Mu Chen

82. Depression

At noon, Lin Hong cooked, but none of the three of them wanted to eat.The chicken had been stewed, and the smell was wafting in the room. Lin Hong took out a bowl and brought it into the back room, but Lin Lan refused to eat it no matter what.

Yu Yong is also afraid, he has been sitting here and is also worried that if the situation is not right, he will be sent to the hospital, but he can't let go.

He understood Lin Lan, she always felt that she had been wronged.Teenagers lose their mothers, young people lose their husbands, and middle-aged people get sick.She was poor with her husband, but her husband didn't take care of her, and she suffered all kinds of humiliation for her lover, but her lover never took her seriously.

She was wronged or unlucky, but could this be a reason for her to torture others?

Today, if Lin Lan just talked about him, complained, and cried, Yu Yong wouldn't be angry, but Lin Lan was full of resentment towards Mu Chen, so he couldn't expose it lightly.

Even if he is here, how much grievance will that person suffer when he is not there?Why should he accept these things?

When Mu Chen came back, the house was dead silent. He asked Yu Yong strangely, but Yu Yong remained silent, and looked at Lin Lan lying on the bed in broad daylight.

Muchen walked over, "Aunt Lin, what's wrong with you? Are you uncomfortable?" He said he wanted to get a blood pressure monitor, but Lin Lan turned her head and ignored him.

It was Lin Hong who pulled him aside and whispered about the quarrel between the two in the morning.But she only said that Lin Lan was so angry that she cried all morning and didn't eat.

Originally, she thought that Mu Chen would tell Yu Yong a meal, and then persuade Lin Lan to get up for dinner, but unexpectedly, Mu Chen's expression turned pale.

He still measured Lin Lan's blood pressure, and then said lightly, "It's a little high blood pressure, it's okay. But it's not good if you don't eat for a day. Aunt Lin, how many times have I told you that your body belongs to you, and you don't cherish it Then no one can do anything, Xiaoyong is your son, I don't think it's appropriate for you not to eat just to get angry with him."

Lin Hong......

Muchen, "Even if Xiaoyong said something, as a mother, why can't you let your son go? You always feel that you are suffering, but Xiaoyong doesn't suffer."

Lin Lan was a little guilty at first, but Lin Hong was in her bedroom when she told the story, and she was relieved when she heard that her complaints had been concealed.Now, when he heard that Mu Chen completely defended Yu Yong's attitude, he suddenly remembered that Mu Chen turned against her in order to get her to sign a letter of understanding.

This was an unforgettable experience in her life. This embarrassment even surpassed the embarrassment that Yu Yong felt when he mentioned Wu Ping'an in the afternoon. At this moment, she couldn't stand it and cried, "Okay, you are all good, I am not good , I have dragged you down, I deserve to die, why don’t I die!”

Yu Yong stood up abruptly and walked to the door, Mu Chen turned his head and glared at him, then waved his hands behind him to signal him not to speak.

Muchen said slowly, "Aunt Lin, don't be like this, it's not good for your body if you are so excited. I've told you many times, no one can blame you for being sick, it's like the sky wants to Thunder and rain, who can stop it? It can only be said that we have had bad luck, and we will take care of it when it happens, and none of us have blamed you."

Lin Lan, "..."

Muchen, "Don't you see that you are much better now than before? You can still take a long-distance bus two days ago. If you get better, we can go further, and you can still take a plane or a cruise ship. Life is good. Why? Can't think about it day by day?"

Maybe it was Mu Chen's long-standing prestige, maybe it was his calm and forceful tone that made her feel a little unreasonable, but maybe, it was just because she hadn't eaten for a day and was exhausted with emotional ups and downs, Lin Lan finally calmed down slowly.

Muchen helped her out of the bed, "Get up and eat. I smell the stewed chicken. Auntie, do you still need to heat it up? Aunt Lin, it's a day of crying, and a day of laughing. You have to adjust your mood. When you're in a good mood, your body will be healthy." Get well."

After helping Lin Lan to the dining table, Mu Chen entered the kitchen, and he sighed when he saw that there was only a plate of stir-fried shredded potatoes in addition to a pot of chicken soup.

He saw that Lin Hong was taking care of Lin Lan and drinking chicken soup, while Yu Yong was still sitting on the sofa ferociously. Then he saw that the pot of rice hadn't been touched, turned on the thermos, put on an apron and opened the refrigerator.

Seeing that he was about to cook, Yu Yong got up and went into the kitchen.Muchen handed him the dishes to be washed, and Yu Yong started to wash them. The two brothers cooperated tacitly and finished four dishes in a while.

The shredded chicken is the chicken stewed today.Cucumber scrambled eggs, quick hands.Stir-fried meat with celery, celery to reduce blood pressure, this is a dish that is on the table every day at home.The last fried shredded pork with lamb's horn pepper is Yu Yong's favorite.

It was choking when frying green peppers, so Muchen closed the door tightly and turned the range hood to the maximum setting.Yu Yong felt sad, couldn't help hugging him from behind, and kissed him lightly on the ear, Mu Chen was startled, and turned to stare at him.

Yu Yong let go of his hand, but the restlessness in his heart gradually calmed down.Fortunately, he is still there.

After dinner in silence, Lin Hong cleaned up the kitchen, Mu Chen stared at Lin Lan after taking the medicine, then helped her wash and comb her hair, and waited for her to sleep before going upstairs with Yu Yong.

As soon as the door was closed, Yu Yong hugged him tightly from behind, Mu Chen turned his face and touched the cheek on his shoulder, "What's wrong, tell brother."

Yu Yong didn't say a word, he felt that he couldn't say it, his mother treated his lover so harshly, but he couldn't do anything.

Seeing that he was in a bad mood, Mu Chen pulled away his hand from his waist, turned around and gently embraced his shoulder, and kissed him lightly again, "Aunt Lin is a patient, don't talk to her care about."

Yu Yong, "Is this what they do all day? You can't get well after you're all like this."

Seeing his expression of shame, Mu Chen immediately felt distressed, "Don't think about it, you don't know, Aunt Lin is a bit depressed and emotionally unstable."

Yu Yong!

Muchen, "You also know that she has been in a bad mood for so many years, and she has encountered so many unsatisfactory things, and her illness has been repeated, and now she is completely trapped in this room. Infinitely magnified, and your aunt didn't work well, so her depression became more obvious later on."

Yu Yong didn't expect it at all, "Then, can it be cured?"

Mu Chen also had a headache, "In her situation, if she is stronger, more optimistic, lives a regular life, and exercises more, she will be fine. After all, life is passable now. But how should I put it, her life is fine now, and she can exercise regularly. It’s not good to be proactive, I don’t like to do it unless I’m forced or accompanied.”

Yu Yong...

Muchen's voice was helpless, "The most important thing is that she is pessimistic and weak, and she can't get rid of many negative emotions... For a while, she suffered from severe insomnia. I took her to see her in our courtyard, but she was very vigilant and felt that I was Treating her as a mental patient is very repulsive and has no effect."

Mu Chen dragged people into the room while talking, "And I didn't dare to tell her deeply, because I was afraid that she would give me psychological hints. It was just a state of depression. Don't let her know about this disease, and feel that I am If you are a depressed patient, it will be even more troublesome if you become a depressive disorder..."

Having said this, Mu Chen sighed, and hugged Yu Yong, "She doesn't communicate with others, so I sent her to a college for the elderly, thinking that I could let her learn calligraphy, painting, or singing, but she was not interested in it." .”

Yu Yong wanted to laugh a little, "Brother, you might as well send her to play mahjong." You are a little more interested.

Muchen sighed again, "Send her off."

Yu Yong broke free from his embrace and looked at Muchen, "Really?"

Muchen smiled helplessly, "There are a lot of smokers in the chess and card room, and the air is too bad, so you can play a game there for an afternoon or a night, and she can't sit like that for a long time, she wants to exercise. And she loses after the first day Dozens of dollars, when I came back, I was tired and distressed, and said I would never go again.”

Yu Yong laughed, "Brother, you"

Muchen also laughed, "Later she played poker with a few old ladies in the community, usually playing poker, where there is no win or loss, and there is no time limit."

Seeing Yu Yong nodding, Mu Chen smiled and said, "I think her interest is okay, but after two days of playing, she can't do it anymore, because your aunt is also on it, and she doesn't care about her at all when she plays, and she, let alone exercise , Sometimes I can’t even drink water, and then your aunt got into a fight with someone inside, and she stopped playing.”

Yu Yong smiled, and held Mu Chen in his arms again.Where Muchen couldn't see, the smile disappeared, revealing an unconcealable distress.

Mu Chen's tone was very relaxed, "Later, I bought her a little golden retriever. The little animal is cured. The golden retriever is also smart. Aunt Lin also liked it very much at first. She hugged her every day and took her out for a walk. I am also happy, Doesn't this solve all the sports problems?"

Yu Yong stroked his back, "Yes."

Mu Chen leaned his head on his shoulder, poking up and down his arm, "Maybe I have too many things to do, I always feel that they have not developed the dog's habit well, I have said it several times, the old sisters They were not happy. Later, when Mao Mao grew up, they refused to go out when it was cold, and I asked her to walk, but one day she said that she was tripped by Mao Mao, and she almost fell. She said that she didn’t want to raise anything, so I sent her to my colleagues gone."

The little golden retriever was bought by Mu Chen for 800 yuan. It is a well-trained puppy. It has a fixed time to go out and defecate in the morning and evening.

At first, Muchen brought them back, and the dog's habits are well maintained.But he works shifts, the time is not fixed, Lin Hong is lazy, and when he is too excited, he will not take the dog out on time, and even if he takes it out, she will not clean up the poop. The property manager saw it and said it twice.

Later, the dog also pooped at home. Originally, the two sisters often lost a lot of hair, and now they added a room full of dog hair, making the house very messy.The number of times he talked, the two elder sisters were not happy. They thought he had too many things to do, and because he was too interested, they gradually became impatient.

In the end, if Mu Chen wasn't at home, sometimes the dog wouldn't be able to leave the house for a whole day. When he said more, Lin Hong would put the dog in the small yard, where there were flowers, plants and grass seedlings that Mu Chen took care of carefully...

Muchen almost vomited blood.Before he had a seizure, Lin Lan said that Maomao ran in by himself, and they didn't notice.

Later, Mao Mao stumbled again, and Lin Lan's mood improved, so he gave the dog away.

Seeing that Yu Yong hadn't spoken for a long time, Mu Chen comforted him, "She doesn't understand this disease, and it has the advantage of not understanding it, at least she won't be right."

Yu Yong, "Yes."

"Besides, our city Y is really not good in this area. I asked Senior Brother Gu to find out that there are some good sanitariums in City N, and the psychological interventions are good. They can be regarded as a combination of medical care and nursing care. But when I mentioned it, she felt that I would She was sent to a nursing home and left alone, or thrown out of town..."

Behind what Yu Yong couldn't see, Mu Chen smiled wryly, "Of course I'm back now, and I can't let her go. But don't worry too much, her condition is good and bad, but it's still mild , not to the point of taking medicine. The side effects of the medicine for depression are very serious, and I will not use it for her unless it is a last resort."

Letting go, seeing how heavy Yu Yong was, Mu Chen couldn't help comforting him, "Since the second half of last year, her physical condition has improved, and her mood has also improved, much better than before. I usually ask your aunt, As long as the weather is good, take her out for a walk, communicate with people more, and let her be more interested in things."

Seeing Yu Yong nodding, Mu Chen said, "I was planning to take her out for a walk when you didn't come back, to see the outside world, so that she can open up her mind and stop thinking about the past over and over in the room all day."

After thinking about it, I still told the truth, "But this is not very useful. After all, it is very little time to go out and play, and she is more at home."

Yu Yong, "My aunt probably won't play a good role."

Muchen nodded, "Yes, she is not a broad-minded person, and she is very extreme in her views on people and things. I have never wanted to use her, but Aunt Lin can't do without her. Aunt Lin has always been very insecure. I don't have any relatives, and I take this sister very seriously, so I can't be too tough."

Yu Yong, "Brother, I'll come back."

Mu Chen patted his buttocks twice, "I said this to get you back? Will you make her feel better when you come back? Xiaoyong, I told you that I didn't want to hide anything from you. We weren't there in the first place. Together, let’s make those ‘I’m hiding it from you for your own good, I’m not telling you it’s to protect you’, what are you doing? Acting in a bloody drama?”

Yu Yong...

Mu Chen kissed him lightly on the lips, "I said this to let you know about Aunt Lin's situation, and also to let you know that it's nothing to me. I'm a doctor, Xiaoyong, and she's a patient. Just say no." I don't take sweet words to heart. What's more, as you can see, she won't say anything in front of me, and I haven't spoiled her, have I? I've never been sick because of pampering her Just follow her."

Yu Yong's eye circles were red, "Brother."

Mu Chen felt distressed watching her, and hugged her tightly, "To be honest, I also feel a headache about her situation. She has no ability to adjust her own mood. If there is someone who is sincerely good to her and satisfies her desires wholeheartedly Emotional needs, her situation will definitely improve, but there is no such person, there was no such thing before, and it is even more impossible now."

Following Yu Yong's back, Mu Chen continued, "It would be beneficial if some cheerful and optimistic friends come to visit her often, but Aunt Lin avoids everyone in the factory because of...."

Yu Yong, "..."

Muchen sighed, "She is very closed to herself, and she has trapped herself in this room. The only people with her all year round are me and your aunt, but that person is selfish and narrow-minded, and he thinks he is shrewd. It's so muddled and not optimistic by nature, it doesn't have a positive influence on her."

Yu Yong, "..."

Muchen let go of Yu Yong, looked into his eyes, "As for me, don't blame me, Aunt Lin is not my father, nor Cheng Shu, I can't get close, I can't empathize with her emotions, I can't be colorful Dear Yi Yu, of course, I won't get angry with her."

Yu Yong didn't speak, Mu Chen forced a smile, "I'm not as good as you think, and I haven't worked so hard, really. I won't empathize with you, I'm sorry. What I can guarantee is to take care of her all the time, let her There is no need to worry about food and clothing, and the sick can be treated, but I can't give more."

Speaking of this, I explained, "If I give her a bunch of promises when I'm in a good mood today, and ignore her when I'm in a bad mood tomorrow, it will be a greater harm to her. I will treat her very stably, It's like a doctor to a patient, not a child to a parent."

Yu Yong hugged him in his arms.

Muchen followed his back, "You are back, can you pay attention to her emotions all the time? Can you be in a good mood to make her happy every day no matter what happens outside?"

Yu Yong, "..."

Mu Chen shook his head lightly, "To be honest, it's not easy for people, you can't do it. And she won't be satisfied, or, even if she was satisfied for a while, she will have new demands and dissatisfaction—because she feels I am so wronged, no matter what kind of compensation, after a long time, the initial touch will not be enough. It will never be enough."

Yu Yong, "..."

Muchen, "Of course, these are my conjectures, but I believe it's almost like this, so I don't agree with you coming back for this."

Yu Yong...

He felt that no words could describe his mood, his guilt, his impotence.And the person in his arms obviously understood.

Mu Chen raised his head slightly, "It's still early, why don't you take a shower?

Yu Yong, shouldn't it be this person who is wronged? Why does he still use this way to comfort himself?But it is really impossible to refuse, he is so good that he seems to leave at any time, and only complete possession can make him feel that he is still there, that he still owns him.

Muchen spent a long night of asking for anything and everything.

He regretted using such a way to divert Yu Yong's emotions, but he couldn't see him feeling sad and guilty, and he still liked his bright and big smile.