enchanting forensic doctor

Zhaoxi walked slowly on the road, and found that some elderly people spontaneously organized together in the garden of the community, doing Tai Chi in a leisurely manner; some middle-aged women in their 60s and [-]s gathered together and danced irregularly. Health exercises; there are also some children playing games together, running, chasing, and frolicking... They have different ages, different lives, and different moods, but they have similar smiles.

Such a contented, peaceful, gorgeous smile.

I found a chair at the side and sat down, raised my head and looked at the slowly rising sun in the east, the white light was so warm and pleasant, and it shone warmly on my whole body.

The whole person relaxed and leaned on the back of the chair, slightly closed his eyes, feeling the peace and tranquility of this moment.

Living here for many years, it seems that I have never sat here quietly like now, feeling this kind of ordinary happiness.It seems that I have always been busy walking through the streets with big strides, never paying attention to such a scene, never knowing that such a simple life can be so enviable.

Suddenly I felt a little funny, it turned out that under such circumstances, such a tired self had the opportunity to sit here and discover those scenes that he had never noticed before.

Chao Xi felt very tired, not physically, but the exhaustion evaporated from the new depths.

In the past few months since the accident, he has been living a life like a drunken dream.When he learned that he would never be able to do the job he was madly in love with, his heart died.Now he is taking medicine and doing rehabilitation just to keep the child from worrying. He doesn't want to add any more worry to the haggard face of the exhausted teenager.

Zhao Xi felt that something in her body was slowly receding.The current self seems to be a quagmire, binding the child tightly around him, killing his vitality, covering the scenery of his fate, and forcing him to be dragged by himself to sink continuously.

His slightly closed eyes opened "swish", and at this time the dazzling sunlight dazzled him for a while.

Those peaceful smiles around, such energetic postures, that kind of eyes full of hope for the future... It's like a needle deeply pierced in my heart.

He stood up suddenly, and left quickly with messy steps as if fleeing.When he stopped again, he just turned his head inadvertently, but was completely stunned there, dumbfounded.

In the spotlessly clean floor-to-ceiling windows, there was a figure of a man—carrying his back, his long hair was messed up by the wind, his expression was gloomy, his face was thin and haggard, and his whole body exuded a decadent and gloomy atmosphere.

Zhao Xi couldn't believe her eyes, and slowly stretched out her hand, trembling involuntarily, approaching the cold glass window a little bit, touching the so familiar yet so unfamiliar figure inside.

Since when did that once proud, persistent, and radiant Zhao Xi become so downcast!Where did Zhao Xi, who played wanton in his game life, get thrown by him? !

The figure in the mirror suddenly became blurred, and the dazzling colors came into view, blurring the figure on the mirror.It was only then that Zhaoxi realized that she was standing in front of a TV sales store, and the video displayed on the TV she was facing was a video of an audition competition.

A boy without arms stood on the stage, behind him was a black grand piano, and next to him was a black chair that was much higher than the keys.Standing outside the store, Zhaoxi couldn't hear the sound, and could only get a rough idea of ​​their conversation from the subtitles at the bottom of the screen. When Zhaoxi saw the boy sitting on the high piano bench, took off his shoes and put his He froze when he put his feet on the black and white keys.

He couldn't hear the sound, he didn't know whether the boy played the piano well or not, but it was the boy's action that touched his heart deeply.Like a ghost, he pushed open the door and walked to the TV, staring blankly at the boy inside.Unexpectedly, the boy's piano talk was surprisingly good, and the melodious and long music flowed out quietly, making people rush to Ninghe inexplicably.

"Hello, do you want to buy a TV? Our TV is from..." The store staff came over and stood beside Zhaoxi and began to introduce the TV's performance, advantages, prices and other information professionally, but Chaoxi Can't hear a word.

He saw that when the boy got off the piano bench at the end of the song, all the audience stood up and applauded him frantically with tears shining.

The boy stood quietly on the stage, calmly bowed his thanks, looked at the judges with a smile and waited for their comments.

The three judges said a lot of words of praise, but what really shocked Chaoxi was what the boy said to the judges with a gentle smile——

There are only two paths in my life, either die quickly or live wonderfully.

Somewhere in my heart was hit hard!

He lowered his head and stared at his still knuckle fingers, his eyes rested on his fragile wrist, and he suddenly understood something.Looking at the calm and gentle smile on the boy's face, and the soft music just now echoing in his ears, he suddenly felt that such a self was so ridiculous and so sad.

So what if you can't hold a scalpel, so what if you can't continue to practice medicine, is it necessary to give up your entire life just because of such a sad episode in your life?

With deep shock and doubt in his heart, Zhao Xi left the shop in a trance, and walked slowly on the road.When he suddenly stopped and looked around, he found that the city was full of people and their backs. After passing people one after another, Zhao Xi suddenly felt at a loss.If you continue to wear down your remaining pride and vigor in such a negative way, will you lose even your remaining self in the end?

Slowly raising his hand to his forehead and looking directly at the dazzling sunlight, Zhao Xihu silently made a decision...

"Are you back?" Hearing the sound of the door opening, Song Weiran leaned out from the kitchen, hands full of flour, "The teapot is made of fruit tea and pour it yourself. The meal will be ready soon." Smiling, he retreated into the kitchen again.

Zhao Xi sat on the sofa and got a cup of fruit tea, the light red liquid gave off bursts of sweet fragrance, with a seductive beauty.He smacked his lips lightly, leaned on the sofa and closed his eyes contentedly...

Dinner is chicken noodle soup.Sprinkle some scallions on the rich and fragrant chicken soup. The noodles are different from the usual ones. Compared with the uniform and slender noodles pulled before, the middle of the noodles this time is very chewy. It is thin, but it tastes very good.

"Is it delicious?" Seeing Zhaoxi take a sip, Song Weiran sat on the side and looked at him expectantly.

"En. It's delicious." He narrowed his eyes and curved his mouth, smiling faintly.

Song Weiran who looked at Chaoxi was suddenly stunned, this was the first time that Chaoxi laughed in such a long time.

After staring blankly for a long time, he realized that Zhao Xi tapped his bowl lightly with his chopsticks before he came back to his senses. As soon as he looked up, he saw Chao Xi's curved eyebrows and a playful smile in his eyes.

How long has it been since I saw Chaoxi like this?Song Weiran didn't know, but the bright smile at that moment made him dizzy.

"Hey, it will get cold if you don't eat it."

"Oh, oh!" Picking up the chopsticks in a hurry, Song Weiran suddenly felt a little wet in the corners of his eyes.

"Today's noodles have never been eaten before, are you new?"

"Well, this is sliced ​​noodles. I just learned it. I'm not very skilled in making it, maybe it's not as delicious as the one made by the master." It was rare for Zhao Xi to take the initiative to talk to himself, and Song Weiran was so excited that he didn't know what to do, so he put it on the table The lower hand clutched the corner of the clothes nervously.

"It's already delicious." Looking at Song Weiran's eyes that were slowly turning red, Zhao Xi hesitated and stretched out his hand to rub his hair like before, "I've worked hard on you during this time."

Tears just fell down without warning, blurring all vision...

Tightly holding Zhaoxi's hand that he wanted to take back, rubbing it gently on his face, whispering the familiar name over and over again, "Zhaoxi... Zhaoxi... Zhaoxi... "The warm liquid scalded my palms...

Stretching out his arms to wrap his arms around the boy's thin shoulders, he let him cry wantonly.It seems like nothing has changed.He was still the young man who was wronged a few years ago and leaned on his shoulder and sobbed silently. The same pain made people feel distressed, and the same made him feel sorry for him, but this time he had a different heartache.

After a long time, when the boy's mood gradually calmed down, Zhao Xi held his head, gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, sighed, and said quietly, "Don't cry anymore, take good care of yourself in the future, so that I can Take it easy."

Suddenly, he stood there in a daze, staring blankly at Chao Xi's eyes, and asked stupidly, "Let's go?"

Touching his hair, he nodded slowly and firmly. "Where are you going?!" She grabbed his hand firmly, as if he would leave her in the next moment.

Zhao Xi didn't try to pull his hand back, but stretched out his other hand to carefully arrange the black hair that was messed up by him.After a while, he slowly opened his mouth, "I want to leave here for a while."

"leave?"

"En. I want to leave here for a while and go to a place without the hustle and bustle, and get back to the familiar self."

"...That's good!" Forced to squeeze out a smile, wiped his cheek vigorously, his amber eyes sparkled with excitement, "Where do you want to go? What do you want to prepare? There is no noise and disturbance... ...Tibet and Yunnan in China should be the first choice. You can see the scenery on the plateau and the snow-capped mountains hidden in the clouds. If you are in Yunnan, you can go to Lugu Lake. It is said that the music of the Naxi people is one of the oldest music in the world. You can go and listen to it when the time comes. Well... I don’t know much about foreign countries. It seems that Venice and the Maldives are good, and Bali is also beautiful. I’ll check it out later. We can choose several places and go directly, or you plan to Walk around without a plan, but it doesn't matter, as long as you feel good. Ha ha."

Seeing the tension and panic in the amber eyes, and the dazzling smile made my heart ache.After a long silence, Zhao Xi said with difficulty, "Wei Ran, it's me... alone."

Hearing this, Song Weiran stared at him with wide eyes.It took a long time before he quietly asked, "Zhaoxi, don't you... don't want me anymore?"

With such mournful eyes and such a desperate tone, Chao Xi's heart seemed to be grasped by someone and squeezed fiercely.He pulled Song Weiran into his arms vigorously, put his chin on his shoulder, and the hand holding his shoulder made Song Weiran feel pain, but Zhao Xi still didn't speak.

Feeling the child's trembling body, Zhao Xi took a deep breath and let go of him, looked into his eyes, and slowly said——

"Weiran, I know you've been blaming yourself all this time. But it's not your fault, it's just an accident, an accident that we don't want it to happen. Don't argue, just listen to me quietly."

"During this period of time, I locked myself in the dark closed world I constructed with my own hands. I didn't go far away, but hid in the corner and silently felt sorry for myself. The Chaoxi, who was once flamboyant and full of fighting spirit, was wearing out little by little. Immersion In my sadness, I am not only destroying myself, but also dragging you slowly into the abyss. I know that you smile every day, try your best to please me every day, and you are alone in a place I can’t see every day Licking the wound. I know that you often hide in the toilet and cry, I know that your eyes are full of sadness where I can’t see it! But I can’t do anything.”

"Wei Ran, now I am incapable of relying on you, unable to protect you, unable to give you happiness, and unable to give you the future you want."

"I don't care! I don't want your protection! Every time I need help, you always stand in front of me and protect me with your hands. Make me feel safe. Always take care of me, protect me Me, but this time let me let you rely on me, let me protect you, can't you?"

"I care!"

"Weiran, I care. Do you know how powerless it is when you can't give the person you love a stable and happy life? Do you know how heartache it is to see your dearest person hiding in the toilet and crying? I am eight years older than you, so I should have taken on more responsibilities than you. I have my pride, my persistence, they all make me unable to accept that I am becoming more and more useless and relying on you to exist. Fact. That would scare me, would keep me worrying about what I would do if one day you left me? I know, I know you'd say you won't leave me. But that doesn't make me any safer Feeling, if one day you are tired, you are tired, and you want to give up?"

"I was originally an insecure person. If we are still like this, those worries are like a cancer deeply rooted between us, and one day our feelings will be eaten away. I don't want this, I want to hold your hand and go on as plainly and happily as those old people, so I have to untie my knot first. Do you understand?"

"I..." Song Weiran opened his mouth but didn't know what to say.

Looking at him quietly, touching his face comfortingly, "Let's give each other some time to rest. When we all untie the knot, find the original self, and go on together. If you can't wait, Or if you meet someone who is more... more suitable for you, just..."

"No! I won't!" Covering his mouth to prevent him from continuing, "I will wait for you until you come back."

The four eyes met, staring for a long time, and slowly spit out a single word——

"it is good."