Professor Lin's middle-aged love

"Zhou Mo...she...my sister." Lin Yuxi stumbled and said, the possibility hidden behind every word was like a sharp knife cutting her chest.

Holding the doorknob with her fingers, Lin Yuxi tried to stabilize her fluffy body, she didn't know if she would fall down in the next moment.

"Yes, it's Xiaomo." Taking a deep breath, Zhou Ying seemed to have done a lot of psychological construction before she said this. She wondered if she was being too cruel?Shouldn't she have said it?Always keep it a secret.

But is that fair?For Lin Yuxi, the one who was kept in the dark.But speaking out, is it fair to let her suffer psychological harm?

Zhou Ying was struggling, and the guilt in her heart was also increasing, as if a hammer was hitting her chest fiercely, punishing her.

"Xiaomo was still in elementary school back then. Because of something about her father's business, she was kidnapped by a competitor and taken to a mountain village and locked in a cage for torture." Zhou Ying's shoulders shook violently, and it seemed that Zhou Ying appeared in her mind again. When Momo was rescued, she was tortured to the point where she was out of human form. She stared at them in horror, her nose was bruised and her face was swollen, and her body was covered in blood. It was impossible to see her real appearance.

"Do you know Watson's classic conditioning?" Zhou Ying looked sideways at Lin Yuxi who was looking at her with a surprised expression, and continued: "They used this method to torture Xiaomo. She was only so young at that time , Those beasts locked the furry animal with Xiao Mo, then beat her hard and made terrible noises to frighten her, torturing her spirit repeatedly.”

"So Xiaomo was afraid of furry animals approaching for a long time."

Lin Yuxi looked at Zhou Ying in astonishment, listening to her trembling voice tell what had happened to Zhou Mo, her heart seemed to be held in someone's hand and kneaded fiercely.

She thought of the woman who walked up to their car with the puppy to argue last time. The terrified state of Zhou Mo's eyes at that time seemed to confirm Zhou Ying's statement.

"While they threatened Dad, they tortured Xiaomo inhumanely. Later, they released Xiaomo from the cage and planned to take her to a different location. They probably knew that the police had detected the specific field. Location. Unfortunately, there was a heavy rain that day, and Xiaomo escaped while the guards were resting." At this point, Zhou Ying finally breathed a sigh of relief, "Your sister saved her in the mountains."

"My sister? Dashan?" Lin Yuxi murmured, trying to recall that time, when she suddenly raised her eyes, the dark eyes flickered with light and shadow, as if recalling some important details.

"Yes." Zhou Ying nodded, "When the police led us to find them, Xiao Mo was being hugged by your sister and hiding in the cave."

"Because it was in the mountains, the police took notes on your sister alone. We don't know exactly what they said. We only know that the kidnappers never showed up."

Zhou Ying turned her head to look out of the window, Dongzhu was shaking violently in the cold wind, she narrowed her eyes slightly, and said softly: "Your sister refused your mother's thank you, under the stalemate, seeing that she couldn't refuse, she said After seeing the plight of the children in the mountains, we understood what she meant. Afterwards, parents will do their little bit for those children every year."

"And later..." Zhou Ying looked up at Lin Yuxi, and said, "Your sister should have a record in her diary. After all...that's what she asked me to hand over to Xiaomo, if she can recover her memory .”

"Zhou Mo, how did she lose her memory?" Lin Yuxi couldn't help asking, her voice hoarse.

"Since she was rescued, Xiaomo's spirit has been tortured by that encounter, and her heart has been severely damaged." Zhou Ying said in a deep voice, "Her amnesia is very puzzling, but the doctor explained that people are extremely unwilling Selective amnesia when you remember something, and those things and people may all be deleted. It's a bit like... Freud's repression."

"Then... what about that painting?" Lin Yuxi had too many questions in her mind, each of which seemed irrelevant, but was inextricably linked.

"That was painted by Xiaomo. Later, when your sister went to the city to apply for a job, she happened to meet us. At that time, Xiaomo hadn't lost her memory, but she had a withdrawn personality and didn't like people approaching her very much. Her eyes always looked at people. It will be full of fearful light, she resists being touched by others, even family members. But it is amazing, almost the first time I saw your sister, there was a soft light in her eyes, that kind of A sense of trust that I have never had before." A few strands of hair fell down to her ears, and Zhou Ying raised her hands to tuck them behind her ears, "I think it's because of that experience, even though Xiaomo was already terminally ill at that time, she treated you so well. Sister, I still have an impression. At least, she remembers the feeling of dependence."

Fiddled with the black tea on the table with her fingertips, Zhou Ying said in a deep voice: "So with the help of your sister, she began to try to open herself. Or to express herself with paintings, and she also likes to paint more and more. It's just... …She was never willing to paint only one person.”

After a slight pause, Zhou Ying looked up at Lin Yuxi and said, "That's your sister."

Lin Yuxi froze immediately, his eyes were blank, and a feeling of suffocation surged up from the bottom of his heart.

The air is cold and stagnant, and the water in the sand pot has already cooled completely.Both of them lowered their eyes, thinking about each other.

Coming out of the teahouse, Lin Yuxi walked to the car with a lonely expression, opened the door and got in the car.The cold wind swept the front window glass with dust, and she stared blankly, as if her whole body was also infected with the coldness.

It was deathly cold.

So Zhou Mo was the injured girl?

Lin Yuxi closed her sore eyes lightly, leaned her head back on the seat, and the memories in her mind began to drift away.

That afternoon, it was pouring rain, and she passed the rugged mountain road after school with her schoolbag on her back.At that time, their father temporarily moved them to a small mountain village to live in a small mountain village in order to avoid debts.She was afraid to go home alone, but on the way, she found a thin and small person lying in the pothole in front of her.

She originally planned to run around the little man, but hearing the whimpering and crying of the child, she couldn't help but walk over and take a look.I saw the girl with messy long hair and bruises all over her face.She was even startled by the appearance of the other party.

Kneeling on the ground with both legs, he hugged the girl in his arms, seeing that the wound on her chest was still oozing blood, worried that she would die.Lin Yuxi hugged her, dragging her body to move into a nearby cave.

"Little...sister...sister, are you here to save me?" The little girl grabbed her clothes and trembled all over.

"I'm afraid, they're going to kill me." The girl opened her black eyes, her voice was hoarse, and she was extremely weak.

Lin Yuxi heard her voice, but the fear in her heart disappeared, and she was only thinking about how to save the girl.She lowered her head, and when she was about to answer the other party, she found that the other party was lying in her arms with his head tilted, and fell asleep.

At that time, Lin Yuxi was only in junior high school, hugging the skinny girl, leaning against the cave with difficulty.

"Yuxi." Lin Qingshu's voice came from behind them, and Lin Yuxi's rain-wet hair stuck to her face.She turned her head and looked at her sister who was running over with a smile, finally there was light in her round eyes.

"Sister, come and help me."

"Who is this?" Lin Qingshu held an umbrella for them, frowned and stared at the person who was almost lying in her sister's arms, and asked.

"I don't know. When I passed by here after school, I saw her lying in the puddle, as if she had escaped from somewhere, and she was covered with injuries." Lin Yuxi carefully held the girl in her arms, and Lin Qingshu supported them with one hand. Umbrella, the other hand dragged under the girl's buttocks, and the two moved into the cave.

"Sister, there is gauze in my schoolbag, take it out for me and bandage her wound." Lin Yuxi sat on the stone bench with her arms around the girl.Because she often walks on mountain roads, injuries are common, so she always carries gauze and medicine in her schoolbag.

"Well, good." After all, Lin Qingshu was older than them, and her movements were careful, and she didn't hurt the girl.

Lin Yuxi stared down at the person in her arms, seeing that she was hot and trembling, thinking about her soaked clothes, she raised her head and said to Lin Qingshu who was standing in front of her: "Sister, you should sit down Hold her. I'm all wet and I can't keep her warm."

The two exchanged, and Lin Yuxi stood up and looked at the blue-black sky outside the cave. It was raining heavily, and she unconsciously frowned.

"Sister, hold her and wait here. I will run back and find the adults in the village to rescue her."

"Can you do it alone?" Lin Qingshu looked at her younger sister and asked with a worried expression when she saw that her clothes were wet on her body.

"It's okay, don't hurry up, I'm afraid her life will be in danger." At that time, Lin Yuxi was always in a hurry, and rushed into the rain curtain with an umbrella.

Because he was worried about the safety of the girl, Lin Yuxi almost always ran.However, the mountain roads are already rough and bumpy, coupled with the heavy rain, the dirt roads are not easy to walk, and there are no lights on the dark roads. Lin Yuxi had a hard time walking.

When going down the mountain, because her feet slipped on the stone, she accidentally rolled down the stone steps. Fortunately, she caught the cable on the side in time.But the trousers were cut by the sharp part of the stone, and there was also a long bloody gash on the calf.

Lin Yuxi gritted her teeth and limped back to the village. It was three hours later when she called for help and rushed back.

The girl at that time had already been rescued.

My sister said that the girl's family and the police found the cave.The police asked her about the situation alone, and asked her if she had seen the kidnapper. She truthfully said that it was the girl her sister saw lying in the puddle alone after school, and there was no one else.

Later, until they moved out of the mountain village, Lin Yuxi never saw that girl again, as if she was just a passer-by in her life.

With her thoughts back together, Lin Yuxi let out a long sigh.No wonder there is also a scar on Zhou Mo's chest. Every time she sees it, she always has an inexplicable feeling, always thinking of that memory.

Why is this happening?

My sister... likes... Zhou Mo?

Since when?

And Zhou Mo, do you actually like your sister too?And she, in fact, was only because she looked like her sister that Zhou Mo fell in love at first sight?

love at first sight?

Lin Yuxi's throat choked, she never understood why Zhou Mo fell in love with her so quickly, she had only met her a few times.

Is it because of my sister?Her elder sister's embrace gave her a sense of security, while her own embrace gave Zhou Mo the illusion, and it happened that she just looked like her elder sister, that's why she took over her elder sister's love by mistake?

Covering her mouth with her hand, Lin Yuxi frowned desperately.As soon as she closed her eyes, all the sweet memories with Zhou Mo flashed scene by scene, but her heart went cold.

She has never collapsed like today. The guilt towards her sister and the complicated feelings towards Zhou Mo tortured her and tore her nerves.

She leaned over suddenly, resting her forehead on the steering wheel, clenched her pale fingers, asking herself, Zhou Mo, and her sister over and over again.

"Why? Why is this happening?"

The ringtone of the mobile phone suddenly rang in his ears, Lin Yuxi's shoulders tightened, and he turned his head to look over hesitantly, the word Zhou Mo appeared in front of his eyes.

She closed her eyes in pain, took a deep breath, and pressed the answer button with trembling hands.

"Hello." Lin Yuxi's voice was extremely soft, like a dandelion, which would disperse when the wind blows.

"Wife, where are you? When will you go home? I bought your favorite winter bamboo shoots."

Zhou Mo's voice was still gentle and loving as always, but when it fell into Lin Yuxi's ears, it was like a sharp dagger piercing her heart.

Family?

Where is her home?

The author has something to say: there will be another update at 09:30 in the evening, thanks to reader friend An Dao for providing relevant professional knowledge.

So, every plot arrangement of my previous chapters is useful.Including my repeated emphasis that when Zhou Ying looked at Lin Yuxi, she always seemed to see another person through her; Lin Yuxi always couldn't understand why Zhou Mo fell in love with her so quickly; Zhou Mo could draw and so on.Do you all remember?Although I don't know if what I wrote is messy, but I am trying to make it clear.What I feel powerless in writing these chapters is the insertion of memories. This is my shortcoming, and I have not thought of a way to correct it for the time being.Friends who have unique insights can leave a message to me in the comment area, thank you.