happy looking back

At first, she was lying on the dark and damp bamboo couch, her gray eyes always liked to look at the winter jujube trees in the yard in a daze.Sometimes the sun shines in through the window, shining white light on her old bony face. "

What kind of scene my father described to us: the old man who was in bed for a long time and suffered from pain; waiting for the only thing left by her husband; poor living conditions; lack of material life; this fragmented The impression made my heart ache.I clenched my fists tightly and pressed my chest, trying to resist the discomfort of throat spasms.

"Jiaci has never lived a single day of comfort in her life. Children are not qualified to comment on the merits and demerits of their parents, but the only person that Grandpa Heping feels sorry for in this life is her old man. Even so, her favorite child is still He looks the most like my father's Heping." Looking at the rare expression on his grandfather's face, I think he doesn't like the younger generation showing off the heroic deeds of Ge Tenglong's ancestors. The faint resentment came from the guilt and heartache towards his mother.

"At that time, Jiaci was already at the advanced stage of liver cancer, and the rice grains couldn't enter. She only hummed twice when she was in pain. In order not to let us worry about our children, she was a silent ninja. The pain was unbearable, so she Drink two sips of boiling water soaked in oil to relieve the pain in your chest." Speaking of the sad part, the always strong grandfather couldn't help crying.

The young parents and Li's mother on the side have long been weeping.In the barren age without morphine pain relief, how the elderly with advanced liver cancer spent the last years of her life, I am afraid that only the elderly buried deep in the yellow earth can understand the suffering.

"With the development of medicine, there is still no way to treat and prevent liver cancer." As a doctor, Grandpa Jian Yixuan was heartbroken. Nothing is more painful than watching a fresh life gradually die out.But what Grandpa Jane doesn't know is that in the 21st century with the rapid development of science and technology, cancer is still a difficult problem that medicine cannot overcome.

The elderly in such a state cannot eat normally at all, and even lose the ability to take care of themselves.So Qian Liangming's doubts and suspicions were all fabricated out of nothing, which made me despise and hate the desolate man in front of me even more.

"So you cruelly watched Yun Fang, who was pregnant in September, starved to the bone, and you were still indifferent, and you didn't want to help?!" Qian Liangming's accusation added a wrinkle of time to his grandfather's sad face, and also made his father puzzled. He looked at his grandfather puzzled, but in the face of everyone's doubts, his grandfather suddenly chose to keep his mouth shut.Yunfang was the name of a strange woman, and even my father couldn't understand the secret behind it.

"You finally have nothing to say, Ge Jinbao, you are a hypocrite and despicable hypocrite through and through!" Qian Liangming stared at his bloodshot eyes angrily, eager to rush forward and bite off a piece of Grandpa's flesh, in order to relieve him Hatred.Faced with such severe accusations, Grandpa didn't intend to refute.But it makes me believe that grandpa is the kind of person who will not save him unless the sun comes out in the west.But why doesn't he justify himself?

"It's not that the old village chief doesn't help, but he can't." Mr. Zhang Fenggang leaned on the crutch in his hand and stood up unsteadily, "He is a village chief, and the village chief is responsible to the people of the whole village."

The old man Zhang Fenggang walked up to his grandfather and bowed deeply, and the grandfather hurried forward to help the gray-haired old man Zhang up, sighing guiltily, "But I still let things happen that shouldn't have happened, this is an irreparable regret—— "Grandfather Zhang Fenggang shook his bony palm without waiting for his grandfather to finish speaking, and interrupted his grandfather's words.

"Once a hungry and desperate person breaks through the moral defense line, he will become crazy. If the old village head promised to use these seeds to save Yunfang's mother and son, how would he explain to other villagers, and what power would he have to restrain such a group?" A group of hungry and desperate villagers."

Mr. Zhang Fenggang's wise eyes swept over everyone present one by one, and finally locked his eyes on Qian Liangming's distorted face, and said slowly but forcefully, "Scooping out the last seeds for food is tantamount to digging Repairing sores with flesh, destroying city walls. You are a national cadre, you should know these truths better than anyone else.” In your position, seek the welfare of the people.To deal with things from an overall perspective and to put national interests first, we are worthy of the trust entrusted by the country and the people.

"And your mother is a respectable and good mother. For the daughter-in-law and the grandson who is about to be born, she willingly risked the world's disgrace and stole the seeds of the commune. After the incident, she was eager to escape and unfortunately rolled down Niutoushan and died in the end." Listen When Mr. Zhang Fenggang judged a poor "mother" fairly, Qian Liangming's resentful face gradually revealed a painful expression, and tears slowly flowed down his old face full of hills and valleys.

"Soon Yunfang gave birth to a son. Due to premature birth and congenital deficiencies, he has been weak and sick since he was a child. Yunfang, who lacked effective care, died of blood collapse shortly after giving birth, leaving behind a child who was waiting to be fed." Zhang Fenggang looked at "Woooo" crying Qian Liangming, who was out of tune, sighed heavily: Poor people must have something to hate.Who would have imagined that the heinous Qian Liangming would have such a little-known tragic past.Perhaps it is for this reason that the simple and kind-hearted Xiaohe Village did not pursue the mistakes he made during the Cultural Revolution.

"The road is chosen by the person himself, and the consequences must be borne by himself, and no one can blame others." Although Mr. Zhang Fenggang's words were stern, there was no hint of anger to teach others.Qian Liangming, who was crying uncontrollably, suppressed his heaving chest, turned around slowly, and stared at me with complicated eyes, as if my existence made him feel conflicted.

"I don't want to pursue the past, but you must not forget the big raid by the Red Guards 17 years ago!" Qian Liangming's words made grandpa and young father suddenly choked up. There were more than a dozen households, and tens of thousands of cultural relics and antiques were burned.There are as many as dozens of sets of calligraphy, painting and engravings hidden by the father's hand. These things can be auctioned in the 17st century, which can make a poor man become extremely rich in one breath.But I know that Qian Liangming is not referring to this matter.

"Seventeen years ago, the mysterious person who secretly transferred the ewes was your son who was ill in bed for a long time, right?" Looking at Qian Liangming's complex expression, I am 17% sure that the person who has been kind to Lao Ge's family is Qian Liang Ming's son.

All my memories of him still stay in a summer afternoon 13 years ago, when the sun shines on the dry wheat straw, the frail young man is lying there quietly, holding a torn book in his hand. An incomplete English translation of the book "How the Steel Was Tempered".His expression was indifferent, and his slightly narrowed taupe pupils were calm, like an eminent monk sitting in meditation who disregarded life and death.

"If it weren't for Jinhong's secret help, do you think the Ge family would have the glory it is today? Secretly hiding milk-producing ewes, and the village chief taking the lead in private ownership of the bourgeoisie, such a felony, even if Ge Tenglong is still alive, I'm afraid it can't save you guys. Family!" Qian Liangming stared at his grandfather, Ge Baojin, with a complex and difficult expression.He hated Lao Ge's family for escaping the catastrophe, but also rejoiced for his son's benevolence.

"It turned out that he was the one who was kind to our old Ge's family~~~~~~" Grandpa's eyes were moist, he raised his head and sighed, "We have fought for 30 years, fought for 30 years, and complained for 30 years, but in the end there is still nothing. This kid, Jinhong, sees things thoroughly, and he is really a good luck trick." Hearing his grandfather's emotion, the young father also felt emotional ups and downs, and his hostile eyes softened a little.

"Karma retribution, the cycle is not good. You came this time for your child who is lingering on the sick bed?" Mr. Zhang Fenggang held a cane, slowly picked up a green tender leaf and twisted it in his hand.Qian Liangming was stunned for a moment by revealing Qian Liangming's real intention of coming.

"Yes! Just because of the kindness of life 17 years ago, I want him, Ge Jinbao, to return my son's favor!" Repaying the kindness, asking for help is still so righteous, I really don't know this Qian Liangming's former boss Which skirt belt did the boss wear with him?I pouted helplessly, and glanced sympathetically at the young father who dared not speak out.As the saying goes, scooping people are soft-handed, eating others short-mouthed.Father received such kindness from others, so naturally he couldn't get angry again.As for me, I was waiting to be fed 17 years ago, and I didn't understand the big things.

"Speaking slowly, Jinhong has been kind to our Lao Ge family first, but he is just a passer-by who can't be beaten by others. With such a righteous character, how can he say that he doesn't help?!" Grandpa was angry.It's because of Qian Jinhong that he made such a big trip. This father is really nothing, but this son is exquisite and charming. I really don't know how the genetic code of this family is arranged. .

"Let's talk! As long as you don't break the law, don't harm the interests of the masses, and don't violate the bottom line of morality, my old Ge family will take full responsibility!" Grandpa waved his hand, which was called a vigorous and resolute act.The young father who is currently the head of Xiaohe Village was put aside, the young father was on the verge of speaking, but seeing the way his grandfather scolded Fang You, he didn't dare to step forward to stop him.

"Your old Ge's family can't afford it!" Qian Liangming stared at the righteous old man Ge with his naked eyes. From his bruised face, one could imagine that Qian Liangming didn't like to see old man Ge beg for wind. Rain's domineering look.For the first time ever, the grandfather who was choked by others stared at the bull's-eye, and was very angry: You are playing tricks!Lao Ge's family can't afford it, are you begging for nothing and running here for entertainment? !

"I need him to rejuvenate my son, and everyone in the village knows that his surname Jane and