Has the sick and weak attack lost its horse today?

At this moment, the two of them seemed to be fighting against the little food in front of them. Yan Ge continued to eat such a small crab, and he was full of energy to taste the delicacies of mountains and seas, chewing slowly there.

He Hengguang also used chopsticks to pick up the peanuts one by one. The two of them didn't speak or make eye contact, but in this atmosphere, they didn't really want the meal to end so quickly.

When the two walked out of the small shop, they stood silently at the door of the shop, almost standing like two door gods at the door.

Yan Gexu wanted to say that he went home and lay the dead body, but the child's eyes seemed to be glued to him, and he had the power of a dog's skin plaster. He wanted to keep him, but he couldn't find a reason to keep him. In the end, Yan Ge Ge Xu helped him find an excuse.

"I'll go to the city hospital for a physical examination next time. If you're not in a hurry, just walk with me for a while."

"I'm not in a hurry!" He Hengguang replied anxiously, and added a little shyly after a while: "I live near the city hospital, very close."

Yan Gexu didn't know how to answer this, what?Still want to invite him to sit at home?Is this suitable?What do you say when you close the door?Hello uncles and aunts, am I his idol?

In the end, he just answered lightly: "Very good, it's on the way."

He Hengguang didn't speak any more along the way. Now that the lights were on, there was only a faint glow in the sky. The blue sky was dyed with loose red, and his whole mood was relaxed. He caught a glimpse of Teacher Yan's face. tired, so he just followed him obediently.

Yan Gexu also knew that He Hengguang was looking at him, looking at him almost reverently with clean eyes without any desire.

Yan Gexu didn't have such an idol who obsessively chased after, and it's hard to imagine such a mood, being liked in this way, Yan Gexu felt a little bit stressed while feeling happy.

He thought a little badly that he should break the illusion of the other party and let the other party see his true face.

The seemingly calm person in front of him is actually cowardly and cowardly, lingering on his last breath, with no ambition, not the kind of person he imagined, worth following.

In the book, the young man who used to fight constantly but was full of love for the world gradually turned into an ugly adult amid repeated illnesses and hospitalizations.

Words like eternal light are, in the final analysis, nothing more than lies to coax children.

"I'm going to close my pen." Yan Gexu couldn't help but say, he was like a naughty child, he wanted to see what the other party would look like when his beautiful imagination was shattered.

Would you be surprised, surprised, and then grab the hem of his clothes and ask him why he did this?

But He Hengguang didn't.

The other party was stunned for a moment, then smiled warmly and said, "What does Teacher Yan want to do after that?"

Instead, Yan Gexu was overwhelmed by his question. He didn't know what he wanted to do, or more precisely, he didn't know what else he could do besides writing a book.

"What about you? Do you have any plans for your life?" Yan Gexu asked him back.

"I want to earn a lot of money first. When I can support myself, I will buy a house. After buying a house, I can raise a cat and a dog. Let's see the rest." He Hengguang said frankly, and Emphasized it again: "I am still making money, and I will work hard to make money."

He Hengguang didn't say the second half of the sentence, he didn't dare to say it, he didn't know what to do now, he wanted to say that if he was lucky in this life, he made a lot of money, and if he had enough money, he would be like Teacher Yan back then , to set up a foundation, so that those who are like him, who are in deep mud, have a chance to be rescued.

"How old are you?" Yan Gexu finally asked this question seemingly naturally.

"nineteen."

"So young?" Yan Ge continued to think that He Hengguang just had a tender face, but he didn't expect that he was really young.

Then why didn't you study?

Yan Ge opened his mouth again, but he didn't ask in the end. In his mind, he should be still studying at the age of 19, but he thought about it. Some people may not be good at these things. If they don't pass the exam, they will Stop poking at other people's sad stories.

But He Hengguang seemed to know what he was thinking, and said naturally: "I only went to junior high school, my grades were average, and I couldn't get into public high school. My family said it was too expensive, so I didn't want to go to school."

"But Mr. Yan, don't worry, I can support myself now." He Hengguang was very proud when he talked about this, puffing out his chest.

"What do you do now?" Yan Ge asked pretending not to know anything.

"Be a game anchor."

"Will that be hard work?"

"It's okay to work hard, after all, it's not hard to make money. And the audience in my live broadcast room is very good, just like the big guy who gave me the most rewards, he doesn't need me to do anything every time , it’s very embarrassing.”

The local tyrant Benhao teased him: "Then do you like the donor's father more or me?"

"Of course it's Teacher Yan!" He Hengguang replied without hesitation.

"Answering so quickly? Didn't you just say you want to make a lot of money?" Yan Ge imitated his tone exaggeratedly.

"That's different." He Hengguang blinked slyly, leaned closer to him and said, "At least Teacher Yan kept his promise, and he gave a set of books when he said he would give one set of books. The father of the funder is very casual." Damn, he said he wanted to watch my stream, but he's been gone for weeks, but that's probably the way the boss is."

Yan Ge continued to think about it, because he was too depressed and completely forgot that he wanted to watch the children's live broadcast.

Just very embarrassing.

Fortunately, this embarrassment didn't last long. When the two arrived at the hospital, Yan Ge continued to drive to the heart surgery department on the fourth floor to find the attending doctor. Along the way, some nurses who knew him greeted him.

"Hey, Teacher Xiao Yan is here, and Dr. Liu is still saying that he doesn't know if you will come today."

"I told him on WeChat that I was coming." Yan Gexu replied with a smile.

To Yan Gexu's surprise, the child seemed to be a frequent visitor to the hospital. Yan Gexu wanted the child to go back by himself when he arrived at the hospital, but the little follower followed too closely, so he didn't get rid of it.

"Xiaohe? It's rare to see you come on weekends? Don't you usually come in the middle of the week? Your mother, she's in good spirits today." An older nurse saw He Hengguang with a somewhat indescribable expression on her face.

He Hengguang's face changed a little after hearing this, he stood on the spot and tugged at the corner of his clothes, and bowed to the nurse in embarrassment, the nurse sighed softly, patted him on the shoulder, and said : "It's okay, don't mind."

Yan Ge continued to watch clearly, patted He Hengguang's head in relief, and said in a low voice: "I'll stop here today, okay? I'm going to have a medical checkup, so you should go see your mother too. Thank you for helping me today." Buy lunch and treat me to crab."

"It's me who wants to thank Teacher Yan." He Hengguang bowed deeply, bearing too heavy a thank you.

Yan Gexu couldn't even think of what he had to be thanked so solemnly.Some helplessly watching the young man limping... ran away.

You can still run, you brat.

Yan Gexu was also very familiar with the process of physical examination. After taking the electrocardiogram and simple examination, and sending the blood and urine samples for examination, Dr. Liu sat with him in the consultation room and started the usual consultation.

"Do you feel chest tightness and shortness of breath recently? About a few times a week?"

"Two or three times a week."

"Is there a time when you obviously feel uncomfortable in your heart?"

"Fortunately, I don't remember much. I felt uncomfortable for a while this afternoon, and it was relieved quickly after taking the medicine."

"You...have lost a lot of weight. Although I want you to pay attention to your weight, this light method is definitely not enough. At least you have to eat, otherwise your attending doctor may have to be replaced by a gastroenterologist." Dr. Liu There was helplessness in his tone, and he looked at him with some affection. He almost watched Yan Gexu grow up, watched him struggle on the line of life and death again and again, and had feelings for this patient other than ordinary doctors and patients.

"Well, I will pay attention." Yan Ge continued to lower his eyelids.

"How about a walk?"

"I'm taking a walk."

"Did I mean tired?"

"..." Yan Ge continued to be silent for a long time, then let out a slow breath, and said softly: "I'm very tired. I'm very tired now. I'm so tired that I don't want to talk to you anymore. You always bully me."

Doctor Liu laughed, pointed to the makeshift hospital bed and asked him, "Then you lie down and rest for a while?"

"If you don't lie down, you won't be able to get up in the future. How about lying down now?" Yan Gexu was not very happy every time he came for a physical examination. After all, no one could be happy when he was told that the countdown to his death was getting shorter and shorter.

"Let me tell you directly, although the complete report has not yet come out, but my preliminary judgment is the second level of total heart failure. From the perspective of treatment control, you have already controlled and recovered very well, but your heart condition You know it yourself, you have already done several small surgeries, and you can’t move the big ones. My suggestion is to prepare for a heart transplant. The previous time you had a hard time getting a suitable donor and you... now I don't know how many years to wait..." Dr. Liu sighed.

"At that time, my condition was not as critical as others. Didn't I live well up to now?" Yan Ge continued to mention this with a smile. He had a more dangerous illness the year before last. The operation was very difficult, the success rate was too low, and there happened to be a suitable donor. When Yan Gexu was about to fast and drink to go to the operating table, Yan Gexu pointed to the [-]-year-old girl next to him and said , give it to her.

"I will pay for the expenses. Give her the donor. She is still young, and there are many interesting things in life. If she really feels boring, let's wait until she has lived a life."

At that time, Dr. Liu, as his attending doctor, wanted to ask him if he was out of his mind for a moment. If he is young, is he not young? The age of 20 is the time when he is in his prime, why does this person have no will to survive at all?

Fortunately, Yan Gexu's operation was successful later, and he regained a few years of life. When Dr. Liu went to make the rounds, he saw that he was already awake, staring at the full tubes on his body in a daze.

Why is there no will to live?

If Yan Gexu was able to speak at that time, he would probably have answered him: "If a person has woken up countless times since he was a child, it is like a fragile greenhouse that depends on these instruments and tubes to survive. Plants probably have a hard time trying to survive."

He has already done this, but the opponent still has a chance.

"Xiao Yan?" Dr. Liu looked at the man in front of him who was obviously distracted, and helplessly repeated what he said just now, "I said I will prescribe you some nutritional injections, and you can leave after the injection? Is that okay? You say you... At least I should be more concerned about my body..."

Yan Ge continued to nod, leaned on the back of the chair, and smiled: "You all say that it is a miracle that I am alive, so let's see how long luck can patronize me? This is also very interesting, isn't it ?”