Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Wednesday January 27th cloudy

I didn't do anything else at home today, other than hanging up my part-time job, I kept packing my things and preparing my luggage for going home tomorrow.

The tickets will be available at [-]:[-] tomorrow morning. At that time, I bought the tickets for Thursday mainly thinking that I would not catch up with the peak time of returning home on the weekend, but I didn’t expect it. It left Lu Bei with no time to see me off.

Before going to work in the morning, he frowned and said, "I'll ask for a vacation tomorrow morning."

It can be seen that he really wanted to see me off, after all, he did it when Shen Jing was on the plane, if he dared to watch me go home alone without any disturbance, it would be too unfair!

But how considerate I was, I said to him: "No need, I am a man with hands and feet, and I can go by myself."

He wanted to say something else, and was about to be late for work, so he hurriedly said: "I'll talk about it when I get back."

went away.

In fact, his words are enough.

I don't care whether he really wants to send me off or it's just a superficial talk.

As long as he can express this intention, I am satisfied.After all, I'm not a girl who can't carry my shoulders or hands. If I ask him to ask for leave for me, it will cause him trouble again. It seems that I'm a hypocritical thing.

What's more, the basis of our relationship is probably because I can't do whatever I want.

I was already ready to go home by car with a small suitcase alone.I fumbled through my luggage with little interest.In fact, there is nothing to take home, basically everything you need is available at home, so you don’t need to take it.I installed a charging cable and power bank, two sets of clothes, two pairs of shoes, a computer, two sets of change of underwear, a bag on my back, and a bag in my hand, all of which were sufficient.

Oh, right!

It suddenly occurred to me that my mother asked me to buy some special products to take back home. Damn, I completely forgot about it!

I'm free in the afternoon, but I'm such a responsible young man, I don't dare to be passive and sabotage, so I use my mobile phone to log in to customer service.I tidied up casually, went out to buy some special candies and cakes here, and prepared to take them back, leave some for my parents, and give some to relatives.

In fact, I also know that there must be a specialty shop at the entrance of the high-speed rail station tomorrow, but I guess it will be expensive, so I think about it or forget it.

There is an antique cultural street about half an hour away from my house. It is said that it has some historical origins and has been built for a long time, but it is actually full of shops, restaurants and contemporary industrial products.Most of the people who come here are open to tourists from other places. Naturally, there are many famous products. I have a clear goal and I am too lazy to pick and choose. I quickly bought three boxes of snacks and two shadow puppets, packed the gift boxes, and prepared to leave.

But I happened to pass by a clay sculpture specialty store, and there were many colorful, beautiful and vivid villains in the front row. I stopped and looked at it for a long time, feeling itchy in my heart, and wanted to buy one.

Carrying a small bag, I stretched my neck and asked the shopkeeper: "Boss, can this be squeezed now?"

The boss shook his head, saying that the master craftsman is not here, and he won't be back until tomorrow.

I was a little disappointed, but I actually wanted the master to make a doll that looked exactly like me, and put it at home with Lu Bei, to let him know that no matter where he is, my heart will always be with him!

I had to try my best to pick a clay figurine that was somewhat similar to me (both men and wearing clothes) among the clay figurines inside. I paid the money and went back happily to make a small gift for Lu Bei.

Kangkang!What a good boyfriend!That is, no matter what you buy, always keep your object in mind!

In the evening, when Lu Bei came back, he would cook in person and make me a breakup meal.

He was choosing the dishes in his hands, and he didn't forget to say: "I told my boss today, I will take half a day off tomorrow morning, and I will send you there before going back to work."

I quickly waved my hand: "Don't, don't! You just need to earn money, and I don't have much luggage, so I can carry it with two hands."

After a pause: "The high-speed rail station is not far away, I get up early, and I will be there in four to five ten minutes."

He smiled: "I have already asked for leave."

But I felt sorry in my heart: "It's okay, you have worked so hard this month, you just recovered from a serious illness, you can rest at home tomorrow morning. If you really want to go, just send me to the station."

But he lost his patience, and made a final decision: "Don't whine, don't worry about it, I will send you if I say."

"Ah... well then."

Lu Bei looked at my face: "Why are you not happy?"

"No! How could it be!" I was washing the fish: "I just feel that I have troubled you, and I feel a little sorry."

He looked at me suspiciously and said nothing.

Before the dishes were served, I put the little clay figurine in front of his seat.

Lu Bei saw it at a glance, and asked me with interest: "What is this?"

"Look, who does this look like!"

"Liu Xiang?"

"what?"

"Yao Ming?"

"what?"

"Peng Yuyan..."

"Hey! It's getting close!"

"Wu Yanzu?"

"Hey! Almost! Guess again!"

He laughed, "Isn't it me?"

I raised the clay figurine in front of him: "It's me! Me! Isn't it like me!"

But Lu Bei was amused: "I didn't see it at all."

I handed it to him and said affectionately, "This is a gift for you."

"This ugly thing, why?"

"Then I want to go home. You are so lonely by yourself, so I will put a clone to accompany you."

Lu Bei pouted: "Then you might as well buy an airplane cup."

"?? If I co-author in your heart, I'm still a cannon!"

"Just kidding, kidding, hahahaha," Lu Bei took over, "Then from tomorrow onwards, it's just the two of us sleeping."

"Okay! Let him warm you up!"

After I finished eating, I consciously went to wash the dishes. Lu Bei stood by my side the whole time, hesitating, as if he had something to say.

I asked him: "What's wrong?"

Lu Beidao: "I want to talk to you about something, but I don't know how to start."

……

I raised my heart all of a sudden, pretending to be calm: "What's wrong?"

"Well... Actually..." He spoke for a long time before frowning: "Didn't you realize it?"

I was taken aback: "What?"

"It feels like you are always very far away from me, very polite," he said, "Don't you think there is a strong sense of alienation between us?"

My heart tightened, and I panicked: "Ah... is there?"

"Obviously we are already lovers, obviously we should be the closest people, but your heart always seems to reject me thousands of miles away."

"Um?……"

"I've already let you catch me, but it's you, who always make me feel a little bit unable to catch me. Maybe this expression is not accurate, but you have the feeling that you have left countless retreats for yourself, and you want to get out at any time."

I was at a loss: "...I don't have one."

"It's like asking for leave to send you off today. It's not a big deal, but you don't want it." He said, "Actually, it's normal for any couple, but you are very cautious."

"...I don't want to make trouble for you."

"People, don't they intersect because they bother each other? You also have to consider how I want to send my partner."

I poured some dishwashing liquid into the bowl, lowered my head and said, "But, if you have too much trouble, you will get bored."

"If it's something unreasonable, that's a different matter. But like this kind of boyfriend's job, you never asked me for it." He said.

Ah... what happened to Lu Bei today, did the sun come out from the west?

He leaned against the door frame, tilted his head and looked at me: "This feeling is not new recently. You have always been submissive in front of me and never lost your temper. Just like last time..." Lu Bei paused, and said : "The time I yelled at you, it was obviously my fault, but you didn't say anything, just bear it."

Lu Bei said: "This is actually not good, Xiao Tian'er, we need to communicate with each other, otherwise the two of us won't be able to go together for long."

"Um……"

I know that what he said is correct, and it is indeed for our future consideration.

But when I was washing the dishes, I felt so wronged in my heart. I obviously thought of everything for him, but in the end I still had to be scolded by him.

"Me, I haven't had any overly intimate relationships with people, and my relationship with my family is average," I said, "so I may not know how to get along with an intimate partner..."

And I want to make you feel at ease, and I also hope that you will be slower to dislike me.

My heart twisted and felt uncomfortable.

Finally, Lu Bei stared at me for a while, then sighed: "Take your time."

He walked around the living room and came back to pinch my tender butt: "You are just like a child, you can't say anything at all."