past star

"What?" Xue Xun suddenly opened his eyes wide.

Lu Yuan scratched his hair, with a embarrassed expression on his face: "I see you are so awkward, I feel bad too... I saw him downstairs hiding in a corner, but he refused to come up, so I asked about your affairs, and after listening to me I really feel very sorry, so I just wanted to pull him up and tell you clearly... Anyway, this thing between you and Aqi is not true...I..."

If so, then he just said that Wen Yanyu is despicable...

Xue Xun panicked and just wanted to get up, but before he could stand upright, he sat back down again.

Don't say that Wen Yanyu has already gone far, even if he catches up now, what can he say? Half of his radical words just now blame Wen Yanyu, but the other half is true, and he really cares about it.

"What happened to him after that?"

Lu Yuan suddenly thought of it and said: "By the way, Ah Xun, what did you say to Yan Yu?"

"……nothing."

"When Yanyu left, his face was very ugly, as if the road was not stable, and I would not let me see him off even if I wanted to."

Xue Xun tried his best to restrain the desire to ask further questions, and said lightly: "Really? By the way, isn't today your new film press conference?"

Mentioning this, Lu Yuan immediately became elated: "Yeah, I think this film will be better than the ones I made before, this time I will definitely be able to... wait" Halfway through speaking, Lu Yuan seemed to suddenly wake up, "A Xun, Why did you suddenly change the subject?"

"I didn't, it was your illusion."

Xue Xun lied without changing his expression.

But in my heart, it was full of Lu Yuan's words just now.

"The face is ugly, as if the road is not stable..."

Xue Xun didn't know how deeply he was hurt, but he did hurt...the person he always wanted to protect.

However, if Wen Yanyu doesn't understand from the beginning to the end that love is not a one-sided initiative, nor is it a one-sided dependence. If it wants to be longer and more tenacious, Wen Yanyu must also cherish this relationship and love with an equal attitude .

Otherwise, how long can the unilaterally supported relationship last?

For Wen Yanyu, maybe Xue Xun's feelings came too easily and too strong, so Wen Yanyu, who has been passively choosing, thought that no matter what he did, it would always be strong?

It's like being caught in a paradoxical situation.

Xue Xun is the person who is least willing to hurt Wen Yanyu, but he has to.

With a wry smile, he still loves Wen Yanyu, at least for now.

If you don't love, you won't feel angry, you won't feel hurt, and you won't...still worry about Wen Yanyu.

Is Wen Yanyu mean?

How is he not despicable?

People are always greedy. After getting Wen Yanyu's response, after realizing the flaws in the relationship, he did not hesitate to hurt Wen Yanyu. He also wanted to get a complete and fair relationship.

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Back home by car, Wen Yanyu took off his clothes, went into the bathroom and took a shower.

The mist evaporated, and he became more and more confused.

After leaving the bathroom, Bai Liu threw himself into his arms, bent down, hugged Bai Liu's soft, warm and fluffy body, and Wen Yanyu squatted quietly for a while.

Lie in the quilt, force yourself to forget, and then fall asleep.

One nightmare after another in my sleep. When I woke up in the morning, I couldn't remember what I had dreamed of. I only felt a tight pain in my chest, and even my breathing was suffocating. When I looked at the pillowcase, there was a faint wet spot on my forehead.

Supporting his forehead, Wen Yanyu sat on the bed for a long time.

I couldn't sleep until my heartbeat and breathing calmed down.

After washing up, he put on his clothes, and went to the nearest video store with Bai Liu in his arms. It was too early, and he went to several shops before a video store opened. As soon as the boss let him in, Wen Yanyu rummaged inside carefully, for a long time. Finally, I bought all the movies that Xue Xun could find.

Carrying a plastic bag full of Xue Xun's movie discs and food storage, Wen Yanyu returned home, turned on the DVD player, sat in front of the sofa, picked up Bai Liu, closed the curtains, and watched one movie after another tirelessly. go down.

After watching it, I realized that the disc included all the works that Xue Xun has starred in since his debut, no matter whether it is a movie or a TV series, from Xue Xun's earliest works to last year's new films, not a single one was missed.

The characters that Xue Xun has portrayed are so many that even he himself can’t remember them clearly, ranging from emperors and rich people to small hooligans. You can find Xue Xun’s own shadow in the characters, but you can also see that the roles he plays are unique. character traits.

In the beginning, Xue Xun's acting skills were not mature. His debut work was a grotesque literary film. The story was incomprehensible from the beginning to the end, and the camera images were messy. It is still an extremely photogenic face, but this face is very stiff in the process of acting, and the expression is deadlocked and there is no aura at all.

If it wasn't for that highly recognizable face, Wen Yanyu might not have recognized Xue Xun at all.

Then, Xue Xun took over two idol dramas.

It has to be said that for Xue Xun at the time, it was the best use of everything.

The plot of the Korean version of the idol novel, the stubborn and kind-hearted commoner girl and the domineering and affectionate rich young master, laughing and making noises, completely impress the young audience with extravagant and exaggerated material and the plot dialogue of the bloody Qiong Yao.

For such a role, Xue Xun is obviously very proficient, whether it is domineering or the arrogance of spending money between eyebrows, he can do it easily, and his acting skills are also improving at a rapid speed.

At the beginning, Xue Xun's heart-warming scene was a bit of a drama, but at the end of the play, the scene of a confession in the rain really made Wen Yanyu feel pain in his heart.

On the screen, heavy rain poured down, and Xue Xun was standing opposite the heroine, soaked through, with strands of hair sticking to his forehead, looking in a state of distress.

His handsome face was full of haggardness, and the corners of his brows and eyes showed a distressing sadness. His body was stiff, his eyes were slightly downcast, but his expression was like a bewildered child who was at a loss and helpless.

He said: "It was all my fault before, but... I love you, don't leave me, okay?"

Wen Yanyu looked at this picture back and forth repeatedly, until his eyes felt sour, then he continued to look at it.

After watching a few more, it was a low-budget commercial film.

Wen Yanyu remembered that this was the starting point for Xue Xun to become popular.

No matter how good-looking Xue Xun is and how obsessed little girls are, if he wants to be popular, he must be recognized by the box office and industry insiders. Acting skills can't be faked at all.

But this movie really made Xue Xun known to the audience by virtue of his acting skills. At that time, Wen Yanyu's family changed drastically, and he had no time to watch movies and no time to pay attention to newcomers. I have left an impression at all, which shows that the performance of this movie was really good that year.

Xue Xun plays a depressed little policeman who wants to prove himself in a big case, so he volunteers to take over the undercover task of the gangsters. He has experienced many ironic and thrilling experiences in the process of being an undercover agent to gain trust and collect evidence. The incomparable incidents also gradually developed feelings for these big bosses. Finally, under the torment of conscience and responsibility, the little policeman chose to hand in the evidence and report the news.

The witty and humorous dialogue, almost spoof plot, and exaggerated performance techniques all make this movie have a high entertainment value.

Especially at the end, after the little policeman was promoted and returned home, he played My Sassy Girlfriend with the heroine, the daughter of the gang boss who has abandoned gangsters for business, and it was full of a strong commercial comedy atmosphere.

Back then, this funny New Year film won a lot of money in the annual film market as a dark horse.

When it comes to the reason why it is popular, some people say it is because the plot is relaxed, some people say it is because it is aimed at handsome men and women, but more people say it is because Xue Xun's acting skills vividly reflect the image of a small person, including the last time undercover , Some people were even moved to tears by such a real inner struggle in the movie theater.

After that, Xue Xun's films never fell below that level.

One is more exquisite in acting than the other, and one is more amazing than the other.

Like a phoenix on fire, Xue Xun has carved out a world that belongs to him in the entertainment circle with a dazzling gesture.

This is Xue Xun.

The moment the DVD player was turned off, Wen Yanyu pressed his eyelids and straightened up.

He has already been able to fully recount the characteristics of every role Xue Xun has played, and he can clearly remember every habitual small movement of Xue Xun in front of the camera.

That was quite different from the real person who appeared in front of him.

More engaging and comprehensive.

More than once, he remembered that Xue Xun was watching those old films he had made at home, and Wen Yanyu hadn't paid much attention to them. Thinking about it now, he felt a little indescribable.

He actually doesn't know Xue Xun well enough.

He doesn't know what taste Xue Xun likes, what color Xue Xun likes, what Xue Xun likes to do every day to waste time, and what Xue Xun has experienced since childhood.

So it should be self-righteous to fall in love with Xue Xun.

Yes, lovers don't need to know so much about each other, but... If you want to live forever, knowing each other is actually necessary.

On top of that, he didn't even try to understand.

Xue Xun is right, he is despicable.

The reason why he can easily talk about breaking up is because he believes that Xue Xun loves him, and Xue Xun will not give up on him easily, so he can calmly withdraw, because he does not want to destroy Xue Xun's career, does not want to disappoint Xue's mother, does not want to Let those nasty scandals go hand in hand again, and propose a breakup.

Subconsciously, does he also think that after all these things are over, he can be with Xue Xun again.

Perhaps because of realizing Wen Yanyu's psychology, Xue Xun was hurt by him.

Do it yourself.

Xue Xun's feelings came too fast and too strong.

He resisted, refused, and hurt again and again, but finally softened and succumbed to his heart.

But gradually forget that the person who gave this feeling also has the right to choose to take back his own feelings.

The active right to choose is not in his hands alone.

Only at this time, Wen Yanyu realized that, as the first person to open the door of his heart for a long time, Xue Xun has gradually become inseparable since at some point.

Why is it that Xue Xun is always chasing, but he is running away?

Silently put away all the dishes and put them away, Wen Yanyu opened the curtains.

A bright light from the window was projected into the house, bright and even a little glaring.

I started watching it early in the morning, even if I skipped the plot, it was already afternoon.

Wen Yanyu subconsciously blocked the light with his hand, and after a while he got used to the light and took off his arm.

Dazzling spots of light jumped into his pupils.

The sun is just right, spring and Hitachi.

The matter of his father was no longer his worst nightmare. In fact, he was not as fragile as he thought.

Being pointed at and scolded by Xue Xun's fans, overwhelming malicious injuries and speculation, and the scars of the past being torn open, he has also experienced it. Although it is difficult, it is not completely unbearable. He thinks that it is Xue Xun who supports him, But... Xue Xun wasn't there at that time, was he?

No matter how harshly you are scolded, no matter how ugly you are, no matter how sad you feel in your heart, it will not change anything. On the other hand, a large part of what they say is true...

His father was indeed gay, and he did die of AIDS, and he and Xue Xun were indeed... homosexual.

However, so what?

Is this so unacceptable?

What was Wen Yanyu like before?

He dug out the trophy for the best newcomer that year from the cupboard. The trophy, which had been dusty for a long time, was dusty and dirty. When he lifted the trophy, he saw an even older photo below.

Take it out, wipe it clean, and gradually you can see the boy in the photo clearly.

The picture freezes at the moment when he raised his eyebrows and kissed the trophy. He was young and radiant, his face was radiant, and the smile on his lips curved too far.

It's like an eternity.

If there is no matter about his father, what would he be like now?

Pick your favorite movies one by one, and after eight years, with the guidance of your father, how can you come back with a trophy or two of best actor? Maybe you will become as domineering and domineering as your father was back then, maybe you will stand on the same side as Xue Xun Competing for the position of best actor off the stage, maybe...

What was it that turned him into what he is now?