The life of a vegetative cup

"Everything has been moved here." After pushing open the heavy iron door, Xiang Zhanxuan was a little pleasantly surprised. He hugged me and walked directly into this dark, dark, silent and eerily cold room. "Their The efficiency is really fast!"

"Iron cages... chains... cushions... rice bowls, and climbing houses... balls of yarn..."

He counted everything, looked left and right, and frowned: "Hey? Where's your litter box? How can you live comfortably without that?"

"You wait here first, get familiar with the environment again," Xiang Zhanxuan put me on the cold concrete floor, then stuffed the collar hanging on the wall into my hand, and then walked away excitedly Go out, "I'll go to the warehouse to look for it for you, I remember I packed it up."

Holding the collar with my name still engraved on it with trembling hands, this is it. It has been tightly strangling my neck, making it difficult for me to breathe smoothly. Every time I breathe, I have to use all my strength to breathe Slow down and try to absorb the scarce oxygen in the air, so that you can barely resist the pain of suffocation while compressing the vocal cords.

so painful...

I can't call out...

It hurts……

It's really dark here, and something thick and astringent came over and grabbed me tightly.

All around... I can't see a little light, all of it floods over and presses on my body...

I'm gasping... I can't breathe...

It hurts even to breathe...

Who can take me... out of here...

Let me go please……

I can do whatever you want... Please, let me go...

[Xiao Xi, the memories of the pain and suffering you have experienced are not your greatest enemy. What you are really afraid of is just fear itself. ]

[You fear it, you run away from it, you don't want to recall the painful memories, so you can make yourself forget all the hurt you have suffered. ]

[You are afraid of those inseparable emotions that once belonged to you, hot, intense, lonely, cold, whether it is happiness or sadness, as long as you want, you can give up, and all of them can become another person The remnants of you have been abandoned by you. ]

[You can no longer receive other people’s emotions. You don’t care about those who love you, feel guilty for you, and give you unreserved dedication. You don’t want to give yourself any more, and you don’t need those emotions in return. up. ]

[Your friends, your family, your lover, you all are gone. ]

[Are you happy now? ]

[Stay in the safe house you built for yourself, even if the fear outside has surrounded you layer by layer, and will forever separate you inside, you still have to stay alone in your safe house ? ]

[Happy? ]

[However, the fear outside is too powerful, the more you avoid it, the stronger it will be. ]

[Every night, every night, those horrific nightmares will come back to you, it is breaking down your house and invading your world little by little, can't you feel it? ]

[It will overwhelm you bit by bit, destroying your last safe house completely, so that you will never be able to come outside. ]

[When you were in a trance, you didn’t know why you suddenly appeared in the park, shivering from the cold, and with just one erroneous effort, you discovered that you were fighting with someone, and the pain from being ground to the bone made you Your nerves are screaming with pain. ]

[You will even suddenly open your eyes for a moment, and see yourself holding a knife so that you are covered in blood, bleeding everywhere, leaving only the last sight in a stench, and you will be forever bewitched Overwhelmed by fear, she disappeared, and at that time, in this world, there really was no more Jian Mingxi. ]

[In that case, are you happy? ]

[I will never be able to overcome my fear, I will never be able to get out, out of this lonely ward, out of this pale and cold hospital. ]

[I can no longer integrate into society, I can no longer go out into the free sunshine outside, I can no longer come out to find all the things you lost, the most important things you have. ]

[In this case, are you really happy? ]

[Xiao Xi, you are already so strong, why don't you work harder? ]

[Try it, be stronger, face what you fear, overcome it, and come to us, okay? ]

[As long as you defeat it, you can return to us forever...]

"It hurts……"

I pressed my forehead against the cold concrete floor, hugged myself tightly, and couldn't help but screamed in a low voice.

"I'm in so much pain, Master..."

"Your requirements are so high..." I sobbed and murmured tears, "Not everyone can become Batman, crawling out of a well..."

"I really hurt...I can't take it anymore...Master, really...I really hurt..."

"I don't want to be cured anymore, I beg you, please let me go..."

"I really can't take it anymore..."

I clenched the collar tightly, gasping for breath in a blur of tears, and muttering: "Master... the master told me..."

"As long as... as long as I let go... then, it won't hurt..."

"As long as... I don't want it anymore... I can... get rid of it..."

"I...I admit defeat...I earn, I can't let go...It hurts...I don't want it anymore, I really don't want it anymore..."

"I admit defeat...I give up...no, no name...don't remember...then...those feelings...don't want..."

"No, I won't insist on it anymore... just forget it, just forget it..."

"I... I forgot... just... no more pain... I... don't want it, no more pain..."

"Anyway...even if...disappears, no one outside...would, would care...no one...still...needs me..."

I was completely paralyzed on the ground, I couldn't even use the strength to move my fingers, and I muttered weakly: "No... nothing..."

"I... I have... nothing... and... still so dirty..."

"Already... no one... just forget about it... okay..."

"forget……"

Let it come, let it all come to the top of your head.

Even the breathing space is submerged, holding me, all holding me.

completely sank...

It's like disgusting mud, so fishy, ​​so smelly, and there's not even a trace of light...

Yeah, okay, anyway, I don't have the strength, so try again, break away from it...

It hurts...I'm tired...Tired...It hurts...

No... no more earning...

no one... no...

But, in a trance, with the thick rusty friction sound, the vague and messy footsteps from far to near, with eager anxiety seemed to be ringing in the ears: [Ming Xi! ]

……Who?

[Minxi! ]

Who are you calling?

[Jian Mingxi! ]

Who... is here... who, who is pulling... me?

[You look at me!Jian Mingxi!You watch me well! ]

The light in front of me...so bright...

The door of the house...is it open?

Who opened the...?

[I'm Zhao Juntong! ]

Zhao...

[Jian Mingxi!What’s wrong with you!you look at me!I'm Zhao Juntong! ]

Zhao...Jun Tong...

[Look at me quickly!Munch!I'm Zhao Juntong! ]

... Jun ... same ...

Jun Tong...

……

"Jian Mingxi! I found it!" The visitor's excited voice came from the corridor, "I said why did they throw it away, it turned out that someone from the moving company accidentally broke it," he pushed open the iron door , smiled and said, "It's okay, this one is old anyway, I'll buy you a new one..."

"I said Mr. Xiang, your speed is really slow." I leaned on the iron cage behind me, stomped my feet to gather up my clothes in the cold, and interrupted him impatiently, "Since we found something So, can we go out now?"

Xiang Zhanxuan stared blankly at me, then at the collar thrown on the ground, and didn't answer for a while.

"It's agreed that you will take me to see the project site today. We have just made a half-circle here, and we haven't even finished inspecting the infrastructure in the village, so you insist on dragging me into this rough house with air leaks everywhere. Starving and freezing, this is really... To be honest, I really don’t have any special preferences for the decoration style of the house. If you came to me when the villa was first built and asked me which concrete additive is more useful for winter construction, I would But I can tell you one, two, three, four immediately."

Xiang Zhanxuan was still in a daze, I frowned, and looked down at the time on my phone: "My little brother and I have made an appointment to have a barbecue tonight, and on the way back, we have to hurry up and take two photos of the current situation of the village It’s easy to attach it to the implementation plan, I really don’t have time to mess around with you now, if you have nothing else to do, then I’ll leave first?”

Xiang Zhanxuan approached me slowly, raising his hand to touch my face.

I blocked his outstretched claws, frowned and said: "If you have something to say, talk about it, why do you always use your hands?"

Xiang Zhanxuan looked at me obsessively: "You are so beautiful, Jian Mingxi."

"...You've said this several times today, pervert."

But Xiang Zhanxuan continued to insist: "It's really beautiful, strong, and confident. Such a beautiful light makes my eyes hurt."

"..." Although Lao Tzu is really a natural beauty, I still start to worry about his eyesight: "Do you really need me to take you to the eye hospital for an optometry?"

Xiang Zhanxuan laughed, he came over and insisted on hugging me regardless of my pushback.

And the two arms hugged quite hard.

It's hard for me to breathe.

"That's it, that's how it should be...Look, Jian Mingxi, I smashed down all the dignity, all the pride, and all the ideals in you layer by layer, filed them clean, smashed them into slag, Can reveal the new you inside," he panted and laughed, "how, how beautiful, you always look at me so tenderly, accompany me, always by my side...so beautiful..."

I was silent for a while: "Xiang Zhanxuan, I am not your sister."

Xiang Zhanxuan's low laugh got louder, his chest vibrated so much that even I started to tremble along with it.

"Of course, you are not her, you are much better than her, much more beautiful, you see, I am just like my father, I train so hard, I try my best to train seriously, but you, You're just different."

He pressed my cheek, stroked the back of my head, as excited as if he had found the most beloved baby: "It's not the same at all, everything is different, I have been so serious to train you and reshape you, but you There is always something in your bones, stuck there stubbornly and hard, so I have exhausted all my methods but I can't get it out of you."

"It's stuck in it all the time, and the light it emits flows to the whole body with the blood, making you always different."

"That's great, Jian Mingxi. No matter what happens, you can't lose that thing. No matter what you encounter, you can always, never change. It's really great!"

"Jian Mingxi, you are so beautiful, so beautiful...I'm so happy..."

Xiang Zhanxuan leaned over to kiss me, but suddenly stopped at the corner of my mouth.

"Mr. Xiang, that's enough, if you go too far," I pushed forward against the blade and poked his chest, seeing the dark red that was beginning to ooze from his clothes, and said expressionlessly, "I'm really I am willing to go to the police station to sue you for sexual harassment, so that you can relax your mind and sober up for two days in the detention center."

Xiang Zhanxuan smiled softly again, regardless of the pain and more blood that flowed out, he leaned over and kissed me.

"Let's go, Jian Mingxi, let's go out together, go outside together!"

"I know there is a big food stall, and the taste of Ma Xiao is very authentic." He held my hand tightly, pulled me out of the basement together, and happily introduced: "My second internship job is here. The commercial building next to it, every night when I go back to work overtime, I can pass by that store, the smell is wafting, it is more attractive than banknotes."

"At that time, I was reluctant to spend money to buy it. Today, I will buy you as much as you want!"

Xiang Zhanxuan pulled me out of the villa, walked past the reservoir, walked into the strong winter sun, and finally stood on the top of the hillside. Full view of the mountain village.

"I'll go to the relationship when I go back. I must take down the project of this characteristic town. Then, according to the construction plan you made, we will build it beautifully, so that it will be full of playgrounds and Mountain Garden, and this villa should be tidied up thoroughly, making it strong and warm."

Xiang Zhanxuan turned back, looked at me with bright eyes expectantly, and showed me a pure and beautiful smile without any impurities that I had never seen with him.

"Jian Mingxi, we will have our home and Le Country soon. Look, how bright the light is here! Finally, we can finally live happily and happily here for the rest of our lives!"

I sneered inwardly, and then replied directly without hesitation: "Okay, I'll wait for you."

It’s just that the paradise I’m waiting to prepare for you is in the eighteenth level of hell.