happy looking back

some worries.

"En." Ge Heping nodded with a dignified expression.

"Go early and come back early, be careful yourself." Ah Ying's delicate eyebrows were dyed with a faint gloomy color, watching Ge Heping push the door out.

"Wait! Ah He!" As if thinking of something, Ah Ying hurriedly got up, picked up the red turban next to the bed, spread it out on the table, ran to the corner, opened the basket covered with red cloth, and took out a large handful of peanuts Put it into the turban, tie it up carefully, and hurriedly ran to Ge Heping who was waiting at the door.

"It's really mother who left you for confinement—" the man's tone was a little excited.

"There's more at home, go early and come back early, my baby and I are waiting for you at home." Ah Ying walked into the room and closed the door with a "bang".A long sigh sounded outside the door, and the sound of heavy footsteps gradually faded away.

Looking at the distraught young mother sitting on the edge of the bed, I wondered in my heart: what the hell are you going out for?As if feeling my gaze, Ah Ying turned her head and looked at me, the dark clouds finally broke through her gloomy face to reveal a touch of happiness, "Baby, why didn't you sleep? Are you worried about Dad?" His face darkened again.

"When will we not have to live this kind of life?" Ah Ying looked at the darkness outside the oil-papered window, her eyes were dazed and dazed.

"Ah~~~" Soon!I can't bear to look at Ah Ying like this, full of confusion and heaviness towards this society is the darkness and bitterness that young people in this era face together.

"Mom hopes that the baby will have books to read and go to school in the future. Eat enough, wear warm clothes, and have someone who loves the baby more than the mother to take care of the baby--" said the young Aying's clear eyes flashed a little bit Crystal tears.

"Ah~~~" Don't cry, such days are actually not far away. In the past 30 years of reform and opening up, the earth-shaking changes in China will shock the world.I stared at my legs and waved my hands to comfort the young mother in front of me, but I blurted out a single sound of "ahh".

"Baby is so good and knows how to comfort mother." The young Ah Ying laughed, tucked the quilt around me, climbed onto the bed, picked up the two long bamboo needles at hand and started knitting, humming an excerpt from the story of the red light from time to time , I fell into a deep sleep on such a quiet night.

With a long mouth to suppress the twitching vomit in the throat, a long gastroscope tube was inserted straight into the stomach, and there were dark gastric mucosa everywhere. Hunger and pain burned my stomach, and a blurred face beside me The doctor in a white coat said coldly, "Stomach cancer is at an advanced stage, it's hopeless."

"No! I don't want to die yet!" I desperately grabbed the doctor's white medical gown, pleading.The burning sensation in my stomach became more and more painful, and the dark liquid slowly spread to my whole body like venom. The fear of death made me scream at the top of my lungs.

"Baby! Baby! Don't be afraid, mom is here—, don't be afraid!, baby—" There were cries in my ears, and the terrifying black tentacles in my mind were slowly dissipating.Slowly opened my eyes, the bright light hurt my eyes.What came into view was a pale and worried face.

"Wake up! It's Yan, it's okay!" The aunt patted Aying's trembling body and comforted her softly.

"Baby, you scared my mother to death." The young Ah Ying hugged me tightly and hugged me tightly, feeling the faint scent of body fragrance from the tip of my nose, and my uneasy mood gradually warmed up.

"Bitter is hungry. There are ten teams in Xiaohe village, and there are more than a dozen newborns, but their own children can't get enough to feed. Where can I find milk? I can't drink rice porridge with brown sugar all the time. If things go on like this , I'm afraid—" Ah Ying cried out excitedly, and the aunt beside her was rubbing her hands anxiously and was running around in the room anxiously

"Gululu~~~" Hunger made my stomach growl in protest, and I looked at the two women in the room who were at a loss for what to do with some embarrassment. I just got this extremely painful problem, which makes me have a psychological shadow now.When I was hungry, I felt a creepy fear all over my body.

"Sister-in-law! What should I do—" Ah Ying was in a panic.

"Let's think about it, let's think about it——that's right! What your mother said——" the aunt lowered her voice and leaned against Aying's ear and asked.

"Ah He has already secretly raised the wall of the backyard, but my mother hasn't heard from her for so long." Ah Ying was anxious.

"It's not easy! Wait a minute, maybe something got in the way." The aunt was puzzled in her heart, but until now, she could only point to this hope.

"I heard that a baby in Qiancun was two years old and died yesterday—" Aying felt more fear in her heart as she spoke, and tightly strangled my body.

"Where did you hear that nonsense!" The aunt reprimanded.

"I saw it! It was buried on the port of Xigang. Before the burial, his father chopped off the child's two fingers—" A Ying's delicate face turned pale, and unspeakable pain flashed in her frightened eyes.

"Hey! That's a debt collector. He'll come back if he doesn't cut off his fingers." The aunt let out a long sigh and didn't speak any more.

In my heart, I was drawn to infinite fear by her: It is estimated that after the birth rate of children is high, the death rate is also high, so there is such a horrifying statement.I shook my head again and again, trying to shake the image of fear out of my head.

"Papa, Ah Ying!" There was a knock on the door.

"My mother!" Ah Ying stood up with a "whoosh".

6. Lamb...

"Close the door!" Grandma rushed into the yard and quickly closed the door.

"Mom! Here it is!" Ah Ying looked at her mother's sweaty forehead and a big bamboo basket behind her, her lowered voice rose with excitement.

"Go into the room and tell me." Grandma said and walked west across the house, and when she entered the door, she was filled with water from a tea mug.

"Mom! Don't just drink water." Ah Ying anxiously shook her grandmother's arm.

"Unconscionable girl!" Grandma panted, wiped off the tea hanging from the corner of her mouth, glared at A Ying who was beside her who was in a state of anxiety, and said with a smile.Slowly take down the bamboo basket carried behind him, and mysteriously lift the lid of the basket, a smell of mutton comes over his face.

"The ewe lamb who just gave birth!" The eldest aunt who was standing at the window letting the wind out exclaimed in a low voice.

"I ran all over the provincial capital but failed to get a ewe that had just given birth. Just as I was about to go home in disappointment, a panic-stricken old man was willing to sell the lamb at a low price. Give it to me, I was so happy at the time, without saying a word, the money and the goods are settled." The grandma said with some pride, "It is also thanks to my grandson's good fortune that he went out to meet noble people."

"Mom! Is this reliable?" Ah Ying and the eldest aunt glanced at each other, and they both saw doubt and nervousness in each other's eyes.A Ying asked worriedly.

"You think your mother is an idiot! The old man is an intellectual at first glance. These days, intellectuals either don't make mistakes, or they are rightist counter-revolutionaries." Grandma wanted to drink some water, but when she just picked up the kettle, Aying Take it away.

"Then you still want his sheep! That's a rightist! Several rightists in the labor camp in our village have died. Mom! You can't touch this! If you touch it, you will die, and the better ones will be sent to the police station." Xinjiang labor reform!" Ah Ying shook her grandmother's arm excitedly, looking haggard and pale.

"You think mother doesn't know! But there's no way to do it! Xiaohe Village is the poorest of the ten miles and eight towns. Not to mention that there are no ewes that have just laid lambs, it is difficult to find a hen that can lay eggs!" Grandma was deeply saddened. His voice was a little low, and his shrewd eyes could not help but turn red at this time, "I have given birth to six children in total, four girls and two boys. The eldest daughter and eldest son both died shortly after giving birth, and the youngest one He died of convulsions at the age of three. People in the village said that I, Ni Qionghua, did not have a son, and I admit it! But Aying Kugen is your first child, and it is a boy, so nothing will happen!"

"Mother~~~I understand!" Looking at the two mother and daughter who were choking together, my heart ached.

"Okay! The county seat is more than 30 kilometers away from us. It's far away. It's a big deal to fill the child's stomach as soon as possible!" The auntie squeezed out a stiff smile on her pale face.

"Yes! Yes! Sister-in-law is right." The two calmed down and began to milk the goat.

Looking at the milky white goat's milk passed to my mouth, my throat felt a little hard.This is the first time someone has done this for me when I grow up so old. I originally thought that I would treat Shang Xiaoyun wholeheartedly and give her all the enthusiasm and care that a husband should give her. Custody was also not preserved.

"Hey, eat!" The soup spoon was brought to my lips, I could smell the fishy smell of goat's milk, looking at the six pairs of expectant eyes in front of me, I suddenly didn't want to see them disappointed.Gently opened his mouth, and licked it with his small tongue. It was very fishy but not as bad as imagined. The gurgling milk slipped into his stomach, warming his stomach and heart.

"I'll bring the sheep to the backyard. As long as there is enough fresh fodder, it won't bark. Besides, the backyard is located in a remote place, and generally no one goes there." The aunt led the sheep and walked out.

"Okay! I should go too. The ten or so days I left behind on the tasks of the production team are all on your sister Aqin. If you don't go back, you will be hungry next month if you lose centimeters." Grandma said as she got up. Carrying the bamboo basket on his back again, he didn't let Ah Ying leave in a hurry.

"Aying, where's your mother?" Auntie put a bundle of fresh grass in her hand and put it in the corner of the backyard, then turned and walked over.

"I'm back, she's always been a person who can't be idle." Ah Ying wrapped the little padded jacket around me tightly, and wrapped my whole body