messy

Counting the days, it has been half a month since I saw Jin Yuchen. Since the last time I broke up with Pei Yuanjin in the temple, Shen Qing had thought about it a lot. On the day she left the palace, she had never thought about dying with Jin Yuchen. Instead of interacting with each other, she was very angry about her being a woman, and at the same time could not forgive her for deceiving herself.

I thought that if I didn't think about it, I could really forget this person with the passage of time, but when I heard Pei Yuanjin say that Jin Yuchen went to Ximenguan and wanted to be with me, I felt reluctant in my heart. resentment.

Is this going to make peace with myself?Don't all the previous ones count?The more Shen Qing thought about it, the more angry she felt. She completely forgot that she was stubborn and paranoid. She blamed Jin Yuchen for letting her go so easily. Not seeing her again, she immediately asked her father to bring [-] city guards and set off with a few of her father's cronies. She didn't think too much about it, and thought that if Jin Yuchen really separated from her because of this ...

She did not agree.

But women and women, she really has never seen it before. She remembers that it was mentioned in the books she read before, but at that time she felt that reading such books was really demeaning, so she would never read those books on the street stalls again. The book is sold out, and if she reads it over time, all the contents in the book will be lost.

So when she saw Jin Yuchen and saw him drunk, she subconsciously kept a distance from others, and even sat very close to Fu Bai on purpose, obviously because she was afraid that she would reveal something after drinking too much. Fu Bai was a man. Since she is honest and reasonable, she will definitely help her out and send her back to the tent. Because of her status, she will definitely not let the servants approach her to serve her, and she can only do everything by herself.

Shen Qing don't just look distressed, Jin Yuchen also told her that she can't help herself, she can't help it, because she doesn't want to die.She thought that she might have said something that made Jin Yuchen sad. She knew that Jin Yuchen was deep and thoughtful, but there was something about Jin Yuchen that he dared not let others touch. It was her own disgust and incomprehension. She was wrong. She actually despised Jin Yuchen because she was a woman.

It is obvious that the source of all her pain is because she is a woman. She has done nothing wrong, but she has to be forced to do what she least wants, to be what she is now, even She also chose to blame and abandon her when she was willing to accept that she longed for herself. She was wrong.

Seeing Shen Qingbie and Fu Bai was a little embarrassed, because she was hugging Jin Yuchen now, and because she was staggering when she was drunk, Fu Bai had to help her, but this action was done in front of Shen Qingbie... Will it be bad?

Jin Yuchen's consciousness is still clear, but her actions are a little wobbly. Normally, she will not let herself get really drunk, but for the sake of the atmosphere and emotions, she must make a little reaction and performance, otherwise she will not be able to blend in. It looked out of place.

The suddenness of Shen Qing's farewell caught everyone by surprise, and the sudden appearance of a beautiful person who was incompatible with the environment caused even more embarrassment.

"Who is this person, so beautiful..."

"You don't even know her? She is the wife of the prince who just passed through the door. She is a woman we can't imagine."

"God, my lady is so beautiful, the lord still wants to fight here! Our lord is a good master, I admit it, and we will be with the lord from now on."

When Jin Yuchen heard these words, she thought that her goal had been achieved and it was time for her to leave.So he turned around and said to everyone: "That's it for today, I'm too drunk, so I'll take my leave first."

"Farewell to the lord!" The soldiers were afraid that they were going back to accompany Mei Jiao Niang, but they looked serious on the surface, but they were thinking about messy things in their hearts.

Jin Yuchen smiled and said to Fu Bai: "General Fu, go back to rest early. You are not well enough. My wife is here. She will naturally help me back."

Fu Bai nodded: "Yes. But the princess sent a lot of medicine, my lord, do you want to throw it all away?"

"No, it's for those injuries and illnesses. Helian Mingzhu said that if it's a rare and good medicine from Daliang, it's a pity to throw it away. Let's use it for those people."

Well...Fu Bai is getting better and better, and from the corner of his eyes, he can see that the soldiers are even more grateful.

Shen Qingbie had been standing there for a long time before Jin Yuchen came towards her and put her arms on her shoulders. Before she could speak, Jin Yuchen interrupted: "Be patient Come on, don't bring the troubles of the two of us to Ximenguan, we still have to act."

This sentence made Shen Qingbie's heart ache, and she replied slightly: "Yes."

Jin Yuchen seemed to have lost a lot of weight. The environment at Ximen Pass was harsh, with yellow sand and strong winds. Even Shen Qingbie could see several cracks on her dry lips.

After arriving at the tent, Jin Yuchen withdrew his arm, distanced himself from her, and kept rubbing his head on the chair. She was originally a person with a weak physique. She lived here for half a month and lived every day. On a day of high vigilance, she still has to lead her out to deal with the enemy. She is really powerless, and even exhausted physically and mentally.

Neither of them spoke, Shen Qingbie poured a cup of tea for her and handed it to her, and finally said the first sentence after not seeing each other for so many days: "Drink some, you will feel better."

Jin Yuchen looked up at her, took the teacup and said, "Thank you."

This time Jin Yuchen talked to her without any emotion, and even became unfamiliar and cold.This is actually the real way Jin Yuchen treats people who have nothing to do with her, right?Shen Qing don't feel half sad and sour, Jin Yuchen treats her like this, isn't it what she asked Jin Yuchen to do in the first place?What right does she have to suffer now?

Just when Shen Qing was silent and didn't know what to say, Jin Yuchen said, "You brought troops here to see Fu Bai? You know that the battle at Ximen Pass is serious." Jin Yuchen couldn't figure out why Shen Qing don't want to come to Ximen Pass, it stands to reason that the other party has clearly expressed that she hates him, Jin Yuchen is not so naive as to think that Shen Qing is here for himself, after thinking about it, there is only Fu Bai , the two of them have been partners since childhood, if Fu Bai is in trouble, it is not unreasonable for Shen Qing not to come to rescue him.

"What? I... I'm..." Shen Qing didn't know what to say, she thought that what she said that day must have been too serious and too much, that's why Jin Yuchen had no expectations for herself.

Jin Yuchen waved his hand: "If you don't want to say it, it has nothing to do with me anyway. But I hope that you and I will try to be more harmonious in getting along these few days, and don't let others see the clue. If you don't want to see I, I will also try not to appear in places where you are present. Once the war is over, I will naturally let you go, and then there is no need to force you to act with me. "

Jin Yuchen's expression was calm and alienated, and his tone of speech did not have a trace of personal emotion, as if Shen Qingbie was just a fellow actor who accompanied her to stabilize the morale of the army.

"I didn't mean that. I wanted to say that I talked too hard that day...you...don't take it to heart..." She didn't even believe it herself. Every word she said that day was poking at Jin Yuchen's wound was even sprinkled with salt, how could she really not care about it?

"I didn't take it to heart. On the contrary, I would like to thank you for not revealing my identity. You don't have to blame yourself too much. It's not your fault. It's a fact." Jin Yuchen stood up after sobering up, "Because Regarding the issue of identity, I have to trouble you to stay in the same tent with me, don’t worry, I won’t touch you. You sleep on the bed, and I sleep on the floor.”

Now, Jin Yuchen doesn't want to have any more quarrels, she must avoid it if she can. She must keep a sensible mind at all times. Fu Bai said that Anqing's battle is a big gamble, and she won't allow it. There was a slight error at this critical moment.Even if Shen Qing's farewell is for Fu Bai, no matter how sad she is in her heart, she will not be trapped in this emotion, even if Shen Qing's farewell has nothing to do with her in the future, she has no time to be sad, no time to stay and cry, Not to mention Shen Qing being too right, being with herself is meaningless to her, and she will be gossiped by others even if she has no children, so it's better to stop, and she can get the best ending.

What can I do if I can't bear it, it's meaningless, because even she herself starts to deny her identity as a woman, sometimes she really forgets that she is a woman.So what if Shen Qing doesn't love her, but Shen Qing also denies her.

"By the way, if you want to take a bath, I will ask someone to come in to serve you. I will come in after you have finished taking a bath." After she finished speaking, she didn't give Shen Qing a chance to stop talking, and ran away like an escape.Jin Yuchen still overestimated herself, when she saw Shen Qing's farewell face, she would think of the days when she was parted from Shen Qing in the past, and would think of Shen Qing's farewell, but she couldn't get it, so she It will be painful and she needs to go outside and calm down.

Shen Qing, don't see it, Jin Yuchen is hiding from her, she doesn't want to look into her eyes, and she doesn't want to stay with her too much, Jin Yuchen was really hurt by her, Jin Yuchen is Really don't want to take myself anymore.

After realizing this, Shen Qing bid farewell, gritted his teeth, called the maids to take a bath, then took Jin Yuchen out and put aside all the quilts that would be rolled out later.Then he sat in the middle of the couch, waited for Jin Yuchen to come back, blew out the fire, then climbed onto the couch and slept in it deliberately, leaving a large space for Jin Yuchen, thinking that this was already obvious Yes, when Jin Yuchen thought she had fallen asleep and came in, he found that the bedding on the floor was gone...

Just go!

He went straight out of the tent and didn't know where he went!Why?Was it not obvious enough that she was hinting at it?She obviously reserved such a big position!

Jin Yuchen who ran out had no choice but to bite the bullet and run around the stable for the night, Shen Qing didn't want to stay in the stable where she would sleep as long as she wanted, and ran back before the morning soldiers found out.She thought that after so long, Shen Qingbie should have looked down on her, but she didn't expect to hate herself even more!