to his love

The first dinner party I received after returning to China was at an underground bar.The capital is changing with each passing day, and in just a few years, the boys here have become unbelievably enthusiastic.One, whose age I don't know, kept trying to get his ass up my lap.I was very surprised by his behavior, because he was not as beautiful as I was - I found it all very unreasonable, and after getting drunk, I stumbled out of the bar by myself.

It feels so good to breathe in the fresh air.The street was full of men and women, so I called a car and asked the driver to take me back to the hotel.

I couldn't sleep that night, and it was two o'clock in the morning when I opened my eyes again.The lobby is quite lively.I sat at the bar for a while and ordered a lot of glasses of Xueluo Rose.I have always liked the wine they made, which is not very high.With such a strong name, it is just a glass of pale golden liquid.

I blew away the petals floating on the wine, and for some reason I suddenly thought of first love.Before my boyfriend confessed to me, he rejected another girl's love. He gave her three roses, but he folded two petals for me.

I remember my disbelief, and his smile with a slightly smug look on his face.

I seldom get drunk, and I seldom down the glass like today.I don't know what's wrong with me.I have gradually lost my emotional sensitivity as an adult, but there was something very strong about me tonight.

And I choose to be indifferent.

There is a vague guess in my heart.But I sat at the bar for an hour and nothing happened.The hotel staff was kind enough to send me back to my room.I walked to the semi-open balcony, planning to roll back to sleep after blowing the night breeze.

My eyesight is very good, not to mention that the capital is still brightly lit at night.So I noticed a group of strange people far away. Their faces were calm and their actions were crisp and clean. Compared with the drunkards on the street, they stood out from the crowd.

I have long since lost my curiosity for the unknown, but a habit I have maintained over the years is a silent attention to the unusual.I watched them for a long time, and I felt that they were looking for someone.There was a short-haired girl in the group that looked familiar to me, but after thinking about it for a long time, I didn't know if I had seen it somewhere.

After blowing on the balcony for a long time, I finally felt a little drowsy.I turned and went back to the room, and locked the balcony door behind my back.

But there is an unexpected guest.

I don't even know how he got in.In retrospect, when I was drunk and blowing the wind, there seemed to be a black shadow passing over my head.But I thought it was a bird.

Because I live on the seventh floor.

The figure curled up in the corner, his face blurred by the dim light.I held a bold guess in my heart-the unrealistic fantasy I have often had over the years.Before that, I had fantasized about him many times, many times, and many places. I fantasized about his reappearance-I didn't know if it was a kind of mysterious premonition or empathy, or the vain hope of a helpless person.

"Who are you?" I asked, "What are you doing here?"

I put my hands in my pockets.As long as he has a little abnormality, I can immediately press the phone to call the police.

He didn't move, and after a long time, I heard a hoarse voice.

"I'll get that document." He said, "The document for that person."

I was surprised by his frankness.

"What if I don't give it to you?" I asked, not sure.If he wanted to rob me or even kill me on the spot, there was nothing I could do.

I didn't expect people in China to do things so directly and neatly.

He seemed to chuckle slightly, "They said, if you don't give it to me, they will eat you."

My blood runs cold.

"But I don't want to now."

He stood up slowly.It's just a normal adult man's height, but when he approaches you, he will feel oppressive for no reason.The warning of the food chain echoed in my mind, and my body couldn't move because of the inexplicable fear.

It only takes a moment to see his face clearly.

Yes, you guessed it right.Even I can't believe it, even I can't believe the fact that I've longed for it for years.Yes, that's him.If he hadn't come back, if I hadn't started to forget, I wouldn't be typing these words today.

"...Ren... Chaozhi?"

I heard myself murmuring softly.

He was a little taller again, and his skin was not as healthy and white as he was when he was a teenager, but a lifeless pale, which made him look like a character who emerged from an ink painting.I noticed the hard-to-hidden maturity between his brows and eyes, those eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist, beautiful but without emotion.

"Chaozhi... Ren Chaozhi!"

He frowned.

He choked me. "Where? Something."

I don't want to bother with that junk file at all, but it's obviously the only thing that can get Ren Chaozhi's attention.I don't know what happened to him, he didn't recognize me.

But as long as you can come back.Thank goodness for my courtship.

"I have a non-disclosure agreement and I can't reveal it to you," I said, with some difficulty, "but if you'd like to change your identity, maybe I can let you take a look at it..."

Ren Chaozhi showed a very interested expression, "For example?"

There is also a glass of Blood Rose by the bedside.The liquor swayed with an intoxicating golden color.I tipped it over and the rose petals flowed down the wine on the cabinet.

I twisted a few slices, "Be my boyfriend?"

I seemed to smile, and stuffed the rose into his hand, "Here, a token of love."

His expression seemed to pause.

What happened later happened naturally, and it was a bit embarrassing to say it.I will kiss Ren Chaozhi first.His lips were also as cold as if they had been frozen in a cabinet. I don't know what he has experienced in the past few years.I just feel sorry for my Chaozhi.

The next day I slept until nearly eleven o'clock.My working hours in China are very flexible.Ren Chaozhi woke up at about eight o'clock and struggled hesitantly.I couldn't bear to let him go, hugged him tightly, and buried my head on his shoulder.

He just let me hug me.I think I must be pretending that there are no waves on the surface, but really, my heart is full of emotions that are about to overflow.

I don't even bother to think about what kind of trouble such a bizarre development will bring us.

"Morning." His voice sounded a little stiff.

I smiled at him, leaned over and kissed my beloved's brow and eyes, "Morning. Nice to meet you."

Ren Chaozhi raised his eyebrows.

"The look in your eyes..." He paused and teased, "It's so strange. It's like I am your lover."

"You are." I said, "Chaozhi, you are the one my heart yearns for."

I didn't expect him to suddenly lose face.

"Who are you calling?"

Looks like things are still a little tricky.

I rubbed his hair reassuringly and got up to wash.Ren Chaozhi sat on the bed and looked at me with his head tilted. I noticed that he didn't want to be exposed to the sun.

"Come tonight?" I asked. "I can hold the door for you."

"Have you misunderstood something?" He clasped his hands, looking a little in need of a beating, "I'm here to eat you, not to warm your bed."

"I'm going back. I'm leaving in three days." I asked. "Are you coming with me?"

He sneered, "You may not have that fate."

Three days later, I took Ren Chaozhi's hand through the airport security check.The boyfriend is wearing big sunglasses, so handsome that people can't close their legs.

I used some tricks to bring him back to Country K.

Ren Chaozhi prepared breakfast for me in the kitchen.He always thought that I was just an unlucky and innocent passerby who got involved. In fact, he didn't know how much effort I had put in to get to this position that could attract their attention.

I used many shady tricks to find out the secrets hidden by Qi Yueyang and the family behind him.I caught only a few clues, but enough to give me a sense of how powerful and dangerous what they were protecting was.

I can only get them to notice me by trying to climb to a similar height as them.Only when my existence starts to pose a threat to those people, they will send out the most secret weapon to get rid of me.

The most surprising thing is that it happened to be my court.

Novels and movies are deceiving.It was obvious that Ren Chaozhi had been manipulated by those people.His love for me didn't make him remember me. I think the biggest effect of our love is just to make him feel that I am better than others.

He asks me every day, who is Ren Chaozhi?Who is that to you?

He always didn't believe that Xin Chaozhi was himself.I showed him a lot of photos, and he frowned, picking on the young man's brows and eyes.

His condition is not very stable.After many twists and turns, I finally got in touch with Lin Yilan.

She restored a little truth for me.

"The earthquake came so suddenly that even I wasn't prepared for it," she said. "I couldn't protect everyone. I passed you when I ran towards Yueyang, and Ren Chaozhi was already wounded. I only had time to wipe my blood away." Up there, I can only make sure he doesn't die from those wounds."

Sorry, I can't really say what she is.But I want to write here, you already have an answer in your heart.

"Ren Chaozhi's parents sent him there. It took four years of experiments for him to wake up. I have no right to interfere in the aftermath. But, Jing Zhi, I can see you are together again, I just want to give you my bless."

She mentioned one little thing at the end. An accident in an experiment 20 years ago caused a virus to infect a group of important researchers.Most of them died painfully.Every country has arranged huge compensation funds.

Lin Yilan said she accidentally saw one.The man on the information card smiled softly, and the immediate family members and beneficiaries had my name on them.

I often think that if I hadn't gotten to where I am today, I would have never been able to touch this fact in my life.

Now I am lying in the inn in the snowy field, and the fire illuminates my face and his face indistinctly.Ren Chaozhi sat next to me and flipped through a diary. Sometimes he frowned, and sometimes he showed a slightly smug expression.

This is a wild story.Yes, it's absurd, bizarre, twisty and hallucinatory.I swear I mean it when I write this, but whether they will manifest in your eyes as a distant dream, I don't think anyone can tell.

But no matter what, this hasty confession finally had a happy ending.Maybe our youth has different trajectories, but at least, if we learn to cherish this point, we can also walk on the road of truth and eternity.

I thought for a long time how it would end.This epilogue is no longer important to us, but we want to leave a perfect mark on your hearts.

I finally decided to write this sentence.

This is the last sentence - my name is Su Jingzhi.

He is Ren Chaozhi.