looking back inadvertently

The previously agreed purchase plan for adult products was postponed to Saturday after a week of cohabitation.At dusk, the sky is slightly cloudy, and there is a faint light.

"It's still early," Shen Zhe said, "Go and have a drink first."

After all, the two of them were not old drivers, and they would inevitably blush when they entered such a shop at dawn.It just so happens that the entrance of that alley is connected to the bustling main road, and there are several specialty shops, and it is often a dating place for young couples.

Liang He glanced at the beverage shop mentioned by Shen Zhe. The shop is not too spacious, with floor-to-ceiling glass windows on both sides of the street.

Liang He just said "Let's go", and sensitively noticed that there was a gaze staring at him, to be precise, the two of them.Shen Zhe must have noticed it too, and turned her head almost at the same time as him.

"Shen Zhe, Liang He...is it really you?" Xu Wenshan's expression changed from initial doubt to surprise.

"What a coincidence," Shen Zhe didn't recover, Liang He said to her, "Long time no see."

"Yeah," Xu Wenshan was mature in high school, so her appearance hasn't changed much, only her long straight hair has been permed into wavy curls, "How are you all?"

"Well, it's good," Liang He said, and glanced at Shen Zhe who was still silent, "I'll go to the opposite side first, you can chat for a while." Before crossing the road, he lightly touched the person beside him with his arm.

Shen Zhe was stunned for a moment, he was just shocked by seeing Xu Wenshan by chance, but he didn't expect Liang He to throw them here and run away first.

Is it possible that he needs to avoid suspicion in this situation?

"Shen Zhe," Xu Wenshan's reaction was relatively natural, "are you working now?"

"Well," Shen Zhe smiled, "I'm a teacher in Experimental Primary School."

"That suits you very well."

There was a moment of silence, Shen Zhe asked: "Do you go shopping alone?"

"No, my wife is parking the car. By the way, I got married at the end of September," she said shyly, "I didn't contact you after that, so I didn't say anything."

"I heard," about Xu Wenshan's marriage, he had heard Wen Hao say at the class reunion before, "Congratulations."

"Thank you," her expression overflowed with happiness, she should have a happy family, "Have you met the right person?" After she finished speaking, she seemed a little regretful and bit her lip.

Maybe I feel guilty for asking this kind of question in front of my ex-boyfriend, which is suspected of showing off.

But Shen Zhe understood that she didn't mean that, she just spoke out.What's more, now he also has a lover who has decided to stay with him for life, and he doesn't mind mentioning it.

"Yes," he told her, "I have a lover." As for more specifics, he didn't intend to reveal any more.

"That's great," Xu Wenshan smiled sincerely and relieved, "You should also be good."

"Okay, thank you."

After talking with Xu Wenshan for a few minutes, they left. Shen Zhe hurriedly crossed the road, and through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the store, he saw Liang He who was waiting alone with his hands on his chin.He pushed open the door.

The weather was cold, Liang He ordered two cups of hot milk tea, and when Shen Zhe sat down, the waiter just brought them.

"It's really warm." Shen Zhe held the cup with both hands.

Liang He lowered his head and ignored him, as if on purpose.

Shen Zhe has a delicate mind and figured out some ways, this guy won't be angry, right?Because of meeting Xu Wenshan?

"Are you unhappy?" It's not his style to be bored with doubts, Shen Zhe stared at Liang He until he raised his head.

"No." Liang He replied simply.

"I don't believe it," Shen Zhe said in a firm tone, and then complained for himself, "You were the one who left first, and I don't need you to avoid suspicion."

"Really," Liang He said, "but I think you two want to avoid suspicion."

It was the first time Shen Zhe heard him speak in such a resentful tone, and for a moment he didn't know whether to be angry or to smile: "Isn't it, are you really angry? Just because of such a little thing?"

"If you give me some benefits, I won't be angry."

She is simply more childish than the students in his class, Shen Zhe thought.

"What benefits do you want?"

"Think for yourself."

"Then how about..." Shen Zhe said reluctantly, "I'll go in when I'm shopping later?"

It's too weird for two boys to choose this kind of intimate products together. Although they travel together all the way, they must go alone when buying.If no one takes the initiative, it is a rock-paper-scissors decision as usual.

"Really?" Liang He's eyes lit up.

"Yes." Shen Zhe had no choice but to agree to this humiliating condition.Liang He finally couldn't help but burst out laughing.

"Liang He," Shen Zhe reacted, "Are you kidding me?"

"You promised it yourself," Liang He smiled distortedly, "Don't go back on your word."

Shen Zhe narrowed his eyes and put his arms on the table: "Is it just pretending to be angry?"

"You said it yourself, how could I be angry about this?" Even if Shen Zhe didn't explain, Liang He knew that the old story between him and Xu Wenshan had already turned over.

"Then why are you running so fast?"

"Come to occupy a seat," Liang He reminded him to look around, "do you think there are any vacancies now?"

Shen Zhe glanced around, let alone empty seats, there were still a few people standing and waiting, fortunately Liang He came in earlier.He no longer cared about being calculated: "Yes, the response is very fast."

Liang He smiled lightly and remained silent.It's not that he doesn't want to avoid suspicion, but he doesn't care about Shen Zhe and Xu Wenshan's affairs. He just thinks that if the two really want to talk alone, his presence will be a constraint.Shen Zhe is frank in front of him, and he does not lack this kind of demeanor.

It's just that after finishing the drink and walking into the alley, Shen Zhe began to frown again.

"Then I really went?"

"Go."

"Aren't you curious at all?"

Liang He glanced at the signboard above, and then looked at Shen Zhe, who was so twitchy, that he seemed to be bullying him a little bit. It was just a joke, so he gave in: "Let's go with rock, paper, scissors."

Shen Zhe smiled brightly: "Okay!"

"You may not be able to beat me."

"Who said that? I won more the other day."

There were no other pedestrians in the depths of the alley, and the two of them played guessing shells unscrupulously like children, neither of them too childish.

Shen Zhe lost a round, and his gaze moved up from his open palm until he met Liang He's gaze.

Liang He pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled: "Two out of three rounds."

In the end, Liang Hyuk lost.

"I'll go, I'll go." Liang He almost finished his mental preparation, and walked into the somewhat dark narrow door without looking back. He had to go up the stairs to the second floor to get to the store.

After he left, he didn't come out for almost 10 minutes.Shen Zhe murmured in his heart: Why is it so slow to buy a condom and lubricating fluid... He hesitated or went in to have a look, and took two steps towards the steps at the door, Liang He happened to be coming down the stairs inside.

"Why so slow?"

"There are so many brands," Liang He said solemnly, "I have to choose."

"Oh." Seeing that Liang He didn't look too shy, Shen Zhe became curious, "In there——"

Liang He laughed softly: "There is no one inside, this is a self-service sale, and there were no other customers just now."

"Ah?" I didn't pay attention when I checked the information, and Shen Zhe didn't know that this kind of store is self-service.He poked his head and glanced inside.

"Regret not to go in?" Liang He deliberately encouraged, "Then go in and take a turn."

Shen Zhe stared at the small bag dangling in his hand, and quickly recalled: "You think this is shopping?"

There were rustling footsteps behind him, and it was too late for Shen Zhe to take back the words, a young man and a woman who had just entered from the alley cast complicated gazes at them, and the young man asked cautiously: "Are you going in? Can you make way?"

The two of them not only uttered nonsense, but also blocked the door. No wonder the young man took the initiative to speak up.Shen Zhe even forgot to say "I'm sorry", and hurriedly dragged Liang He away.

Scattered footsteps crushed the light and shadow, and they trotted out of the alley.

After buying something, it is not so purely to help each other with hands.For a person in his twenties, Liang He can imagine some things even if he hasn't personally experienced them or seen them with his own eyes.

The problem is that both of them are men, and conflicts in principle are inevitable, and they haven't talked about this aspect.Liang He asked Shen Zhe what he thought, and Shen Zhe whispered a few words beside him.

"Are you sure?" Liang He stared at Shen Zhe's flushed side face unexpectedly, he didn't expect Shen Zhe to simply say that he wanted to be below.

After all, they are all straight men. Think about it differently. If you let yourself lie down on your own initiative, even if you feel nothing psychologically, it is not realistic to be completely obedient physically.He thought that this time it was still finger-guessing that would decide each other's fate in bed.

Shen Zhe nodded several times: "Don't argue with me, I dare not."

"Don't you dare," a row of question marks flew over Liang He's head, "Don't you dare to be on it?"

"Well," he swallowed, and whispered, "I'm afraid I'll make you a problem..."

The expression on Liang He's face was brilliant: "Then you are not afraid that I will cause you problems?"

"No," Shen Zhe raised his face resolutely, "I believe in you."

Liang He almost wanted to say to him: Thank you for your trust.

Perhaps because of the frank and in-depth discussion on this issue, the two of them basically lost their embarrassment about intimate contact, and instead felt a little more yearning.

"Let's play some music," Shen Zhe said again, "to create an atmosphere."

Liang He would often play some music in the evenings, so that's okay.

"What song do you want to listen to?"

"National anthem?"

"What did you say?" Liang He who was picking a song turned around speechlessly.

"Inappropriate?" Shen Zhe tilted his head thinking, "Then what song is suitable for creating an atmosphere?"

"Let me choose whatever I want."

In order to avoid too much drama during the process, Liang He conservatively chose some light music without words.

"Let's have a drink?" Shen Zhe sat on the bed with his knees hugged. He hadn't had a drink for several years, thinking that maybe his allergies were gone.And when Liang He came back from France, he brought two bottles of wine, which he never opened.

Liang He didn't know about his allergies, and always thought he didn't like drinking, so he felt strange at first: "Why do you think of drinking?"

"Courage."

There's nothing wrong with it... Playing music and drinking to build up courage, Liang Hefei's belly, he wouldn't dare to be down there like this.

"If you don't like it," Liang He pressed his hands on his shoulders, "you can skip that step." It's a bit difficult for straight men, and he didn't feel that he had to solve his physical needs in that way.

"Why don't you do it?" I was afraid because I hadn't experienced it before, but it wasn't insurmountable. Shen Zhe had never thought of engaging in a platonic relationship. He blinked, "Aren't you capable?"

Liang He: "..."

Liang He got up, flicked the thin bangs on Shen Zhe's forehead: "I'll send you on your way after drinking."

"How do you say it's like killing a pig?"

"Your virtue is not as if you are going to kill you."

"That's not true." Shen Zhe buried his head between his knees, "It's like a wedding night."

(...)

After that, it was difficult for the two of them to fall asleep immediately, and the more tired their bodies were, the more active their minds became.

"Ha——" Shen Zhe let out a satisfied sigh, "I feel very comfortable."

"Will it? It's not uncomfortable anymore?" Afterwards, the cooperation was indeed good, but Liang He was still a little surprised when the other party bluntly said that he was comfortable. After all, Shen Zhe was not born gay, so he thought it would take a while to get used to it.

"Well," Shen Zhe met his surprised gaze, "but I still don't want to be on it, so you won't be able to experience it."

Liang He thought that he didn't want to experience it either, so he said calmly, "That's how it is."

"By the way," Shen Zhe suddenly opened his eyes wide, pointing with his right hand on his chest, "You haven't said you love me yet."

"Ah? You, do you want to hear it?" Liang He really didn't think of the nasty lines. It doesn't seem to be important whether they have this sentence between them, and they can understand each other.

"Well," Shen Zhe's eyes were burning, he pulled his arm, "tell me, make me happy."

"I—" Liang He's face was as hot as before, but he still looked over seriously, "I love you."

Shen Zhe smiled in satisfaction, turned over, and turned off the desk lamp.

In the darkness, Liang He tugged at the hem of Shen Zhe's pajamas.

"what's wrong?"

"You haven't told me—" Liang He said awkwardly.

"What?" Shen Zhe asked knowingly.

"You didn't say that to me just now."

Liang He's face was about to get under the quilt, Shen Zhe couldn't see his expression clearly, but he knew what it looked like, so he giggled: "So you care too!"

Liang He protested slightly: "Why can't I care?"

The top of the hair felt the power of being covered by the palm, but Liang He didn't brush it away.The hand moved down slowly, touching his right cheek.

He didn't urge any more, just waited calmly, without making a sound.

"Liang He," the lover's voice was soft and gentle, "I love you."