Has the sick and weak attack lost its horse today?

Yan Ge continued to stare at his face for a while, then suddenly asked: "If I'm not here, will you cry?"

"No." He Hengguang replied without hesitation.

Yan Gexu hadn't fully woken up yet, so he lay down for a while, and sat up unhappily when He Hengguang took the cut vegetables to the kitchen, lying on the back of the sofa and asking, "Why don't you cry?"

The onion bones held in He Hengguang's hands rolled all over the ground. The young man stood in the kitchen for a long time in a daze, ruffled his hair a little irritably, and squatted down to pick up the onions on the ground.

Yan Gexu asked again stubbornly like a child who couldn't get an answer: "Why don't you cry."

"Why aren't you here!" He Hengguang was annoyed by his question, threw the half-picked onion on the ground, and shouted angrily.

Yan Gexu went to the kitchen disheveledly, squatted on the ground to pick up those disobedient onions, He Hengguang was annoyed by him, so he sat against the cabinet without doing anything.

Yan Ge continued to pick up a pot full, leaned over and hugged someone to coax him: "Are you angry? Mine, mine boy, mine god, look up at me."

The young man hugged him tightly around his neck, his body was shaking, and Yan Ge continued to feel that his back was wet, and he was covered in sweat.

How could it be possible to rest assured, it is impossible to rest assured.

"Well, actually my brother called me. He said that a foreign professor has a new surgical plan, but he has never practiced it before. It is a theoretical surgical plan. If I decide to try it, I will have to go abroad in the next year."

"What about the success rate..."

"I don't know. The success rate is a number that can only be obtained by accumulating countless cases. It is about 50% and 50% in my case." Yan Gexu said frankly.

Life is a gamble after all. If he continues to wait for a suitable donor, he doesn't know whether he will wait first or his heart will not be able to support it first. is still an unknown.

But that brand new plan drew another possibility for his life. If it succeeds, maybe he will still be weaker than ordinary people, but it will be enough to support him until his old age. If it fails, it means that he has not stepped off the operating table. Chance.

Facing the complete unknown, it would be a lie to say that you have no fear at all.

"It's a solution anyway, aren't you happy?" Yan Ge continued to try to make his tone sound more relaxed.

"I don't want you to suffer." He Hengguang buried himself on his shoulder and said vaguely.

"Then I'll tell you."

"I won't listen, I won't listen, I won't listen." He Hengguang sniffled and went to pick up the pot of onions on the ground, and pushed Yan Ge out, "I'm going to chop the onions, it's very choking, you go out first."

"I really don't want to hear it?" Yan Gexu leaned against the sliding door of the kitchen and watched him chop onions.

Tears welled up before the cut was made.

He Hengguang cut it a few times, and it was so spicy that he couldn't even see where he cut it. His eyes were sore and smoky, and the smell was also in his nostrils.

How could he not know that Yan Gexu was saying goodbye to him?

During this time, Yan Gexu was responsive to his requests.They occasionally do AI, sometimes disarm each other, take a bath together, and play games next to each other. During the live broadcast, Yan Gexu sat on the sofa in the study and watched the external screen, blatantly using His [Time is Quiet] account flirted with him on the barrage.

Recently, fans have been saying [I don’t want to work hard anymore, Auntie should also look at me] During this time, Yan Gexu has been stricter with him than ever before, and will drag him to regulate his work and rest as much as possible. The live broadcast exceeds For an hour, he would press his wrist to imply that he would take a break, and would drag him to the rehabilitation department, intentionally correcting the slightly deformed left knee.

He Hengguang is not a dull person, or he is better at observing words and expressions. If Yan Ge continued to speak, he would not ask, pretending to know nothing, enjoying the tenderness before the end.

He never imagined that possibility, the future without Yan Ge's continued existence, and he didn't know what else to do to prove his significance.But he can't do anything, he can only pretend to be ignorant, pretending to be in a deep sleep, not knowing that the other party will use nasal oxygen to relieve some difficult breathing at night, not knowing that the other party is pretending to stay in bed in the morning Most of the time, it was because the hands and feet were so numb that I couldn't even wash up. I didn't know that occasionally the other party said to rinse their mouth after a meal, and then they would hold the sink and retch.

"But I want to say it." Yan Gexu was still tilted by the door.

"Okay, okay, listen to me, listen to me." He Hengguang put down the crooked onions he had cut to wash his hands, and tried his best to build himself up mentally, hoping that he would not hear the other party's last words to him. Will cry out loud.

Teacher Yan doesn't like this.

"I thought about it for a long, long time, and I decided to give it a try. I... feel that there are still many things I haven't had time to do with you, and there is not enough time. So I will work harder, although it seems that my hard work is meaningless Not too much." Yan Ge continued to lower his head, the soles of his shoes rubbed against the floor, obviously he was about to say something, but he stuttered when he got to his mouth, stuttered, stuttered, and finally finished speaking, and then felt that he said He said nonsense.

"I see." He Hengguang's reaction was calmer than Yan Gexu imagined.

The New Year's Eve dinner for the two of them was not too lively to speak of, but He Hengguang still cooked a large table of dishes, like any ordinary family's New Year's Eve dinner, with chicken and fish, and bright colors, not that bland. As Yan Ge continued to expect.

Yan Gexu has always been very excited. He started stealing food from the kitchen before the food was on the table. Every dish was picked up by him when it was just out of the pot. I have to say that the seasoning is really simple and rude. , he knows that those things are not advanced or delicate, but it does not hinder his taste buds and makes him happy.

There is still a long time before dinner and going to bed. He Hengguang said on Weibo that there will be no broadcast on New Year's Eve. Now he and Yan Gexu are on the sofa preparing to watch the Spring Festival Gala with peace of mind. Yan Gexu is already familiar with taking off his prosthetic limbs. He Hengguang is a person who likes to wear prosthetics. He basically wears them except when taking a bath and sleeping, but these are extra things after all. The new prosthetics fit much better than the previous ones, and they have been worn for a long time. The joint will still be red and swollen, and the knees are also prone to arthritis.

As soon as He Hengguang put Yan Gexu on his side, he habitually took off his prosthetic limbs, divided the blanket on his body, and He Hengguang covered his legs a little bit.

"The Spring Festival Gala is getting boring every year." Yan Ge continued to complain for a while.

"Really? I didn't watch the Spring Festival Gala very much before, and I thought it was quite interesting." He Hengguang's smile hadn't fallen yet, he adjusted his position and patted his thigh and asked him, "If you're bored, should you lie down for a while or change to a new one?" Watch a movie?"

"Look at what?"

"Well, New Year's Eve?"

"I want to watch fireworks. Fireworks, the ones on TV, the big ones." Yan Gexu lay on his lap for a while, not feeling sleepy, and suddenly said.

"It's forbidden in the urban area. There is a fireworks event at the Sports Plaza during the New Year's Eve, but it will be at 12 o'clock, and there will be a lot of people." He Hengguang swiped his phone and looked at the official account to answer.

Yan Ge continued silent.

After a while, He Hengguang replaced a pillow with his own thigh, and put it under his head. He didn't know what he was doing. After a while, Yan Ge opened his eyes again, and saw that He Hengguang had already changed his clothes for going out. Standing aside holding his warm sweater and down jacket, he opened his eyes and asked, "Do you want to go?"

Yan Ge opened his mouth again, but he just said it casually, never thinking about really going.

But He Hengguang asked again seriously: "Do you want to go? There will be a lot of people, and I don't have a driver's license. If we take a taxi, we will start now. If you don't want to go, then don't go."

Yan Ge was stunned for a moment, then nodded and said to go.

He Hengguang put his clothes on the side of the sofa and said, "Then you change your clothes, and I'll clean them up."

Yan Ge continued to change clothes slowly, watching He Hengguang busy before and after, Song Ning used to prepare things, he could see that He Hengguang was a little messy, took the daily emergency medicine, thermos, in the bedroom like a lost After a while, he called Song Ning, said Happy New Year, and asked what else he should bring when he went out.

Song Ning was probably worried, and asked several times what he was going to do and where he was going, and He Hengguang patiently repeated his answers several times. After that, He Hengguang kept silent, and Yan Ge knew all about Song Ning without even thinking about it. Ning was trying to persuade him to let it go, and advised him not to go.

He Hengguang was very obedient, listening quietly all the time, and finally asked: "So what should I bring when I go out?"

Song Ning didn't expect He Hengguang to be so persistent. In fact, it wasn't He Hengguang who was persistent. It was because he saw that Yan Gexu had already changed his clothes and was waiting for him at the entrance of the living room.

Song Ning said a few more things that might be used, and He Hengguang put them in his backpack and put them away. He stopped Yan Gexu at the door and said, I'll go to the gate of the community and bring the car in to the door, so that the wind can be reduced.

He Hengguang was only wearing ordinary prosthetics, and it was still a little bit of a struggle to run. It seemed that only one leg was working hard and the other was just dragging, but He Hengguang didn't care at all.

"Don't worry, don't fall." Yan Gexu shouted at him from the door.

"I won't fall!" He Hengguang waved his hand to signal his reassurance.

They went very early, but there were already a lot of people in the square, parents with children, and many couples holding hands, the two of them did not enter the crowd, they were just outside, there is no Yan Ge in the winter of Sihai City It's so cold at Xu's house, but winter is still a bit too cold for Yan Gexu.

He Hengguang stretched his hand to the hem of his clothes, but Yan Gexu grabbed his hand and said, "It's still warm, there's no need to change the baby."

He Hengguang even carried two small horses that he didn't know when he bought them. The two sat on the side of the road and almost set up a stall in front of them.

The two watched the Spring Festival Gala shift from the sofa to the side of the road. Yan Gexu didn't feel that cold, but saw that he was a little sleepy in the second half. He Hengguang moved the stool closer so that Yan Gexu could just lean on his shoulder On the bed, put the phone on Yan Gexu's back and continue watching the Spring Festival Gala.

Yan Ge continued to put his hands on his back and felt that his whole back was completely frozen. He Hengguang sat on the vent to shield him from the wind, so he didn't feel cold.

Yan Ge continued to hug him a little tighter.

When Unforgettable Tonight started playing on the phone, the people around who were sitting and squatting while eating melon seeds and chatting all stood up. He Hengguang patted Yan Gexu and stood up too.

Without looking at the time on the phone, everyone in the square is counting down: "Ten, nine, eight...five, four, three, two, one!"

When the first cluster of fireworks exploded in front of his eyes, there was a roar in the sky. Yan Gexu had never seen fireworks blooming in such a close place, his heart was pounding, and his eyes were full of the color of fireworks.

Amidst the screams and cheers all around, the clear and youthful voice pierced into the heart from the pinnae.

"Happy New Year."

The hustle and bustle of the world suddenly quieted down, leaving only the familiar gentle voice in the ear, which is never enough. Once a wish is fulfilled, there will be another wish. After watching the winter fireworks, I still want to meet to see them Spring flowers.

He once wished him an eternal light, and the other party did it, burning with all his strength in the place visible to his naked eyes, like a flame that would never go out, not inferior to the fireworks that filled the sky.

"How long will you remember this fireworks?" Yan Ge continued to ask him.

He Hengguang is a person who has no special complex about fireworks, but he knows what Yan Gexu is asking him, and it took him a lot of effort to squeeze out a complete sentence from his choked throat.

"Should... I will think of it every New Year's Eve." He Hengguang said with a smile.

Yan Gexu should be very happy. On the way back, he couldn't bear the drowsiness that swept over him, so he fell asleep by the car window with a smile on his lips.

He slept until the morning of the next day, and habitually touched the place beside him, only to find that He Hengguang was not sleeping next to him, and the pillow and quilt were cold.There was a message from Yan Chongzhou on the phone, New Year's money and wishing him a healthy New Year. At the end, he said that he had already contacted the professor to see when he would go for a checkup first.

Yan Gexu lay down for a while before getting up. There was breakfast on the table, which was packed in an insulated box, but it was not delivered by the chef. There was also half a sour plum on the side. Yan Gexu likes this kind of appetizer, you know There were not many people, and He Hengguang was one of them.

The door of the living room slammed, and He Hengguang pushed the door open and came in.

"Morning. Woke up so early today? Where did you go?"

He Hengguang's eyes were a little red and bloodshot. Yan Ge continued to guess that this person was probably not asleep. He had completed his own psychological construction, but He Hengguang still needed time to prepare mentally, but he might not be able to give the other party that long. It's time.

"I'm supposed to be in the sixth grade, and I'm going to do preoperative preparations." Yan Ge continued.

He Hengguang opened his mouth and didn't speak. He changed into home clothes and came out and said, "Let me and the platform ask for leave. I won't be broadcasting next month."

Yan Gexu had another thing to tell He Hengguang. Sitting at the dining table and watching He Hengguang peeling eggs for him, he didn't know how to speak. After eating half a bowl of porridge slowly, he hesitated and said: "Aren't you the most money fan? Why did you ask for leave? I'll go by myself."

As soon as these words came out, He Hengguang stood up directly, as if he was going to get angry, but in the end he said nothing, and poured the remaining half bowl of porridge that Yan Gexu obviously couldn't finish into his own bowl, and slapped it twice After eating it, I took the bowl to the kitchen.

There is a dishwasher at home, but He Hengguang doesn't use it. He puts his hand under the cold faucet to rinse it, and doesn't squeeze in the dish soap for a long time, until Yan Gexu's hand reaches out from behind to grab his hand. He Hengguang turned off the faucet abruptly and put his cold hands behind his back.

"What are you hiding? Show me." Yan Ge continued to hold his hands. Both hands were already red with cold fingertips. The wrist of his right hand began to protest, and it lay limply on his palm and shivered.

Yan Gexu was so distressed that he lowered his head and breathed on his wrist, and gently pressed the hot water bottle on his wrist.

"It's not that I don't want you to accompany me." Yan Ge continued to pat his head, "I'm afraid too."

I am afraid that I will be tortured to be ugly, that I will fall asleep, and even more afraid that I still have consciousness, but I have no control over my body. I can only hear the roar of instruments and cry hoarsely. In the end, people around me will blame themselves and complain. I would say that it would have been better if I hadn’t had that surgery.

So Yan Ge continued not to ask anyone's opinion, he made the decision, and he had to bear the consequences.

Did He Hengguang understand? He didn't fall asleep all night, and now he felt tired when leaning against Yan Gexu on the sofa. Probably the sofa was not a good place to sleep. He dreamed that he was in Yan Gexu's bed. At the awards ceremony, I saw the man on the stage in high spirits, and then suddenly fell off the stage clutching his chest. I also dreamed of the dim fire escape at the autograph signing, and dreamed that I was lost on the way to find him, and the passage changed. It was very long and tortuous. He was wearing ill-fitting prosthetics, dragging his legs and running, but the passage seemed to have no end. In the aisle, it was like falling asleep.

He Hengguang only slept for less than 10 minutes before waking up from his dream. His prosthetic limb was taken off at some point, and he was alone in the living room, covered with a blanket, and shouted in a panic, "Brother Xu? Teacher Yan?"

"What's the matter?" Yan Ge went into the bedroom and had just taken the medicine when he heard He Hengguang who had just fallen asleep shouting, and came out a little surprised.

"No, it's okay." He Hengguang seemed to have no strength, stood up crookedly, took a deep breath, and forced himself to withdraw from the negative emotions.

The two of them were silent for a while at a distance, then burst out laughing suddenly, and said in unison: "Actually, I have a present I want to give you."

Both of them froze for a moment.

Yan Gexu leaned over curiously, wanting to see what He Hengguang was preparing. He Hengguang held his hand, his wrist was still shaking a little, and after fumbling for a long time, he found a small silver ring, which was right for a long time. I couldn't even touch the ring finger of my left hand.

Before going in, he paused again, raised his head and looked at Yan Gexu timidly, as if asking for his opinion.

Yan Gexu spread his left hand honestly, and held the other's hand that was shaking like Parkinson's with his right hand, and said, "Don't worry about wearing it, I don't have a ring ready, I'm just waiting for this one for you."

He Hengguang put it on for him, the finger circumference was just right.

"What about the other one?" Yan Ge continued to ask him for it.

"The other one? Do you want to wear two? Is there anything special about it?" He Hengguang began to be confused, his eyes darkened.

"No, did you prepare one when you co-authored it? What about your own? Why didn't you follow the procedure?" Yan Ge continued to be dumbfounded.

He Hengguang also realized that he was too nervous when he went to buy it. The clerk nodded at everything and asked him if he only bought one?He Hengguang was also taken aback, saying that I will only give it to one person, why buy two.

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