looking back inadvertently

"You haven't added my QQ yet." Shen Zhe's tone also contained a slight complaint.

It seems that it is.Liang He's QQ is mainly used for work, and the two of them have been in touch with each other by phone or text message, and they never thought of adding each other as friends.

"You didn't ask me to add it either," Liang He whispered back, "Then add it now."

It's not something worth worrying about, it's just that it's been almost two months since we dated each other before thinking of adding QQ to each other, it's ridiculously confused.Shen Zhe turned on the computer with a smile, and the same dense message notification sounds filled his ears.He passed Liang He's application first, and then he went to read the messages sent by others, most of which came from the class group.

Parents spontaneously created this group last month to facilitate the exchange of homework or other academic issues.Although Shen Zhe also joined, but he is often invisible, and he doesn't like to participate in group chats.

Parents of the students in the class are basically inside, except for Chen Siqi's mother.To be precise, she joined the group for two days, as if she had some conflicts with the parent who was the group leader, she quit after a few quarrels, and never reapplied afterwards.

Also because she didn't add it back, Shen Zhe often saw other parents complaining in the group, and tonight was no exception.

【The last time my daughter accidentally lost a pen from Chen Siqi, she was pestered by her mother for a long time yesterday...】

【and then】

[I lost it, I said a lot of good things to be fine]

【That parent is a little crazy】

[Let's stop discussing, in case Mr. Shen sees how bad it is]

……

In the past, Shen Zhe would indeed speak out to mediate when he saw ugly comments, but today he found that he also agreed with these complaints in his heart, and he didn't want to say a word for Chen Siqi's mother.

He silently closed the chat window with a sigh.

"What's the matter?" Liang He turned his head.

"No," he rubbed his neck, "maybe I'm too tired today."

Liang He yawned in response to the situation, as if to express empathy: "Go to rest early."

"Go to bed first," Shen Zhe said, "I'll check something."

Liang He glanced over, and Shen Zhe, who was surfing the Internet, clicked the sign to close the web page, I don't know if it was a coincidence or a deliberate cover-up.

The doors and windows installed by the previous owner are particularly well sealed. The apartment near the main road can hardly hear the noise from the outside after staying in the house all night.

Liang He stood in front of the sink, the music from the speakers was blocked outside the door, and the only sound in his ears was the flowing water.There is a night light on the wall of the bathroom. Shen Zhe thinks the overhead light is too bright, so I bought it when I was shopping in the home furnishing city today. It is a small light in the shape of a star.

Back in the bedroom, he pressed the ipod end button, and Shen Zhe's computer screen just happened to display "shutdown" display, and then the man stood up while stretching, and walked to the bathroom.

They haven't had time to buy something they need, and they don't plan to have anything happen on the first night of cohabitation, not to mention busy moving, both of them are tired.

Liang He was lying on the bed, his consciousness was like a boat floating on the ocean, ups and downs in the endless boundless, he obviously felt sleepy, but he couldn't calm his fluctuating mood.

After a few minutes, the mattress on Shen Zhe's side sank slightly, and the small lamp beside the bed was extinguished.

Liang He's nerves sharpened suddenly, and he could clearly distinguish every movement of Shen Zhe in the darkness: he took off his glasses, lay down on his side, his arms were bent, and his elbows were under his cheeks.

What shone on him was perhaps coming through the window—the warm light of the city at night, the light pouring into the darkness, as natural and unavoidable as water flowing downhill.

"Shen Zhe," Liang He couldn't help asking, "How did I fall asleep that day when I was drunk?"

That was the only night the two of them spent together before moving, but Liang He had already lost his memory at that time, and after almost a month, his mind was even more empty.

"You don't remember anything?" The dim light outside the window continued to trace Shen Zhe's face.

Liang He searched his memory blankly, looking for clues from his encouraging expression. Not long after, his face became slightly hot: "Did I set my hands on you?"

After saying this, Shen Zhe stretched out his hand and rubbed his face: "I seem to have told you that 'hands up and down' does not mean 'touching up and down'."

"Huh?" Liang He was stunned for a moment, suppressing the desire to complain, "Then I groped you?"

Shen Zhe was silent for a while, and after a while said softly "um", "Yes, I touched everything."

"Touched everything?" Confused to cover up his shyness, Liang He asked innocently, "Touched that place too?"

"Where am I?"

Realizing what he said, Liang He held his breath suddenly.He regretted that he didn't change to a better blackout curtain. Shen Zhe's face was still so clear, and his eyes were still fixed, as if he would keep staring at him like this if he couldn't answer the question.

He felt another person's breath sweeping towards his face, warm and long from the nasal cavity and between the slightly parted lips.

Following the endless breath, Liang He covered his lips, as if he wanted to take it as his own.His right hand was held by Shen Zhe, pulled, and slid down from his waist.

"Actually..." Shen Zhe's lips twitched slightly, "You didn't touch me that day."

Liang He was completely refreshed, thinking about which of his words were true and which were false.

"You're quite peaceful when you're drunk, and you don't make any fuss," Shen Zhe explained, "You just put your arms around me in a normal way."

But today he was awake, and there was no hiding his physical or emotional desires.

"Then can it be done now?" Liang He held Shen Zhe's hand instead, and continued the unfinished exploration just now.

Liang He had already forgotten when his body woke up.The so-called "adolescence" seemed so long at the time, it is only a blink of an eye in retrospect.No parent told him that the school's science popularization was half-covered; relying on the hints in the novels and comics, as well as his own exploration experience, he gradually realized that he was different from his childhood.

Why did he do this kind of thing when he grew up? Liang He felt more shame than excitement when he was a teenager.Sometimes he would look blankly at his palms, as if they were stained with something dirty.Later, I heard a lot of foul language from boys, as if everyone was the same, and there was nothing to care about.It's just that he never participated in the discussion, nor did he fantasize about a specific person.

During the few years abroad, he was ignorantly aware of his affection for Shen Zhe, and the occasional blurred figures that appeared when he was relieving his selfish desires made him feel almost guilty.

The aftertaste of releasing the desire was not over yet, Liang He asked Shen Zhe: "Did you think of me when you did it by yourself before?" His body was hot and sticky, and the sound of heavy breathing brushed against his ears.

Shen Zhe groaned a few times and still nodded truthfully.Liang He felt relieved for a while.

The two of them took turns to take a bath again, their bodies were lazy, and the sleepiness seemed to be gone.The shadow of the curtain dangled on the wall.

"Is the curtain too light?" Liang He stared at the window.The goose-yellow curtains were installed by the previous owner, and they really don't block out much light.

"I think it's pretty good," Shen Zhe said slowly, "It won't be too dark when you sleep... Do you suffer from insomnia?"

Insomnia is not because of the brightness.Liang He's sense of entanglement weakened: "No, that's fine."

After a while of silence, Shen Zhe spoke again: "Do you know what I checked online just now?"

Liang He recalled that suddenly minimized web page, it seems he did it on purpose: "What?"

"Look up what we need to make...and where to buy it."

Liang He wasn't stupid, of course he knew what he was talking about, they didn't make that step today because they didn't prepare for anything.

"Where to buy?"

"There's one over at Electronic City, and there's one near the train station..."

"Let's go together when you have time." He said calmly.

"Do you need two people to visit an adult toy store?" Shen Zhe asked with a smile.

"Then you go by yourself?"

"Why should I go?"

Liang He smiled softly: "Then let's go together." After a while, he saw that Shen Zhe seemed to have closed his eyes, and he said to himself in the dark room, "You will look forward to it."

"Well," the voice next to my ear was as soft as a dream, "of course."