Xu Fuji

After seeing off his elder brother, Xu Chunfeng packed up a large bag of local specialties he brought, dried sweet potatoes, chili sauce, pickles, salted goose eggs, fruits, there were too many things to eat, Xu Chunfeng thought about giving some to his fellow villagers.That fellow took good care of him, and even helped him find a part-time job when he first came. Although the job of delivering newspapers ended sadly without a problem, Xu Chunfeng still remembered this love. Find a class to earn some pocket money.

Xu Chunfeng picked out five salted duck eggs and a bottle of chili sauce, and after thinking about it, he fried peanuts with dried sweet potatoes, jujubes and melon seeds.The fellow still lives in the old dormitory building, there are no classes in the afternoon, everyone is relatively free, there are some playing poker, some playing music, some shopping, it is very lively, Xu Chunfeng seems to miss the life of freshmen and sophomores Come.

The door of the fellow's dormitory was closed tightly, and Xu Chunfeng knocked on it. After a long time, there was a deep voice: "Who?"Xu Chunfeng chuckled: "What are you doing? It's me, open the door!"

The door was opened a little, and a short man poked his head out, saw that it was him, and recognized him: "So it's you, who am I, come in quickly."

The dormitory was dark inside, with all the curtains drawn, only a computer monitor in the corner was on, and a room of ten or so young men gathered around the computer.This situation frightened Xu Chunfeng: "What kind of terrorist activities are you doing?"

Seeing that he was carrying a big bag of things, the short man came up and snatched it, and threw a jujube into his mouth to chew: "Mmm—sweet."

"Is that so? Come, let me try it." "Hey, there are also melon seeds and peanuts." "Here's a handful, that's ok, buddy." There aren't so many polite things between men, so I'm sorry, and each person goes down with half a bag up.His fellow villager was also inside, beckoning to Xu Chunfeng: "Come, look at the good things."

"It's just something." Xu Chunfeng moved forward, and someone brought him a chair.The short man closed the door tightly and clicked the mouse alone. Xu Chunfeng opened his eyes wide to see a man and a woman chatting in Japanese, and began to undress without much effort.

"Damn, pornography!" Xu Chunfeng's eyes lit up.The fellow pushed him: "It's porn, it's called AV, it's from the foreign language department, you can't keep up with the trend at all."

"Don't talk, don't talk, it's all watching."

Everyone fell silent, their eyes were as green as wolves, and they stared at the small screen without blinking.The two bare-chested men inside were not shy at all, and the real guns were in full swing, and after a while, two more men came.

The sound of panting in the room became thicker, but I didn't care, I just watched it for fun, who has the time to care about others.After one film was played, everyone sighed regretfully, it was not enough, the fellow hurriedly said: "I still have this." He took out another film while talking, Xu Chunfeng took it over and glanced at it, "Lan Yu".Yo, it's still a domestic AV, what about Hu Jun, Liu Ye, Guan Jinpeng, who are these, I don't know them.The fellow made a "cut", do you know people from abroad?

Well, that's right.Xu Chunfeng scratched his head, let's continue reading.

Looking at it, the more I looked, the more puzzled I didn't see the woman. After a while, the two men went to open a room. After a while, they kissed.The people next to him laughed and said: "Old Bei, what are you holding?" This is, is there a girl here?The two elders kiss each other, who will see?

Only Xu Chunfeng didn't smile, he was dumbfounded.

In Xu Chunfeng's more than 20 years of life, he has never heard of homosexuality.Men should be with women, and women should be with men. It is as natural and unshakable as the sky must be above and the earth must be below.Occasionally, there was a slightly more feminine man in the village. Everyone called him the second chair, and everyone hated and hated him. The children stayed far away and threw stones behind their backs.

Suddenly one day, the world is turned upside down, and men can be with men... Xu Chunfeng doesn't know how he walked out of the dormitory of his fellow countrymen, and the first scene in the movie is all lingering in front of his eyes.Two men face each other naked on the bed...one pinches the other's nipple...they kiss passionately and passionately...

It's all messed up, all messed up.It’s like Xu Chunfeng has watched for 20 years that the clouds are white, the grass is green, and the old cow has four legs. Suddenly, one day, he is told that you are wrong. In fact, the clouds are purple, the grass is red, and the old cow has four legs. The last one is regarded as a tail, but in fact the old cow has no tail at all.

what to do?Xu Chunfeng was at a loss.In fact, he is not at a loss for the fact that men and women can have sex. It has nothing to do with who he likes to have sex with. He can only curse and laugh for a while.But he still felt at a loss, and there was a kind of chaotic thoughts in his mind, as if he could grasp it with his hand, it was very important to him, very important-but he couldn't grasp it.

Xu Chunfeng went back to the dormitory and sat on the bed with his eyes staring straight. Lang Zening didn't hear him calling him several times.In the end, Lang Zening pushed him lightly, and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong with you? Have you delivered your things?"

Xu Chunfeng didn't hear what he said, but saw his lips move, and suddenly remembered the line in the movie: "Have you ever kissed?"

"Then I'll teach you?"

Xu Chunfeng asked casually, "Hammer, have you ever kissed?"

Lang Zening was taken aback by his nonsense, "What?!"

"No, it's nothing." Xu Chunfeng woke up and forced a smile.

"Chunfeng, are you okay?" Seeing him in a trance, Lang Zening sat beside him, feeling a little worried.

"It's okay, it's really okay." Xu Chunfeng said hurriedly, "Maybe I'm too tired from class recently, I need to sleep."

Lang Zening looked at his watch, the time was up, the training class couldn't be stopped, there were so many children waiting.Looking at Xu Chunfeng again, it seems that there is nothing wrong with him, so he said: "Okay, I'll go first, call me if you need anything."

"En." Xu Chunfeng nodded.As soon as Lang Zening left, he lay on the bed as if exhausted.

He grasped that important feeling, the moment Lang Zening lowered his head and asked him.He wanted to kiss, like those two men in the movie, naked and entangled with each other.

Xu Chunfeng is already in his 20s, he is not a young boy who doesn't know human affairs, he knows what this means very well.But he was in a mess, faintly scared, turned over and sat up on the bed, opened the door and rushed outside.

Although it was just after six o'clock, it was already very dark, and the pedestrians on the road looked in a hurry, just lowering their heads and rushing home, indifferent to everything around them.Xu Chunfeng walked slowly along the side of the road, thinking clearly about the past three years of university.He's not stupid, he's not dull, it's just that he's never thought about it before, not at all.But now he understands, so Lang Zening's careful and considerate care, warm but ambiguous touch, and meaningful gaze are all settled.

How can I be so stupid, so stupid.He should have guessed it long ago, he should have understood it long ago. There are some things that even his own brothers can't think of or do at all.Lang Zening is like this to him, and he is like this to Lang Zening...

How to do?

The people around you will look at you like a monster. Viciousness and contempt are the stones thrown behind your back by those children in the village. You can't bear it.

But he is Lang Zening...

Can't be together, there is no way to be together, after graduation he stays in the city, you go back to the countryside, how can we be together.You should start now, pretending nothing happened, or flee far away.

But he is Lang Zening...

It's useless, it's really useless, the mother is heartbroken and disappointed, the father sighs, and the two elder brothers are sad. Can you bear the invisible pressure?

But he is Lang Zening...

He is Lang Zening...

Xu Chunfeng raised his head, everyone was busy going their own way, who would pay attention to the inner pain of the strangers passing by?He just stood there for a long time, confused and confused.