Crossing Prince Yinren

Shi Shi watched in a daze as goose feathers and heavy snow fell from the dark sky.

It's been eight years since I left the Forbidden City, I don't think that coming back this time will be the death of the ancestor.

In Heli back then, everyone thought that she had been greatly wronged and owed her, whether it was the holy ancestor, the fourth younger brother, or her parents and relatives.No one believed that she was the first to propose the reconciliation, and it was voluntary.

So far her name has not been removed from the Queen's Golden Book. The ancestor and the fourth younger brother do not admit that she has reconciled with Yinreng, but Yinreng thinks that even if she is reconciled with her, she is still the queen of the Qing Dynasty and does not need to be removed.No matter in the palace, in the capital or wherever, as long as she meets people as Shi Fanghua, she will be respected by the empress dowager.

Even Yinfeng himself felt deeply guilty for her. Before he left, he not only gave her a lot of money, fields and manors, but also gave her the private garden West Garden built for him by the Supreme Emperor before he ascended the throne, and even forged three conveniences for her. known identity.Shi Shi knew that he was afraid of her embarrassing status in the palace after he left, and worried that she would be wronged when she returned to her mother's house, and he didn't want to see her die in this position all her life, and wanted to leave a few more ways for her to go.

On the eve of reconciliation, Yinfeng showed her the three household registration certificates and said, "If there is a good man who dares to marry you regardless of your status, then marry him. You are only 36 years old, and you will have a long time to come." .I missed your whole life, and I only hope that you can be free and do whatever you want for the rest of your life."

Only when they are in their status will they know how precious the word "freedom" is. The empress holds power in the world, but her every move is an example for the world. Neither he nor she is a willful person, so they are also the most unfree people , so all he expected of her was "freedom".

The three certificates he prepared for her were all of her status as a convenient traveler. Over the years, with the encouragement of the court, the people's customs have gradually improved, and women are no longer so strictly restricted. It is a bit like the Tang Dynasty, and women and girls go out and remarry gradually. usually.He has always regretted that she was born as a woman and could not go out to see the world, and hoped that reunion would be another beginning of her life, not the end of it.

She did not live up to his expectations. Over the years, she has been walking outside with Xuanji, watching the world and seeing what the country he has put in for 20 years looks like.

When I was completely free, I realized how unfree the days before were. I no longer needed to have infinite meanings in every frown and smile, and I no longer had to think about every word in my heart countless times before I uttered it. I was no longer Shishi, no longer a queen. , just myself - Shi Fanghua.You can do whatever you want without worrying about anyone's eyes.This is really unimaginable for her who grew up with rules, adding and subtracting a piece of clothing must conform to the rules. At first, she was almost at a loss: without rules, how should she behave?

It wasn't until he realized that she could even do nothing, that he somewhat understood why he was so obsessed with it.After traveling all over the south of the Yangtze River, across the north and the ends of the earth, I realized how vast the world really is.

It turned out that it was just to fulfill his choice, not only letting go of his freedom, but also his own freedom.

She still remembers his shock when she proposed reconciliation, and even she herself was shocked by her proposal. Twenty years ago, she would never have dreamed that one day she would have such a proposal, but she still made it.Because her husband, a generation of emperors, still yearns for a couple forever.

When he married him for the first time, he could feel his extraordinary respect for the woman. He seemed to... regard the woman as the same person as himself, and he was not a little bit arrogant because of his emperor's dignity. He was considerate, pity, and sorry for her. Appreciate like a confidant.Gradually, he discovered that he was referring to the marriage for his brother and clan, and never gave concubine concubines to concubines other than the main one. Some would ask for it, and she had to ask the woman repeatedly, and the woman was willing to agree.The eighth younger brother, Fujin, has a strong temper, and even if he has no children, he still does not allow his husband to take concubines. The holy ancestor was very displeased.

It's a pity that the person in her husband's mind is not her.

When she learned that he actually liked a man, she wasn't sad or resentful, but suddenly realized—other than that, how could he explain his extreme fairness to the harem?

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As the first daughter of the Shi family, she started to learn how to be a big wife, even a queen, almost from birth, and she never had any desire for love between men and women.She was not ignorant of the fact that her father, brother and uncle's inner courtyard never lacked women, and she knew what it was like when a man really liked a woman.She knew that his heart was not with them, even though he respected and appreciated her very much.

Never jealous, the word "jealousy" does not exist in the dictionary of Shi family girls.Jealousy is the most taboo for big wives, let alone queens.Because of this, Ajiao still lives in Nagato, how could the Shi family allow her daughter to repeat the same mistakes.

She didn't even envy the person he liked.She is very grateful for his kindness to her, but in her concept, love and love is a means of fighting for pets for ignorant children of the small family, or concubines who are tied to the fingers of a man in their lifetime. As long as you respect each other, it is enough, you have never thought about it yourself.

It wasn't until I made the decision to ask for reconciliation that I realized that this might not be the life-and-death love in the book and the book!Exceeding the requirements of women's morality, exceeding my own imagination, just to let him do as he pleases...

Her feelings for him were different from what she thought.

He made her understand feelings, but the first thing this feeling made her do was fulfillment.

How are he and Shen Tingwen wandering around the world?But galloping a horse and eagle to fly to the grassland, to ride a punt on a spring flower to the south of the Yangtze River, are you at ease?She has been to these places over the years, but traveling with Yixin must be a different experience.

She didn't regret her decision back then. Even if she fell in love, Shi Fanghua was not someone who couldn't live for love.How vast the world is, she only saw it when she went out.She was only relieved that he was truly free.

The death of the holy ancestor must have made him extremely sad these days. The deep love between father and son is rare in ancient and modern times. It is a pity that Shen Tingwen cannot enter the palace to comfort him...

Just thinking that the current emperor Yinzhen brought a person over in a hurry, but he did not open an umbrella, and a thin layer of snow fell on his head and shoulders.He saluted in panic: "Second sister-in-law, has second brother been here? Do you know where he is?"

Shi shunned and returned the half-respect, then said in a daze, "No, I don't know, what's wrong?"

Yinzhen asked again without giving up: "Then did he say anything to you?"

Shi Fanghua had a bad premonition, and said slowly: "Yesterday he asked me how I've been doing these years..."

Yinzhen stood for a while like a clay sculpture and said, "Second sister-in-law follow me to take a look."

Shi Fanghua stepped on the thick snow and came with him to the mourning hall of the holy ancestor.It was still very early in the morning, and the western sky had not yet revealed a glimmer of light.The eighth younger brother Yinhu stood at the gate of the mourning hall with a look of panic on his face.

Yinzhen led her to look in front of the Zi Palace where the coffin of the holy ancestor had not yet been sealed, and saw a black braid of hair cut off at the root next to the slough of the holy ancestor.

Shi Fanghua swayed, and was supported by Yinhu before he stood still, tremblingly said: "This, this is..."

Yinzhen said expressionlessly: "Except for the second elder brother, who would dare to tamper with the Shengzu Palace? He was the last one to leave the mourning hall yesterday." He wanted to stay with him at that time, but he said he wanted to be alone for a while.

Shi Fanghua murmured, "Where is he now?"

Yinzhen's voice was also flat: "I have already gone to the Hall of Mental Cultivation, and the people in the Hall of Mental Cultivation said he was not there last night. They have already sent someone to look for him. The coffin was sealed today, and my eighth brother got up early, so I went here to see him first." this."

Yesterday was the day of returning to the evil, so everyone avoided the evil in their own palaces and did not gather together to keep the spirit, so they didn't find out until now.Fortunately, it was not yet time to mourn, and Yinhu was the only one I saw.

Shi Fanghua recognized that hair even though it was cut off.He even recognized Bian Shao's white knot, which was the handicraft of Zhang Jingchu, the great eunuch of the Hall of Mental Cultivation.

Of course Yinzhen also knew whose hair it was, he dismissed everyone, would he put someone else's hair in his father's coffin?

Even Yinhu knows it well.

For a while, the three of them were thinking about the old affairs of the ancestors (1). After a long silence, Yinhu said: "Fourth brother, what should we do? After a while, all the mourners should come. How do you explain this hair? The second brother is not here. What should I do?"

Yinzhen said: "What should I do? Who is qualified to go to the Zi Palace and dare to talk nonsense? The second brother is naturally 'ill'."

There was another silence, and Yinhu said again: "Second sister-in-law, fourth brother, why did second brother do this? Huang Ama is gone, and we are still here! Is he too disappointed with us brothers?" There was a slight sound in the voice choking.

He has no children, did not participate in the struggle for the throne in the past few years, and has a good relationship with all the brothers, so he is not afraid of showing weakness in front of his elder brother.

Yinzhen said angrily: "He is disappointed in us, I am disappointed in him..." Tears welled up in his eyes before he could say a word.

Shi Fanghua looked back to the outside of the hall in a daze, only to see Feixue pressing down on the yellow tiles and vermilion walls, knowing that during the daytime, looking out from here must be a sea of ​​palaces, and the whole Beijing city is under his feet.Supreme, yet cold and unpopular.It just feels so empty.

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(1) Refers to the secret story of the ancestor Fulin of the Qing Dynasty who became a monk.