happy looking back

1, 1972 years...

I haven't slept so soundly for a long time, I moved my body comfortably.I felt my body was surrounded by warmth, and the rhythmic pulsation made my neurasthenia, which had always been a shallow sleep, healed without treatment.

Huh!Why can't the hands and feet be opened? !Could it be that the doctor tied me up as a mental patient? !The more I think about it, the more likely it is that I sneaked out of the ward this morning and quarreled with that middle-aged uncle when I came back.

Hello!Let me go, you are illegally detained!I will sue you!He opened his mouth to shout, but found that his vocal cords couldn't make any sound at all.Trying to open my eyes wide, the surroundings were pitch black, and I felt resentful, "Black hospital! Black doctor! Binding patients is not considered confinement!"

"Water?!" The hands and feet that could only be waved slightly could feel the warmth of the surrounding water slowly, and the sound of water ripples could be clearly heard by gently shaking the arms.A little panicked in my heart, "Why am I soaked in water?!" The vats of internal organs and human specimens soaked in formalin in the middle-aged uncle's office suddenly appeared in my mind, and I was beaten violently. Shocking.

"Xiaoyun won't be so cruel!" I admit that I am a coward.Knowing that she likes a man and marrying her, it has ruined her for the rest of her life.But I also received the most severe punishment from heaven. I was diagnosed with stomach cancer at the age of 28, and it was in an advanced stage when I was discovered. I couldn’t even have a complete gastrectomy, and I had to rely on chemotherapy to maintain my life.I am an ordinary teacher of high school students. I live on such a small salary every month. Before I die, I just want to see my son. This request is not too much!

Sighing in my heart, fortunately I have been an orphan since I was a child without father and mother, otherwise, how embarrassing it would be for a white-headed person to send a black-headed person!I just hope that in the next life, I will be accompanied by my parents, make one or two close friends, face my heart honestly, and talk about a love that is not vigorous or lingering, but ordinary love, so it is not a waste of time to come to this world.

"Ah hummingdongzagaeh~~~" There is a sound? !I was startled, and a voice sounded beside me vaguely, so close and yet far away.The voice is quite loud, but the speech is slurred like a big tongue.

"Is anyone there?" I wanted to ask, but I couldn't make a sound. I felt the soft walls around me shrinking, and a strong force was pushing me down little by little.The thinner the air, the tighter my chest felt. I waved my arms desperately and wanted to jump forward with the force of the crowd.

Suddenly, I felt that something like a rope was caught on my ankle bone, which made me unable to go up and down, and I was sweating all over!

"Ah! Peace—I'm in so much pain!" A tearing scream sent my swollen brain buzzing.

"Stop arguing! I'm almost out of breath here, is there anyone! Help!" The legs under him rubbed desperately, trying to loosen the rope wrapped around his feet.A woman's screaming and screaming above my head made my hypoxic and dizzy brain burst into panic.

"Aying! Use your strength! You can do it! Aying!" A male voice shouted not far away.

"You think you're having a baby! Use more force! No matter how hard you try, I can't get out!" I secretly hated this man who was standing and talking without pain in his back. Didn't you see that I was stuck here? !If you have the time to talk nonsense, you might as well give me a hand. Saving a life is worse than building a seven-level pagoda. Although it only took one or two months to save this life, time is priceless!

"Peace! I hate you! Ah—" the female voice screamed.

"Aying! You have to persevere! Persistence is victory!" the male voice shouted anxiously.

"This is giving birth! It's not the eight-year war of resistance!" He secretly hated the ignorant man, but he didn't stop: Hurry up!The rope is about to fall!

"There are signs of dystocia! What should I do!" A young woman said in horror.

"Calm down!" The deep mezzo-soprano shouted.

"Huhu~~~" I opened my mouth to breathe, but found something blocked my throat.The suffocation makes my strength drain rapidly: I must get out of here as soon as possible, otherwise I will really die!I tried my best to kick the last shackles off my insteps, and the violently contracted walls pushed me forward vigorously. Gradually, I could feel the faint light in front of me.

"Come out! Come out! Use your strength!" The young woman shouted excitedly.

With the last sliver of strength exhausted, I was limp and unable to move an inch. Seeing the victory in sight, I lamented in my heart: God will kill me!Just when I was desperate, a five-claw iron pliers slammed down my Tianling Gai, dragging me out of the narrow passage forcefully.

"The child's face is blue and he has symptoms of hypoxia!" The young woman exclaimed.

"En!" He said in a serious low voice.I just felt that my weak and soft body seemed to be put in an ice cellar, and I was shivering from the cold. There was a crisp "pop", and there was a burning pain in the buttocks.Instinctively opened his mouth and wanted to cry out, "Wow~~~Wow~~~Wow——"

After the baby cried miserably three times, the sound stopped abruptly.

"Sister Mei! What happened to him?!" The young woman yelled nervously.

"It's okay! Maybe he's tired, a very healthy little guy." The deep female voice close at hand said with relief.

Something is wrong with me!As soon as my breathing became smooth, I felt a burning pain in my buttocks. I just wanted to reprimand me for committing an occupational disease, but I found that what I blurted out was the baby's crying.Thinking back to the time when my son was born, it seemed that a fat female nurse held her legs upside down and slapped her buttocks. At that time, I was so distressed that tears came out.

He wanted to figure out the current weird situation, but his body was so tired that he didn't even want to move his little finger.Feeling being gently placed in warm water, a pair of big hands rubbing my body indiscriminately, I wanted to scold me a few times but I was exhausted, and fell asleep in a daze.

When I woke up again, I was woken up, there was a sound of chirping and playing around, and when I opened my eyes, I could only see the swaying light of the figure.

"Auntie! My brother is awake!" the girl shouted in a clear voice.

"My brother's eyes are so beautiful!" Another girl next to him who was also immature said softly.

"Aying! Thank you for your hard work!" The soft male voice was full of joy and heartache.

"What a stupid thing to say." The weak woman next to him blamed, her gentle tone was full of inextricable happiness and sweetness.A big warm hand gently patted on my belly. Feeling the hot gaze beside me, I suddenly realized: So I was born!

I thought that when I encountered such a weird thing, I would yell and hysterically.It was only at the end of the day that I realized that there was nothing wrong with this, because I had the opportunity to reshuffle my life.

"Come and give Dad a hug!" As soon as the soft male voice fell, my body flew into the air.The slowly approaching breath was very clean, with the astringency of green grass lingering on my soft face for a while.The short, thick stubble made my skin itch, and I tried to avoid the grinding beard on the man's chin.

"Peace! Don't bully the children!" The woman's soft tone was somewhat dumbfounding.

"It's too late for Dad to hurt, how could he bully you, don't you think so?" The man hugged me and teased me.Knowing that such teasing would not get the slightest response from a baby who was just a few hours old, the man still had fun playing it.Looking at the blurred face of the man called father in front of him, his soft tone, his heart was sour but bulging: Dad!I thought I would never use this title in my life.

"Why are you crying!" the man said heartbroken, a little at a loss.

"You're hungry—" The soft female voice was choked with sadness.

"Aying!" Seeing his wife crying, the man hurriedly sat down on the bed, and gently placed me in his arms in the hands of the sobbing woman.

"I don't have milk for the child! I'm sorry for the child -" The woman hugged me, tears streaming down my face, scorching my dusty heart.I want to comfort this young mother: no one has milk, and the same is true for drinking milk powder, although there are a lot of poisonous milk powder now.

"Don't do this! Go back and make up your body and it will come naturally." The man comforted softly.

"You are comforting me~~~" The woman stopped crying, blushing and complaining.

"No!" The man nodded affirmatively.

"Auntie, I will save all the meat for my aunt during the Chinese New Year, so that my aunt will have water for my younger brother to eat." The clear and clear voice of the girl said happily.

"Xiao Fu is so good." The woman's mood improved.

"I'll save my birthday eggs for my aunt to eat." The timid child's voice was a little shy.

"Xiao An is really sensible!" The woman was in a happy mood.

Listening to the happy family in my ears, my heart is warm but there is an unreal wandering: Can I have a complete family? !If this is true, then in this life I must face my feelings honestly, and make the people who love me happy and the people I love happy!

Although listening to their words between the lines, it seems that this family is very poor. They are so poor that they only eat meat during Chinese New Year and eggs on birthdays. Judging from this, it seems that they have no money to buy milk powder.

Before entering the hospital, I still had 2 yuan in the bank, which I planned to leave for my son, but now that my young parents are in such a difficult situation, I decided to take it out for emergency treatment.

"Peace! Why are you still here! If your father finds out, you should be punished again!" The woman who walked in should be of a certain age, with a soft and shrill voice unique to women.

"Mom! Let me see Ah Ying." The man got off the bed shyly.

"I'm here! Go to the team and dig river mud to fill the fields. Your father won't be able to find you later, so there will be a lot of quarrels." The woman who didn't know if it was grandma or grandma laughed and cursed.

"Okay, Mom! You take care of Ah Ying, I'll go back to work on the team first." The man stood up a little embarrassed and put on his shoes