looking back inadvertently

"I can't handle anything well." The expression on Shen Zhe's face was not so much depressed, but more like a sigh after accepting his fate.

Liang He echoed in a relaxed tone as much as possible: "I'm still a child, what can I handle well?"

Shen Zhe glanced at him: "You are only a child."

"Isn't it? Aren't we all children before we reach maturity?" Liang He said, "Is it possible to think about taking care of things at the age of seventeen or eighteen?"

Shen Zhe, who used to give speeches or lead readings in front of the stage, seemed to Liang He to be sophisticated and calm, not like people of their age; but now the deskmate sitting next to him completely took off the outer disguise, revealing the The helplessness and sadness of teenagers.

After Shen Zhe listened to his words, the corners of Shen Zhe's mouth finally curved slightly.

"Do you know? I don't understand anything," he still smiled half-heartedly, but his tone was a bit vicissitudes, "At that time, it's good to feel happy, and talk about love when you're happy."

"Do you like her very much?" Liang He blurted out unconsciously, and then secretly nervous, afraid of touching his scar.

"Well," Shen Zhe nodded, it was the first time he talked about his mentality of being in love with someone, "but I didn't think about anything else, after graduation, or in the longer term... I think those are still very vague, I just know Very happy now."

"Otherwise?" Liang He thought there was nothing wrong with it, there was nothing wrong with the two of them, "Isn't that what it's like to be in love now?"

"I never thought about what my family would think..."

"Your father—did you say something?" The father Shen that Liang He had seen at the wedding banquet had a serious face, and that man also came to school today.

Shen Zhe shook his head: "Actually, my dad is fine. He wants me to concentrate on my studies, but he didn't strongly object to it."

"Uncle is very understanding." So why is Shen Zhe so depressed? Liang He tentatively asked, "Is it because of Xu Wenshan's side?"

"Well, she—" Shen Zhe looked sad, "Her father beat her because of our business."

"Beating?" Liang He felt inconceivable, just because he had a possibly inappropriate relationship, he was insulted by the head teacher and beaten by his parents... Is this really the 21st century?

"Her family is very strict." Shen Zhe turned to look at Liang He, "You can't think of it? I am the same. So - I don't understand anything, my family can treat me tolerantly, I never thought of her What kind of environment are you facing?"

Xu Wenshan loves to laugh, talk, and help her classmates...it seems that she is well taken care of.The information revealed by Shen Zhe was indeed beyond Liang He's expectation.

"I can't bear the result of the matter, and she can't."

"Then you—you broke up?"

Shen Zhe lowered his head, his eyes fell on his toes, and he was silent for a long time.Liang He felt that his question was a bit abrupt, so he didn't point to hear the answer from him, but Shen Zhe suddenly said: "She will leave our school."

The sun almost went down, and the light beside the rostrum became weaker, and his whole body was completely shrouded in shadow.

Xu Wenshan's father knew the principal of the county. The county implemented semi-military management, which was very strict, and the college entrance examination scores were relatively stable.After the high school entrance examination was over, her family planned to send her there to study in high school.However, Xu Wenshan insisted on going to a school in the city, and her parents reluctantly agreed, demanding that she devote all her attention to her studies in high school and not make any mistakes.

The acquaintance with Shen Zhe disrupted her established trajectory. Once the incident was exposed, her parents were furious, and it was impossible to stay here to study.

Shen Zhe didn't explain these things to Liang He in detail, he was powerless to explain to anyone.Liang He got a general idea through the gossip of other students. After all, Xu Wenshan really transferred to another school, just a few days after the incident.

Shen Zhe occasionally stared at the vacant seat, showing nothing on his face.He is still serving as the representative of the Chinese class, and he has not slackened in his duties, and his contacts with Luo Mingyu are not even a little bit of gunpowder.Except for the transfer of one girl, the class doesn't seem to have changed in any way.

It has been a long time since Liang He and Shen Zhe helped fetch water for the class. Since he said "one person is enough" last semester, the two always separated tacitly.But on Wednesday afternoon, Liang He also followed Shen Zhe when he walked to the window, picking up the jug on the right first.

"Why don't we go together?"

Shen Zhe didn't refuse, but only asked jokingly: "Don't you think it's a waste of labor?"

"Sit for an afternoon, it's time for activities." Liang He said.

There will be an activity class for the first year of high school in the next quarter, and there are complicated slogans coming from the playground some distance away.They strolled unhurriedly to the water room, still putting the pots under the faucet from left to right.

Liang He was absent-minded, and when he turned the switch, water splashed on the back of his hand, and he shrank back suddenly.He remembered what the other party said when he and Shen Zhe came here for the first time.

"You're right," he broke the silence, "it's easy to burn your hands."

Shen Zhe turned his head slightly and smiled silently.He doesn't like to talk much recently.

Liang He wasn't such a talkative person either, before Shen Zhe could answer, he was left in the cold, unable to continue, and secretly hoped that the water would fill up soon.

It just feels like the speed of the water flow is very slow today. His brain is empty for a while, and the water level finally rises to the highest level.Liang He turned off the faucet carefully, Shen Zhe had already fastened the lid of the pot on his side, and passed by him.

"Liang He," he paused slightly, and whispered, "Thank you."

If it wasn't for the absence of other people in the water room, and Shen Zhe was close enough to him, Liang He might have missed these two words.But he did hear it, and the blood rose slowly, mixed with the embarrassment that his mind was noticed.

Thank you—the unspoken but pervasive, awkward care.

"Shen Zhe," Liang He called to his deskmate who walked a few steps forward, "After school... do you want to eat spicy skewers?"

"Ok?"

In fact, Liang He called him to ease the tension, and he didn't know what to say, so when Shen Zhe turned around, he made a random nonsense.

Beginning in March, according to the school's requirements, Liang He and other day students also began to study by themselves in the evening.In the evening, he usually doesn't go home to eat, and the dinner made by Qin Ying is reserved for supper.Now that there is this custom, it is not awkward to ask a friend to go out for a meal.

Shen Zhe seemed uninterested, so he didn't immediately agree.Liang He thought he was unwilling, and was about to change his words when the other party said, "Okay."

At the end of last month, Liang He and Wen Hao met Shen Zhe and Xu Wenshan while eating spicy skewers outside. The four of them shared a table together, talking and laughing.Although Wen Hao didn't follow them today, Liang He thought about what happened that day, and couldn't help wondering whether it was wrong to propose to eat this now. When crossing the road, he asked Shen Zhe, "Why don't we eat something else?"

"No need," Shen Zhe shook his head lightly, "Just the spicy skewers."

They ordered tofu, tenderloin, intestines, etc. There were many people waiting at the side of the stall, but the speed was also fast.They were lucky today, occupying a small empty table, and no one came to fight.

"Thank you," Shen Zhe took the tofu skewers from Liang He, ate in silence for a few minutes, and said suddenly, "Actually, I figured it out too."

"Have you figured it out?" Liang He understood what he was talking about.

"As you said, what can you do at this age?" He smiled self-deprecatingly.

I raised hamsters when I was a child, and before cleaning the cages, I had to catch them first.It is easy for a human hand to pick up a little guy with almost no palm from the cage. They don't know what kind of force they are being manipulated by.

Now, Shen Zhe feels that there is no essential difference between himself and those hamsters.However, he doesn't think that it must be the elders who manipulate them, perhaps it is more appropriate to say that it is the unpredictable fate.His opposite is not a specific object - thinking about it this way, it loses the value of unwillingness and resistance.

"Shen Zhe, have you imagined the future?" Liang He didn't want to prove anything, but only asked because he was troubled by such thoughts occasionally.

Shen Zhe calmly put down the bamboo sticks he had just eaten, wiped the corners of his mouth with a paper towel, and then simply replied: "No."

What does it matter if they are happy or distressed now?

"Me neither." Liang He suddenly felt relieved, in fact, they are the same kind of people.

"Let's go, class is about to start."

"I'll buy two more biscuits." The biscuit stand was also on the side of the road. Liang He didn't ask Shen Zhe for his opinion, but just asked him, "Do you want sweet or salty?"

The two flavors, sweet with brown sugar and salty with five-spice powder, are very popular among students.

"I don't want to eat it, buy your own."

Liang He still bought two copies, and dangled the two bags in front of him: "Choose."

It was getting dark, Shen Zhe took one at random, but couldn't tell what was stuck in it, after biting it down, some thick hot syrup flowed out.