think love

Lu Peng couldn't remember how he got home.

The anti-theft door was closed heavily behind him, and when the switch beside the door was pressed, the lights in the entrance hall and the living room turned on, making the whole room bright.

At the beginning, the designer may have chosen a soft yellow light on the lamp in order to ease the overall black and white design in this apartment, but the breath inhaled through the nose is still cold.

He turned on the air conditioner, made himself a cup of hot coffee, and sat down on the sofa in the living room without taking off his coat.

Lu Pengcheng took the remote control of the TV, and turned the channel carelessly. In fact, the apartment has been renovated until now, and the TV is basically just a decoration.

After walking around for a long time, Lu Pengcheng still turned off the TV and threw the remote control aside, so the space where there was finally a little sound immediately became quiet again.

Why didn't I feel so quiet before?

Lu Pengcheng laid his head back on the back of the sofa, and his eyes fell on the wall behind him.

Due to the light, the originally white and somewhat dazzling walls showed a cream-like color at the moment. At that time, he pursued a minimalist design style, so the designer simply emptied the walls around the living room, and only used shapes with A wall lamp with a sense of design to reconcile.

Later, when he lived with his girlfriend, the other party tried to persuade him several times to decorate it with a photo wall, but he refused. In Lu Pengcheng's view, once the photo wall is agreed, it basically becomes the other party's The photo display wall, imagine, standing in the living room every day, being looked at by sights in various states and directions is really scary enough.

But at this moment, Lu Pengcheng felt that there was no decoration on the wall, and it was indeed a bit weird to be empty.

He stood up, turned around, slightly raised his head to look at the wall in front of him, he still hasn't forgotten the painting Fang Bining saw that day on it.

The large piece of gold, like a wheat field in the sunset, and like a sunflower following the warmth, brought him not only the shock in the auditorium, but also the shock in his heart, but the shock was too strong. In a state of exhaustion, he couldn't accept it for a while, and subconsciously resisted the feeling of being forcibly occupied by other people's consciousness in his body and even his mind.

But in fact, that picture is really good. He has seen many designers use other tones to neutralize black and white when designing acoustics, and use gray or brown conservatively. It is also possible to emphasize a certain atmosphere. I have used dark blue like the sea before, but this is the first time I have seen someone squander gold so chicly.Lu Pengcheng knew how difficult it was to control this color.

I once made a sample for a makeup brand, and the other party pointed out that gold should be the main color. It seemed very simple, but the color adjusted by the designers was not satisfactory to the other party. After adjusting more than a dozen kinds of gold and adding various auxiliary effects Only barely meet the requirements of the other party.

But Fang Bining seems to be so free-wheeling, creating that kind of atmosphere that makes people feel as if they are surrounded by sunlight at a glance.

Lu Pengcheng stretched out his hand to caress the wall, feeling the warmth under the white layer.

Designers will not easily destroy their own works, but Fang Bining repainted the wall white in the few days he left.

Lu Pengcheng imagined that scene for a while, a young man with a little pride in his own creation, using a scrub brush to cover up his hard work little by little, every time he smeared, the sunlight created by him would be reduced by one point...

In the end, everything returned to the way it was before, and it was once again a cold space without any temperature.

Lu Pengcheng felt a little pain in his heart, he retracted the hand that was touching the wall, and touched the position of his heart.

At that time, was I really so resistant to my world being completely changed?

Ever since I watched the wedding ceremony at the church that day, in the next few days, when Lu Pengcheng went back, he would always take a detour, drive the car there, pull over, and then stand there and smoke a cigarette. a cigarette.

The silence around the church was a kind of pious rest. Under the night, the solemn and solemn atmosphere calmed down his irritation and allowed him to think about some things calmly.

Secondly, Lu Pengcheng was still delusional. Maybe he could see Fang Bining here. He felt that his intuition could not fool him. The feeling that day belonged to Fang Bining alone. Only Fang Bining could create such an appeal.

Lu Pengcheng finished smoking the cigarette in his hand, took the plan on the passenger seat, and looked at it with the lights in the car.

This is a proposal to participate in the CompctitivePrescntation two weeks later. Compared with the calmness at that time last year, this year's proposal has been revised many times, but it is still not very satisfactory.

Lu Pengcheng turned a page and saw the website revision suggestions listed above. He couldn't help but secretly sighed that time really passed quickly. He and Fang Bining knew each other because of Lulemall. The starting point that does not overlap is the same as this case. No matter how successful it was in the past, it has to start from scratch, make a proposal, and compare drafts. I just don't know what the result will be this time.

Looking at the time displayed on the car, Lu Pengcheng put down the half-read plan and started the car to go back.

Not long after the car drove, Lu Pengcheng saw two people coming out of a commercial building. After saying hello, the two separated and walked in two directions.

Looking at the familiar figure walking in front, Lu Pengcheng involuntarily let go of the accelerator, and followed behind at a very slow speed.

The young man was wearing a gray double-breasted coat, the lower pleats of which revealed a part of the black sweater inside, a camel-colored scarf around his neck, and a shoulder bag slung across his back, walking slowly along the sidewalk.

Lu Pengcheng felt that all kinds of emotions surged up in his heart. He had been going to the church before, thinking that he might be able to see Fang Bining, but now that he actually saw him, he didn't know what he should do.

The road ahead indicated a one-way lane, so Lu Pengcheng pulled over and stopped the car, got out of the car, and continued to follow Fang Bining not too far away.

Fang Bining walked through a relatively lively commercial street. From time to time, he stopped in front of the window set up by others and took a closer look. When he saw something particularly thoughtful, he took out his mobile phone to take pictures. Buy a little and eat while walking.

It looks very casual, but Lu Pengcheng always feels that he is surrounded by a sense of loneliness that cannot be integrated with the surroundings. He has often felt this feeling in Fang Bining before, but now it is particularly obvious.

He is obviously a person with a good appearance that easily attracts other people's attention. Many young girls who pass by him can't help but look back, but everything around him seems to have nothing to do with him. He is alone along the sidewalk. People are walking forward, but it looks like they are alone and lost their way.

Lu Pengcheng suddenly remembered the lyrics that Fang Bining wrote in his Space, and remembered the other lyrics of that song.

"I eat and travel alone, stop and go everywhere, read books and write letters alone, and talk to each other by myself"

Thinking about it now, in fact Fang Bining has always been lonely.

Because he is a person in that circle, once people know his sexual orientation, he will be looked at differently, and he may be alienated... So he has been working hard, originally it was only because he was responsible for his own works, but later It was only then that he gradually began to understand that Fang Bining was just trying to make himself worthy of existence, maybe only in that way, he would not feel lonely.

When Lu Pengcheng came back to his senses, he suddenly found that Fang Bining, who was walking in front, had disappeared.Lu Pengcheng couldn't help feeling a little anxious, standing on the overpass, looking around for him.

It was nearly ten o'clock in the evening, there were few pedestrians on the road, and the shops on the commercial street were basically closed. The gorgeous neon lights were extinguished one by one, and the bustle and hustle and bustle faded away, with a feeling of losing its splendor.

Lu Pengcheng got off the overpass and was still trying to find Fang Bining. Just when he was about to give up, a familiar voice sounded behind him.

"Pancho?"

Lu Pengcheng turned around, and then looked at the person standing in front of him, feeling a little dazed and unreal.

Fang Bining was holding a steaming rice ball with a bite in his hand, looking at him with surprise and doubt.

For some reason, the scene at this time overlapped with the scene in Lu Pengcheng's mind when they first met - the young man was sitting casually on the sofa in the lobby of Lulemall with a can of coffee in his hand. Very delicate facial features, with soft outlines and lines. When he felt someone coming, he looked up slightly at himself in front of him, his eyes were a little lazy, his long and messy forehead hair was scattered in front of his eyes, and then he smiled.

Lu Pengcheng just stood there, staring blankly at the person in front of him, only the "thumping" in his chest, his heart beating faster.

Really didn't know what to say, the two looked at each other silently, stood for a long time, a little silly.So Lu Pengcheng spoke first, saying that he would drive him back.

Fang Bining did not refuse, and reported an address after getting in the car. Lu Pengcheng had a little impression of the name of the road, but it was not far away, and he could walk there. ,

The dual-purpose talent remained silent along the way, and Lu Pengcheng looked towards Fang Bining from the rearview mirror from time to time, but Fang Bining kept his head turned out of the car window, and the light from the street lamps hit his face round after round, It was bright and dark, so Lu Pengcheng had a feeling of reality and illusion intertwined.

The car stopped at the gate of an older community, Fang Bining didn't get out of the car right away, as if he was thinking about something, it took a while before he came back to his senses.

He turned his head and smiled politely, and then thanked him politely, but he seemed very unfamiliar, but when his eyes fell on the air purifier in front of the car, he couldn't help but froze for a moment.

Lu Pengcheng followed his line of sight and understood why he was surprised. There was the little apple he pinched next to the car-mounted air cleaner.

Fang Bining reached out to take the apple, held it in his hand to look at it, and murmured, "I thought you lost this kind of thing a long time ago..."

"It's just that I didn't know where to put it at first, but I found it later." Lu Pengcheng replied.

Fang Bining raised his head, the car was very dark, and he couldn't see his expression clearly. Lu Pengcheng only saw him handing over his hand, and subconsciously reached out. Through indirect contact, he heard Fang Bining speak.

"But some things, once lost, can never be found again." After Fang Bining finished speaking, he was about to open the door.

Lu Pengcheng didn't want him to leave like this, so he grabbed his arm, Fang Bining turned around and looked at him with some puzzlement.

So the atmosphere became a little awkward, Lu Pengcheng let go of his hand apologetically, and when the car door "clicked" and was opened by Fang Bining, he suddenly asked: "Are you... okay now?"

A car happened to come from the opposite side, and the lights illuminated half of Fang Bining's face. Lu Pengcheng saw the indifferent expression on his face. After hearing what he said, the corners of his mouth rose slightly, and his smile was astringent. , "Very good..." Just three words, nothing else.

Lu Pengcheng just kept looking at him without saying anything. Before the car door was closed, Fang Bining lowered his waist, "We will see you again soon." After speaking, he walked towards the gate of the community alone.

Lu Pengcheng sat in the car and looked at Fang Bining's back through the window glass, until he could no longer see him, then released the brake and slid the car out.

Fang Bining said we would see each other again, but Lu Pengcheng was not stupid enough to interpret this sentence as a simple meeting, and within a few days, he understood what Fang Bining meant by goodbye.

When we met again, it was at the Competitive Presentation of an internationally renowned makeup brand company. When Fang Bining and his director appeared in the meeting room together, both Yolanda and Tony couldn't help showing surprised expressions.

Andy sat next to Lu Pengcheng and gently tugged on Lu Pengcheng's sleeve, "Hey, isn't that your former creative director?"

Lu Pengcheng ignored him, and only stared at Fang Bining firmly. He remembered that the company Fang Bining was working for was the one that the workers gave him the name of the company at the church that day, but he didn't let go of it at the time. In my heart, if there was an investigation later that day, I would probably avoid this one. Anyway, this competition is not too important.

It is not the first time that I met the former creative director at the same Competitive Presentation. After Herry left, this kind of thing happened. We were in the same circle, and we couldn’t see each other when we looked up. Peng Cheng didn't want to be like Fang Bining.

In the final analysis, Fang Bining switched from the Internet to shopping malls because of himself.

It was he who discovered Fang Bining's talent, and then gave him the opportunity to shine even brighter.

But now it feels like someone has slapped someone in the face, and the nightmare-like assumption before has become a reality—Fang Bining sits in front of a bunch of people he doesn't know, explaining creative ideas with ease, and all of this has nothing to do with Guangyan and his way. Pengcheng has nothing to do with it.

During the whole Competitive Presentation, Lu Pengcheng didn't have the heart to understand other companies' proposals, so he clenched his fists, sat upright, and looked at Fang Bining consciously or unconsciously, watching him and his director get together and whisper When discussing something, he felt as if a fire was burning in his chest.

Fang Bining's company was the last to explain. When it was their turn, Lu Pengcheng saw Fang Bining's director lightly pat him on the shoulder, probably to cheer him up. The company should have just been established or not. How long, so such a project is extremely important to them.

Fang Bining walked to the projection screen and explained their proposal and design ideas in an orderly manner, which was familiar to Lu Pengcheng. Fang Bining's design was not very special, but the idea of ​​details was a highlight.

Just when Lu Pengcheng moved his eyes from the projection screen back to Fang Bining, Fang Bining had just finished speaking, and then he found that Fang Bining was also looking at him, but the look in his eyes made Lu Pengcheng momentarily Dazed.

It was not the conceit he had shown about his designs before, but a slightly sad look, as if he had been abandoned by someone.

Noticing that he was also looking at him, Fang Bining withdrew his gaze and walked back to his seat to sit down. Although he kept smiling slightly while listening to his director, the loneliness that lingered around him Lingering.

After the Competitive Presentation ended, Lu Pengcheng stopped Fang Bining at the elevator on the pretext of going to smoke.

"Your proposal is very good, but it may be difficult to match the taste of such an international brand."

As soon as Lu Pengcheng finished speaking, he felt a little regretful. He didn't come out to talk to Fang Bining, but the look he was looking at Fang Bining just now, he forgot what he originally wanted to say.

Regarding his sharp point, Fang Bining just smiled.

"It doesn't matter, experience is accumulated."

There was a "ding" in the elevator, the door opened, Fang Bining walked in, and pressed the floor number.

Lu Pengcheng watched as the elevator door was slowly closing, and felt that the fire that had burned in his chest in the meeting room just now was about to extinguish and burned again.

He strode forward and blocked the elevator door with his hands. Fang Bining inside raised his head with doubts on his face.

"Fang Bining, don't forget, before you met me, you knew nothing about shopping malls!"

Fang Bining's eyes suddenly widened, and then lowered his eyelashes.

"Some things are lost...and you can never get them back."

The same words as that night made Lu Pengcheng calm down a bit. He stepped back and took back the hand holding the elevator door, so the line of sight with Fang Bining was ruthlessly cut off.

The numbers displayed in the elevator went down one by one. Lu Pengcheng stood there, recalling Fang Bining's words, he remembered what Shang Jie had said to him, and the lyrics of that song...

"You lost our miracle..."

"ain't no sunshine when she's gone (after she left, my world has no sunshine)"

"Some things are lost...and you can never get them back."

On the way back, Andy took Tony's car, and Lu Pengcheng acted as the driver again to take Yolanda to meet her boyfriend.

Yolanda has always believed that the passenger seat is a dangerous seat, and never believed that some people preached that it was reserved for important people, so she never sat in the passenger seat, but today she sat next to Lu Pengcheng for the first time, giving way Pengcheng looked at her for a long time in disbelief.

"Yolanda, didn't you have a fever today or did you eat something that ruined your brain?"

If it was normal, if Lu Pengcheng said something like this, Yolanda would definitely refute and ridicule her back, but Yolanda just fixed up her makeup in the mirror without saying anything, which made Lu Pengcheng even more suspicious of the person next to her, probably a counterfeit...

After the car drove for a certain distance, Yolanda made a sound, but compared to her usual delicate voice, her voice was much more serious.

"Pancho, do you like banning?"

Lu Pengcheng was startled and almost stepped on the gas pedal as the brake. After finally calming down, he thought about how to answer her, but Lu Pengcheng knew very well that Yolanda looked like a beautiful woman with big breasts and no brains. , but it's not like that, she just wants to give people such an impression, so Lu Pengcheng didn't argue.

"How did you know?"

Yolanda closed the makeup mirror with a "click" and raised her beautiful eyes, "Because of your eyes."

"Since when did you find out?"

"Probably after you asked Banning to be the creative director."

This answer made Lu Pengcheng a little surprised. At that time, he himself hadn't realized his feelings for Fang Bining.

"Yolanda, don't you think it's disgusting? Men like men..." After speaking, he saw Yolanda glared at him in the rearview mirror.

Yolanda looked back at her vanity mirror.

"Pancho, do you really want us to say with contemptuous expressions, 'Oh, gay, it's disgusting!', 'Oh, I can't stay in this kind of company anymore?'"

Lu Peng frowned, "We, us?"

Yolanda nodded vigorously, "Ye-we... me and Tony."

Now Lu Pengcheng had nothing to say, and he recognized it when Yolanda saw it, but he didn't expect to be spotted by Tony.

Probably seeing Lu Pengcheng's depression, Yolanda glanced at him.

"Pancho, so Tony and I can sort of guess what happened between you and Banning."

"Yolanda, you're wrong, I've always been straight, but..."

"I just fell in love with a man?" Yolanda interrupted him, and said: "Pancho, you are so dishonest, and then you are always restricted by rules and regulations, and you are very rigid, stubborn, and uninteresting..."

"Hey, I'm not as bad as you say, am I?"

Yolanda put the vanity mirror in place, then turned to look at Lu Pengcheng.

"Pancho, you have to remember that sometimes your personality is very easy to hurt others, especially a sensitive person like Banning. Alright, here I am."

squeak!There was a long, piercing sound from the friction of the tires against the ground.Lu Pengcheng thought that if he drove Yolanda a few more times, his driver's license would be revoked.

Seeing that Yolanda was about to get out of the car, he said, "Yolanda, no one told you that if you talk to your boss like this, you risk getting fired?"

Yolanda looked back, pointing her finger at her lips and winking.

"Of course I know, but I know you won't fire me, because I'm still very useful to you. Bye..."

She took two steps on her slender heels, then stopped and turned her head.

"But... Pancho, you have to know that some people are for love, not for being used as tools."

Lu Pengcheng raised his eyebrows, turned around and concentrated on driving.

The two leaves on the car air purifier were swinging up and down regularly. He glanced at the small apple pinched by Fang Bining placed beside the air purifier, and secretly chewed what Yolanda said.