All your life is gentle

On September [-]th, Zizhou took leave of absence at home.

The eldest brother's condition had just been stabilized the day before, but he didn't know that it was repeated again in the early morning.Before dawn, I picked up Mr. Tan and listened to him talking non-stop: "Pale lips, red face, cold limbs, profuse sweating, hot and cold, stunned and raving, stiff and dry... This, this is a fatal disease... "Swipe" on the twins' faces, and the blood faded away.

Zizhou's lips trembled in panic: "Didn't you say... the illness comes like a mountain, and the illness goes like a thread, take it slowly, always, always...get better..."

Tan Ziyu withdrew his hand to feel the pulse: "Ordinary people eat whole grains and miscellaneous grains, stimulate the seven emotions and six desires, experience life, old age, sickness and death, and are unavoidable. Ordinary diseases, as long as the right medicine is prescribed, most of them can be cured. If you are seriously ill, apart from the power of soup, medicine, needles and stones, you must also rely on the help of heaven, ghosts and gods. Another thing is the sick body's own determination to survive—"

Hearing this, Zi Zhou Zigui turned their heads together.

Tan Ziyu pondered and said: "I also find it strange. Although brother Ling is weak in body, he is open-minded. Judging by his demeanor, there is no sign of a cramped death. Although this is a serious illness, the yin and yang energy is not exhausted, so the old man dares to Shi slowed down. Looking at it today, it turns out that the decoction, medicine, needles and stones have not worked, the energy is gradually weakening, the primordial spirit is slacking off, and it seems that I want to let go..."

Zigui burst into tears, covered his face, and sobbed.The servants standing on the ground all burst into tears.

Tan Ziyu shook his head regretfully, and said again: "Didn't the third lady say that the Hou's mansion sent some medicinal materials? Take it and have a look, the old man will think of a way." Sighing, "Now the deficiency is not replenished, no matter how good the medicine is, pour it down. Either it won’t work, or you’ll be in a hurry to attack, I’m afraid it’s just the opposite... Alas, I can only ask God to bless you. If adults and young ladies can see it, I’ll try it. If you can’t see it..."

Hearing these words, it was actually success or benevolence, Si Wenlang brothers and sisters were asked to prepare for the funeral.

Zizhou sat blankly for a while, his voice choked: "Xiaoqu, bring all the medicinal materials, please have a look at Mr. Tan...Sir, please sit down, let us brothers and sisters...discuss..." He stood up and looked at Zigui.

——Things have come to this point, even if you don’t want to, begging your grandfather, begging Ningfu, entering the palace to beg Concubine Chi, begging concubine Chi, being in debt, losing face, bending your spine, or softening your knees... Eldest brother is seriously ill In this way, what else can't be left behind?

Could it be... Are you really going to lose your eldest brother... The twins once again realized clearly: Recognizing so many relatives, the sum of them is not as important as this one.

The two were going to the study to talk, when Yin Gui suddenly came to report: "Young Master, Miss, someone has come to see Eldest Young Master." He handed over a bronzing flower name card with both hands.

Ever since my eldest brother fell ill, there has been an endless stream of visits.Boss Yin came to the door in person every day, and Han and Ning sent people to greet him the next day. Xi Yuanhuai came to visit when he heard the news. Several people who were close to the Imperial Academy came more than once, and even Ning Sanshao borrowed With this reason, I came here once.In the last two days, in order to make the house quieter and take care of his elder brother wholeheartedly, Zizhou began to politely reject everyone. ——I don’t know who is here?

After receiving the famous post, his expression suddenly changed.Reaching out his hand to Zigui, he clenched his fist: "Xiao Ge, Ah Wen, bring Miss's bow and arrow and my knife, quick!"

Zigui took a look and saw that there were three lines of writing on the famous post.The first column is smaller: "The inspector Lang Fu Chuqing of the Inner Guards Office of the Official Lifang Division pays homage to the head again." The middle column is slightly larger: "I would like to ask Mr. Zhongyi for the title of Lantai Commander Li to avoid the word Zishi Ruyi Ankang." The first part is the signature and the date.The paper is exquisite, the handwriting is correct, and it is actually full of etiquette.

The night before last night, the twins and the loyal servants caught the snitch. After lighting the lamps, the rich and noble duo immediately followed the instructions and ran away. They didn't see the true face of the thief who escaped with injuries, so they sent a name card in without knowing it.

Ordering the others to stay in the inner courtyard, Zi Zhou Zigui took the weapons and led Li Wen and Li Zhang to the gate alone.

This rascal named Fu is really cunning and cunning.In broad daylight, he came to the door in a grand manner, holding a post and throwing assassins to pay a formal visit-he thought it was so that he couldn't help it?When the twins were heartbroken and anxious, seeing the word "Fu Chuqing", they were filled with grief and indignation, and vowed to make this villain never come back.

The brothers and sisters of the Xie family have been educated by the Li family for more than ten years, being gentle and honest, but their father's mighty general is the iron blood in the battlefield, and they have learned the skills of surviving in troubled times from Gu Changsheng.At first glance, the young lady of the Hou Mansion family, an elegant scholar and a weak woman, is very different from a rough and rough hero like Mr. Fu.However, only they themselves know how they got from Tongcheng to Xijing.

The two looked at each other and nodded.

Zi Gui stood still in the field.There is only one arrow on the bowstring - the target is so close, it needs to be thunderous, and the hit is sure to hit.

Zi Zhou's knife was hidden by the door.Li Wen and Li Zhang got the signal, and one by one hid behind the door, pulled out the latch, and suddenly pulled it to both sides with force at the same time.

Hearing the noise, Fu Chuqing was about to raise her head when she suddenly felt a fierce murderous aura rush towards her face.Despite making various assumptions, he still didn't guess that the other party dared to kill without saying hello in broad daylight.A ray of silver light rushed towards him at the flick of his fingers, and he immediately shrank his head and bowed in fright, and suddenly moved three feet horizontally.Bai Lingyu's arrow passed by like lightning as it scratched his scalp, and was nailed straight into the brick wall of the opposite house, buzzing.Zigui tried his best to shoot the arrow with hatred, but thanks to Fu Chuqing who is a real master in actual combat and has an excellent on-the-spot response, he will escape the catastrophe.Before the heartbeat slowed down, the wind blew past his ears, and the sword light was already in front of him.

The opponents Master Fu has defeated are much better than these two brothers and sisters.I just hate that this time I lost the opportunity and threw the rat's weapon again, and also I didn't want to say anything, I didn't bring a helper, but the opponent was fighting with his life, and he was in a mess.There was still a bandage on the right shoulder, so I had to draw a knife with my left hand to deal with it.Seeing that the girl hitched another arrow, the cluster of arrows circled around her as if she had eyes, she parried with her hands, and shouted loudly: "You two, do you still want to save your elder brother's life? I don’t know who’s in the sedan chair with me? Lord Yuan Shanggu, Zheng Yin of the Supreme Hospital! Lord Yuan can’t stand being frightened like this..."

Zizhou stopped.Zigui's arrow is still stuck.Fu Chuqing finally found time to catch her breath.In fact, when the twins opened the door, they saw that he was not alone. However, the eldest brother's life was in danger. Facing the enemy he hated to the bone, the two of them were temporarily overwhelmed by grief and anger, so they fought with all their strength regardless of the consequences.

The four bearers had already climbed several feet away, and the two medical boys collapsed on the ground in fright.Mr. Fu stepped forward to lift the curtain in person: "Physician Yuan, Uncle Zhongyi's residence is here, please get off the sedan chair." Yuan Shanggu remained calm, straightened his hat, supported Mr. Fu's hand and walked forward slightly trembling.

The name of Yuan Shanggu and Yuan Zhengyin is like thunder.Zizhou recognized his clothes, and said to Fu Chuqing with a cold face: "The imperial doctor and disciples are welcome to come in, Mr. Fu just stay here."

Fu Chuqing supported the imperial physician with one hand, and looked at Zizhou with concern: "What are you talking about! How can I not go in and take a look? How can I rest assured if I don't take a look?" Without waiting for him to respond, she carried Yuan Shanggu in and walked in. "It took me a lot of effort to ask Imperial Physician Yuan to go out of the palace to see a doctor—you don't even let me see it? Saving people is like putting out a fire, and there is no delay. Only I went in. The Imperial Physician saw that there was no panacea. It can be taken out of the palace in an instant, do you believe it?..."

Passing in front of Zigui, he complained, "What time is it? Is a little old grievance more important than elder brother's life? After passing this hurdle, you two have to vent your anger, and I will do what you can! Fu will do what he says... ..." Seeing the gate of the inner courtyard, the twins suddenly came to their senses and jumped over to stop them.

Fu Chuqing sighed: "You two... why bother. You are anxious, am I not anxious? You are worried, but I am more worried." Lowering her voice, "Your elder brother's illness, you and I know the truth... Or do you say ——" Glancing at the imperial physician next to him and the medical boy behind him, he leaned into Zizhou's ear: "Don't you mind making a scene for everyone to know?" Ignoring Si Wenlang's angry eyes, he patted him on the shoulder: "Let's I'll go in. I promise, there are only advantages and no disadvantages..."

After lying down for nearly half a month, Zi Shi finally didn't have to stay in bed all day.Even though his feet were floating and his waist was shaking, he was finally able to get away from people and walk around on his own.Two days after Imperial Physician Yuan saw him for the first time, he woke up.However, for the next few days, he would wake up and faint sometimes, with frequent ups and downs, and his condition was always unstable.Yuan Shanggu and Tan Ziyu are the two great masters of the apricot altar in Xijing, one belongs to the official and the other belongs to the people. They argue every day and are not convinced by each other. They seek knowledge in the debate and advance in the struggle.

After the eldest brother woke up, Zizhou insisted on going to work.When they were in their thirties, the twins stayed with Zi Shi all day long.

Zigui talked about sending Yuan imperial physician Dr. Tan back home at dusk yesterday, and said with a smile: "The two gentlemen said that there is no need to come again, just take the prescription and take the medicine for a hundred days. I will take the medicine that we don't need. Please ask Mr. Tan to take away all the medicinal materials."

Zi Shi asked, "I heard that the two gentlemen were arguing all the way out again?"

"That's not true. Mr. Yuan said that Mr. Tan scraped the "earth bone skin" and was greedy. Mr. Tan then said that Mr. Yuan dared to boast of "disappearing at first sight" just by relying on the "Sky Southern Star". Getting angry, he called Mr. Tan a "white silkworm", and Mr. Tan replied "Danpi charcoal"..."

Digupi, Tiannanxing, Yijianxiao, Baizhucan, and Danpi charcoal are all names of medicines.On the same day when Yuan Shanggu came to the door, he caught up with Tan Ziyu, hesitating and hesitating, unable to make a decision.Imperial Physician Yuan went over to take a look, rolled his eyelids, and said to the doctor boy, "Bring the Huanyang Powder."

"Huanyang powder" is a life-saving treasure for obsessed with the heart orifice, and the few rare medicinal materials in it are very rare.

Tan Ziyu stood up and said, "Your Excellency, you need to use "Huanyang powder" and wait for Mr. Tan to come out of this door. Otherwise, Master Li will bleed to death from his seven orifices tomorrow, so don't blame me, Mr. Tan."

Yuan Shanggu looked at him sideways: "It's become a pool of stagnant water, there is no fierce fire attacking, and you still want to be steamed?"

"Fire and fierce attack? I'm afraid that your Excellency will die slowly, and you will die quickly after attacking."

Yuan Shanggu heard the words, looked up and down for a while, and then said boldly: "What if I use the "Purple Snow Pill" to help?"

"Purple Snow Pill", the color is like purple jade, the shape is like frost and snow, it clears the heart and cools the blood, calms the mind and enlightens the mind.It is more precious than "Huanyang San", and it is secretly collected by the imperial treasury in the palace.

Hearing the word "Purple Snow Pill", Tan Ziyu cupped his hands and asked, "May I ask your Excellency—"

"Not talented Yuan Shanggu."

"Ah! Master Yuan, I have long admired you. This is Tan Ziyu."

——The two peer rivals have since met each other and hated each other.Tan Ziyu said that Yuan Shanggu boasted of "disappearing as soon as he saw it" relying on the "Star of the South", which is to mock him for relying on the royal panacea, and his medical skills may not be very good.As for "White Silkworm" and "Danpi Charcoal", one of Tan and Yuan has a white face and beardless, the other is dark and bearded, such elegant names are indeed appropriate.

After hearing his sister's report, Zi Shi laughed "haha".Not daring to push hard, he rubbed his forehead while grinning.Zizhou is in a good mood these two days, and he has fun with his sister.

After laughing for a while, Zigui, with tears in his eyes, walked up to Zishi and knelt down: "Brother... It's great that you can wake up... If, if, without Mr. Yuan and Mr. Tan, we... Brother, Don't scare us like this again, okay..." Zi Zhou also stood beside him, without saying a word, just raised his sleeve to wipe his eyes.

"Well, no more." Zi Shi pulled his sister up.Seeing the twins with big and deep dark circles under their eyes, I apologized: "I'm sorry. I made you worry."

At that moment, the pain and sorrow are overwhelming, and I only hate that the relief is not fast enough and thorough.After I got over it, I realized that such self-willedness would eventually leave me with regrets. How can I bear the human feelings of missing you, loving you, protecting you and relying on you?For that alone, nothing seemed unbearable.Zi Shi thought: How strong is human endurance? ...

When Zigui heard his eldest brother say "I'm sorry", tears poured down like a torrent.The eldest brother actually said "I'm sorry"—even said "I'm sorry" to himself and Zizhou...

Zi Shi leaned back slightly, leaned on the pillow, closed his eyes, and said leisurely: "A few days ago... when I fell asleep, I dreamed of many people. Father, mother, little aunt, sister Hongyu, sister Cuiqiao , Uncle Huai... It's been a long time since I saw them... Then I heard you two crying behind, so I hurried back to look for..." Smiling, "I found it, I clearly remember growing up, why are you still two or three How old do you look?..."

Zigui lay on Zishi's lap: "As long as the eldest brother is willing to wake up, we... can go back to two or three years old."

"Silly girl." Zi Shi patted her.He paused for a while, as if he couldn't help laughing: "The most outrageous thing is that the one who clearly dreamed was Mrs. Wang, but in the blink of an eye, he turned into the elder Chen Ge of the Imperial Academy, scolding me for being lazy, sluggish and perfunctory, copying a ruler and trying to hit me on the head—— This time I woke up!"

The twins burst into tears and laughed: "If I knew it earlier, I might as well invite Mr. Chen Ge to come home. Eldest brother should have recovered from his illness."

Zi Shi nodded: "It's really not sure."

Thinking of the overlapping echoing voice in the dream, calling my name in my ear, there are only two words coming and going: "Wait for me, wait for me, wait for me..." So clear and so real, everywhere and everywhere.Once you wake up, it immediately disappears with the blurring of the dream, and finally passes with time.Knowing that it is futile, but still unwilling to savor it carefully.

Suddenly, Zi Shi felt his heartbeat stopped: so many voices and smiles that have passed away, why... without him?Why, he didn't greet me on the other side, but asked me to stop and wait behind him?

Ripples appeared in the heart lake, and infatuation was immersed in it.The undulations of the waves wrap around him, resonating with the revived pulse and heartbeat: "Wait for me. Wait for me. Wait for me—"

Seeing that Zi Shi seemed to be resting with his eyes closed, Zi Gui tried to call softly: "Brother."

open your eyes.The tide receded, the wind stopped and the waves stopped, and everything returned to deep and peaceful.

Maybe, whether it's the younger siblings, the scolding Mr. Chen Ge, and... the persistent call from that person, it's just a few thoughts that can't be let go in my heart.The first two still have real concerns, and the third... probably is purely a little wishful thinking generated by oneself. From now on, it will always exist in dreams and be buried deep in my heart.

that is it.

So what?Zi Shi heard himself saying: It's better than nothing, right?

If death is an end, and all traces of this life will be annihilated with its arrival, then the only way to preserve memories and longings is to live.If death is another starting point, and tears and blood are only deposited and accumulated in samsara, then the next life is more unbearable than this life, so why rush to return to the world of mortals with the burden of the previous round?

Since ancient times, the only difficulty is death.How dare you die?

You live in this life, let's digest it slowly in this life.

The torrent of time washes away the wind and dust all the way, and the sand and stones that fall into the wound can still become pearls.

——I have plenty of things to do, why rush to die?

After breakfast the next day, Zi went back to the kitchen to make medicine, and Zi Shi opened the window to look at the sweet-scented osmanthus.

Li Zhang and Yin Gui walked towards the backyard carrying a large pile of baskets, boxes and jars.Passing by the window, Li Zhang said: "The young master is thinking about this tree flower. I will break a few branches and bring it into the house to show the young master. Don't sit here."

"I'll just take a look. It's almost fallen, why fold it? How about sweeping and sifting the ground, pickling sweet-scented osmanthus." Seeing that the two of them couldn't hug each other with open arms, they asked, "Who is this? From home?"

"Fresh fruits brought from Mr. Yin's house, and southern dishes sent by Mr. Xi."

Zi Shi then remembered that since his condition improved, he heard that someone was delivering things almost every day, but the owner never came to his door.Feeling strange, he asked: "Have you invited anyone to come in for a while? No matter who comes, it's nice to say hello."

Li Zhang was taken aback for a moment, and said: "Young lady is taking care of you, so don't worry about it, young master!" He left in a hurry.

In the afternoon, a rare ray of sunlight came in through the window screen and cast a golden glow on the screen.Zi Shi felt refreshed, moved an armchair and leaned against the window to bask in the sun.I vaguely saw a few figures moving around by the corridor under the opposite eaves, but there was no sound.Pushing open the window sash quietly, it turned out that Li Wen and the four of Ping An and Ji Xiang were looking up and bending over to fumble for the arrangement, but they didn't know what they were doing.

"Awen."

Li Wen was obviously taken aback.

"Come here, I have something to ask you."

"Isn't the young master taking a nap? Did he get disturbed? Let's change places, and the young master will continue to sleep..."

"What are you guys doing over there?"

"Uh, weeding..."

"It's beginning of winter right now, what kind of weeds are you getting rid of?"

"Ah, Miss said to clean up the steps..."

"Well. It's rare that the sun is good at this moment. I won't sleep. You can walk with me in the yard."

"Young Master..." Li Wen looked embarrassed, "It's cold outside..."

"Hmph." Zi Shi stood up, without looking at him, and said calmly, "Tell me, what did Miss ask you to do?"

"Miss told us... to add a few more traps in the yard, and plant more hidden weapons..." Since the young master had become suspicious, he couldn't hide it anymore, so he simply confessed completely.Li Wen stood upright and lowered his head to report: "Second young master and miss said that on the day of Chongyang, a burglar broke into the house and disturbed the young master, which made the young master suffer from the wind and cold. The thieves are so daring, maybe they will come again, just Lead everyone to prepare some methods for catching thieves..."

As for catching a prostitute instead of a snitch, the two of them gradually understood, and the other servants also vaguely understood.It's just that they are all tacit and tight-lipped.So what if it's the Master Li Fangsi who came?How dare you offend the most respected young master in the whole house, that is a thief who is more than dead.

Li Wen didn't make any reservations, and told how the first time he ambushed in the middle of the night and shot the enemy, and how the second time the opponent used the imperial doctor as a guise to come to the door in broad daylight with invitation cards, etc., and poured out everything.

Unexpectedly, after lying down these days, the twins have already staged two full martial arts.Zi Shi felt sore and sad: It turns out that they knew everything, and they were able to endure so well in front of him... He raised his head and looked at the sky with cold eyes: God is joking with people, what a horror, how come the blood, the taste is so bad.Thinking again: The situation is quite different from what I expected, but what should I do... Ask Li Wen: "So, the imperial doctor Yuan will come to the house, and it's not because Zigui begged Concubine Chi?"

"Yes. On the fifteenth day, the second young master was discussing with the young lady, then, the thief came. Originally, the young lady said that he must be bloody for five steps, and he would never return. But...the second young master said that this The thief is now the most popular person in front of the emperor, and his words are probably more effective than the concubine Chi. Heal the young master's illness first, and then try to deal with it later... This thief comes to the house with Imperial Physician Yuan every day, and sometimes catches up with him. The young master is awake, and he waits outside the door. If the young master is not awake, he will follow the door in a big way, and everyone is so angry that they want to eat his flesh and drink his blood..."

Zi Shi tilted his head: things have turned out like this... There is a sense of absurdity in his heart that he can't laugh or cry.

"A few days ago, Miss said that when Imperial Physician Yuan stopped coming, that person would definitely come to harass her. So dig traps and bury hidden weapons as soon as possible. The more the better. Uh, what the lady said is called "Strengthen soldiers and horses to stand ready for battle, and fight against the enemy together." Do not stay"……"

"You guys don't know kung fu, what kind of traps did you dig, what hidden weapons did you bury? Be careful to hurt yourself."

"Young master, don't worry. We are using the good guys that Third Young Master Ning borrowed from the Ministry of Criminal Justice!" Recently, the second young master and the third young lady showed their skills, and several male servants followed the wise and brave master to deal with powerful enemies. Their courage grew and they felt excited.Li Wen became louder as he spoke: "...the top of the courtyard walls and the edges of the eaves are all brushed with egg white and castor oil. No matter how good your light kung fu is, you can't stand still; the beams, columns and railings are all where you can reach out and set your feet. I couldn't see it even when the light was turned on in the dark, and sweat medicine was still simmering on the tip of the needle; Zhang, me, and brother Ping each had a barrel of blowing arrows and a chain pocket steel crossbow; The "heaven and earth net" is hung on the side of the main room... Ning Sanshao said that as long as the lady wants to play, there are even more powerful ones. I think he heard that he was very itchy when he heard about catching the snitch, but it's a pity that the lady doesn't want him to come and get involved ..."

Zi Shi said: "You have made your home like a hidden weapon storehouse, so you are not afraid of accidentally hurting someone?"

"Young master, don't worry, everyone in the family is paying attention. As for others, the second young master told the outside world that they will set up a table to exorcise evil spirits and pray for the eldest young master, and temporarily refuse guests. Therefore, this... who is afraid of being accidentally injured... is you, young master It's..." The voice weakened inexplicably, humming in the throat, "Miss said that the arrangement will only be made after the young master takes a nap, and the rest of the time, don't let the young master go out of the room..."

Zi Shi stopped talking.Sitting down, squinting as if dozing.

Li Wen waited for a while, but did not see any instructions from the young master. After thinking about it, he felt that he seemed to have said too much, and it seemed a bit bad.I couldn't figure out what was wrong, my legs were trembling and I was waiting anxiously...

Suddenly I heard the young master say: "I'm sleepy. Close the window and go."

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Note: Most of the fragments in this chapter about Chinese medicine are nonsense, and they must not be taken seriously.

The Queen Mother, Yan Luo, Black and White Wuchang, and A Du surrounded the "Fantasy Spring" by the Yaochi to peek at the lower world.

Queen Mother (shaking her head, sighing and patting her thigh): Jiangzi?Just sauce purple?At least another three to five months on the verge of death, a little bit of amnesia and crazy CRAZY... Not enough, not enough——(rolling)

Yama: I let him go.Half of the samples died in the experiment, and the report still writes a P?

Bai Wuchang: It's because he suddenly doesn't want to die.Don't forget, "Do not use theological or religious viewpoints." Boss, if you insist on taking the credit for yourself, there is no need to follow up on this case.

Black Impermanence: The contract has come into force.If you don't want to die, you have to live and suffer.

A Du (nodding): Here I would like to explain my understanding of the proposition of "abuse": the inescapable thing for mortals is life and death.I personally think that, for people, the most cruel thing is "you can't live, you can't die", as the so-called suffering is living ([-] words are omitted below)...

Queen Mother: It's time, Adu, you should return to your place.

Adu (kneeling down with a plop, tears streaming down his face): The empress is so merciful, let me hide in this heavenly palace again...

Yan Luo: One day in the sky, one year on earth.You have an afternoon tea here, the world has passed a week earlier, let's update it honestly.Nowadays, there is a huge amount of information in the world and the pace is fast. It is estimated that the grievances of last week have already gone with the wind.Let's go, let's let the Jade Emperor bump into it...

A Du (wiping tears): Xiao Yan, you have been a god for too long, and you have completely forgotten the hardships of being a human being!Maybe one day I will report to you.Do remember the hundreds of millions of ghost coins you promised me, and store them in the bank of the underworld for me...

When Ah Du left, Yan Luo and Black and White Wuchang collectively changed their faces.

Queen Mother: What's the matter?

Yan Luo: Well, didn't the empress give some project funds, and as the executor of Yangjian, Adu should get 30.00%.

Heiwuchang: Uh... When signing the agreement, she patronized Xiaobai... and me, the boss read the contract, she heard Mingbi as RMB, and signed it without even looking at it...

Bai Wuchang: This is not the worst, the worst thing is that we used that money to buy some stocks last year...