happy looking back

Jumping and jumping like a child.He is all my spiritual sustenance in this life, so you saved our family's life twice! "Nine years old?! Zeng Shaoyang's words made my heart tremble. The nine-year-old child looks weaker than me, the six-year-old Douding. The nine-year-old child is as timid as two or three years old, innocent and ignorant of the world.

Just when I was so frightened that my thoughts were up and down, the low hoarse voice was extremely soft and continued, "I was temporarily hired at the airport and grabbed the headlines. Only Xiao Jing had the opportunity to continue to be hospitalized, but it was a drop in the bucket—" Steel casts a man's heart , and can't help but be cornered by the cruel reality.

"Arrange them to be hospitalized. If anything goes wrong, I believe you know what will happen to you." Li Xiqing said lightly to the doctor in white who was leaning against the wall and sneaking away a little bit.The doctor in white was terrified like a frightened mouse, trembling and stretching his legs, sweating profusely and trembling.

"Bao~~~bao?" Li Xiqing hugged me and walked out of the ward without looking back.The timid and soft childish voice behind me did not call out "baby", it was this sentence, as if passing through the gap between time and space, and threw a huge stone into the lake of my heart just after I calmed down.Splashes of water are shining brightly, and gradually spreading ripples reveal too many dusty memories.

"Nice to meet you, Xiaojing~~~" Narrowing her big watery eyes like crescent moons, opening her mouth and smiling innocently, the crunchy childish voice couldn't hide the joy and joy, just tilting her head like this, Staring straight at Zeng Mengjing who was frightened by my enthusiasm.Once upon a time, when I stood behind the sun, I was also foolishly looking at the child smiling innocently in front of me.

Nice to meet you, Chen Guan!Always sloppy, Chen Guan is a gloomy, taciturn but timid child. A certain dark corner of the orphanage covered with moss is his daily activities.One day, a happy lark flew in front of Chen Guan, looking at the bright smile on the child's face against the sunlight.

"I like it~~~, baby." Zeng Mengjing half-covered his big head, and his eyes, which were also unusually large, shone with dazzling colorful streamers, and just watched me disappear at the door of the room in a daze.

"Dad! They'll leave it to you!" Li Xiqing hugged me and walked through the dumbfounded Father Li, and weeping with joy, Mother Li, and walked into my ward with steady steps. , and finally let go of the grievances in my heart. The baby is our lieutenant general of the Li family~~~"

Pulling the curtain in front of the bed, Li Xiqing sat cross-legged on the bed, placed me between his legs, and surrounded us with a thin quilt.Through the huge glass windows in front of you, you can see the blurred lights outside and the shining stars on the zenith.Li Xiqing didn't say anything, just quietly wrapped one hand around my shoulder and the other around my abdomen, and kneaded the soft layer of flesh on my stomach every now and then.

"The county and township welfare home is a simple relief center. Except for the row of crumbling adobe houses like Xiaohe Village Primary School, there are orphans waiting to be favored by the god of luck. Chen Guan is the most inconspicuous one, so he started As long as I have memories, I have watched familiar and unfamiliar faces come and go around, and he will always be the child who was picked and left." With his chest undulating behind his pillow, looking at the stars in a different time and space, he told a story, as if It is hard to find the confusion and bitterness before.

"What happened later?" Li Xiqing just listened to the story as if it were a story, her hands were still kneading the superficial layer of flesh on my stomach, but the intensities were light and heavy, and she lost the exquisite craftsmanship of previous massages.Gently spread Li Xiqing's slightly stiff arms with both hands as if to comfort, imitating the posture of Li Xiqing's hands in the past, and massaged deeply and shallowly.

"Finally one day, Chen Guan met Cheng Jing. Cheng Jing was a beautiful, cute, and clever child. Almost every time he came to the relief center to adopt a child, people always fell in love with Cheng Jing at a glance. But clever Cheng Jing always fell in love with him after adoption. Zhou was returned to the relief center, and then he still chased behind Chen Guan all day long. In fact, Chen Guan doesn't like Cheng Jing, maybe it's just because of jealousy." Every time Chen Guan saw being returned, he was still full of air Jing was very angry, and then ignored Cheng Jing for three or four days, but he couldn't stand the temptation of food, so he reluctantly let this guy who "knows what's good" and "is born in a blessing but doesn't know how to be blessed" sit next to him.Thinking of all the childish behaviors in the past, I couldn't help laughing out loud.

"What happened next?" Li Xiqing asked softly with his blue chin resting on my head, I couldn't see the expression on his face, although his tone was still soft and calm, as if he was just listening to an innocuous story.In fact, he is irrelevant, because I found the only one in my previous life who needed to repay the debt.

"Chen Guan is dull and timid. His ordinary little face is always gloomy and unlovable. Moreover, he has been stranded in the relief center for a long time, so he often cannot eat enough. One day, Chen Guan was really hungry. He stole fishing nets from the yard of an old widower in a neighboring village, and scattered them in the fish pond behind the almshouse.” The starry night sky in front of him became distorted and separated, as if returning to a hot summer evening in the mid-80s, the sunset glow Half the sky was burning red, but Chen Guan was still hungry.The wind was sultry, but freezing cold.

"The fishing net failed to catch a catfish, but it caught Cheng Jing who jumped into the river to relieve summer heat." Today I regained that deliberately forgotten memory, and Cheng Jing's death made me heartbroken.Ten fingers twisted and entangled on the fine mesh, leaving patches of bright red when struggling violently.His whole body was as stiff as a lump of ice, his purple lips were tightly pressed together, and his eyes, covered in the haze of death, were staring straight at the sky.

"I never knew how to cry that day. Chen Guan cried. I don't know if it was fear or guilt. So Chen Guan, who was only five years old, had a high fever for two days and two nights. This illness almost killed him. When he woke up, Chen Guan's memory was confused. Zhang, he just vaguely remembers that his father will come to pick him up, his father is very brave, tall, and knows everything.” I smiled wryly and shook my head, how could Chen Guan have the memory of “father” when he was still a baby They were thrown into a ditch overgrown with weeds.Cheng Jing, who has been refusing to leave the relief center, once had such a conversation with Chen Guan.

"Why did you come back again?! Isn't it good to have food and clothing?" Chen Guan moved his butt awkwardly, alienating and avoiding enthusiasm.The small, featureless eyes stared at the yellow and orange in the distance in confusion, just like the endless grains of plump ears of wheat, obviously overwhelming, but Chen Guan's stomach was not full for a day, where did all the food go?This is the second most question Chen Guan thinks about every day.

"Because I'm waiting for my dad to pick me up!" Cheng Jing happily squinted her big bright eyes and shouted loudly.This scene once hurt Chen Guan's young heart so much.

"What does daddy look like?" Chen Guan reluctantly held back, and turned his back directly, but his ears were straight up.

"Dad is the bravest and tallest dad in the world. He knows everything, and he also knows that I'm here waiting for him to pick me up." Cheng Jing said confidently.

Know honor and disgrace

"So Zeng Mengjing must have nothing to do!" Just treat it as me paying you back, Cheng Jing!A shining silver star streaked across the dark night sky, leaving behind a short but dazzling trail, and quickly disappeared into the vast universe of galaxies.

Life is like this falling star. If fate is destined to disappear, then at least it can leave a bright trajectory of life when passing through the deep night sky.

"He'll be fine!" Li Xiqing gently smoothed my palm and stroked along the long "lifeline" palm.I feel the warmth of the palm of my hand, and the itching is extremely reassuring.Turning his head sideways, he buried his head into Li Xiqing's warm chest, and slowly closed his eyes.It's late, and the child needs enough sleep, because I want to accompany him through this long journey of life.

In the dream, Chen Guan was still sitting on the high haystack and looking at the golden ears of wheat rising and falling like waves in the distance with the wind. For a moment, the misty waves were vast, rolling up thousands of layers of golden waves continuously, as if he was in an ethereal illusion.

I sat quietly beside Chen Guan, watching, thinking and looking forward to together with him.Occasionally looking at each other, we see that we have never changed our beliefs: I want to have a family!There are fathers, mothers, and people who accompany me through my life.

The morning light quietly passed through the tall and clean lilies on the window sill, leaving mottled light golden shadows on the snow-white quilt.The breeze floats in the depths, and wisps of familiar fragrance make people willing to indulge in it.

Sleepy eyes looking at the honey-colored skin near the nose, the faint undulations affect the tight tendon muscles on the chest, which belongs to the ultimate beauty of man's rigidity and softness, strength and toughness, movement and stillness, which made me stretch out pink and tender wolf claws like a charm.Feel the elasticity and smoothness between the palms and fingertips, and fantasize about myself 20 years later: tall and thin, with a wasp waist and narrow buttocks;

"Baby, you're drooling!" Lying on her side, Li Xiqing was propping her head lazily, squinting her long and narrow dark eyes, and there was a vicious joke on the corners of her mouth.The honey-colored skin is looming in the half-opened skirt, and the knotted texture under the skin is fully visible. It is really the Creator who favors "evil" creatures.I glanced at my mouth with jealousy in my heart, but my hands didn't stop, and I dreamed about the tight muscles of Li Xiqing's abdomen, my mind was full of infinite reverie.

"Eh?" Just when I was fascinated by the vision of the future, I only felt a slight sway in my eyes, and I instinctively supported the thin and tight chest in front of me with both hands, only to realize that I was already sitting on Li Xiqing's abdomen .In order to avoid the skin on the injured leg becoming tense, Li Xiqing carefully laid my left calf flat.

Looking down at Li Xiqing leisurely leaning on the pillow, with the front of his clothes fully opened, I could even clearly see the dark red on the man's chest.