After I slapped my wife, he wandered the streets

Sometimes thinking too much has no purpose other than adding burden.

Pan Xun watched Bai Qianmian take away the dishes and chopsticks to the kitchen to wash, he behaved the same as before, as if the conversation on the alley hadn't changed anything, did he really not care about what happened before or was it because... ...There is no other use in thinking about it.

Pan Xun didn't dare to ask for Bai Qianmian's forgiveness anymore. To be honest, he never imagined in his heart that if Bai Qianmian defended himself at the beginning, if he told the truth whether the other party was willing to take the initiative to "sacrifice", he just didn't dare, he didn't dare to gamble .

It is human instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages. He believes in Bai Qianmian, but he doesn't believe in himself, let alone human nature.

It's just... Let's talk about it many years later. Compared with Bai Qianmian's resentment and blame for himself, the other party said "I'm glad it's me and not you." There is no possibility of escape if he is completely thrown into the abyss of hell.Compared with the hatred generated after taking advantage of it, Bai Qianmian's forgiveness made Pan Xun feel even more ashamed. After wandering outside all night, he thought very clearly that he would rather face a person full of hatred than the other person in this state.

There is nothing I can do, and it is useless to do anything in the face of Bai Qianmian like this.Bai Qianmian has no hatred, how can he talk about resolving and making up for it? Bai Qianmian can express his gratitude so frankly. It can be seen that although his body is incomplete and his life is poor, he has always been himself.

What about yourself?Prosperity and wealth can't relieve him of the pull of the black hole in his heart. The shackles on his conscience have been getting heavier and heavier day by day for 15 years. He thought he had found "the beginning", he thought that facing Bai Qianmian again, no matter whether the ending is good or bad, there will always be relief, but The brighter Bai Qianmian became, the more he saw his own cowardice and selfishness.

"I thought I was afraid that he would hate me." Bai Qianmian went out, but Pan Xun didn't ask him where he was going. He hid in the room for a long time and finally made a call, "It turned out that I was even more afraid that he would not hate me."

Rose was silent on the other end of the phone.

Pan Xun put the phone to his ear, his eyes were dull and he fell downstairs, where a child was running with a toy car.

He murmured: "I think the worst result of this trip is that he is not willing to forgive me, he hates me, then I am willing to do everything to make up for his past mistakes, even if he wants me to become like him ...I have thought about it, I can, as long as he can be happy."

Pan Xun talked more to himself, he didn't care that the silence of his subordinates was golden, and he didn't want his confession to be interrupted.

"But he has no complaints or regrets, he said...he is glad, after learning all the truth, he still told me that he is very glad," closing his eyes, Pan Xun slowly raised his head, "Never The moment I felt so ugly, I knew clearly that there was no way out, and I would have to face this endless torture in my life."

"I have been brooding over the years of self-torture. Under his calm face, it is like a self-directed and self-acted joke. I have always believed that everything, emotion, person, commodity, hatred, they have a price, and some use money. It can be traded, some use things, some use power, is there anything in this world that cannot?"

Pan Xun laughed. His narrative tone at the beginning sounded like weeping, but later it became extremely crazy.

He half smiled and half cried, "Is there anything you can't do? Money can buy people to laugh or cry, but power, power, it can change the rules and make people lose or gain happiness. Why don't relatives and friends hold their hands in the hearts of the world?" A brand that is far and close is used to mark the price. If it is farther away, he can be betrayed within the range of ten renminbi, and if it is closer...one hundred million? Two hundred million? One billion? Add one of my own legs Woolen cloth?"

As the Patriarch of the Pan family, Pan Xun's emotions have always been restrained, and if something happens, he will only rot in his stomach forever. However, at this moment, he is confused and fragile. He will doubt, be puzzled, feel uncomfortable, everything Speak up.

"Do you still remember the boss of the Four Seasons Ferry?" He slowly squatted down and sat against the wall, "His wife and children were kidnapped, and the robbers asked him to take one billion, and he agreed, and then the robbers kidnapped him again , just wanted to chop off his arm, but he didn't want to, at that time, he felt that his wife and children could be thrown into the sea, you see..."

The incident Pan Xun mentioned was once a sensation. At that time, the alliance would see this incident broadcast in the news every day. Everyone was praising the boss for his loyalty, because he was willing to sell all his wealth to be safe, but he did not expect The kidnapper was not doing it for money at all, and the other party later kidnapped him. In front of all the audience, the boss cried and begged to let him go, saying that as long as he survived, he could give up his wife and children.

The final result was that the boss disappeared, but his wife and children were sent back safely.

"It's all the same, but the price is different, and the price everyone is willing to pay is different." Pan Xun calmly said, "Is there anything in this world that cannot be traded? Where are there gods? Some are just those who have power. "

So he wants to change his destiny at all costs, wants to become a god in this world, and everything he sees in his eyes after taking charge of the Pan family is to verify what he thinks in his heart, but only Bai Qianmian, he didn't give a price, but everything in his heart There is a little bit of hatred, and Pan Xun can also calculate an approximate value based on that bit of hatred.

Bai Qianmian didn't, his choice back then, and what he did today completely stopped Pan Xun's businessman thinking, he had to believe that there are people in this world who can't put a price on them, their existence itself is priceless, even if they look at Silly, even if you can use it easily, you will never, ever, ever be able to slander it.

"I have lacked a lot since I was a child." Even today, as an illegitimate child, the inferiority complex I once had is still lingering, and having power can't change the insecurity flowing in my blood. "But I used to have the purest thing in the world. I used to be just I don’t know, I told myself I don’t know, only in this way can I continue to live with peace of mind.” But ah, you have enjoyed it before, how could you really not know.

"You have changed." Without the old hippie smiling face, Rose uttered three words in the dead silence on the other end. She couldn't spy on Pan Xun's change from these words, but she knew that there was something different about her Patriarch. .

"I hope he's well."

She also said this when she went to Sif, but Rose still heard something different from this sentence. After hesitating for a while, she opened her mouth, "Aren't you going to bring him back?"

"I hope he is well." Pan Xun took the initiative to hang up the phone.

Bai Qianmian said that he asked for leave today, but he went out until dark and didn't come back. Pan Xun went to the kitchen while waiting, and finally gave up after ruining two pots of porridge.Afraid of being discovered, he opened the window to ventilate. He tried to clean up when he couldn't cook. After turning around with a broom until he felt dizzy, the door was finally opened.

"I'm back!" Pan Xun was very excited, it was too quiet when he was alone in the house, he couldn't help thinking whether Bai Qianmian was waiting for him like this yesterday.

"Yeah." Bai Qianmian changed his shoes first after entering the room, holding the freshly bought vegetables in his hand, his tone was very natural.

Pan Xun silently breathed a sigh of relief, and pretended to be normal: "I tried to make dinner, but it failed."

"Really." Bai Qianmian went straight to the kitchen after changing her shoes.

Pan Xun followed the past as usual, "Where have you been? Did you go grocery shopping?"

"I went to see Feng Jin." Bai Qianmian turned on the faucet to wash the vegetables, and said in detail, "Then I went to see Xiaoyu with him."

"Really?" Pan Xun looked at Bai Qianmian busy in the kitchen, feeling unreal as if he had been in a lifetime, and asked, "Did the little girl say anything?"

"Although I don't understand very well," Bai Qianmian finished washing the dishes and poured oil on the fire, "but she said that you deprived her of happiness."

"What?" Pan Xun was subconsciously dazed.

Bai Qianmian turned her head back, "Feng Jin doesn't understand either, but Xiaoyu said that she hopes you will return her happiness quickly."

"..." Pan Xun really forgot about this, "I took some comic books from her."

"Why?" Bai Qianmian flipped the stir fry, he asked very casually, it didn't look like he really wanted to know.

But Pan Xun still replied seriously: "It's all broken, I will buy her a new one, and you can bring it to her sometime."

"You go." Putting up the dishes, Bai Qianmian stretched out her hand, "Feng Yu likes you very much, she will be happy when you go over."

Pan Xun habitually took the plate from Bai Qianmian, turned around and put it on the dining table, and tentatively said, "Then let's go together?"

"Okay." Bai Qianmian cooked another dish, dried her hands quickly and left the kitchen.

Pan Xun hurried to get the bowls and chopsticks, he was already used to beating like this, when the two of them sat at the same table to eat, the atmosphere suddenly became weird again.

"When are you free?" Hearing the sound of bowls and chopsticks clashing in his ear, Pan Xun asked when he was almost done eating.

"The day after tomorrow," Bai Qianmian lowered her head, "Xiaoyu has a performance, she hopes Feng Jin and I can be there."

"Performance?" Pan Xun put down the bowl and chopsticks and asked curiously, "What kind of performances can the hospital have?"

"I heard that a big businessman from the alliance government will make some deals with the hospital and donate some equipment. In order to thank them, the hospital specially organized some hospitalized children to sing and tell stories. The time is not long, about half an hour. .”

"Oh," Pan Xun thought it was a chance to get along, "Did you ask for leave?"

"Feng Jin can't go," Bai Qianmian also finished eating, got up to pack the dishes, and said softly, "If I don't go, Xiaoyu will be very disappointed."

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Pan Xun didn't just buy comic books, he even went to pick out a bouquet of flowers. When he got to the hospital gate, he said to Bai Qianmian, the co-driver who was about to get off the car: "There are candy in the back, you take it."

"Xiaoyu can't eat too much candy," Bai Qianmian babbled even though she went to the back seat, "You can't just leave her alone just because you open a candy store."

"Everyone says it's hers." After a day of relaxation, Pan Xun found that Bai Qianmian seemed to want to go back to the past, and he also cooperated as if nothing had happened, and said in a casual tone: "Aren't there other children who performed on stage today?" ?"

"You open a shop like this." Bai Qianmian picked up the weight in her hand and complained, "It's no wonder you don't lose money."

"Are you really not considering going to work in my shop?" Pan Xun joked, "With you here, I can definitely save a lot."

Bai Qianmian shook her head, Pan Xun followed behind him, and the two went to the large conference hall of the hospital, where the dean and the others put the performance.

When Pan Xun arrived at the venue, he found that the hospital had carefully arranged it. There was a red carpet at the door, and some dolls and balloons were placed on the stage. Before the performance began, many parents of young patients came to sit down.

"No wonder you said that girl would be lost." All the children who performed on stage invited their parents. If Bai Qianmian didn't come today, Feng Yu would be alone. Pan Xun thought, maybe there is a small circle among these children who have been hospitalized for a long time, and there will be Show off each other's parents' love for them.

"People who are sick are always more sensitive." Bai Qianmian looked at the stage. Before the performance started, several middle-aged men in black suits walked in. They were greeted and sat in the first row. "The same goes for children."

Pan Xun said "Yes", thinking of an elder in the family, with a bit of sarcasm on his face, "Old people will be like this."

"What?" Sensing the difference in his tone, Bai Qianmian shifted her gaze.

He is very sensitive to Pan Xun's emotional changes, Pan Xun has not noticed this yet.

"No matter how powerful people used to be, they say it doesn't matter when they are old and live in a nursing home, but they still hope that the younger generation can go and see it."

"After you returned to Pan's house..." Pan Xun didn't dare to mention it, didn't want to mention it, and didn't know how to mention it, but Bai Qianmian was very natural. He didn't say it before because he was afraid of making shallow words. After all, he had been separated for 15 years. But after that conversation, Pan Xun's reaction in the past two days made him understand, and he dared to ask, "Have you met any good people?"

"..." Pan Xun looked at Bai Qianmian silently, unlike his dodge, Bai Qianmian was very calm, with undisguised concern in his eyes.

The little girl wearing a wig on the stage is singing, and Feng Yu's performance is still behind.

Pan Xun didn't avoid his gaze this time, he looked at himself in Bai Qianmian's eyes, smiled slightly, and said inwardly, "They are all annoying people."

"Is there no one who is different?"

"The difference lies in the degree to which they hate each other?" Pan Xun shrugged.

Bai Qianmian sighed and turned around.

On the stage, Feng Yu and her dance team members had already taken their positions. Off the stage, Pan Xun was still looking at Bai Qianmian's profile. He couldn't help asking, "What about you?"

"Huh?" Bai Qianmian responded, and he focused on Feng Yu's performance.

The little girl has been studying dance with nurses very seriously these two days, she is very talented.

"Have you ever met someone special?"

"Have."

Pan Xun also turned his head and found Feng Yu among a group of little girls in pink skirts. He seemed to be careless, "What kind of person?"

"One," Bai Qianmian followed Pan Xun to move his eyes, and they watched Feng Yu's beating together, "A very gentle and kind person."

Pan Xun froze for a moment, put his hands in his pockets and tightened them, he quickly glanced at Bai Qianmian.

When Bai Qianmian talked about this "very gentle and kind" person, there was light in his eyes. It was a look full of nostalgia that Pan Xun had never seen before. This look made him dizzy, made him feel anxious, and made him unable to sit still. go down.

"Is it a man or a woman?" He didn't reveal his emotions, and his tone seemed to be pure curiosity.

"woman."

"The person you loved?" Pan Xun gritted his teeth.

"She has given me a lot of good things."

"You..." Pan Xun wanted to say something, but everyone in the audience applauded, including Bai Qianmian, he had to be interrupted, Feng Yu led the little girl on the stage to bow politely and then backed down .

The vice president of the hospital came to the stage and said a few words, and he invited the president of the chamber of commerce who came to the stage to say a few words for the children.

Pan Xun didn't listen to the speech on the stage at all, he turned his head and stared at Bai Qianmian, he repeatedly guessed in his mind who the woman Bai Qianmian was talking about, when did they meet, what happened between them, Bai Qianmian When talking about the other party's tone and expression, it doesn't look like they broke up unhappy at all.

He thought he had sorted out the relationship with Bai Qianmian, and decided not to interfere with the other person's life with narrow liking, but when he heard another person pop out from Bai Qianmian's mouth, another person who might be more important than himself, Pan Xun admitted that Almost mad.

He listened to the occasional applause from the crowd around him, and he didn't care about the high-sounding nonsense on the stage, until the doctors and nurses in the audience were surprised in twos and threes, and Pan Xun's eyes were still on Bai Qianmian's face. Affecting his concentration, he tried to ask something a few times and was held back.

The speech on the stage was intermittent, and there seemed to be something wrong with the man who spoke.

The crowd becomes restless, until the microphone slams onto the ground with a screeching noise.

Pan Xun finally couldn't bear it anymore and turned his head back. The middle-aged man who had already run off the stage saw his face clearly and his right leg went limp.

The man managed to avoid falling, but fortunately, he was helped by the bodyguard beside him in time.

"It's really you?!" The president of the Victory Chamber of Commerce never expected that he would meet the Patriarch of the Pan family just by acting as a face-saving project. He felt a little familiar with that person when he was on stage. The advantage is that they never forget when they see people. If they want to do business in the alliance, some people's faces must be firmly remembered.

When he ran down, he was still a little uncertain, but he couldn't convince himself that it wasn't true just by looking at the side face a few times. This would allow him to see Pan Xun's face clearly, and he couldn't care about his own identity anymore. He ran to Pan Xun's seat and bent down deeply.

"It's really an honor to see you here!" Isamu Tsukishima bent down again and again, his head almost below his knees, and he said excitedly: "It is rumored that you went to a certain island for vacation. I thought I would see you here in person, my name is Isamu Tsukishima, and I am the person in charge of the Victory Club."

Pan Xun couldn't remember who the nodding and bowing man in front of him was, but troubles visible to the naked eye had already been caused. All the doctors and nurses sitting in the conference hall, including the parents of the children who came to the performance together, were distracted by this " Attracted by "farce", they all looked at the noble man in their eyes showing humility to another seemingly ordinary man.

"You've got the wrong person." Pan Xun frowned, and noticed Bai Qianmian's reaction from the corner of his eye.

Unlike those around who were only surprised and shocked, Bai Qianmian's expression was a little ugly.

Pan Xun was dying, "I don't know you."

"It's normal that you don't know the villain, but the villain knows you. The reason why our club cooperates with the hospital in Moka City this time is precisely because we sensed your call, because your group organized this trip to the West. We are also very touched by the aid and export of medical supplies from Ephraim, businessmen like us who have benefited, everyone should learn from you to help these suffering people." Isamu Tsukishima said very touchingly.

His expression and tone seemed to be that Pan Xun was the living Buddha in this world, and it was because of Pan Xun's guidance that they started to do good deeds.

Pan Xun really wanted to beat people up. The Victory Club was really good at adapting to the wind. He probably saw that the Pan family was behind the opening of the medical exit to Sieve this time. Pay attention to yourself, it was hard to say whether he would be successful in doing this before, but now Pan Xun dares to swear that he has completely remembered this fool.

"Pan Xun..." Bai Qianmian's voice was trembling, even on the day they reunited, he never had such a tone.

Because of his opening, because he directly called out Pan Xun's name, Isamu Tsukishima noticed that the shabby-dressed man beside him seemed unusual.

He finally raised his head and saw Pan Xun's expression.

"..." Yukishima was taken aback, knowing that something might be wrong, he gave the surrounding subordinates a wink, and he silently took a few steps back.

Pan Xun couldn't care about him now, seeing Bai Qianmian standing up suddenly, he raised his head and tried to say something, "It's not...I..."

"You're amazing." Bai Qianmian jumped out word by word, then turned and left immediately after speaking.

Pan Xun still froze in his seat for a while, Yukishima swallowed his saliva, and said cautiously, "You are..."

After getting up, Pan Xun coldly swept over the other party, and chased out without saying a word.