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Lu Yueping's eyes were full of tears, but her face was smiling, and her voice was also crying: "Baby, you said what's wrong with you, and you told your mother, ah, what's wrong with you in front of your mother?"

Zou Yan finally cried out.

Lu Yueping had never been so wronged.The good director of the orphanage when I was a child was reluctant to let her, the oldest girl, be wronged, and the caring husband after marriage was reluctant to let her be wronged.Now when her son seriously asks herself "Am I really sick", Lu Yueping really wants to cry, and shed all the tears that she has never cried in her life.

"Bao, do you think mom doesn't know? Huh? Mom has been with you day and night for so many years, but I still can't understand what you mean?" Lu Yueping put down the cold towel and raised her hand to wipe her tears. "You are shy, but when you mention that little The look in Li's eyes is the same as when you found the toffee that your dad deliberately bought for you when you were a child, you are so happy."

As Lu Yueping spoke, she didn't know what came to her mind, she wiped her tears again, cried and laughed and said, "You have a mouth full of it. If you don't eat cheap fruit candy, you have to eat expensive milk candy and milk powder to make it. Yes, you don’t eat anything made of creamer. Your dad was amused by you at the time, and said that no matter how poor he was, he would put you in a jar of sweet milk to grow up.”

Zou Wei didn't understand why Lu Yueping thought of his dead father, his mind went blank, but he only knew how to cry.

Lu Yueping always laughed while crying, wiping her tears with one hand: "Actually, I can see it, and I understand it too. Mom has studied before and loves reading very much, but I don't have money to go to school. When I was young, I was in I work as a cleaner in a community. There is a university professor who lives there. He is very foreign. Every once in a while, he will throw his old magazines to the waste collector. I ask the waste collector again. I saw a pair of young boys Marriage news. That was the first time I saw two foreign boys kissing on a lawn under the floating rainbow flag. I didn’t know that they were in love, and someone would bless them.”

Zou Yan called weakly: "Mom..."

Lu Yueping took a deep breath: "I was very surprised at the time. But then I didn't see these things again, so I didn't pay attention to them. I didn't think about these things until my father and I gave birth to you, a little boy. .

"But these days I think about those things again, and when I think about it, I even read it online. Some of these children are asking themselves, and some of these children's parents are asking. They are all asking if it is okay, right, and how to change it."

Zou Yan's tears dried up, and his face was covered with a few tear stains. He looked at Lu Yueping through the blurred eyes, and murmured: "Mom...Mom..."

Lu Yueping stood up, hugged her son, and gave her son the firmest support with her softest abdomen, as if letting the child return to the place where he was conceived.

"Bao, I really felt that I couldn't stand it at first. Your father is only one child of yours. If you like the same sex, how can you have children in the future? Isn't your father the last one? I thought I could bless others is true love, I I definitely don't discriminate against them, but this kind of thing happened to my treasure, and I really panic." Lu Yueping touched Zou's head, heard him sobbing, and comforted him, "But I'm not sure, I dare not ask you about this kind of thing. As a result, on that day, you mentioned his name to Mom for the first time, and Mom suffered from insomnia. I don’t think I fell asleep, and your dad seemed to be watching in a daze. Me, tell me not to cry. He also told me that I have worked hard to take care of our children. I said, this is our child. How can it be hard work for me to take care of my children? Your father said, we two Both are poor lives, but we love each other sincerely, you are our eternal treasure, not a burden. If you can’t have a baby with your lover in the future, you should be happy with the one you love.”

But Zou Yan looked up at her: "Mom... he, he doesn't like me... he, he also said that I... crazy... I'm not so... so noble... love... not like, not like You...and Dad..."

Lu Yueping knelt down and hugged him, gently patted his head to coax him: "Silly boy, what is this? Huh? How can Xiao Li understand this? Don't talk about you today, he, and your teacher Zhuang, are all frightened Yes. How does Xiao Li understand?"

Zou Yan kept breathing heavily, and Lu Yueping said to him: "Baby, don't be afraid. There is no need to rush this kind of thing, ah. No matter whether there is such a person or not, you should remember that Mom loves you, and you, Grandpa Xu, how much he loves you." I like you. In the future, if mom and grandpa Xu are gone, you will take care of yourself, won't you, ah? You and mom promise that you will love yourself well. "

Zou Yan's breathing finally came back, he pressed his head against Lu Yueping's, and nodded heavily.

After taking a bath, Zou Yan became shy and refused to let Lu Yueping apply the medicine for him.He was wearing shorts, and Lu Yueping saw that his thighs were rubbed red, almost torn, and his lips were also blood red from his rubbing.

"Baby, if you want to eat something, Mom will buy it for you."

Zou Yan wiped his hair with one hand and went to get the medicine with the other, and said foolishly, "I want to eat toffee."

Lu Yueping sighed lightly and went out.

When she came back, in addition to toffee, Lu Yueping also bought a big roast duck and eight-treasure rice, and brought Zou Yan a lip balm in the shape of a small mushroom.

The mother and son finished the roast duck and rice quietly, and there was not even a grain of rice left.After eating, Zou Yan washed the dishes and went back to the bedroom, while Lu Yueping cleaned up the trash and went to take a shower.

It was very easy for Xu Jingqiang to find a school for Zou Yan.But this time Zou Yan himself agreed to only hang up a student status, and the rest followed the studio all the way. After "transferring schools", Zou Wei only rested at home for a week, and went to paint with a face full of pain.

It was his class that sprinted to Italian colleges, and it was okay if he didn't meet Han.

During the final exam, Zou still went to the new school to take the exam.One person goes, another person goes.

It doesn't matter how the grades are, as long as you can enter a general high school.Zou Yan has always been able to pass in mathematics, and his English and Chinese are not bad; he is really not good in physics, and he is always a little short of passing.

However, his Italian has improved rapidly, and he hardly speaks Chinese with others in the studio.

Because he found himself stuttering.

Lu Yueping also noticed it, but it didn't affect her from continuing to speak warmly to Zou Yan.Sometimes it even seems like a one-man show.

It wasn't until the real summer vacation that Zou Wei logged into the QQ that he hadn't touched for a long time because he wanted to join the new group of the studio.Neither surprised nor disappointed, no one sent him a message.

Zou Wei joined the group to see if there were any important announcements in the group, received the picture file sent by the teacher, and prepared to log off.At this moment, his mobile phone moved.

Hearing the sound of the vibration being amplified by the table, Zou Wei prayed quietly in his heart.But there is no content, just a simple "hope".

It can be Han.

Zou Yan picked up the phone and didn't speak.Han also didn't speak.After a while, Han Yike asked: "Zou Zhe? I am..."

"I, I know." Zou Yan interrupted her.

Han Yike stopped talking again, but his breathing became heavier.Zou Yan had no choice but to continue: "You, you are looking for me... What is it?"

"I'm sorry. It's just... that spring outing." When Han Yike said this, he looked like a shy girl, completely different from his usual cleverness.

Zou Wei felt strange: "You, what are you... sorry for me?"

"Not long after that spring outing, you have been wearing a mask. And Zhao Kaixin came to ask me if you like me-Zhao Kaixin is a little gangster who was in the second year of junior high school and now the third year of junior high school. So I guessed them I beat you up. Later, I asked someone to beat them up again." Han Yike's tone was very sincere, but Zou Yan had already remembered: Ma Mengyang's warning, the occasional illusion of someone behind him, and Zhao Kaixin They didn't come to find fault either...

"Thank, thank you." Zou Wei thought for a few seconds and said, "This, this is not... your fault. I, I am very happy... you can treat me, treat me as a friend."

Han Yike was silent again, holding his breath for a long time and said, "So, Hu Jiajing...in fact...it's actually related to them."

"Mmm... Ming, I understand." Zou Yu replied.

"Why... do you stutter so badly?"

Zou Yan chuckled lightly: "Scared, scared."

Han Yike is always confused by Zou Zhuan's temper, or he doesn't know what to say, or, the matter has come to this point, Han Yike doesn't know how to communicate with Zou Yu.

Neither of them hung up.

Finally, Han Yike whispered, "Are you on vacation? I just saw you on QQ, and I suddenly wanted to confess these things to you."

Zou Yan still smiled: "You, why... so many things... Do you want to... confess to me?"

Han Yike remembered that he pretended not to know Xu Jingqiang at the time, and later "confessed" with Zou Yan, so he couldn't help laughing.But the two laughed for a while, and Han Yike said, "Zou Yan, do you want to know about him?"

Of course Zou Yan knows who this "he" is, but he doesn't understand why he needs to know about "him" now.He didn't want to just stay silent so stupidly, he just picked up a new book and flipped through it, making some noises.

Han Yike probably felt that this matter should not be kept secret, so he said: "He is in a relationship with Liu Xueyao from Class [-]. It can't be seen in school. Liu Xueyao posts dynamic shows every day. The students are talking about her."

Zou Yan had no expression on his face, and he didn't even feel much in his heart, but his breathing was slightly tight, and his fingers inadvertently slid across a page of the new book, and there was a sudden pain in his fingertips.

I cut my finger on the paper.Zou Yan looked at his bleeding hand, recalled the argument that "paper is very sharp" that he had read in some colorful encyclopedias before, and felt emotional: So it is true.

"I, I'll deal with it first... my hand was... scratched by the book." Zou Yan hung up the phone on his own, as if he hadn't heard what Han Yike said just now. I took out a piece of paper, wrapped my fingers and went out to wash my hands and disinfect them.

Right ring finger.Fortunately, I don't use my ring finger much for drawing.Zou Yan endured the tingling sensation brought by the alcohol and sat on the sofa in a daze.

Li Zhefei agreed to Liu Xueyao.This is a good thing, right?After all, didn't he say things like "Why would you want to fall in love with someone you don't like", "I have rejected it a long time ago" and so on?Did he suddenly agree to Liu Xueyao because he likes this girl?