Two stupid postmodern life

Yuji lay in a hospital bed in a vegetative state for nearly ten years. The doctors and nurses there had long given up hope for him. If it wasn't for the monthly medical expenses of her only sister, she would have been extubated and died peacefully.

No one expected that one day, she woke up suddenly, but what she had to face after waking up was that her own sister had just passed away not long before she woke up.

After living in a hospital bed for ten years, Yuji was out of touch with society. Facing the death of her only relative, she was numb and didn't have too many emotions.Fortunately, some well-meaning person secretly continued to pay for the medical expenses, so she was able to recover smoothly. After six months of sobriety, she finally recovered.

She had anxiety and fear, and she didn't know how to live in the future, and it was that kind person who sent someone to ask her what she wanted in the future.

She thought about it and decided to go to school.

For some reason, she chose medicine.

In this way, she went to school, graduated, and worked. Although she was ignorant, she survived smoothly.

I don't know if it was because she had been in a coma for too long before, but she always felt a sense of alienation from the world.When she is quiet, she likes to look out the window and see the bustling people on the street. They are either for livelihood, or for affection, or for power, or for vanity... In short, Yuji thinks they are tired and boring.

This thin layer of windows is like a display screen. Inside the screen are all living beings trying to play their respective roles, and outside the screen is the indifferent audience, Yuji.

She couldn't get into the show at all.

On the TV, a MV was playing, the heroine hugged the body of the heroine, and murmured:

Memories remind me of my strange childhood

clouds floating in blue sky

At that time you said you wanted to hold hands with me

Walk to the end of time together...

The heroine's favorite man is dead, she still has the love of the heroine, but there is nothing around Youji.

All her relatives left her, but why did she survive?

Recently, she has been thinking about this question.

Due to Yuji's sense of alienation, even after studying and working, she has been unable to get along with people around her, so she has no good friends, and her relationship with colleagues is mediocre.

She doesn't like to go out for activities. In her free time, besides looking at the people outside the window, she just watches TV. Besides, the only thing that allows her to go out during non-working hours is to worship her family.

Her parents were killed in an earthquake in the early years, and she herself was seriously injured and unconscious in that accident, and only her only sister survived.But ten years later, her sister was also shot and died in a foreign country. Strangely, she woke up shortly after her sister died.

Except for the good luck to make people, Yuji can't think of other reasons.

She lived in a trance like this, neither positive nor negative. She felt that life was precious, and she never had the idea of ​​committing suicide. It was just that she had no goal, no direction, and didn't know where to go.

Suddenly one day, an idea appeared in Youji's mind: She felt that it was not that no one loved her, but that the world was too big and that person hadn't found her yet.

As soon as this idea appeared, it was like a spark falling into the grassland, gradually burning a corner, a side, a piece... and even a piece.

Yuji felt this way more and more. When she was walking on the street recently, she would always turn her head unconsciously, wandering around with confused eyes, and then suddenly regained consciousness after finishing.

Ask yourself several times: what am I looking for?

I don't know... Maybe, I'm looking for someone who loves me.

But who is he and what does he look like?

…I don’t know, maybe we’ll know when we meet.

She was surprised by herself like this, but she couldn't control her thoughts, so she felt that she should be sick.

It must be too idle all day long, and the brain is pumped, so that it will be so cranky.

For this reason, she works diligently, and always takes two vacations every year to make a long-distance trip.

The places to travel are all close to nature and have not been over-exploited by humans. Correspondingly, there are very few travelers there, but she likes it.

Her goal is to travel across the five continents in her lifetime, looking for someone who loves her while looking at the scenery. She knows that this is just her own boring and unrealistic fantasy, but that's what she wants.

It was another year of travel, this time she chose the Brazilian highlands, where the climate is hot all year round, she did not dare to go too far, but just enjoyed and played along the edge, then she walked eastward and climbed the high ridged mountains .

Looking down from the mountains, the plateau can only be seen one or two times. Youji looks at the blue sky for a while, and the dazzling green ground for a while. She really wants to stay here for the rest of her life.

"Chirp~chirp~~" A high-pitched voice whistled high in the sky, Youji looked up and saw a eagle hovering above her head.

The vulture eagle was flying very high at first, Youji looked at it fascinatedly with her hands on her forehead, but gradually, the vulture eagle flew lower and lower, Youji could even clearly see the reflection of its feathers.

Instinct made her panic. She felt that the guy seemed to be flying down to attack her. Youji looked at the eagle's claws, which were several feet long, and thought of being caught by this thing, and her head was immediately punctured.

She looked around in a hurry, trying to find a place with shelter, but there was no such place on the bare mountain top.

The next moment, the eagle swooped down and attacked Youji fiercely.Youji ran and turned her head to look, she stumbled and fell to the ground, her eyes darkened and she passed out.

……

In front of Youji was a quaint street, and in front of her was a long queue, at first glance, there were hundreds of people.

The queue was a bit long, and the people behind were a little anxious, and shouted loudly: "Boss, prepare the dishes quickly, there has been no movement for a long time, and the people behind us are growling with hunger."

Yuji heard herself say: "It's out of the pot, it's out of the pot, don't worry, there is a [-]% discount for those who insist on queuing up after twenty people, sorry everyone, there are too many people recently, and the dishes in the back can't keep up .”

The noise became quieter, and he called out to the hungry people just now: "The boss is generous, we are willing to wait."

She bowed her hands to thank, and continued to maintain order while fighting. The line became shorter and shorter, and the types of meals began to decrease. She faced the counter while clearing the empty plates and shouted: "Next."

A clear and deep voice said: "Boss, I want to increase the deluxe McDonald's."

I don't know why, just hearing this voice, Yuji's heart was like soaked in honey, sweet from the inside out, she turned her head, grinning involuntarily: "Why are you here?"

But the face of the person in front of him was like being shrouded in a layer of fog, so he couldn't see clearly.

As soon as the screen turns, the scene has changed.

It was still her, and the person whose face could not be seen clearly seemed to be arguing.

Yuji's tone was not kind: "Take away your natal stone, I don't want it, it feels very troublesome."

The man was calm and relaxed: "If I let you go, I can't take it away."

"I don't believe it, Xuan Ye, don't think that I can talk nonsense if I don't know anything." Yuji felt that she couldn't control her temper, but she still tried to calm down her tone: "There is no reason why you can't get it out after putting it in. Shi is about life, there must be many guarantees, I beg you, take it out of my body, I am really uncomfortable."

The man was unmoved: "If you are sick, it can take you to bear it, and there is no need to take it out."

"..." Youji was speechless, she just knew that any of her problems would be passed on to him through the natal stone, so she couldn't wait to take it out, okay?

"Xuan Ye, don't force me to get angry." You Ji felt that she was on the verge of erupting, but instead, her voice was unusually calm.

That's how she is, when she is usually angry, she will make a lot of noise, but when she is in a hurry, she will calm down instead, it's natural.

The one named Xuan Ye kept smiling: "I won't take it if you get angry."

Youji took a hard look: "Okay, don't take it, then leave... don't talk to me, and talk about when you take it out." After finishing speaking, she turned and left.

From that day on, the two started a cold war and separated.

Recently, Yuji is very scared. She has been absent from all four bodies, and her physical fitness seems to be worse than those of them. Every time the season changes, she has to catch a cold for a few days, but recently, it seems that she hasn't appeared for a long time.

On the contrary, Xuan Ye saw that something was wrong several times, although it was not obvious, but she was as close as her, so she could still notice it.

She thought about it, and suddenly thought of that natal stone, but when she asked, it was indeed so.

Youji immediately became restless. She always thought long-term, and suddenly realized that her half-baked body would definitely not last as long as Xuan Ye. If one day she died early due to poor health, what about Xuan Ye?

The natal stone is in her body, if she dies, wouldn't it be transferred from the natal stone to Xuan Ye.

Are you kidding me?

Even if I die, I can't let Xuan Ye die!

She is a selfish person, so she will not die behind Xuan Ye and spend the rest of her life in the long silence.

She must die first, and must let Xuan Ye spend the rest of her life well.

She has already planned, how to make sex happen, she must be three-pointed even if there is nothing wrong, and Xuan Ye gradually gets bored, so after several decades, when she leaves, Xuan Ye should be more relieved than sad.

The plan was made, but the implementation was not satisfactory. Xuan Ye fell ill just a few days after they separated.

It must be that Xuan Ye slept in the study by himself, and didn't cover the quilt properly at night, so Yuji had no choice but to pack his bedding and put it back in their hut.

Xuan Ye's face was no longer foggy, but his face was still unclear. Yuji looked at Xuan Ye's face flushed slightly, but she still smiled like a fool when she saw him, and slapped him on the forehead: " This time first, next time you wait."

The world was shaking, Yuji looked around, and things around her began to loom, she was very familiar with this feeling, she knew that she was about to wake up.

She doesn't want to wake up, this world is beautiful, her lover loves her very much, her lover's name is Xuan Ye.

Xuan Ye's body became transparent, the surrounding objects disintegrated, quickly disintegrated into dust, the world was gradually collapsing, Yuji was afraid that she would forget all this when she woke up, in fact, she also had a faint feeling that she would forget, so she hurriedly Grab whatever you can get your hands on, it's a bed sheet.

Biting the tip of her tongue, she let the blood flow from her mouth. She spat out a mouthful of blood, covered the thick blood stain on the bed sheet with her fingers, and drew one character at a time: Xuan Ye.

Youji told herself that she must find a pen and paper immediately after waking up, because she knew that everything in the dream would disappear from her mind at the speed of light.

When the last stroke was made, Yuji suddenly opened her eyes.