Offer him a belated lily

Zhang Qinghe disappeared, counting from the day I put him in the car at the villa, it was already the seventh day.

The school contacted Zhang Qinghe's mother who was working outside. After his mother came back, she looked for all the places where Zhang Qinghe might go, but they couldn't find them.In desperation, the school decided to call the police.

I know why Zhang Qinghe didn't show up, and I know how much he was hurt that day.Now I'd give anything to get me to see him.

When I was about to collapse, news finally came from the police.Someone found a floating body while exercising at the beach in the morning. After the police verified their identity, it was confirmed that it was Zhang Qinghe who disappeared seven days ago.

Did Zhang Qinghe jump into the sea?impossible!He said he loved me, said he would love me forever!We agreed to leave here together, how could he jump into the sea!There were bursts of blackness in front of my eyes, and I couldn't hear the sound or see the scene.

I felt someone patting me on the shoulder, it was Zheng Shan.I grabbed his arm like crazy and asked him "It's not Zhang Qinghe, it's not him! You tell me, it's not him, right. This kind of thing is often mistaken, and Zhang Qinghe will be back soon. He will come back, He loves me, and he won't leave me."

"An Jiarui, calm down, look at what you look like now!" Zheng Shan has never seen me like this out of control, his voice softened, "Jiarui, that corpse has been confirmed to be Zhang Qinghe, what are you doing Crazy, he's already dead."

"No! No! He promised me, he won't! He won't abandon me!" I grabbed Zheng Shan's hand tightly, tears welling up in my eyes, "Cousin, help me , help me find Zhang Qinghe back. Cousin! Help me!"

"Jia Rui, calm down first. You don't need to worry about Zhang Qinghe's affairs, I will handle it with full power. What you have to do now is to rest with peace of mind!" Zheng Shan helped me to the bed and lay down again. I covered the quilt, and his hand patted my back through the quilt, "Jia Rui, sleep well. When I wake up, this matter will be over, and everything will be with my brother."

It may be that I have been too nervous in the past few days, or it may be that I was too shocked by the news of Zhang Qinghe's accident.Under Zheng Shan's comfort, I slowly fell asleep and fell asleep.

In the dream, I saw Zhang Qinghe again.He was as clean as when we first met him, holding a bouquet of fresh lilies in his hand.The sun shone on his face, making his skin whiter and more translucent, just like the bunch of lilies in his arms.

He smiled at me, his smile was very bright, "An Jiarui." I heard him call my name, and I couldn't wait to go to his side, but no matter how I walked, the distance between me and him could not be shortened.I can only look at him from a distance, but I can't touch him.

"Qinghe, come to my side. Come here, I want to hug you." I called Zhang Qinghe, I wanted him to come to me, I wanted to confirm his existence, I wanted to feel him the warmth.

Zhang Qinghe ignored my request, just held the lily in his arms and smelled it, "Jia Rui, the first gift you gave me was a lily, I remember you once said that lily is very similar to me, the same Flawless."

"I was a little shy when I heard it. I didn't think I was as good as you exaggerated." When Zhang Qinghe said this, the tips of his ears turned red, making him look even cuter.

"I always want to make myself better, and I'm afraid I'm not good enough for you. After all, you are handsome and gentle, and you are good at studying and exercising. You always shine in my eyes. Every time you talk to me, I I feel very lucky and special." Zhang Qinghe looked at me intently, tears filled his eyes, "I think meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life, and I always felt so until the last moment."

Last minute?What last minute?I called Zhang Qinghe's name in a panic, "Qinghe! Qinghe! You come to my side, we will have a long time in the future, and I will accompany you and talk to you every day!"

Zhang Qinghe shook his head, the smile on his face remained the same, it was still so gentle, "I'm starting to feel a little jealous now, I don't know what kind of person will be with you for the rest of my life? He must be very gentle and understanding. Taking care of others, it would be better if he can cook, and the most important thing is that he loves you enough, as much as I love you!" The tears in Zhang Qinghe's eyes finally fell, ran down his cheeks, and landed on On the bouquet of lilies he was holding.

Under the sunlight, Zhang Qinghe's figure gradually became transparent. He put the bouquet on the ground, and stretched out his hands that had almost disappeared to me, "An Jiarui, take me away in the next life. I will wait obediently." Waiting for you, waiting for you to pick me up... An Jiarui, I love you, I will always love you."

I watched Zhang Qinghe disappear before my eyes, leaving only the bouquet of lilies behind.

"Qinghe! Qinghe!" I suddenly sat up from the bed, I was still in the dormitory, Zheng Shan and Lin Yuqi were not there, the sky outside was pitch black, I don't know how long I slept.

I was alone in the dark, thinking of Zhang Qinghe who smiled gently at me in the dream, thinking of his disappearance and thinking of his death.I couldn't control my emotions anymore, and tears welled up in my eyes.Zhang Qinghe in the dream is so warm and beautiful, but in reality he is cold, unable to move or smile.

Zhang Qinghe left, he left.The kiss outside the villa became my farewell to him.I clearly remember the way he looked at me before getting in the car, it was nostalgic and reluctant, because Zhang Qinghe knew that he was leaving me, he was going to take himself away from my life.That's why he said, he loves me, and he will always love me.From now on, his life stays at the best time, and it is also the time when he loves me the most.In his eyes, there is only me from now on.

At some point, the tears had dried up, and my throat was a little itchy. I sat motionless on the bed and held my chest.My heart hurts very much, and whenever I think of Zhang Qinghe, my body will tremble with pain.

The door opened in the empty dormitory, and Zheng Shan walked in, as if he was afraid of disturbing me, he carefully sat down beside my bed without turning on the light, "Jia Rui, the matter is settled. The matter in the villa...has never happened. Zhang Qinghe committed suicide because of too much pressure from studying, and it has nothing to do with us. It’s almost dawn, and you go to have breakfast with your cousin, and go to your favorite Chenji Tea House.”

"It has something to do... It's my fault. If it wasn't for me, Zhang Qinghe wouldn't have gone to the villa! Everything is my fault. Meeting me is Zhang Qinghe's nightmare!" I have an inescapable responsibility, Zhang Qinghe It can be said that Qinghe was killed by me, "I killed him, it was my fault! I agreed to this matter, I gave him to you to bully with my own hands, and he asked me to save him, but I No.....I'm useless...."

"I never thought of taking Zhang Qinghe's life, not to mention that I have promised to set you free after this time! Who would have thought that Zhang Qinghe would actually jump into the sea after being put to sleep a few times!" Zheng Shan took out a napkin , wiping my tears gently, "As far as Zhang Qinghe's physical condition is concerned, if you hadn't protected him, he would have been played to death by others."

Hearing that Zheng Shan was still slandering Zhang Qinghe, I slapped Zheng Shan's hand that wiped my tears away, "If it wasn't for you, no one would know about Zhang Qinghe's body! I, you, Liang Rongchen and Zhou Shiliang are all ruined. The murderer who killed Zhang Qinghe!"

Zheng Shan withdrew the wrist that was hurt by me, and didn't care about me, "Even if we are all murderers, what are you going to do? Deal with me? Or Liang Rongchen and Zhou Shiliang? For a dead person, you have to pay for your future life Is it?"

"Jia Rui, take a good look at everything you have now. The villa, the sports car, the fine clothes and the food, and your parents and relatives are all counting on you to live. You have to be entangled in Zhang Qinghe's matter all the time, exhausting my patience , became nothing, and the whole family went to drink the Northwest Wind together?" Zheng Shan looked at my miserable appearance, and still couldn't bear it, "Jiarui, you know exactly what you need! You know, whether it is I and Liang Rongchen love you very much. As long as you are obedient, you will have everything you want. Stop torturing yourself for the past, making everyone unhappy. Jiarui, you are a smart person, you know what to do. "

Yes, I am smart.Growing up, I knew how to cater to them was to my advantage.Since I was a child, I have been used to being an obedient and well-behaved dog.I hate myself, I hate Zheng Shan and the others, but it's no use.In the end, I didn't even have the courage to take revenge on them, and even after hearing Zheng Shan's persuasion, I didn't even have the thought of revenge.How sad and useless I am.

I can't let go of my current life, and I can't let go of my own future. For these, I don't hesitate to trade Zhang Qinghe's body.If I annoy Zheng Shan now and lose everything, then I have been begging for justice for so many years, even sacrificing Zhang Qinghe, all these are in vain!

Qinghe, I can't lose Zheng Shan's protection, I can't lose my bright future.Qinghe, I'm not as good as you say, I've been a smug, despicable, and extremely selfish bastard from the beginning to the end!You said that you were the greatest luck to meet me, Qinghe...you are the greatest misfortune to meet me.

I lifted the quilt and got up from the bed, went to the bathroom, washed my face with clean water, put on new clothes, and tried to make the expression on my face as natural as possible, "Cousin, didn't you agree to eat Chen Ji's breakfast? I really want to eat siu mai right now."

"Okay, let's go right away!" Zheng Shan turned the car key in his hand, "Brother Zhou gave me a supercar, a limited edition! Take a look at it later, if you like it, I will give it to you."

"Thank you brother." Zheng Shan has always been very generous to me who is obedient and sensible, and even gave away the sports car as soon as he said it.

Zhang Qinghe's death did not bring any change to the people around him. In the beginning, people would lament his untimely death, but now Zhang Qinghe's name is not mentioned anymore.

As usual, Zheng Shan and I walked to the school gate after school.I invited a few friends to go racing tonight to try out the performance of the latest supercar. Zhou Shiliang and Liang Rongchen will also go.

As soon as he walked to the school gate, he saw a woman who kept asking the passing students who was An Jiarui.I know her, I have seen photos in Zhang Qinghe's home, she is Zhang Qinghe's mother.Because the woman has been engaged in physical labor for many years, her back is a bit bent, her hands are rough, and her face is covered with fine lines. Because she has been immersed in the pain of bereavement, her hair shows signs of graying, and she looks extremely old.

I think of my mother, because of her relationship with the Zheng family, she has never touched the spring water with her ten fingers.In addition to shopping every day, I just play cards and show off my luxurious life with those so-called sisters.Asking her to go to Zheng's to do some idle work is too tiring, fishing for three days and drying the net for two days.She is good at maintenance and grooms herself every day. Although she is approaching 40 years old, she looks less than [-] years old.Compared with Zhang Qinghe's mother, there is a world of difference.

Looking at Zhang Qinghe's mother, facing the contemptuous eyes of others, he carefully asked who An Jiarui was.I couldn't bear it all the time, that was Zhang Qinghe's mother, his only relative.

"Cousin, you go first, I'll go over and have a look and then I'll be there." I helped Zheng Shan open the car door and waited for him to get in.Zheng Shan leaned against the car, glanced at Zhang Qinghe's mother, and told me, "It's fine to sympathize with her, and I don't object to giving her money. But you have to remember that there are some things you can't say."

Watching Zheng Shan drive away, I walked towards Zhang Qing and his mother.I walked up to her and said, "Hello, Auntie, I'm An Jiarui."

She saw me talking incoherently with excitement, "An Jiarui...you are An Jiarui, I finally found you. Let me tell you, our family Qinghe died wronged..." Many students were already watching, and I also I don't want to discuss Zhang Qinghe's matter with her in public, "Auntie, don't get excited, let's talk about it in another place."

I drove Zhang Qinghe's mother to Chenji Tea House and went to the private room I often go to. The waiter made me a pot of good tea with ease, put down a few of my favorite pastries, and then left.

The environment here is good and private, which is the best place to talk about things.Zhang Qinghe's mother had never been to this kind of place, she seemed a little cramped and at a loss, "I...that is, I just want to ask you about our family Qinghe."

"Auntie, don't be nervous. You know my name, Qinghe must have told you. Then you should know that Qinghe and I are very good friends. If you have any questions, just ask, and I will tell you everything." He poured a cup of hot tea for Zhang Qinghe's mother, and pushed the snacks in front of her.

Hearing what I said, Zhang Qinghe's mother's expression softened a little, and she took a sip of hot tea from the teacup, "A few days before the accident, our Qinghe happily told me that he knew you and that he would I want to go to the same university with you. In just a few days, he jumped into the sea! Our Qinghe is a good boy, if there is no big accident, he will not abandon me... I will ask School, ask your class teacher, they all said they don’t know, they are just perfunctory me. Now even the school won’t let me in! I went to the police again, they said it was suicide and the case has been closed! I came to you out of necessity , you are Qinghe's good friend, you can't let him die without knowing why!"

Sitting in front of me was Zhang Qinghe's biological mother, who came to me because she had no choice.But she didn't know that her last straw was the culprit who killed his son.

"Please tell me, has Qinghe met anyone recently, or is there anything unusual?" Zhang Qinghe's mother's eyes were red, and her tone was humble, "Our family Qinghe has been very sensible since he was a child, he will not miss Suicide for no reason... I beg you, think about it..."

Seeing Zhang Qinghe's mother begging in a low voice in front of me, I felt uncomfortable, "Auntie, I am a good friend of Qinghe, but I really don't know what happened to him recently. If there is, I won't Said."

Zhang Qinghe's mother didn't seem to believe what I said, she got up and knelt in front of me, "I really have no choice, Qinghe is dead, all my hope is gone... I just want to know now, Why did he abandon me so cruelly?"

How dare I accept her worship, I quickly got up to help him, "Auntie, don't be like this, you get up first. I am a junior, how can you kneel down on me." She avoided my hand to help her, and insisted on kneeling on the ground.

I have no choice, I can only kneel down, "Auntie, I am more sad about Qinghe than anyone else. Qinghe told me about you, how hard you raised him, and how you cook delicious food. I want to eat it some other day. Let me try it too. Auntie, Qinghe is gone, you can't treat yourself like this, Qinghe loves you so much, if he sees you, he will feel sorry for you. It's cold on the ground, how about you get up. "

She heard me mention all kinds of things about Zhang Qinghe, and cried bitterly. I helped her to the chair, who was crying so weakly, "Auntie, be careful that you will break your body from crying."

I waited patiently. After Zhang Qing and his mother calmed down, I took out the bank card I had prepared and put it on the table, "Auntie, Qinghe is gone. I'm afraid no one will take care of you in the future. Just accept it. The money in it is enough for you to live comfortably for the rest of your life."

Zhang Qinghe's mother put the card back in front of me, her voice choked up, "I know you are doing it for my own good, but I can't ask for your money...I just want to know the truth."

Seeing Zhang Qinghe's mother was about to leave, I stepped forward to stop her, and put the card back into her hand, "Auntie, this money is nothing to me, I just want to honor you for Qinghe. You use This money can start life again, and you can also find someone to take care of you. Auntie, please accept it, I will feel better if you accept it. "

"I know you're a good boy. Qinghe was really happy when he mentioned you. I know he really likes you. I appreciate your kindness. I'm the only one left now, and it won't cost much. This You keep the money and give it to your future daughter-in-law.” Zhang Qinghe’s mother looked at me with love and care in her eyes, and she only regarded me as Zhang Qinghe’s best friend and someone she cared about.

I can't afford this feeling, and I can't repay it. She doesn't accept my money, so I can only write her my phone number, "Auntie, you keep this phone number. You can call me at any time and anything. I will do my best to help you."

"Okay." She patted my hand and left without saying anything.

Auntie, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.I wanted to compensate you, but in the end I found that I couldn't give you anything but money.I'm sorry, I just hope you can live well and give me a chance to redeem my sins.

I came to the foot of the mountain as agreed, the sports car parked in a row, and a group of rich second-generation sons leaned on it with their arms around Xiaoqinger.Zheng Shan, Zhou Shiliang and Liang Rongchen were all there.

Liang Rongchen opened his arms towards me the moment he saw me, while I locked Zhang Qinghe in my heart and pretended to forget.Then she was embraced by Liang Rongchen with a smile, and welcomed the luxurious life in the future with peace of mind.