looking back inadvertently

He ate so much meat outside in the wind the day before, and it was very spicy, Liang He always felt sick to his stomach the next day.

The class was heated, but Luo Mingyu was afraid that the room temperature would be too high and the students would lose energy in class, so she asked to open the windows early in the morning. If the classroom door was opened again, the draft would blow and they would not feel warm at all.

During the class break, Liang He lay on the table with his head tilted, the cold wind gusts under his feet, and the tightness in his stomach fluctuated accordingly.

"What's wrong with you?" Shen Zhe found that the expression on the tablemate's face was unnatural.

"A little stomachache."

"Did you eat too much yesterday?"

"Maybe." Liang He closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, Shen Zhe was no longer there.

He was so ruthless, he ran away after asking a question, he muttered in his heart.However, within a minute, Shen Zhe came back, still holding the cup in his hand.

"Drink some hot water." The glass of water was steaming white, and it was very hot at first glance. "It's hot, be careful, but it will work if you drink it hot."

It turned out that he just went to the back to pour water, and Liang He took it from him: "Why didn't you use my cup to fill it?"

"You still hate using mine?" Shen Zhe frowned, "It's fine if you can find yours."

Liang He's schoolbag was empty on both sides, and he forgot to bring a water bottle today.

"I didn't bring it..." He was embarrassed for a moment, "I don't mind, just ask casually, thank you." To confirm what he said, he gently blew into the mouth of the cup and slowly put it into his mouth.

"By the way," Shen Zhe took out two coins from his wallet and put them in front of Liang He, "The money for buying drinks yesterday."

"What drink?"

"Before I bought food, I bought a bottle of drink at your convenience store. Your grandma recognized me and refused to take money."

Yesterday afternoon, Qin Ying went home, because Liang He was not at home for dinner, she stayed in the shop all the time.

"If she doesn't accept it, don't give it to me." Liang He said with a smile.Qin Ying's personality is like this, Liang He's familiar classmates, as long as she recognizes them, often go to the store to buy small things without charging money.

"How can there be such a thing?" Shen Zhe was speechless, "Then how dare I buy things at your house?"

Liang He then accepted the coin and put it in his pocket.

"Your grandma... often doesn't accept money from acquaintances?" Shen Zhe asked again.

"It's just my classmate," Liang He told him, "She thinks students don't have much pocket money."

Qin Ying opened the shop mainly to kill boredom, and fell in love with it after doing it, not because of how much money she made. She has a pension, and Liang Zheng and Liang He's aunts don't treat her badly, so she doesn't have to worry about making a living.

"She's quite a nice person," Shen Zhe still looked like she didn't know what to do, "Then your classmate really won't give it?"

"Some keep the money quietly, some..." Liang He smiled, "Give it to me just like you."

"That's what you earn."

"Shen Zhe," Xu Wenshan turned around and said to their table, "Do you want to go to the cafeteria at noon?"

"Go, we'll be together later."

It doesn't look like there is a conflict between the two of them, but Liang He is a little curious when he thinks of Shen Zhe who left school alone last night.

"What's the matter?" Shen Zhe quickly noticed Liang He's gaze.

"It's okay, I was just thinking...why didn't you have dinner together yesterday?"

"Yesterday?" Shen Zhe was stunned for a moment, "Last night?"

"Well, didn't you buy egg-filled pancakes outside?"

"Oh, because I wanted to eat that, but Wen Shan didn't want to eat it, so we separated." Shen Zhe said not too concerned.

"that's it?"

"That's right," Shen Zhe blushed, "We don't want to be together all the time, do we?"

I thought you guys were so sticky, Liang He thought, lowering his head and continuing to drink water.

The thermal insulation of the thermos cup is good. It feels cold outside, but the water is very hot. After a few minutes, I still can't drink it in one go, but my stomach is indeed not so uncomfortable.

Liang He didn't bring extra-curricular books to school these two days.During the afternoon break, he asked Shen Zhe to borrow a book to read, which happened to be "My Spiritual Homeland" that he had seen in the drawer before.Randomly flipped through two pages, one of which was about homosexuality.

Liang He is not gay, because he doesn't belong to this group, and he doesn't know anything about it. At first glance at such an article, he felt a little curious, so he read it seriously.

"Some people have a fixed homosexual orientation... and those who don't may become involved in homosexual activities in their teenage years..." (*)

He was so focused on watching, Shen Zhe didn't pay attention when he came back from the bathroom and sat down next to him.

"What are you looking at, so serious?"

"It's in that book of yours," Liang He realized that the topic of the article was a bit sensitive when he noticed the eyes of his deskmate sweeping over, as if he was interested in it. Interesting... are you saying it's really possible for the average person to be involved in homosexual activities as a teenager?"

Unexpectedly, after hearing what he said, Shen Zhe's face changed slightly, and he stared at him with incredulous eyes, which made Liang He feel more guilty.

"Look at what I do?"

"You—" Shen Zhe coughed, and said hesitantly, "You don't—want to have sex with Wen Hao, do you?"

"!" Liang He almost vomited blood, "I, why do I have to have sex with him?"

Shen Zhe's expression became even more rigid: "Then who do you want to have sex with?"

"No, I don't want to have sex with anyone!"

It was not time for class, and the class was noisy, and no one heard what they were talking about.

"Then what are you fussing about?"

"Didn't you see this in your book?" Liang He was full of grievances, "Haven't you read this?"

"I saw it, but I don't feel anything."

In other words, who thinks as much as you do.

"Hey, what are you guys talking about?" Wen Hao was just across the aisle from the two of them, he was idle and bored, ran in front of them, and fell on the table.

"It's none of your business." Liang He was annoyed, not angry.

"Liang He, you've changed." Wen Hao put his hands on his chest and pretended to say, "You wouldn't say such things to me before."

Shen Zhe's facial nerves, which had been relaxed for less than two seconds, became tense again, and his eyes kept glancing back and forth between the two of them, trying to find some clues.

Liang He's face was almost green.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

"Let me ask you something." Wen Hao didn't know what kind of conversation they had before, and Shen Zhe made up a lot of imagination, and continued to move forward carelessly.

Shen Zhe stood up subconsciously: "Why don't I make room for you?"

"No need," Liang He said to Wen Hao, "There's something wrong, tell me quickly."

"Farewell, I'd better get up." Shen Zhe resolutely left his seat.

"Thank you, Brother Shen." Wen Hao sat on his seat unceremoniously, and was a little strange after sitting down, "Why is he so enthusiastic?"

"It's not because of your thick skin."

"That's what he wants to get up. Am I still standing?"

Shen Zhe went to the window to pour water, and looked back at them during the process.

Liang He rested his chin on his hands and buried his face.I can't tell.

"What's the matter?" He was a little impatient, "Can you stop the ink."

"What's the matter... Oh yes, what's the matter with me?" Wen Hao patted his head hard, but couldn't think of anything.

"What are you doing here?"

"I still remembered it just now." He scratched his hair, "It's all because you interrupted me, and I forgot it all."

"You should rest while eating."

"What the hell am I trying to say..."

As soon as the class bell rang, Shen Zhe came from behind, Wen Hao sat back unhappily, and didn't remember when he arrived.

In the next two days, every time he was with Wen Hao, Liang He always felt that Shen Zhe was observing them with an inquiring gaze, and even the heartless Wen Hao also found something wrong.

"How do I feel...Shen Zhe always looks at us?"

"It's okay," Liang He said angrily, "Just act naturally."

"Where are we unnatural?"

"Probably because you are unnaturally stupid."

"I think there's something wrong with the two of you, right?"

Almost a week later, Shen Zhe finally gave up the idea of ​​exploring the "adultery" between Liang He and Wen Hao, because there was really no unusual spark between these two straight men, and the trivial gossip disappeared. .

Liang He learned his lesson and never flipped through Shen Zhe's books again. Even if he saw something in the book, he couldn't discuss it with him.

The author says:

*Wang Xiaobo's "Problems About Homosexuality"