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Ji Hong didn't want Wu Zheng to listen, so he drove him out of the bedroom, closed the door, and then sat down beside the bed, put a pillow on Qu You, and let him talk.

At this time, Ji Hong has calmed down a lot, so calm that he has a sense of desolation, and the aura emanating from him makes Qu You's heart ache.

However, he felt that he should still tell Ji Hong what happened at that time.

No matter where he and Ji Hong will go and what they will look like in the future, he feels that he should not hide it anymore. If he conceals it, the matter will only be left to Ji Hong's wild guesses in the mist, which will be even worse for the two of them. .

Qu You's face was full of pain, and he slowly talked about what happened at that time.

He said that at that time, because of what Ji Hong did to him, he began to be very painful and confused. He wanted to try his best to forget the hurt he suffered at that time, but he couldn't forget it no matter what. However, he was able to What happened at that time was buried in his heart, and he didn't let anyone know. He felt it was safe.

It's just that he didn't know when he changed, he became curious about boys, but he didn't have any feelings for girls. Later, he realized that he actually became more homosexual than heterosexual at that time inclined.

Later, there will be a relationship with Dong Bo. At that time, there was no warning. He himself never thought that such a thing would happen before. Weak resistance, but in the end he did not resist strongly, not only physically, but also in his heart.

Hearing this, Ji Hong was completely stunned, he didn't want to believe that Qu You would voluntarily have sex with another man.

He looked at Qu You, and heard Qu You continue talking with his head down.

Qu You said that he was at a loss when he knew that he was abnormally interested in boys. He didn't know why he was like that. He was at a loss and wanted to figure it out, but he was afraid.

When Dong Bo was half coaxing and half coercing to do something with him, Qu You said that he knew that Dong Bo wanted to sleep with him, but at that time he wanted to understand how the unconscious abnormality in his mind came about. After that, he didn't resist any more, and followed his will to have sex with him.

Qu You said that he himself was mainly responsible for what happened at that time, because he himself did not resist at all.

Qu You raised his head and stared blankly at Ji Hong, but what he said hurt Ji Hong's heart like a thorn, "Brother Ji Hong, don't blame Brother Dong, if you want to blame, blame me!"

Ji Hong sat there with a dull expression.

It took him a long time to react, and then buried his face in his palm, it was the first time in his life that he felt such pain.

In his heart, Qu You is not only his lover, but also his younger brother. In his consciousness, he will always put Qu You in a weak position that needs his protection.

Even though Qu You has grown up to this age, Ji Hong is still willing to think that Qu You is still the child back then. He has not grown up, and his consciousness and thoughts still belong to the child. With innocence, Ji Hong is willing to indulge his innocence , he is willing to think that Qu You's deeds and thoughts are irresponsible.

However, Qu You's words told him that his wishful thinking was all wrong.

Qu You understands everything about himself, and he said that he has to take responsibility for his actions.

In fact, maybe when Ji Hong didn't want to think about it, Qu You had already grown up, he thought about a lot of things, and those thoughts were just Ji Hong's wishful thinking that they were pure and innocent, but for Qu You, His thoughts are his real pain, happiness and uneasy contradictions, and those thoughts make him grow up day by day.

Ji Hong once thought that the harm he gave Qu You in the first place would definitely have a psychological shadow on Qu You. He should talk about it with Qu You and apologize to him. Avoid that thing, thinking that as long as you don't talk about it, that thing will never exist.The two can live together happily and warmly, and the incident at that time will eventually disappear in time.

However, he didn't know that that kind of injury not only left an indelible mark on Qu You's body, but also that this mark was the fuse that led to many things in the future, such as Qu You's pain at that time, Qu You didn't resist Dong Bo wants to take him to bed, Qu You once had a deep grudge against him, and was unwilling to accept him...

All causes and conditions arise, all causes and conditions perish.

What cause did he plant at the beginning, so today, he himself is eating the fruit of that cause.

Ji Hong thought, the wrong things he did in the past, in the end he was the one to eat the bitter fruit. God will not treat him preferentially just because he is Ji Hong. He is following the principle of the cycle of cause and effect just like ordinary people .

Seeing Ji Hong drooping his head in pain and saying nothing, Qu You reached out and hugged his shoulders, pulled him into her arms, and said in a weak voice, "Brother Ji Hong, I know, this matter There will definitely be a gap between us. It is my fault. I have no reason to push the responsibility on others. I am willing to bear the consequences. If you already hate me and don’t like me anymore, I have nothing to say It can be said that I will move back to school in a few days, if we don't meet in the future, maybe you will feel better."

Qu You thinks this way because he knows the extent of Ji Hong's mental cleanliness. Ji Hong's abnormal persistence and paranoia in certain aspects makes Qu You feel that Ji Hong will never forgive him.

However, he really couldn't put the responsibility on Dong Bo at that time. If that was the case, Ji Hong would definitely not let Dong Bo go, and if it was his fault, Ji Hong would definitely take into account the relationship between him and him before. He is willing to let him go, and won't bother Dong Bo too much.

After saying these words, although Qu You was going to be separated from Ji Hong, and the fate of the two of them was over here, which made him feel sad, but he felt relieved because of this. The anxiety, fear and worry caused by this matter before, because After the matter was told, all these emotions disappeared, and he felt more relaxed than ever before, and it seemed that even the world in front of him became much clearer.

As for Qu You, when he loved Ji Hong, he did love him with his whole heart, but love is definitely not everything to him, he still has his mother, his sister, and his desire to see clearly. The world, the ideal of knowing this world, he is sad because he lost Ji Hong, but he will not lose his heart from now on.

At this moment, he can still reach out to hold Ji Hong in his arms, he still has the strength, the courage, the rational and calm state of mind.

Because he hadn't put all his eggs in one basket, it was actually easier for Qu You to adjust his mentality properly. Just like what happened to Li Xiangkun, he was also sad and painful, as if he couldn't bear it, but in fact, he would not crush himself because of this matter.

If it is just a weak vine instead of a tall and straight tree, then it is actually easier to grow. Even if a stone is pressed down, it will bend, but it will not break.

But Ji Hong is not, Ji Hong has always been a big tree, he is desperate to grow upwards, what he wants is actually clear and firm, but, the more this is the case, when an external force is given to him in the direction of his growth, he is more likely to be injured.

Qu You's words made Ji Hong stunned, but he didn't think like Qu You that he couldn't forgive Qu You, he couldn't forgive himself, he thought, Qu You still hated him in his heart after all, Qu You said so simply and He separates.

If it was any other time, Ji Hong would die and would not let Qu You go, but, thinking of what Qu You said just now, Qu You said that what he did to him at that time made him very painful, and he didn't even want to let go of Qu You because of it. Don't mind sleeping with other men.Ji Hong thought, everything is the cause of what he planted, so there is the present fruit.

If Qu You really wanted to leave him for a while, maybe he should let him go for a while first.

Ji Hong smelled the smell of Qu You in Qu You's arms. The smell of Qu You was also mixed with the smell of the potion on his head. Smelling his breath, he didn't move for a long time.

He thought, let him feel it again, after a while, he won't be able to hold Qu You like this anymore.

Mother Ye bought the things to buy and brought them to Ji Hong's house. She didn't have to cook at noon that day, so she didn't come over. It was already afternoon. She brought her things over and saw the mess in the living room , startled, Wu Zheng didn't even eat breakfast and lunch, and sat on a perfect sofa, drinking a glass of fruit juice in his hand.

Mother Ye didn't know Wu Zheng, and thought he was a criminal, and was about to shout, but Wu Zheng stopped him. Wu Zheng said that he was Ji Hong's friend, and the family was caused by a fight just now, so she asked her to help clean up the living room, Ji Hong In the bedroom with Qu You, never came out.

Mother Ye was dubious, and then began to pack her things.

Ji Hong raised his head from Qu You's arms, looked at Qu You's slightly sad eyes, placed a soft kiss on the center of his brow, and said, "If you want to live in school for a while, first put your wounded Take care of it and move in!"

Qu You was taken aback for a moment, lowered his head, and nodded slightly, thinking, Ji Hongguo still really minded that his body had had relationships with other people.Although he knew Ji Hong's temper, he was still sad and disappointed when he heard Ji Hongzhen say that.

Ji Hong let go of Qu You, helped him to lie down, looked at his watch, and found that it was past two o'clock in the afternoon, so he asked again, "Are you hungry, do you want something to eat?"

Qu You shook his head.

Ji Hong said, "Then go to bed first! I'm going out."

Ji Hong bowed his body slightly, and went out with a sense of dejection.

Qu You watched his back disappear by the door, and buried his face lightly in the pillow, tears flowed silently, staining his temple hair and pillow.