Duckling Notes

I had to hold back to control myself from screaming, Jin Zinan must have taken the wrong medicine today, otherwise he wouldn't be so rude, I couldn't hold back my voice, I couldn't hold back my tears.Tears are rolling in the corners of the eyes.

Fortunately, Jin Zinan didn't do anything wrong, he felt that my place was tense, so he stopped rushing in so hard, and kissed my back to ask how I was doing.

I can feel his things in my body, trembling with his heartbeat, feeling aggrieved, "Brother Jin, how long have you been holding it in, it hurts..."

He kissed more gently, and said, "Then I'll slow down." He backed out without saying anything.

I had no choice but to take another deep breath and soften my body, "Slow down, let's talk first." It was really the darkness before dawn.

(crab river crab river crab river crab river crab river crab river crab...)

After I was completely intoxicated, Jin Zinan made another move.

Why should I be a duck, that is the question.This question is a bit unclear now, it’s all wrong, and I’m too lazy to do it.But one of the perks of being a duck is getting to taste this drunken orgasm.I have always believed that unencumbered sex is far stronger than mixed sex.What kind of love, hate, care, worry, caught in it, how could it be possible to let go?

(crab river crab river crab river crab river crab river crab river crab...)

The car is probably shaking.

……

After finishing the work, Jin Zinan lit a cigarette and smoked it while leaning against the car window.I put on my clothes one by one, only to realize that when he just took off my shoes, he left them outside the car.

I opened the car door to look for shoes, and a car just passed by. I found the shoes from under the car and hadn’t put on my feet. The silver-gray car came back again. It was neither familiar nor unfamiliar. The voice asked, "Little A? What's wrong with you?"

I looked up, and he probably saw Jin Zinan who was sitting next to me, and smiled knowingly, "I'm really bothering you."

That silver-gray car made me suddenly wake up, no wonder I thought the boss of this hot pot city was familiar to me, the name Xing Zhaohe was familiar to me, it turned out to be him.

I froze there suddenly.In a daze, he had already driven away, stopped the car tens of meters away, and went to the small woods.I didn't look here again.

Instead, Jin Zinan said, "Isn't it? This person has only been abroad for two years, why has his sexual orientation changed since he came back?"

Only then did I come to my senses and pick up the words, "Didn't he before?"

Jin Zinan nodded, "Definitely a man."

"Oh, then maybe he came here for something."

Jin Zinan became interested, "Are you betting? Let's stay here and see if he comes out with a man?"

I shook my head, "No, I'm sleepy, I want to go home." It's too late for me to hide from him?Where is the interest in squatting to guard him?Isn't that using a small blunt knife to kill yourself?

Jin Zinan took me over and hugged me for a while, "Maybe he's gay. When he was in China, he didn't provoke men or women, so he avoided us. Whatever. Let's go home." "

I went back to my own den, washed up casually, and then I fell headlong into the bed.Jin Zinan has already gone back, I know I'm not going to go to the hotel with him again today, it's a bit disappointing to him, but there's no way, I just can't arouse my interest at all.

My bed is not big, it is a student dormitory bed on two floors, with an iron frame, a wooden bed board in the middle, and some sundries piled on it.You can't turn over hard when you are sleeping. When you turn over, there will be creaking noises. The bed is covered with two mattresses that are not too thick, which are very old.I do get a tan every week though, and I don't bring anyone with me, so, it's clean, too.

Although the comfort of this bed is not as good as the small sofa in the living room where I can't stretch my legs, I still like this bed, it is commemorative, and since it is uncomfortable, it will not make me addicted to sleep.I was afraid of going to sleep, and I was looking forward to it.

Just like today, I fell asleep in a daze, and I can think about nothing when I fall asleep. It is really a relief, but I wake up in a daze.I know that I am not dreaming, and the things that float in my mind are not dreams, but memories that I can't help, I really want to want to not remember at all, or memories that never happened.But they are destined to accompany me all my life.Always jump out to remind me when I am the happiest, how could you have such a happy life?And always comfort me when I'm in pain, you deserve it, you deserve it.

it's raining outside.I didn't close the window before going to bed, and the cold wind sneaked in with some cold raindrops.very cold.

I had to get up, close the window, take out the sponge mattress I piled on the top bunk, spread it under two layers of mattresses, and add another blanket.

But still cold.

It's not that the mattress is not thick enough, it's not that the quilt is not warm enough.It's because I don't have a fever.

My feet were cold, I curled up and warmed them with my hands, stretched them back under the quilt, and after a while, they became cold again.

I'm most afraid of waking up in the middle of the night.

At this time, I always hope that if there is someone sleeping next to me, and his body is very warm, I can put my hands and feet on his body and sleep warmly.

It's not like now, I can only sleep on my stomach, so I won't pay too much attention to the empty arms.

very empty.

Even the sound of raindrops hitting the window is: "Empty, empty, empty..." Very empty...

With nowhere to put his hands and feet, he fumbled here and there, and found the phone.Forgot to turn it off.The last call was made by Jin Zinan from downstairs to make sure I was home.

Jin Zinan is really a very, very gentle person.

I really want to send him a text message, to be coquettish, and say, Brother Jin, you didn't even kiss me tonight.You forget so many times.

But it is also conceivable that either he turned off the phone.Or, say, make up for it tomorrow.

Moreover, he will definitely make up for it tomorrow.

However, his heart is not on me, almost not at all.Coax me, just like tonight, Brother Xiong coaxed my two colleagues.It's just that, because they think my character is not bad, which can probably be counted as the phrase "every righteousness kills more dogs", so they are a little more sincere to me.

Just a little bit.I am also not certain.

But now that he texts the past, what will he think?I can't guess, if it were me, I would feel contemptuous: Is this kid taking himself too much for an onion?

So I turned off the phone, fearing that I couldn't help it, I removed the battery and threw it in a corner.

Cover your head and tell yourself, go to sleep, go to sleep, and when you fall asleep, you won’t know anything.

In a dream, or in my memory?Xing Zhaohe got out of the silver-gray car and said, "...what's wrong?"

I seem to hear police gunshots, yes, the police should come, because...

"Hey, Xiao Zhou, did you oversleep? Is it still a holiday today? It's nine o'clock!" the landlord's voice.

I woke up suddenly. I always use my mobile phone as an alarm clock. I removed the battery yesterday, and it will definitely not ring again. The gunshots from the police just now were actually the sound of the landlord knocking on the door.

"Wake up! Go to work now!" I shouted, "Thanks for reminding me."

I sat up dizzy, my feet under the quilt were still cold.

I have to go to "work" though.

I have a fake ID card with a funny name of "Zhou Xiaoming" written on it. Think about it, when I was in elementary school, I just had to make sentences, which were Xiaoming so so, Xiaogang so so so.I just want to laugh.

Classmate Zhou Xiaoming is a poor child. I told the landlord that my parents are working in other places and are very poor. I want to go to school but have no money. So I was introduced by my relatives to take a job here until I have saved enough money. money, go to college.

Therefore, I pretend to come out every day, go out to work for half a day every day, and stay at home for half a day to watch.If you don't come back occasionally at night, you will be working the night shift with your colleagues.

Landlords are easy to cheat, but I think it's probably because they don't take me seriously.He often uses me to teach his six-year-old daughter, "Look at how much my elder brother loves to study. It's so difficult at home, and I don't forget to learn knowledge."

So the little girl would often ask me questions with her first-grade textbook.

Although our grades are indeed not very good, if you can't even coax a first-year child, it's too low.

At 09:30, classmate "Zhou Xiaoming" washed up, ate some food indiscriminately, and rushed out of the house pretending to be late.

I do have a serious job, too, really.

Volunteer at Animal Protection Center.

Since I'm a volunteer, of course I don't get paid. Since I don't get paid, of course no one cares if I'm late or not.

This small animal protection center is usually very lively.It sells both pet supplies and pets.The owner of the store also drives around the streets and alleys every day to see if there are any abandoned kittens and puppies.Pick it up if you have one.Heal the injury, heal the illness, and then find someone to adopt.

I usually go to help the puppy bathe, feed, feed and water, and clean the dog cage.Occasionally take a few for a stroll.

I don't get along very well with the people there, I think.

The boss, the girl at the cash register, and two or three volunteers who don't see us very often. They are also veterinarians. When there are patients, the boss calls them.

I don't know why, but there are always a lot of people around me who love gossip.And I just want to be a gossip insulator, don't gossip with me, and don't take me as a gossip.

Do they know my name, "Zhou Xiaoming"?They know my age, but they don't know where my hometown is, whether I'm still in school, what job I have, and what source of income I have.

They only see that I wear clothes from the brand that was voted as the favorite brand of college students every day, and spend a lot of time with my kittens and puppies every day.

How can it not become gossip?

In fact, it is easy to make up a story.It's not hard to coax them.But I don't want to make it up, I'm always making up one story after another to coax people, my landlord, Lao Xia and the others.I don't have the strength to make another one, I'm afraid I'm going crazy.

So when they asked, I hugged Little Jingba and smiled silly, very sincerely and apologetically.I just have a story, but I just don't want to tell it.

They were very helpless to me.Call me behind my back, Weird Zhou.I think it's a good name, oh, it's cool.

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