linked to the collar

After dinner, Xiao Ran originally planned to go back to his room to mount a letter that had been half-framed in the past few days, but Bai Ye stopped him when he stood up. "Go, take a night tour with me."

"what?"

"Why, you don't want to be with me?" Bai Ye cast a glance at Xiao Ran, walked to the door to pick up the second-hand lantern, and stretched out a hand to Xiao Ran. "You don't want to go to that yard with me to find out?"

Bai Ye led Xiao Ran to push open the creaking black wooden door of Jia Lan's courtyard, and when Xiao Ran also entered the courtyard, he closed the wooden door again with his backhand, and then took Xiao Ran's hand and walked along the backyard .Xiao Ran felt embarrassed by the hands they were holding, and Bai Ye clenched it even tighter after struggling a bit.

"Don't move around, it's dark, this garden hasn't been cleaned up much, be careful of tripping over." Bai Ye said confidently, anyway, it was dark, and Xiao Ran couldn't see the color of his contented smile.

The two carried a dim yellow lantern and walked straight from the dark and gloomy backyard to the door of the small building where Jia Lan lived.At this moment, the gate of the building is open, and the windows on the first floor are closed tightly, while a few windows on the second floor are open. If you don't look carefully, this Zhulou looks like a monster with its mouth open, layer upon layer. The shadow of the sky adds to the sadness.

Xiao Ran stood and watched from afar, and couldn't help but sigh. "This small building is really beautiful. It's really unbearable to let it fall into disrepair now that no one lives there."

Bai Ye didn't have such leisurely feelings like Xiao Ran's. Holding a lantern, he looked around and said, "It is said that the Jia family didn't build this yard. I heard that it was originally a general's residence in the previous dynasty. It was only a few years ago. A courtyard, where you live now and several other courtyards were expanded by the later owners. This courtyard is one of the first few, Xiao Ran, I heard that things will become ghosts after a long time, and I saw you like this again Take pity on this Zhulou, could it be that what you heard that day was the sigh of this building?"

Xiao Ran ignored him and followed him to the entrance of the small building. "Bai Ye, didn't you say that you have too much evil spirit, no matter whether people or ghosts dare to make trouble in front of you? Then what's the use of coming with you now?"

"Oh, are you driving me away and want to visit this small building alone at night? I don't care. I'm just afraid that you will be afraid. Why don't you go up and have a look yourself, and I'll wait for you outside?" Bai Ye made a gesture and threw the lantern towards him. It was stuffed in Li Ran's hand, and Li Ran was so angry with Bai Ye's laughter that he reached out to pick it up, but Bai Ye just held it tightly.

"I didn't say anything. I had to see something. I just came to see the situation. Well, tell me what happened that day. I'm so happy that I was scared to death when I talked about it. Ask him something specific. I couldn't tell, so I asked you to come here. Xiao Ran, when you heard that sound, you were in the pavilion outside the wall, right?"

He raised his thumbs and compared to the outside of the wall, Xiao Ran thought about it and nodded. "Well, it was Brother Tang who heard it at first. Heh, people like you have much better hearing than us. Later, I even heard it, but I haven't listened to it yet."

Bai Ye was walking towards the bushes by the wall, and while carefully looking around, he smiled without looking up: "Xiao Ran, if you want to learn martial arts, you can come to me. I dare not say that I can teach you to be a master. It is not a problem to strengthen your body. It's—hey, I like to say that when you entered the yard later, you heard sighs again? Where did you hear that?"

Xiao Ran took a few steps back while recalling. "It's almost here. Huanxi has been holding us to prevent us from going further. Brother Tang and I heard it from here. The source of the sound... Well, it's really hard to say. It feels like the sound coming from the woods here. It came, and it seemed to come from inside that building."

Bai Ye nodded, not surprised at all. "Heh, if it wasn't so mysterious, it wouldn't be so frightening and pleasing." While talking, he walked back from the wall and handed the lantern to Xiao Ran. "I'll go to the building to have a look—hey, I can see things at night. The lantern was prepared for you. You take it. Don't follow me. Just wait here for me. I promise I'll be back soon."

So, Xiao Ran stood alone outside that Zhulou with a lantern.

It was a little windy at night, Xiao Ran felt a little cold, so he couldn't help shrinking his neck.The wind seemed to be blowing towards the inside of a person's neck, and it was chilling through the heart.

I don't know what Bai Ye was looking inside, so they all went in...for a while, right?He hasn't come out yet, Xiao Ran thought, in fact, he was really worried about him.

The man raised his eyebrows and raised his head, saying that he would be fine if he was so angry, but, can he say such things casually?Xiao Ran remembered Bai Ye's proud eyes and brows when he said this, and an unconscious smile appeared on his lips.

How come you still look like a child.

I also remember that man's worry when he heard this happened to him, oh, Bai Ye, it's not you who happened to me, you didn't say anything, but in your eyes, how long did you look me up and down?Are you researching whether I am possessed by a fox spirit, or are you investigating whether there is something wrong with me?

If, Master Leng looks like my father, you...

you……

Bai Ye, I'm just your brother-in-law, am I not?

I really don't understand the affection between your eyebrows?Still, don't want to understand?

What's wrong with being a brother-in-law?It allows me to accept your contribution with peace of mind, without having to think too much... Bai Ye, I don't want to humiliate myself anymore, don't you understand?

That love is the last thing I want to recall in my life, Bai Ye, I...I regret it.

Bai Ye, Bai Ye, why did I love you back then?

Just, the warmth of a hug, right?

Thank you for bringing me the ultimate joy, I admit, that is what Qionghua never gave me... You let my body grow, you let me crave your warmth.

I really don't know if you are indifferent?I... know it... it's just that I don't want to face it squarely.

At that time, I would rather imagine your love, and would rather indulge in the warmth you gave me than extricate myself.

I don't want to think about whether what you gave me is the same rejection of loneliness, or just for the needs of the body.

Bai Ye, Bai Ye, in fact, the self at that time was as lifeless as in a swamp.It was you who dragged me ashore and reminded me that I was alive.

You are my piece of driftwood.

I... love you, and even more so, can't live without you.

Both father and mother left, and Qionghua... also left.Sorry, I'm actually a coward, I just hate being alone all the time.

The kids are lovely, but they can't be with me all the time.

The Four Books and Five Classics are very good, but they can't solve the melancholy in my heart.

I want someone to be with me, I hate it, it's always just me.

I will intentionally knock over the teacup, and let the brown tea overflow; I will intentionally ignore the desk, so that the volumes are piled up so that an oil lamp cannot fit; I will intentionally cut my fingers while chopping vegetables...Dad, mother, Qionghua, why don't you come to comfort me?

In my eyes, in the end, there is only Bai Ye.

It's not that I'm in love with him, but... I have to love him...

When the limbs are entangled, the pleasure is out of the mind... I will feel that I am alive...

When I heard Bai Ye's words in that small cubicle back then, I was certainly sad, but more... I was at a loss.

Even you don't want me, you don't want me, who will prove that I actually still exist?

Or... I have actually been dead for a long time... It's just that no one has discovered it...

Bai Ye, you won't understand my despair at that time.

Your lack of love, or mine is worthless.

It never occurred to me that I would see you again... no, I should say, that our reunion would be like that.

In the past two years, when I dreamed back at midnight, I imagined countless times that maybe one day you and I will meet again.

At most, it's just nodding to each other, arching hands, saying hello, that's all, right?

Bai Ye, do you know that you fell from the sky that day... like a heavenly soldier, so chic that I couldn't take my eyes off it.

It turns out that two years is still too short, not enough for me to go, not to love you...

Bai Ye, I'm such...a shameless existence, I took advantage of your guilt, you...you really don't know?

Why are you guilty of me!

You have never loved me, you are not wrong, love cannot be forced, everyone knows, what are you guilty of?

not to mention……

Weren't we using each other back then?

To you, what is the difference between me and Canxing?It's just that it's just to make each other happy, maybe it's just such a difference.

What are you guilty of?

I don't want your guilt, don't you understand?

Love is never equal.

Whoever pays first will be doomed.

Me and you, I fell in love first, I didn't regret it at the time, I was grateful, I am glad that because of you, I can prove my existence.

But no matter how much I pay, Bai Ye, I only hope to get your love!

If love is a bottomless pit, I still hope that the bottom of the invisible pit is your affection.

Even if it is slim, there is always hope.

Bai Ye, Bai Ye.

If you don't love me, how can I...

Is it still alive?

But now, I don't even want to mention the past, why has it become the past that you never forget?

I... have never missed the affection in the corners of your eyes and brows.

But Bai Ye, I'm awake, I'm already awake, why... are you still awake?

What a mistake we are...