I am used to domestic violence, and I don't pay attention to a little pain.

"If the person you love doesn't love that vampire, is it possible that he can't solve it on his own?" I find it incredible that even this kind of passion can freeze, wouldn't it be particularly painful and troublesome.

"Then you'd better pray that the vampire is a good person, or he will go crazy because he can't get a lover. No, to be correct, a good vampire will go crazy by itself. A not so good vampire..." Emmett suddenly had a little Looking at me pitifully, like I'm standing on the edge of a cliff knowing nothing, miserable as hell. "When you meet a vampire who is not a good person, he can do anything, and you humans are not the only ones who have rapists."

Emmett's words opened another door for me to be a vampire, a horrible health class that was a mess just to listen to.

"You're lucky that you're in love." I honestly think it's great that they're a couple, I can't even imagine vampires going crazy or criminals because they don't get the one they love.

Rosalie and Emmett fell silent. They held each other's hands. I could barely read their eyes. Pity?

Is my sadness so obvious that they all know that Rick is a carrot?

"Hey, that guy looks like a criminal." Emmett tilted his head in displeasure, and he pursed his mouth, muttering something darkly that I couldn't understand.

Of course I saw Rick, leaning against his car door, looking our way.Some students after school can't help but pay attention to him, similar to the instinct of moths to see the fire, but no one dares to approach him.

I really don't want to talk to him, and I don't want to admit that I also have such dark inferiority. His casual attitude towards that kind of thing has stepped on my bottom line.Just imagining it makes me very sad, and the sadness is almost uncontrollable, streaming down from my eyes.

But I also feel that he is very lonely standing there alone, although he always looks very arrogant.

I bowed my head and thought for a while before saying goodbye to Rosalie and the others, then turned and walked over.Seeing me coming back obediently, his stern face finally looked a little better, melting from frozen thousands of miles into cloudy clouds.

"You won't do those meaningless little things in the future, right?" I thought for a long time, and I still think it's better to have a showdown with him. door to door.

"I've already said, you don't need to be angry at all, those things are not worth your anger." Rick didn't mean to reflect on it at all, he was even angrier than me, he opened the car door and dragged me over and stuffed me into the car.

"It is impossible for me to accept cheating. If you want to step on a few boats, I will break up with you." This is my bottom line, and I can't accept his flirtatiousness.

Rick slammed the car door shut. He was about to get angry, but he still restrained himself. He endured until the words he spoke were trembling. "Break up? You won't have that chance."

His lips were so tight, they were so red I thought they were going to bleed.

I suddenly felt that dull and viscous sadness again. I stretched out my hand and put it on the back of his gloved hand. I don't know the reason why he never took off the glove. Maybe one day he will really open his heart to me.

He held my finger instead, and he always acted like a predator, he wouldn't let go when he got hold of it.

The greedy inferiority of human beings, I put his hand on my cheek, only the coldness of leather. "Sorry." I murmured softly, lowering my eyes, admitting that my anger was too impulsive.

I'm just sad that he once belonged to someone else.

I was so sad that I couldn't control myself, the pain was enough to make me lose my mind.

He suddenly stretched out his other hand, touched my face, and pressed the back of my neck. I was pressed down by his strength, and he had already kissed my hair deeply.In the place close to the whirling, it was heavy and fast, and the obsessive coolness flashed by.

It was so erratic that I thought it was an illusion.

Then he let go of me, started the car and drove forward.

I put my head in my hands and couldn't help laughing.