holy flame

Leaving Frank's room, Samuel didn't find Julian in the house at first, only found a box of well-baked shortbread.In this era of lack of various materials, this kind of shortbread can be regarded as a luxury food.He was about to ask someone about the origin of the box when Julian opened the door and entered.

"Samuel, are you standing at the door to greet me?" Julian joked, but his expression at the moment was not as natural as before, but rather tired and gray.

"Go on a date," Samuel said as he put the shortbread back on the floor and took Julian's hand.His expressions and movements give Julian the feeling of going back to his childhood and playing house with the girl next door.

To be honest, Julian is in a very restless mood now. His original idea was to spend the rest of the day in the room thinking about future choices, but how could he refuse Samuel's invitation?

The two of them didn't ride horses, so they walked together towards the market in the west - if this was an ordinary city, Samuel would never do this, because most of those places are full of "gold".And because Bright Shield is an officer fortress, most of the personnel live in the barracks, and cannot go out unless they are on vacation or under special circumstances. In addition, there are some elves here, so it is much better than other places in terms of cleanliness.At least you don’t have to worry about someone on both sides of the street dumping toilets and chamber pots directly out of the window, or even throwing the chamber pot out of the window①.So although the smell in the city is still not very good, at least Samuel can accept it.

"What's going on?" Samuel asked halfway back.

Julian was taken aback, and it was not normal for this to happen to him, because when he always listened to Samuel’s every word and watched his every action with full attention, how could it be because Was Samuel startled when he spoke too suddenly?

"Sorry, what were you talking about?"

"Dating me makes you unhappy?"

"Is not likely to?"

"But you are absent-minded."

"I just..." Julian sighed helplessly, "It's just that today I met some people and learned something, which made me a little anxious and helpless."

"If you are not in the mood, we can go back first and come out when you are in a better mood." Samuel stopped.

"Samuel, I know you said this for my own good, but when you say it in such a calm and indifferent tone, it really doesn't make me happy at all." Julian smiled wryly.

"Sorry, I'm trying to learn about feelings, you can tell me what I should be like under normal circumstances."

"You say that as if I'm a wayward little girl." Julian was even more helpless, he patted Samuel on the shoulder, "Let's go, go on a date, no matter you or me, don't think about those messy things."

He said so, but Julian was not Samuel. He simply let go of what his reason ordered him to put down. He is a person full of emotions, and his thoughts are not controlled by his reason in many cases.

"You and Paladin Samuel are also in a relationship?" Volent is a smart person. When the other two young people left and Julian, who was originally articulate, didn't know how to start the conversation, he had already opened the conversation with a smile. mouth.

"Yes." Julian nodded, "And I just learned not long ago that a paladin will live a long time. But I'm just an ordinary person, and I will age and die before him, leaving him alone..."

"The same is true of Lord Wells' earliest lover." Warrant, who always smiled gently, showed pain and melancholy on his face, "I think you have seen it too, Kay and Cass and I have some thoughts, but in reality On it are the three of us and another portrait. That person is the lover of the adults. In fact, I am just an actor in a small troupe②. When I was invited to perform here 20 years ago, I was favored by the adults. I am very grateful He, because I think you know, I was dead at that time, if I can't find a way out, I can only sell myself. But men in their 20s, even if they sell themselves, few people buy them? Sorry, I Off topic."

"No, I'd love to have a heart-to-heart talk with you." Julian didn't show any disgust or contempt, and he extended his hand to Volent very friendly.

Volent took his hand too, and smiled with relief.Obviously, even though he has lived here for more than 20 years, his former identity still carries a heavy burden on him.

"Julian, if the paladins here are classified according to their private lives, they can be divided into three categories: the first type is lifelong singles, such as Miss Fina and Captain Hadro, they are either because their lover is dead, or because of a certain Some personal reasons are lifelong singles. The second type is like Lord Wells, with many lovers. The third type is a family of two paladins. The first type of paladins is the least, because paladins live too long , even with companions and comrades-in-arms, but it is too lonely. The second type is the most, like Lord Wells, our existence is just an empathy effect for him. Although other people are in different situations, they are the same The most important thing is that love or not love is only second to them, and the most important thing is to be accompanied by others. The third type, no matter the same sex or the opposite sex, they can fight side by side and stay together for a long time. At least in my opinion, they It is the most beautiful..."

Julian more or less understood what Volent meant. The life of a paladin is too long compared to a human being. He only loves one. If the other party has the same identity, of course everyone will be happy.But if it is an ordinary person, it is an out-and-out tragedy, because one of them must die first.At the same time, because of responsibilities, obligations and beliefs, a paladin cannot commit suicide, he can only live alone in memory.

Julian never thought of sharing true love with others, but now he really hesitates.

"Samuel, have you thought about going out to play tricks?" Julian asked suddenly after he could vaguely hear the noise of the market.

"What do you mean?"

"I heard that many paladins have several lovers."

"So you think I should too?"

"..." Julian didn't speak. He was in extremely complicated mood now, and he really couldn't answer "yes".

"A love with you

Love just makes me dizzy and I don't want to ask for trouble anymore. "Samuel thought for a while and shook his head with certainty.

"You think I'm trouble?" Julian's eyes widened. Besides, who is more dizzy between the two of them? !

"You can't lie to your lover." Samuel still spoke righteously.

In Samuel's eyes, Julian, who looked defeated, finally returned to normal, but Julian knew that he had given up his original exclusive thoughts. Although the pain was extremely painful, his life was only a few decades. Samuel has to live longer, so that he will not be lonely in the years to come, and that is the real good for him——

The author has something to say:

①It was the Romans who first poured the chamber pot down from the upstairs, and the Europeans followed the Romans' hygienic habits.

However, all countries know that when the chamber pot is poured out, the French shout "be careful of the water!" The British shout "be careful of the toilet seat", probably because the "toilet seat" is the predecessor of the toilet.The Italians say "take your lantern".Modest and courteous men walk on the left side of the woman to protect the latter from the mysterious attack from the window.This custom has been passed down to this day.

PS: You can go and watch the old Sherlock Holmes TV series. Of course, it is not the process of investigating the case, but the life of the urban lower class there. ==, women are often seen pouring things down from windows...

PS: Soldiers in European castles will never stand under the windows on duty, because what will appear in the window will not be a beautiful princess, but a servant with a chamber pot, and they will pour the chamber pot downwards, so stand down below...

②Actors in ancient Europe were not much better off than Chinese actors.It is also glorious when they become famous, but when the big shots call, they still have to obediently send themselves to bed.As for those who are not famous or have passed away, their fate is often even more miserable.Moreover, women were not allowed to perform on stage in early Europe, and those who played female roles were either boys who had not changed their voices, or "men" who were castrated and kept their female voices.