Heinous

For Xue Zhe, this day is destined to be a day he will never forget.

Bu She's words made him stunned for three seconds, and when he came back to his senses, he laughed: "Okay, you are willing to live with me for the rest of your life, and I have no objection."

He yawned, as if he was going to sleep again, but unfortunately, this thought was interrupted by Unforgiveness—he directly pressed Xue Zhe's shoulder, stopping his movement.

"It's not... the kind you said."

If he is silent now, maybe everything can go on as usual, and Xue Zhe will be with him for the rest of his life as he said.

However, it was not the kind of life he wanted...

There was a moment when he hesitated, but the next moment, he still stretched out his hand.

Xue Zhe tried to move his shoulders, but found that there was basically no possibility of breaking free, so he simply did not move.In desperation, he could only look at Unforgiven eyes—the room was dark, but those eyes were frighteningly bright, and there was an inescapable feeling inside.

The two looked at each other for a moment, but Bushe moved his eyes away first.

He stretched out his hand and put it around Xue Zhe's chest.

Unable to see the other party's expression, it seemed that the original hesitation and shrinking dissipated, he closed his eyes, and said word by word in Xue Zhe's ear.

"What I want is not the kind of life you said."

"It's not brother's...for the rest of my life."

"...So, what do you want?"

After a while, Xue Zhe's voice sounded.

Compared with the unavoidable tremors in the unforgivable voice, his voice was very calm.

Calm...somewhat abnormal.

"I don't know what to say, but..."

"I miss you, just mine... just mine."

"I also... will only like you."

The strength in the hand increased gradually, but it was just right, and it was kept at a level that would not make Xue Zhe feel uncomfortable.

After the last words fell, he let out a long breath, only feeling that what had been stuck in his heart all this time had finally dissipated.

He finally spoke up.

What followed was Xue Zhe's response.

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, Xue Zhe finally spoke.

"Yeah...I see."

I couldn't hear the voice that contained any emotion, but it was a bit like an official way to deal with it.

"If you don't mind...can you let me think about it?"

"……Um."

Slowly loosening his hand, Bu Huan took a few steps back.Xue Zhe shook his head, thinking that he could still hold on, he threw off the quilt and jumped down.

He took the coat hanging by the bed and put it on, tied the belt tightly, and smoothed his hair casually. After he felt that he could see someone, he wobbled out the door.

It seems a little bad to leave the kid behind like this, but...

Now, he really doesn't have time to care so much.

The dishes of this inn are quite popular, and it was just at the time of dinner, the lobby was so full that there was almost no space to find.Xue Zhe finally found a table in the corner and sat down.

"Guest officer, what do you want?"

"casual……"

Xiao Er looked at the customer with an ugly face, and suggested: "This shop has the best pear blossom wine, as the saying goes, getting drunk can relieve a thousand worries..."

"Okay, I want... two bottles." Xue Zhe originally planned to refuse, but changed his mind when he heard the second half of the sentence.

He really needs to relieve his worries now... Before he can figure out how to answer.

This pear blossom wine is really good. It has a clear aroma and a mellow taste, but the only pity is that it doesn't seem to be very effective in relieving worries.

I said Xiao Amnesty, do you really know what you mean by those words?

With a wry smile on his face, Xue Zhe drank the wine in his glass.

He really wanted to tell himself that it is easy for children to mistake the difference between family affection and love, and Bu's feelings for him probably didn't reach that level, it was just a misunderstanding...

However, there was another voice in his heart, rebutting him coldly.

Don't be silly, do you really think that by covering your ears and closing your eyes, you can pretend nothing happened?

You know, if he hadn't thought about it hundreds of times beforehand, he would have said it so rashly?

The hand holding the cup gradually strengthened, and the fine porcelain cup was obviously overwhelmed, and a few cracks appeared faintly.

Xue Zhe didn't notice it suddenly, his eyes were a little vacant looking forward, and his brows were furrowed.

It's easy to say no.

He doesn't force himself, never will.

As long as I say a word, everything can be erased, and they will return to the past when they were still "brothers".

Maybe it will be more awkward, but time is powerful, it can always find a way to smooth everything...

as long as he wants.

Xue Zhe's eyes wandered aimlessly, and gradually fell on the wine bottle on the table.

The wine bottle is made of white porcelain, delicate and smooth, and on the round surface, Xue Zhe saw his distorted face.

Suddenly, that face seemed to look at Xue Zhe and smiled.

"!" After a moment of astonishment, Xue Zhe's face slowly darkened.

His reflection is smiling at him, opening and closing its mouth.

(how, do you regret it?)

"Xue, Chang, Le..." Xue Zhe gritted his teeth, "How dare you come out to me..."

(I said it earlier, you'll regret it.)

"I'm so sorry! I was confessed, not failed!"

(Then, what do you think?)

Xue Zhe didn't speak.

His eyes were tightly locked on Xue Changle, his knuckles turned white, and even his veins burst out.

(Don't tell me that you don't know, you self-righteous smart grandson.)

When Xue Zhe didn't want to know, he never knew.

Yet, in a locked corner deep inside, lies his true thoughts.

That may be... the truth that will never be exposed in a lifetime.

With two soft clicks, Xue Zhe finally vented his dissatisfaction with the ravaged cup in Xue Zhe's hands.The broken tiles pierced into the palm of the hand, revealing some dazzling red.The wine was spilled on it, and it hurt.

Xue Zhe hissed softly, came back to his senses, and quickly shook his hand—fortunately, the wine was spilled on it, so there was probably no risk of infection.

When the eyes moved to the bottle body again, the reflection on it was already a normal reflection.

Xue Zhe was slightly taken aback.

Was that just a hallucination, or...

"……Oh shit."

Taking a deep breath, Xue Zhe uttered a rare swear word.

He slowly lay down on the table, with his face pressed tightly against his arms, as if he was drunk.

It's just that those eyes are as clear as before, reflecting the candlelight, and flickering with incomprehensible thoughts.

Compared to the noisy lights downstairs, there was only darkness in the room upstairs.

Bu She sat quietly by the window, watching the moonlight shine into the room, but it was blocked by him a lot, leaving only a clear-cut shadow.

He was waiting—waiting for someone to come back, waiting for him to give himself an answer.

I felt a little stuck in my heart, but unexpectedly, I didn't feel very uncomfortable.

At least he said what he wanted to say, and no matter what the final result was, he would face it calmly.

Just looking at Xue Zhe's reaction...

...Anyway, the worst result is just... some awkward friends.

Thinking of this, Bushe couldn't help but secretly rejoice.

so far so good.

He and Xue Zhe are not from the same world, if it really got to the point of irreversibility, it would be a big deal for Xue Zhe to go back.

As long as they don't see each other, those embarrassments will always be slowly blown away by time.

He already has enough past for him to slowly recall, even if he can only live alone in the future, it's no big deal.

It's just... I hope this embarrassing memory won't bother him for too long.

Suddenly there was a bang, and the door was pushed open.

Bu Cang, who was deep in thought, couldn't help being slightly taken aback, he raised his head, staring blankly at the person who pushed the door in.

"Azhe..."

Called out subconsciously, Bushe wanted to step forward, but stopped in his tracks.

Xue Zhe smelled faintly of alcohol, and he was carrying a bottle and even two cups in his hand...

This posture made Bu She feel confused, and also a little afraid to go forward.

"Sit." Xue Zhe pointed to the table over there, and said calmly.

He walked over immediately, sat down, put the wine bottle and glass on the table, and set them up.

Bushe hesitated for a while, then walked over and sat down.

"Azhe...?"

No matter what kind of answer you want to give, you don't have to... Is that right?

"I have something to say to you." Xue Zhe filled both wine glasses, then gave Bu She a glass, and put another glass in front of him.

"……it is good."

"You said you liked me?" Xue Zhe raised his eyes and looked straight at Bu'ai, "Now there is still a chance to regret it."

Bushe was silent for a while, then nodded.

He wouldn't take that back, absolutely not.

"You know, liking a man is a very troublesome thing." Xue Zhe picked up the wine glass, but didn't drink it, just held it in his hand and played slowly.

"trouble?"

"It's not a woman, so you'd better not expect the three obediences and four virtues, or anything higher."

"I don't want that." Bushe shook his head.

"Compared to the latter, this is not a big problem," Xue Zhe glanced at Unforgiven, his eyes were indifferent, but with a bit of helplessness, "Only women can have children, and if they like men, they will be able to do so in the future." It’s the end.”

"It doesn't matter."

"If you don't care, can I not care?" Xue Zhe put down his glass and cast an unforgiving glance.

His words successfully made Unforgive dumb. Indeed, compared to being alone and only responsible for himself, Xue Zhe also faced problems from his parents.

Seeing his silence, Xue Zhe smiled lightly: "Why, did you hesitate?"

"..."

"If you have the courage to say it, you must have the courage to face it. Since you want to kill people, then show some courage." Xue Zhe smiled with the corners of his mouth raised.

Bushe heard something unusual from these words, he frowned slightly, and looked at Xue Zhe with disbelief but expectation.

Shouldn't...

"But this is a matter of the future. There are still a lot of troubles besides this, such as what outsiders will think, and the certificate cannot be obtained... There are so many troubles."

After draining the wine in the glass, Xue Zhe took a deep breath, raised his head, and met Unforgive's eyes.

"But it's okay at last. Although there are so many troubles, the two most critical conditions are not a problem."

"The most critical condition?"

His brain seemed to have been filled with paste, or, he couldn't believe it, his own guess.

"I like you too... In this way, there will be no problem."