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Wu Zheng left the next day, and the family became the world of Qu You and Ji Hong again.

Because of Ji Hong's gentle performance in the past two days, Qu You regained his best feelings towards Ji Hong. The anger that Ji Hong told Wu Zheng about the two of them before was gone. He thought he should question Ji Hong. And I asked him for an explanation, but I didn't mention it later.

However, the two people's world didn't last long, not to mention that Ji Hong was always busy, except when he came back to sleep at night, he seldom spent time at home.

Qu You sits quietly at home all day long, looking out from the window, there are tall buildings in the city, row upon row, in a quiet world, people always feel lonely easily, even from a good poem The feeling of happiness experienced in life, because there is no one around to experience it together, it seems that that small happiness can be transformed into loneliness.

At this time, he would think of Ji Hong and reflect on his relationship with Ji Hong.

He never thought about how long his relationship with Ji Hong would be. Maybe when Ji Hong's madness relapsed, his relationship with Ji Hong would break down.

Moreover, Ji Hong will probably get married soon. Thinking of this, Qu You has an urge to go out.

Originally, Mother Qu said she wouldn't go back to her hometown, but she wanted to go back to visit Father Qu You's grave and deal with related matters, so she finally decided to go back to her hometown.

And Qu's mother had to ask for leave from her job at Wang's family.

They didn't go back until New Year's Eve, and they booked return train tickets on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year.

Qu You's elder sister went back to her hometown directly from her school.

Their family lives in Qu You's grandmother's house. Qu You's grandmother's family is not rich, the house is just a very ordinary one-story house, and there are many children in the family. Qu You's uncle has three children, two sons, the youngest is a daughter, The second uncle's family has two sons, and the younger uncle's family also has a boy and a girl. Although the uncles have separated, they still live in adjacent places. In this way, the New Year is very lively.

Qu You has been silent since he was a child, and spent most of his time sitting in front of the TV watching TV at his grandmother's house, while his cousins ​​were very active.

Qu You shared a bed with his cousin at his uncle's house. The cousin was in the second year of high school, and his grades were not bad, but not very good. He asked Qu You a lot about going to university, and said, "Hurry up and take the college entrance examination. Isn't it very easy to go to university, there are only a few classes a day, and you can go or not at will."

"If you think like this now, will you really be able to pass the exam? Besides, what's the point of going to university with such an idea." Qu You answered him. Can't talk about going together.

Seeing that he didn't listen, Qu You had no choice but to stop talking.

They spent the whole day on their father's grave in the third year of junior high school. Qu's mother had always complained about her husband, but that day when Qu You saw her keep turning her face away and wiping her tears, she didn't say a word. Thinking about it, she still It is very sad that my husband left.

Qu You was also in a heavy and sad mood. Standing in front of his father's grave at this time, he could recall when he was a child, he saw the father of other people's children walking with the child on his shoulders, and ran all the way across the path. His laughter seemed to fill the whole world, and Qu You would think at that time, could his father also support him to walk like this, sitting on his father's shoulders, what kind of world would he see.

But so far, this wish has not been realized.

However, it is not without good and happy memories.

Every winter, waiting for my father to come home and bring back delicious candies is always full of good expectations.

Qu You kowtowed a few times in front of his father's grave, and pressed his forehead against the frosty ground. He thought that human death is such a lonely grave, accompanied by the desolation of the world and the eternal silence. , no consciousness, no thoughts, death, is to return to nothingness, but there are still people who will remember him, and he will continue to exist in the memory of others in the same way as in other people's memories.

However, what other people think of him is not who he really is.

Qu You thought, he had never understood his father before, he never wanted to understand before, and now it is impossible for him to understand.

Everyone's evaluation of him will be biased.

But what he really looked like, what he had thought in his heart, did he love his mother, his sister and him, Qu You didn't know.

At noon, everyone only ate the cold steamed buns. Qu You, his mother and sister shoveled away the grass on the grave and the grass around the grave. In the afternoon, grandparents and his cousin came over.

That day, the whole day was cloudy and there was no sun.

Qu You and the others waited until the sky became very dark before leaving. After walking a distance, he turned back to look at his father's grave. On that desolate mountain, deep in the dry grass and bare branches, his father was buried there. , if a person dies, that's how it should be!

There was sadness in his heart, but he was not afraid.

He thought that if he died, he should be buried in this mountain like this, quietly, until everything turned into nothingness.

The whole family was silent, and his sister had never said a word, with a sad and solemn expression. Yes, his sister, like him, was a child of a dead father.

In the evening, I ate at my uncle's house, a big meal for the Spring Festival, the table was full of meat, Qu You only drank a bowl of soup, and almost didn't eat anything else.

He went down from the dining table and saw his sister standing under the skinny cherry tree on the edge of the courtyard talking on the phone. When he walked over, he heard her sister say in a gentle and slightly sad voice, "Well, I am talking to you today. Dad went to the grave... Well, tomorrow, I will go back."

Qu You turned and left without going there.

Yes, his sister regarded going back to school as "going back", and so did he. I don't know if his mother regarded going back to Wang's house as "going back".

They sold the house after their father left, and it has never been home since.

They regard other temporary places as sustenance in their hearts, and they refer to going there as "going back".

Thinking of this, Qu You felt very desolate, he felt like a rootless duckweed, always at a loss as to where he was going to go in this life.

Zheng Wu was in a daze, his cell phone rang, and he took it out of his pocket to see that it was Ji Hong calling, although Ji Hong called every day these few days, but at this moment, Qu You had a feeling that Ji Hong It feels like it’s been a long time since I called him. It seems that this day, not 24 hours a day, has been several years, and my heart has been quiet for too long in this cloudy day without sunshine. He admitted that this Sometimes, he needs someone to talk to him, pull him out of his father's world, and set a direction for him, a rootless person, to float.

"Go to visit Uncle Qu's grave today, don't be too sad, he's already gone, there's nothing you can do about it," Ji Hong said.

Qu You just let out a low "um", his fingers exposed to the air were blushing from the cold, but he didn't feel the cold.

"You guys arrive at the train station around nine o'clock tomorrow night, right? I'll pick you up then, and we can meet tomorrow, Yoyo, do you miss me?" Ji Hong's voice was soft, and it seemed that he could Feel the tenderness of ironing.

Qu You stared blankly at the lights reflected by the distant paddy fields in the darkness, like a bright light in this quiet and deserted night, he replied, "Well, I have thoughts."

Father became a lonely tomb in the vast mountain, but Ji Hong was still there.

Qu You looked at the deep night sky, and found that there were small white fluffs falling down, which melted on his face, a little bit cold.

He heard the cheerful laughter of a child, "It's snowing, it's snowing..."

Qu You thought, so the day was so gloomy, but it was actually because it wanted snow-white snowflakes to fall.

Look, everyone is happy.

After all, snow is not common here, so everyone was pleasantly surprised and happy.

On the morning of the fourth day, they went to catch the train. There were many people on the train, and Qu You cared about her mother so that she would not be hit by anyone.

After sitting in the evening, I returned to the city they called "Hui".

Coming out of the train station, I really saw Ji Hong standing outside the waiting line waiting for them.

It turned out that the city was also snowing, and the snowflakes fluttered with the wind, slowly falling to the ground, the man stood there, waving at them, at that moment Qu You burst into tears and wanted to step forward to give him a hug, However, with my mother by my side, there was nothing I could do after all.

He just carried the bag, followed his mother, and walked over.

Ji Hong smiled at him, and Qu You smiled back.

Ji Hong took the bag from his mother, and said, "It's snowing, I thought the train would be late, but it's quite punctual."

Mother Qu said, "It's really troublesome for you to pick us up."

Ji Hong replied, "There's nothing to do staying with my aunt and the others. I just drove out to catch my breath. I'm also happy to be able to pick up Qu You and come back to live with me."

As he said this, his brows and eyes were full of smiles, and he looked at Qu You without blinking. Qu You's cheeks were flushed, and he walked seriously, not daring to look at him.

Ji Hong sent Qu's mother to Wang's house. The Wang's family was very happy for her to come back. The part-time workers during the Chinese New Year were very difficult to use, so they always hoped that she would go back to work quickly.

When Qu's mother got out of the car, she explained some things about Qu You, asking him to listen to Ji Hong's words carefully, and he got out of the car only after seeing Qu You's answer.

Wang Lei also came over politely and enthusiastically to pick up Qu's mother into the house, and invited Ji Hong and Qu You to come in and play for a while before leaving.

But Ji Hong refused, and took Qu You away.