Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

February [-]th is sunny and the fifth day of the Lunar New Year

Since I was beaten violently on New Year's Eve, these two days have been peaceful. My parents never made things difficult for me, or more precisely, they never talked to me again.

On the first day of the new year, they didn't leave my relatives, so they locked me in the house for a whole day.At night, maybe my mother felt compassion, and when my father went out for a walk after dinner, he secretly handed me a bowl of rice and some leftover vegetables.Then without saying anything, he locked me up again.

I don't actually feel hungry.I don't feel anything.

It's just that the whole body is sleepy, the hair is dizzy, and the eyes are black.

Maybe it's because I didn't eat, but I think it's actually because of the concussion.

I don't care about these things. The only thing I worry about now is how anxious Lu Bei will be when he sees the news of me.

He might start frantically trying to reach me, he might just keep texting me, but I wouldn't even be able to get him a word back.

What if he wants to come to me, he doesn't know where my home is!What if he asked my classmates or roommates?I thought about it, Liu Xiong, Li Houer, Wang Baboon...no one knows my home address.

Then he couldn't find me at all, how uncomfortable and powerless he would be...

I don't want him to worry about me during his rare vacation, so that he won't have a good year.Ugh, it breaks my heart just thinking about it.

In previous years, I went back to my grandma’s house on the second day of the Lunar New Year, and returned to my hometown on the third day of the Lunar New Year.Although there is no need to walk back and forth this year, it is still necessary to exchange pleasantries.The relatives who can make a phone call will call, and those who can make a video call will make a video New Year greeting. They seem to be beaming.I listened to the outside of the house, my parents tried their best to put on a cheerful tone, and talked nonsense to them politely.

Occasionally, when I meet a few elders who ask me and must see me and talk to me, they will let me out of the room with great reluctance.

I will pretend to be nothing, with a smirk on my face, and come to the screen to greet the grandparents, uncles, aunts and aunts.Everything looks so natural and weird. We built a paper frame of a beautiful family. Who would know that under the peacefulness everywhere, it is already riddled with holes.

On the fourth day of the lunar new year, several colleagues of my parents came to our house to pay New Year's greetings and made an appointment to go out for dinner.

Originally, my parents didn't want me to go, but my colleagues kept persuading me enthusiastically, so they had to call me.

I was finally able to go out to see the light and have a good meal like a prisoner who went out to relax.

During the banquet, the uncles were full of bragging and drinking, and the aunts and parents were gossiping about the old days. We juniors all nodded and laughed along, bowing our heads and sipping our drinks in silence.

There is an elder sister who just graduated from the postgraduate entrance examination last year. She looks like a domineering student, quiet and soft-spoken.When the parents mentioned their children's study, they took her as the representative to blow it up, and ignored the sister's embarrassing expression, and booed her to share her learning experience.

I reckoned that she was a little socially afraid, her face was flushed, and she didn't say a word for a long time.

Her parents said: "Oh! The child is stupid in studying! I don't know how to live outside the society."

An uncle next to him joked: "Girls, being able to find a good partner with a high degree of education and high income is more reliable than finding a good job!"

After listening, everyone laughed again.

The topic naturally turned to the emotional life of the juniors.Except for the two who were married and one who was still in high school, the rest of us young people were questioned all over the place.

I was thinking of avoiding this question.After all, the word "object" is a sensitive and high-risk word in our family now. I am afraid that my parents will go crazy on the spot.So, as if I was afraid that the teacher would pick someone up to answer the question, I buried my head in cooking and didn't dare to breathe, pretending that my mouth and hands were busy, and I didn't dare to meet their eyes.

Unexpectedly, he still didn't escape, and he was cueed by a young aunt: "How about our Goutian? Are there any little girls chasing you at school?"

Before I could answer, I could catch a glimpse of my parents' complexions from the corner of my eye, which turned black into charred dry coals on the bottom of the pot in an instant.They gave me threatening looks, lest I lose my mind and say something I shouldn't say, and ruin their old Gou family's reputation.

I smiled awkwardly: "No, who is chasing me."

The little aunt exaggeratedly raised her voice: "How handsome our Goutian is! How could no one chase after him!"

I said dryly, "No."

So she asked again: "Then is there a girl you like now? Girls are easy to chase now, you boys should take the initiative, wait until next year's Chinese New Year, and bring back a daughter-in-law for your parents!"

Under the horrifying gaze of my parents, I lowered my head and said, "There is no one I like."

The little uncle next to me patted the back of my chair and laughed loudly: "Our Gou Tian is thin-skinned, so I'm ashamed!" He said: "When I was in college, my feelings were very simple, so I needed to have more romantic relationships. It’s not easy to have a long-lasting relationship right now, and I’ll have experience in the future.”

I sat in silence, I didn't even want to answer.

The greasy words of these "elders" made me sick, and I didn't want to sit here for a second.

My dad finally said, "Xiaogou is only a sophomore, don't worry!"

He said to one of the aunts: "When your family Juanjuan returns to China, you can let their peers play more and learn more."

The aunt drank a little high, and two blushes appeared on her face: "No problem, sure!"

I still didn't speak, and poked the braised pork in front of me to pieces.

Courage is always like a fleeting spark, and now I have become the original incompetent cabinet.

And the rest of the time at home, I became a transparent person who couldn't walk freely.

Imprisoned in a hut, without any entertainment, unable to communicate with the outside world, and eating their leftovers every day.

I've also tried to struggle, telling them I made an appointment a long time ago to go out with my high school friends.Tell them to give me back my phone and set me free.

Unexpectedly, the two of them seemed to be unable to see or hear me, and they didn't pay any attention to it.

I didn't even have a chance to go out, and I completely lost contact with the outside world.

Now my only entertainment in the small room is to find some notebooks, draft paper and pens that are no longer used in middle and high school, and rewrite the things about Lu Bei that I can still recall bit by bit.

People have to have hope in life, and this thought is enough to support me through this difficult time.

I was crying and laughing when I wrote it, recalling some of his caring actions and my highlight moments, I was so happy that I danced and danced. Lu Bei's appearance and figure kept appearing in front of my eyes day and night... I miss him so much .

I miss Ani too.

I really want to.

I tossed and turned while scratching my head and scratching my liver.

...When will I be able to escape?

I closed my eyes, imagining that the soft quilt was his embrace, imagining his smell filling my nostrils, imagining his deep voice scratching my ears over and over again, imagining his soft skin being stretched out my fingertips.

Lu Bei in my mind has been encouraging me firmly and supporting me silently.

My tears dried and wet on the pillow, and it finally dawned on me that no one can save me now.

Only myself.

I have a chance. When NO.19 comes, my parents will return to work. They all have to go to work, so naturally they can't keep staring at me.

Although it is foreseeable that I will be locked at home, even if I climb the fifth floor through the window, I will go out.

This idea may be a bit crazy, but it may be my only source.

Even if it is climbing, I will climb to Lu Bei's side.

The author says:

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