Jia Zheng through the Red Mansions

Jia Zheng was scolded by his own son, and he felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. Seeing that Jia Zhu, who was terrified even looking at him in the past, has become this confident man now, a certain string in Jia Zheng's heart was touched. .

Isn't this what he always wanted?At the beginning, when he saw Jia Zhu collapsed when the wind blows, he was so anxious to study without being popular. All the uneasiness of coming to this strange place was defeated by a strong sense of responsibility. A definite purpose, that is to make those little buns made of pink and jade happy.

So what now?Jia Zhu is now a man who can support a family; Zade, who married honestly and honestly in Yuanchun and had children, seems to have reaped happiness; Tanchun, Jiahuan and the others have no worries about food and clothing, so what is holding him back now?

Tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, when I was in a daze, I suddenly seemed to have returned to my previous life, standing in mid-air, looking at the bits and pieces that happened to me from the perspective of a bystander, the one who heard other people's gossip Gossiping will only go away silently, the self who smiled wryly in his heart, the self who watched his wife resolutely leave but failed to say a word to stay, the mocking smile on his face when his wife saw him after remarriage Chu, she said to herself coldly, even if she used responsibility to keep her, she would have stayed, but he didn't say a word.

Perhaps, the only thing I did in my previous life that could comfort me was the moment when I rushed to push my son away. At that time, his mind was blank and he didn't think about anything.

Yes, he didn't think about anything, he always looked forward and backward, too much hesitation and too many choices, and finally chose the worst decision.

Suddenly, he saw himself sober here at the beginning, looking at the sons and daughters he saw for the first time, the firmness in his eyes was the most brilliant color in his life.

He kept thinking, Hong Xi always said that he loves himself, so what is there in him that deserves his love?He is not young, he is already a middle-aged old man, with regular features and no beautiful face.

Now, he has the opportunity to take a good look at what he hadn't noticed before. After he blocked Hong Xi's whip for Jia Zhu, he only cared about Jia Zhu, but never looked back. His expression, now that he saw it, it was a kind of confusion and shock, but at that time, he was still determined in his heart to protect the children.

So what about now, would the current self, Hong Xi, still like it?Suddenly there was a sharp stabbing pain in his heart, he finally remembered, what else did he ignore?

How could he be such a failure?He wanted to protect the children, but what did he do? Jia Zhu grew up so fast, but the clearest impression of Zhu Er in his heart was that innocent child. What made Jia Zhu become who he is now? Know nothing.

Yuan Chun's happiness, what did he do? If it wasn't for Hong Xi, he wouldn't dare to imagine whether Yuan Chun is now struggling to survive in the cannibal palace.

What he wants to protect is done by others, so what about himself?He didn't even do anything for himself, he asked himself, to start over, he also wanted a sincere relationship, but he just thought about it, what did he do?He said it nicely in front of Jia Min at the beginning, but until now, Hongxi is the only one who maintains the relationship between them, and even today, he and Hongxi have never had a relationship!

what is this?Gradually waking up in his mind, Jia Zheng slowly opened his eyes, staring at the dark room, his eyes were filled with soreness and confusion, what should he do?

Do you want to start guarding now?But what does he use to protect it!Why did he realize until now that in this Jia mansion, apart from Hong Xi's acting head, he doesn't even have a confidant who can entrust him with important tasks, not a single one!

Could anyone be more of a failure than him?

Sitting up from the bed, Jia Zheng put on his coat and pushed open the door. The servant girl who was watching the night outside was awakened. Seeing Jia Zheng standing outside the door expressionlessly, the little servant girl was shocked and said quickly: "Master." , what are your orders?"

Jia Zheng raised his head and looked at the already pale sky. The cool wind carried a hint of dampness and a cold feeling, which was really chilling in the June weather.

"Go and call the young master to the study." After Jia Zheng finished speaking, he turned and walked towards the study.

The boy in charge of the study was awakened by the sound of footsteps. Seeing that it was the master, he quickly stood up from the ground, lit the wick of the lantern, opened the door for Jia Zheng, and said courteously, "It's so late, what's the matter?"

Jia Zheng stepped into the study, looked at the boy who was lighting the oil lamp on the table attentively, and asked instead, "How long have you been in charge of this place?"

The kid didn't know why Jia Zheng said that, but when the master asked, he replied politely, "It's been two months."

Jia Zheng said "um", and his voice gradually cooled down: "Since it's been two months, I should know what to do and what not to do, even if I did something I shouldn't do, I won't even apologize Did you say it?"

The boy's heart skipped a beat, his hands trembled, and all the hot lamp oil was spilled on the table and his hands. Regardless of the pain in his hands, he knelt on the ground and kowtowed: "It's a small fault, master forgive me!" , please forgive this little one."

"You're wrong? Where did you go wrong?" Jia Zheng looked at the kid kneeling on the ground and begging for mercy, the flesh on his hands burned to the point of disfigurement. For the first time, he knew that he could be so ruthless. .

"I, I..." The kid couldn't make up his mind, the servants all said that the second master was the kindest, and he was also kind to the servants, no more than the second master Lian and the second mistress Lian, especially the second mistress Lian. If you make a mistake, you will be given a light punishment, but I haven't heard of anyone punished by this second master.

"Tell me, don't tell me you're so wrong that you don't know which one to say?" Jia Zheng looked at the boy on the ground, kowtowed, but his eyes were dripping, obviously thinking about something, and he couldn't help it. His face became colder, he had never noticed this before.

"Small grievances, small grievances, master!" The boy quickly began to recall the recent events in his heart, and there was nothing wrong with that, but that day the second master Lian said that he would go to the master's study to find a few books and put them away by himself. I went in, but it's not a big deal, the second master never cared about it in the past. Could it be that, the boy thought of the rumors of family separation that had been circulating in the mansion for the past two days, and the boy felt that he had figured it out. This Jia's mansion belongs to the Second Mistress Lian and the others, and I can't offend the Second Master Lian!The boy thought so, and made up his mind that he would not spit out. Anyway, the master is kind-hearted, and the worst thing is to throw himself out. When Second Mistress Lian becomes the family in the future, it will be over if he goes to ask the second master Lian again.

Jia Zheng has been staring at his face, watching the look in his eyes gradually become cunning, and can't help but feel really downright cold.

He has always disapproved of the method of using violence to control violence, but now it seems that he was wrong, the mistake was too outrageous, and it became a weakness that people can grasp. Moved, but in exchange for an inch.

In fact, every teenager has had a dream of being a hero, imagining that he could drink inexhaustible spirits in one hand, and hold the head of the enemy in the other. Cruelty is an innate instinct, but it is suppressed by the rules and morals of the world in the deepest part of the heart. At the same time, compared with the previous life, this era can induce these things more. He used the character that has been stereotyped for more than 30 years to resist this temptation, but never thought that he was too naive and overcorrected.

He can be kind, but he can't have a bottom line, he is a little determined, and the time is wrong.

"Father, what's the matter?" Jia Zhu's voice sounded as the study door was opened, his eyes glanced at the boy kneeling on the ground, and a look of surprise appeared on his face.

Jia Zheng glanced at the four servants following Jia Zhu. Two girls were holding lanterns in front, and two boys followed closely behind. Jia Zhu was dressed neatly, looking like a master.

Jia Zheng pointed to the two boys behind Jia Zhu, and said to Jia Zhu, "Borrow your man and use it."

Jia Zhu was taken aback, then glanced at the boy kneeling on the ground again, and looked at his father who had never had such a gloomy expression on his face, a hint of surprise flashed in his eyes, and he nodded.

The boy was also a little overwhelmed by the battle, looked up at Jia Zheng in a panic, and said, "Master, I..."

Jia Zheng interrupted him with a wave of his hand, and his voice slowly returned to gentleness: "If I remember correctly, you are a kid who was sold into the mansion, and you signed a death contract, right?"

The kid nodded ignorantly, and Jia Zheng nodded along with him: "Okay, you two, take him out, a hundred boards."

The kid was startled when he heard that it would be fatal if he hit the hundred boards, he hurriedly kowtowed, what else could he say, Jia Zhu raised his eyebrows long ago, and shouted to the two boys behind him: "Don't drag it on , do you want to be punished too?"

The two boys were also stunned, and hurriedly pulled and dragged the people on the ground out. Jia Zhu was very impatient when he heard his crying, and scolded the two maids: "Xin'er, go and put his mouth out!" Block me, Ning'er went to find Grandma, and gave me half a year's monthly money for their family!"

The two maids hurriedly went to their own business with pale faces, and the shouting of the boy outside soon fell silent. Jia Zhu looked at his father who was sitting upright, and finally had a gratified smile on his face. : "Father, such a person should have been kicked out a long time ago. You are finally not confused this time."

Jia Zheng looked up at the smile on Jia Zhu's face, and a trace of bitterness flashed across his face: "Zhu'er has grown up, but father is living and going back."

Jia Zhu was taken aback for a moment, and the unforgettable scene on the day of the palace examination flashed in his mind again, and a wry smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "Father, no one can refuse to grow up, especially what you have seen with your own eyes is the reality." , Those officials who are powerful officials in the Jinluan Temple today will be ransacked and executed tomorrow. I used to think that one day I would resign from office and take the palace and Lan'er to hide in the mountains and live a life of idle clouds and wild cranes, but now we If I still think about this situation at home, I would be heartless."

Jia Zheng's nose turned sore after hearing this: "It's all father's fault. Originally, I should be the pillar of the family, but I just kept running away and put this burden on you."

His hesitation at the beginning was more abhorrent than those who ate and emptied the Jia Mansion with their own hands. He is fully qualified to be a top-down reformer, but he pushed it out with his own hands. He made the ultimate mistake. Mistakes that shouldn't have been made have ruined Jia's mansion, which could have broken out of the cocoon and turned into a butterfly, leaving only remorse and regret full of heart.

"Father, it's not too late now. Now that we have decided to separate, we just have to make up our minds and leave everything behind, and stop worrying about others."

The father and son, after going through many detours and drifting away, finally found another intersection.

Early the next morning, the news that Jia Zheng beat a boy to death with a hundred boards last night spread throughout the Jia mansion. After Wang Xifeng learned that this boy was the person in charge of the study, she became more and more sure of her guess, and warned those who had come before The mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law who came here to inquire about the pain in the mouth: "It's just a slave who signed a death contract, and he is our family's ghost when he dies. It's no big deal for the second master to kill a slave, and he dares to spread it. Everyone wants to be punished, right? If you let me hear any gossip again, watch your skin!"

Everyone didn't expect Sister Feng to act like this, and everyone was wilted, and went to their own ways, restraining the people under their own hands, and didn't dare to mutter anymore. I'm afraid that the second master will settle accounts after autumn, and I will become the second unlucky one.

At this time, Jia Zheng was not in the mood to go over old accounts, and the matter of family division had already been finalized. Tonight, he called the members of the Jia clan to discuss this matter. It turns out that he hasn't spoken a word to Hongxi for several days.

The two of them stared at each other for a long time, and Jia Zheng realized that he had been talking to Hong Xi about the things in his family all this time, and then Hong Xi would listen and give him a piece of paper. idea.

Now, when he didn't want the topic of the two of them to revolve around the matters of the Jia family, he realized that the two of them had nothing to say. He didn't know Hong Xi at all. Worrying, is there anything going on in his house, he doesn't even know if Hongxi has any children!

Hong Xi looked at Jia Zheng, whose face was cloudy and uncertain, and was playing with the paperweight on the table. There was a suffocating silence in the air, and finally Hong Xi spoke first: "You finally found out, I have been I thought you'd never find out."

Jia Zheng's face froze, and infinite guilt filled his heart: "I'm sorry, I..."

"I'm sorry? Is it enough to say I'm sorry?" Hongxi's eyes became sharper, looking at the bewildered man in front of him, the person who made his heart flutter at first flashed before Hongxi's eyes, they are really alone ?He began to doubt.

He was greedy for that quiet and elegant feeling, and wanted such unwavering protection, so he began to pamper him, pampering him to continuously expand his circle of protection, including more and more irrelevant people, wanting to To protect his cleanliness, that's why he stopped all the things that would get his hands dirty, but the result?

As a result, he gradually became able to only see the shining light of the sun, but forgot that there were still dazzling stars shining in the night sky. This is an undeniable mistake!

Hong Xi looked at him in front of him, thinking about everything he had done these days, and continued: "You always regard accepting me as the greatest gift, but you never know what I gave up for you? When your eyes are only those relatives of your Jia family who are too muddy to support the wall and can be beaten to death with random sticks, have you ever thought about me a little bit, my Ama, don’t I feel bad? My mother-in-law Am I not sad? In such a big Baylor Mansion, how many other people’s eyeliners are there, I guess one by one, to test, I am not tired, have you thought about it again? Yes, I am happy that you have never been in front of me I don't hide your feelings, but you never see through my hidden feelings, which makes me really start to doubt, do you really love me?"

"Just how long have you been dragging your Jia family to solve all those messy things that can be solved in a month? How much time have you wasted on this, but let me wait and wait, when will you wait? Wait until your grandson Jia Lan is married and has children, do you still want to continue to worry about your great-grandson? Well, that’s all for them, just Jia Zhenjia forgives those bastards, and you can’t see the dirty things they have done ? They have nothing worth saving, now they are all killed to be clean!"

He spit out all the words that had been suppressed in his heart countless times, Hong Xi looked at Jia Zheng's pale face, and the unbearable feeling in his heart was quickly suppressed by him. He couldn't let this man be self-willed any longer. Willful time and capital, everything I have worked so hard to design, the only way to do it is the best.

He pampered him too much, which led to the current situation. He gave up the most effective and direct method for people he couldn't bear to hurt, and went around countless detours to help him solve it. Now it won't happen, he doesn't care if he will No matter what you think, even if he hates him, he will use his own methods to solve some problems. After that, Hongxi has never been so firm in his heart, so he should be locked up to feel his love!

So, now they have nothing to say, no matter how sad Jia Zheng felt, Hong Xi coldly issued the order to evict the guest: "Get out, I don't want to see you now, it's office hours, Master Jia still has to do business."