The life of a vegetative cup

Zhao Juntong never thought that he would reunite with Jian Mingxi in such an environment.

The person who was smiling at Bai Chang full of ill intentions, even a little complacent, all expressions were vivid, even life was full of freshness and wantonness, the smile on his face was as dazzling as the sun, People can not look away.

Unexpectedly, without even having time to prepare mentally, Zhao Juntong felt that his breathing stopped for a moment, and when he realized it, he had already called out the other party's name.

Without any barriers or hesitation, he called out the name that the other party had redefined for himself, without extra thinking, and called it out before he realized it, as if instinctively.

The other party hadn't even told him the name himself.

And he can only learn about the existence and meaning of this name from others.

A letting go of the past, letting go of emotions, letting go of all heaviness and burdens, represents the definition of a new beginning.

Maybe Zhao Juntong had already called his name many, many times in his heart before he realized it.

So much so that when he saw someone, he couldn't help opening his mouth.

But it really wasn't a good time, or even a good start.

In Zhao Juntong's cognition, he should be fully prepared, at least he will face him again after he has solved all the problems and the happy world he created for the other party is truly completed.

In that case, he could at least be more confident in front of the other party.

That way he could at least, a little bit more likely, get his emotional response.

Jian Minxi paused after hearing his voice, then turned her head and opened her arms with a smile.

But facing Jian Minxi's turning smile, Zhao Juntong couldn't help shaking his head - he hasn't seen that kind of smile from Jian Minxi for a long time.

That kind of proud look, even every gesture can bring out freedom and unrestraint, as if he wants to re-show himself in front of him, let him know the other party's current happiness and joy.

Jian Minxi said, I haven't seen you for a few years, so give me a hug.

However, Zhao Juntong did not move.

Because he wasn't sure if he still had the qualifications to get this hug.

Jian Minxi didn't seem to care about his reaction, she just touched her nose and smiled, then went back to continue bickering with Bai Chang until his friend came to rescue her.

Zhao Jun watched quietly from the side, watching the other party tease Bai Chang, watching him laughing and joking in front of his friends, and he was only remembered when he needed to speak by himself, and then the other party continued to drive happily. joke.

Zhao Juntong slowly turned over a page of the magazine, but he didn't even remember what he saw on the previous page.

He suddenly felt that he himself had a talent for acting.

Just like now, it seems that he can also be very calm, staying aside and waiting quietly.

In fact, he is not tired of waiting. He has been waiting for a long time, and he has long learned how to suppress his inner feelings so as not to make Jian Mingxi feel burdened.

What's more, now that Jian Minxi is right in front of his eyes, he can have a chance to invite him to have a good talk with the other party.

But when Jian Minxi really agreed to him, after he couldn't wait to pull her away, Zhao Juntong couldn't find a suitable topic for himself to chat with him.

The distance between them is not only a few years, but also a heart that has never been close.

Perhaps for the current Jian Mingxi, Zhao Juntong has been listed as someone he knows, just a simple person he knows.

Zhao Juntong somewhat laughed at himself.

He is obviously not young anymore, he has gone through so many storms, and even everyone around him has long believed that Zhao Juntong should be mature, stable, always calm and self-sustaining, strong enough not to make any mistakes.

But the impulsiveness and recklessness that had disappeared with age would reappear unknowingly when he faced the other party.

Jian Minxi first broke the silence between the two, with a familiar tone and intimate gestures, as if they had never been apart.

But there are also temptations that cannot be ignored.

Zhao Juntong didn't know what he was going to test, he repeatedly compared himself with the past, and said some nonsense.

However, at the next moment, when Zhao Juntong was caught off guard, the other party said that he would sacrifice himself for him.

Jian Mingxi believes that a deal can be formed between them.

Use his body, which is no longer clean, in exchange for his own help.

Jian Minxi doesn't seem to care about what happened to him at all. He seems to be able to perfectly separate his body from his mind, just like he has separated his past and present into different existences. everything to achieve what he wants.

As if being stabbed in the heart by a sharp knife, Zhao Juntong was so angry that he couldn't even control his emotions well.

That kind of intense emotion that could no longer be grasped bumped around in his chest, and the lingering pain that was brought on forcibly made him even want to strangle the other party to death at that moment.

How, how could he look down on himself like that, put himself in such a low position?

The person who I have always valued so much, the person who wished to give all the good things, the person who desperately wanted to drag the whole world to sink when he saw him cry, if he didn't even care about himself, then all he did What's the point?

What is the point of him persisting for so many years?

But seeing the other party lying on the car seat, still stubbornly staring at him panting, Zhao Juntong could only close his eyes weakly again.

In fact, he will not do anything to him anymore, he just wants him to be happy, to be able to be truly happy, to live the life he wants to live without restraint, and to get what he wants.

He doesn't care what he does, Jian Minxi doesn't need to spend any thought on him.

He just wants the other party to allow him to use his power to make his life better.

Just like Jian Mingxi wants to abandon all the past, completely separate his life, and rebuild a new self and cognition, he will only help silently and will not make any demands.

If he doesn't care about himself, then it's good for him to care.

Ignore those so-called psychological rehabilitation definitions, only Jian Minxi knows what kind of happiness Jian Minxi wants, so the other party only needs to be what he likes.

He will respect his choice more than anyone else, and he will protect him carefully, preventing the other party from making any deals with himself because of fear.

Jian Minxi seemed to be very satisfied with his performance, and seemed to be in a good mood. The gap between him and him seemed to disappear, and he ate with great appetite.

He didn't have the heart to disturb the other party's interest. In fact, the other party was willing to go out for dinner with him, which already made him feel very lucky.

However, Jian Minxi is not as mature and experienced as he showed just now, but still retains a bit of childishness and shows it in front of him, stuffing things into his mouth uncontrollably as if he was so hungry, bulging Nangnang's cheeks kept moving, like a squirrel, and Zhao Juntong couldn't help but want to poke his fingers.

Zhao Jun was soft-hearted and caring at the same time, but he didn't stop him. The result was that when he was taking a walk after eating, the other party started to have a stomachache.

He was going to take someone to the hospital, but the other person had a vicious look, and he just didn't want to.

In desperation, Zhao Juntong had no choice but to take him back to his temporary residence.

In fact, it was just a room, and Zhao Juntong had never paid attention to it or tidied it up deliberately, so he was not surprised at all when he received the comment of "so deserted" from the other party.

In Zhao Juntong's perception, places with him are rarely lively, and everyone will calmly hide their side, leaving only mutual temptations and calculations.

The only joy that made him feel lively was only given to him by the other party.

Then on the night of the reunion, I knew in my heart that that person was sleeping next door, so close to each other, Zhao Juntong was not surprised to have insomnia.

He never thought, even never expected, that he could be so close to the other party on the first day he saw him.

It was so close that it seemed that he could even hear the breathing of the other party in his sleep.

It was a subtle feeling of rapid heartbeat.

When he woke up in the morning, he couldn't bear to wake him up. He didn't go in with the medicine and water until the ringing of the mobile phone from the other party's room stopped.

Seeing the other party huddling in the corner to cover his appetite, he frowned, walked over and hugged the other party without thinking, and then suddenly realized that it might not be suitable for them to behave like this for a long time.

However, Jian Minxi didn't resist, and just nestled in his arms obediently.

Zhao Juntong paused, the pause was so small that the other party didn't notice it at all.

He suddenly felt that maybe, maybe he could try to get closer to him.

Maybe he can also imagine a little bit that they can return to the happy life of two people together before.

The huge temptation brought by that kind of life made him not even have the strength to fight, and he was willing to sink into it forever.

After feeding the medicine, he tried to pull the person lying on the bed onto his lap, making intimate movements towards him as usual, pampering him tenderly, and the other party also responded naturally, in his arms Li dawdled lightly.

Everything was the same as before, making Zhao Juntong feel momentarily in a trance.

Looking at someone so close to me, I can't help but want him to stay, in a place where he can see, even if it's just in the same city, as long as there is a chance for him to see.

I couldn't help but wanted to ask how this person felt about him.

He wondered if Zhao Juntong could become a little more important to Jian Mingxi now.

The other party gave him the answer.

He can't even gain the trust of the other party.

After silently looking at the man with the head covered and pretending to be sleeping for a while, he walked out of the room and closed the door. Finally, Zhao Juntong, who sat on the sofa, felt his heart was empty again.

Like this empty house.

He is indeed a despicable and shameless person, once he has a little advantage, he has to push forward and ask for more.

His heart is actually a bottomless pit, as if it will never be satisfied, like just now, he has forgotten his original intention and asked for more instead.

Those things that he was not entitled to at all, he actually shamelessly went to the other party to ask for them.

Zhao Juntong pulled the corners of his mouth, wanting to laugh at his complacent self.

But the pain in his heart made him unable to laugh.

He found a house for Jian Minxi, the furniture and electrical appliances are ready-made, and the other party can go there at night.

He also returned to the days before, alone in this room, living quietly alone.

He won't take the initiative to bother Jian Mingxi anymore, he just needs to be here alone to guard the other party.

He will try his best to suppress the demon in his heart full of plundering desire, so that it can no longer appear in front of the other party.

He will always warn himself not to touch things that do not belong to him.

But he always overestimated his rationality too much. Every time the other party called, he couldn't help but invite the other party at the end, and all he begged was to be able to see him again.

And what he got was always a prevarication that didn't surprise him.

Zhao Juntong put down his cell phone, sat on the sofa in the office and stared blankly at the ceiling for a long time before he could relieve the numbness from the pain and continue the work just now.

That calm, wise, and powerful mask that is not affected by external objects can always be put back on his face well before others find out.

However, it didn't take long before he got a message.

Xiang Zhanxuan is back.

Zhao Juntong was startled, then quickly took his coat and ran out.

He didn't know how Jian Minxi would react when he saw that person, and how he would be hurt.

He was on the phone all the way, whether it was Jian Minxi's or his friends in China, all he could get was a busy voice.

Just like many years ago, he went so frantically to find the missing person, but he couldn't even get any news from him.

The heart was beating so violently that Zhao Juntong couldn't tell whether it was because he was running too violently or because of the deep fear in his heart.

When he finally arrived, he saw the other party smiling and talking on the phone. Before he could breathe a sigh of relief, he collapsed before his eyes.

He quickly caught Jian Minxi and kept calling the other person's name, but Jian Minxi could only give him a weak smile and closed his eyes.

After the examination, I was informed by the doctor that unexpectedly, the other party did not take care of himself as he imagined, and his body did not have the vigorous capital he showed, and that person may not even be able to live comfortably alone Pass.

Zhao Juntong knew that the other party didn't like the hospital, so he took Jian Mingxi home again after the infusion. Looking at the sweating man, he hesitated for a moment before carrying him into the bathroom.

Taking off the other party's clothes, bathing the other party, and hugging the other party to sleep are all extremely skillful. Even after so many years, he doesn't feel unfamiliar.

The person in front of him huddled in his arms, trembling constantly, clutching his arm tightly, muttering something, he could only hug him even harder, and fix the other person tightly on his body Only in this way can Jian Mingxi, who is in a nightmare, be supported and warmed up, so that he can rest assured and not be afraid.

Zhao Juntong looked at the person who was curled up helplessly against his chest, and couldn't help but recall the recording he had just heard in the other party's cell phone.

——I don't want to be Jian Mingxi, but I am Jian Mingxi.

Even though he has not inherited those emotions from the past, as if he has not received the slightest burden and pain, but Jian Mingxi has never been able to completely get rid of the nightmare that was once imprinted in his heart.

Zhao Juntong closed his eyes and hugged him even tighter.

He always thinks he is great, he always thinks that he can make the other party happy with his own ability, and he always thinks ignorantly that he can protect the other party's happiness.

However, he didn't even have the strength to make him sleep well.

He should reflect on it, he should have reflected on it a long time ago, if he doesn't even know what the other party really needs, then how can he make the other party happy?

Zhao Juntong lightly touched Jian Mingxi's eyebrows that were gradually relaxing in his arms, and then kissed Jian Mingxi lightly on the other's lips.

He actually doesn't have many things, but if the person in his arms needs warmth, at least he still has a beating heart, and the blood supplied can generate some heat for the other person.

Maybe the heat wasn't enough to warm Jian Minxi up, but at least, he wouldn't let him get cold anymore.