Professor Lin's middle-aged love

After a while, Zhou Ying mustered up the courage to open the envelope. She moved cautiously, for fear of tearing the letter paper inside.

When she pulled out the folded letter paper, her fingertips trembled.Taking a deep breath, Zhou Ying sat in front of the window, looking down at the letter in her hand.

The bright light outside the window reflected on the snow-white paper, and every raised black letter appeared extraordinarily clear.

Zhou Ying:

When I wrote this letter, I was actually very disturbed. I wanted you to see it but I was afraid that you would see it. I was very conflicted. Just like me, I am very good at torturing people, right?

I don't know what year it was when you read this letter, how are you doing now?Xuanxuan should grow into a big girl, right?She must be like you, slim and beautiful.

I wonder if she also loves to dance?

When I wrote this letter, it was snowing outside the window. It was snowing heavily, and it was a vast expanse of white. After a while, the outside of the window was dyed bright white, which was very vivid.Remember the snowman we once built together with Xiaomo?You see the lonely snowman standing in the yard, and you insist on helping her make another companion.I know that you are a deeply affectionate and kind woman, and I have failed you.

Zhou Ying, I have held back some words for a long time, originally wanting them to leave with me.Maybe you don't know, you can live happily ever after.And we, like two parallel lines, will never meet again.

But in the end I was selfish and couldn't resist writing you a letter.I'm betting, I think if you see it, it means our fate is still there.Actually, I want you to remember me, I want to keep a place in your heart.I know yours. After a long time, if you figure it out, you will find a way to forget me.

After all, I hurt you and betrayed your affection.

But I am selfish and afraid that you will forget me, because if you don’t remember me in this life, and we meet again in the next life, will you treat me like a stranger?I was even thinking, can I meet you again in my next life?Let me chase you and love you without any worries.

Am I being too selfish?If I want to push you away, I will push away, and when I want to love you, I will pester you again.

Zhou Ying, that painful experience made me realize a lot. For Xiaomo, I treat her like a younger sister. When I see her, I always think of my younger sister. The overflowing maternal love, the desire to hold her The feeling of protecting her has become a habit.That is the instinct of being an older sister to take care of her younger sister.

The reason I haven't expressed my feelings to you is because I know my time is numbered.I don't want you to watch me leave, that would be cruel.Rather, if it is broken, it is easier to stab it suddenly than to cut it back and forth one after another.

Pain is only temporary.

Zhou Ying, you are so beautiful, you are as beautiful as the snow lotus in Tianshan Mountain, that's how I describe it in books.Bright, pure and beautiful, not stained with dust.When I recognized my heart, I found that we were too far apart, so I never allowed myself to think more about the relationship with you.

Am I missing a lot?

In the late stage of cancer, it is very painful, the pain of bone erosion.I curled up on the bed and endured the pain with my eyes closed, but when I thought of you, it seemed that the pain would be diverted.Later, I began to secretly watch the little video of your dancing, the swan-like figure is amazingly beautiful.

Sorry for being incoherent for so long, I don't know what to write, just want to let you know that you are not trying alone.Once, I also wanted to be infinitely close to you.Remember the last time we met?That time you drove to see me overnight, I was really touched and distressed.You hugged me, and I finally had the courage to hug you back.

You see, I am so cowardly that I dare not even hug you.

For the first time, I seriously felt the fragrance on your body, trying to remember the taste that belongs to you.I don't want to forget you, I'm afraid we will miss you again in the next life when we meet.

Zhou Ying, in fact, my ultimate purpose of writing this letter is to make an agreement with you.Of course, if you no longer have me in your heart, burn this letter, I think I should be able to receive your heart, I can feel it.

If... If you still want to meet me in the next life, please remember that I have a tattoo of a cherry blossom on my ankle, I did it specially, I'm afraid you won't remember which one is me.Although I don't know if this trick will work or not, maybe in my next life I will lose the memory of my previous life?I forgot to put the cherry blossoms on my body, then, are we missing it life after life?

I don't want to.

I don't want that.In this life, you can only be Mr. Ning's wife. In the next life, I really want you to belong to me once.Am I being too selfish?At the beginning, I pushed you away with my own hands, and I didn't want you.

Do you still want me?

Zhou Ying, I'm leaving. There is no voice in that world, but it is in my heart. I have engraved your appearance and voice in my heart, so I am not alone.Don't worry about me, I am watching you in the sky, watching you happy.Promise me, to be happy, if you are not happy, I will also be heartbroken.

If there is a destiny, see you in the next life.

Lin Qingshu

By the end of the letter, Zhou Ying had already burst into tears, tears streaming down her face.She didn't expect that her love would resound. Lin Qingshu's letter was like a good medicine, which saved her cold and dead heart.She lowered her head and looked at the words on the letter paper with tears in her eyes. At the beginning, it was very neat, but the handwriting became more and more distorted towards the end, and some strokes were even broken several times before they were completed.

Is she still suffering from illness when writing this letter?

With tears in her eyes, Zhou Ying tilted her head to look out the window, and a thin snow fell in the sky. She seemed to be recalling the past with Lin Qingshu.

Bit by bit, vividly.

She suddenly put her hands on her forehead, put her arms on the table, and wept bitterly.

"Why? Qingshu, tell me why?" Hot tears dripped down on the table, one drop after another, more and more water stains.

She put her hands on her chest, breathing hard.It hurt so much, Zhou Ying frowned and leaned back on the chair behind her, her eyes closed tightly, Lin Qingshu's shadow in front of her eyes was sometimes clear and sometimes blurred.

The so-called life is better than death, she finally realized now.

After waiting for a long time, she lowered her head and folded the letter into her bag. Zhou Ying suddenly stood up, took her bag and windbreaker and rushed out the door.

She hasn't been to Lin Qingshu's cemetery for a while, and Zhou Ying hasn't been here since autumn said goodbye to her.

She is really ready to forget her.

The bluestone road was wetted by falling snow, and it was covered with a thin layer of frost, which was translucent.Zhou Ying stopped the car steadily, and when she got out of the car, her heart ached, and her hands tightened slightly on the door frame.

She was a little afraid to see Lin Qingshu, after all, she had been blaming Lin Qingshu for so many years.

Standing in front of the tombstone, Zhou Ying lowered her head in silence, the cold wind swept by her ears, bitingly cold.

She took a deep breath before raising her head, staring at Lin Qingshu's photo, with water droplets on it, she raised her hand, wanted to touch it but dared not, hesitated, and finally put it down.

"Qingshu." Zhou Ying's hoarse voice called softly, the surrounding was silent, only the rustling of the branches in the wind.

"I'm sorry, I haven't seen you for so long." Zhou Ying raised her eyes to look at Lin Qingshu's clear eyes in the photo, and avoided looking at each other guiltyly, "I..."

Zhou Ying's voice was low, almost drowned by the wind, "I haven't come here for so long, and I said I won't see you again in the next life, are you sad?"

Thinking of what she had said to her back then, Zhou Ying's heart throbbed slightly. She pursed her lips tightly, looking at Lin Qingshu's cold picture, she was very desolate, "I didn't stay by your side when you were sick. After you left, I blamed you for so many years. sorry."

Snowflakes fell on her curled eyelashes and instantly melted into water. Zhou Ying's eyelashes trembled, and she continued, "I read your letter."

After a moment of silence, she finally lost control and said, half angry and half distressed: "You fool, why do you hide everything in your heart? Even I hide it from you. If you tell me, I will definitely be by your side. Xiaomo can accompany Yuxi through the torment of illness, and I believe I can too."

"Unfortunately, you didn't give me a chance."

She clenched her fists and her whole body was trembling, "Why do you love me and push me away? Do you know how painful it is for me to see you marry someone else and accept the fact that you left this world?"

Zhou Ying's voice cut through the peaceful sky, like a crack on the ice, dividing it into two halves.

Zhou Ying felt that her whole body was torn apart, and it hurt so much.

Suffering from a heart attack, Zhou Ying slowly closed her eyes and held back her tears, recalling the pain in her heart for so many years, they just missed their whole life like this.

If Lin Qingshu didn't love her, she would admit it.But now, knowing the other party's feelings for her, Zhou Ying was in so much pain that she couldn't help herself. How did she get to where she is today?

She lowered her head, and her hot tears hit the ground, instantly scalding the thin layer of ice that had condensed on the ground, shattering it bit by bit.

After a while, Zhou Ying finally took two steps forward, reached out and gently stroked Lin Qingshu's photo, with delicate features and clean face, she traced it with her fingertips, "You said the next life, I promise you. Don't let me in the next life If it hurts like this again, I don't have so much strength. I love you too much in this life, but in the next life, will you love me more?"

Another silence responded to her, but this time, she was sure that Lin Qingshu would.

Taking a deep breath, the white mist instantly dissipated in the cold wind. Zhou Ying smiled bitterly, tears welling up in her eyes, "We just missed it, I'm not reconciled."

After talking with Lin Qingshu for a while, a thin layer of snow accumulated on her shoulders, Zhou Ying raised her hand to caress her icy cheeks, feeling a little pained by the wind, "Ning Yuyang treated me very well, I am very happy, this time For the rest of my life, I can no longer bear him."

When she said this, her heart was twisted like a knife, she frowned to endure the depression in her heart, and choked up, "I will wait for you in the next life, and I hope that my happiness at that time will be given to me by you."

But, will they still have an afterlife?

Zhou Ying's expression dimmed, her thin shoulders shrank in the cold wind, feeling infinitely lonely.

***

In a blink of an eye, the New Year is approaching, and red lanterns are hung outside the courtyard of Zhou's villa, and couplets are posted early.Taking advantage of his spare time, Zhou Mo drove a detour to bring Mother Lin to his home after get off work.

Every time Zhou Mo could think of Lin Yuxi, when they arrived at the villa, Lin Yuxi and Qin Xue were busy in the kitchen.Hearing her daughter happily saying that grandma was here, Lin Yuxi was taken aback for a moment, and then walked out wearing an apron. Seeing her mother standing in the hallway with her back facing the sunlight outside, her eyes were red.

Lin Yuxi has been struggling these days, whether she can go back to her mother's house after having dinner with Zhou's family on New Year's Eve, she thought about going back to discuss with Zhou Mo, she never thought about taking her mother to Zhou's house.

After all, during the Chinese New Year, there will be many relatives walking around, and it will be somewhat inconvenient for my mother to come.

When Qin Xue saw Mother Lin coming, she hurried out of the kitchen and greeted her warmly. Lin Yuxi stood there blankly, looking at Zhou Mo, her gratitude was beyond words.

"What's the matter?" Seeing the two mothers chatting happily, Zhou Mo walked up to Lin Yuxi, took her hand and hid in the kitchen.

"Why did you think of picking up my mother?" Lin Yuxi looked at her and asked excitedly.

"Haven't you been thinking about this these days?" The back of his hand lightly rubbed against Lin Yuxi's cheek, Zhou Mo leaned on the stone platform and looked down at her, "I've been restless all night, even when I'm making love Concentrate, how can I not guess your mind?"

Lin Yuxi's ears turned red when she heard the words, and she glanced at her embarrassedly.She glanced outside, seeing that no one was paying attention to their side, she leaned over to hold Zhou Mo's cheeks with both hands, and kissed her lips proactively, "Zhou Mo, thank you."

Zhou Mo was stunned for a moment, his eyes widened in flattery, and then he suddenly smiled, raised his hand to scratch the bridge of Lin Yuxi's nose, and responded with a smile, "You're welcome, I should do it."

The day before New Year's Eve, Zhou Mo drove Lin Yuxi and Lin Shan's mother and daughter to the mountain to visit the grave.When getting in the car, Lin Shan saw her mother sitting in the back seat with her, she was stunned for a moment, and asked, "Mom, are you not sitting in the front?"

Raising her hand and gently stroking Lin Shan's head, Lin Yuxi stared at her daughter with deep eyes, her gaze was good, "Mom wants to sit in the back row with you."

"Okay." Lin Shan smiled happily and readily agreed.

Zhou Mo drove steadily on the road, and the camphor trees on both sides of the asphalt road were covered with snow and foggy.Lin Shan rested her head on Lin Yuxi's shoulder, tilted her head and looked at the vegetation passing by outside the window, and asked, "Mom, why are you suddenly going to see your aunt at this time?"

Lin Yuxi raised her eyes and looked at Zhou Mo through the rearview mirror, then lowered her head and explained softly, "Shanshan, there is something... Mom has always wanted to tell you."

"What are you talking about?" Lin Shan raised her head, staring at Lin Yuxi with black grape-like eyes without blinking.

Taking a deep look at her, Lin Yuxi hesitated and said, "May I tell you after seeing my aunt?"

She originally planned to tell Lin Shan the secret of her life before she got married, but Zhou Mo told her a few days ago that Meng Hao had already been imprisoned.

He asked someone to tell Zhou Mo that he wanted to see his daughter before serving his sentence.

This is their father and daughter's business. No matter what kind of heinous person Meng Hao is, Lin Yuxi has no right to make decisions for Lin Shan.

But she didn't want Lin Shan to see that man. If she didn't, she wouldn't see the dirty things his father had done.

The three of them came to Lin Qingshu's tomb. This was Zhou Mo's first visit to her in the past 20 years. Her hands hanging down her legs couldn't help but clenched tightly. "Sister Qingshu."

No matter what, she will always be the big sister who takes good care of her, loves her and protects her.

"Shanshan, do you know why you were asked to wear this knitted sweater this time?" Lin Yuxi glanced at the photo on the tombstone, turned her head to look at Lin Shan again, and asked.

Lin Shan shook her head at her. In fact, she didn't really want to wear this kind of hand-knitted sweater. The shape is a bit outdated and far from the current popular style, but it is true that it is very warm.

"Because... your aunt wove it for you by herself. There is one for every age group. She originally planned to knit one for you every year, but she is sick and has no energy." Lin Yuxi said in a deep voice. , choking.

Lin Shan couldn't help stroking her body when she heard the words, feeling it through her coat.

"Auntie loves you very much, very, very much." Lin Yuxi took a deep breath, her eyes fell on her sister's photo again, and said softly: "Shanshan, actually..."

Curling her hands slightly, Lin Yuxi bit her lip, and said after a while, "Actually, your aunt is your mother."

"What... what?" Lin Shan was startled, her eyes widened in shock, and her eyes wandered back and forth between Lin Yuxi and the person in the photo.

The author has something to say: there is one more chapter that is finished, and all the main and deputy cps in the next chapter will come out to say goodbye to everyone.Next, there will be extra episodes, sisters', Mr. Qiao's, and He Qi's.Thank you for accompanying me for more than two months, I am very sad, thank you.