what is the relationship between us

After chatting for a long time, there was no conclusion that Meng Xinci could suddenly see.Instead, he said that he was gay, which made the two teenagers fall into silence.

Meng Xinci didn't know what Lu Qingfeng was thinking, but seeing that Lu Qingfeng had already smoked three cigarettes, he knew that he would not be able to accept it all at once.

Does this count as coming out?If it is counted, then it is understandable for others to be so shocked and difficult to accept.Isn't it hard for others to accept when someone comes out in TV novels?

But haven't you been very open about this kind of thing in the past two years?

In the past two years, it has indeed opened up a lot. Meng Xinci can also see on the Internet that there are rainbow movements in relatively large cities.The couples in love wore rainbow striped T-shirts, walked down the street with smiles, kissed and hugged openly.

And if you like someone of the same sex, what's wrong with it?Meng Xinci feels that no matter who he likes, isn't he still himself?

Meng Xinci is very envious of them, thinking that they can be so brave and don't care about other people's eyes at all, as if they have nothing to fear as long as they have a lover by their side.

Love is an invincible armor. Putting on this armor, you can become a brave general who conquers cities and plunders land.

Meng Xinci felt that he had prepared the courage to put on the armor and go forward bravely, but no one was willing to give him this armor.Not only did that person not give him the armor, but he kept pulling him and said don't go, just fold your head.

This is not the worst, the worst thing is that when he turned his head, he saw that his food, grass and ammunition were still in short supply.

Thinking of this metaphor, Meng Xinci couldn't help but sneered.Seeing him like this, Lu Qingfeng was worried that he was under too much pressure and had already lost his mind.

It's not that Lu Qingfeng has never heard of liking a man. He has never had any objections. In his subconscious mind, these people have nothing to do with him.

Now that he heard that his friend was gay, Lu Qingfeng really couldn't accept it all at once, and he calmed down after smoking two cigarettes until he was dizzy.

It's good for a half-grown boy who can hold himself steady, what advice can he give his friends?But he was afraid that Meng Xinci would be under too much pressure, so he thought for a long time and asked Meng Xinci: "Would you like one too?"

Meng Xinci glanced at the cigarette case in Lu Qingfeng's hand. Wan Junxiu didn't like the smell of cigarettes. He even had to take a shower before coming home from working in KTV last holiday.Now Wan Junxiu is still living in the hospital, how could he still be smoking?

But for some reason, seeing Lu Qingfeng calming himself down in the smoke, Meng Xinci was a little tempted, wanting to pin his hopes in this small cigarette case.

Just thinking about it, the hand has already stretched out.Lu Qingfeng knew that Meng Xinci was a good boy, a good student like him, not to mention smoking, probably hadn't even had beer a few times.

When he handed the cigarette to Meng Xinci, he specially told him: "If you are not used to smoking, just stifle it out, I am afraid you will choke."

The two of them were already on the side of the road, and because of nervousness, Meng Xinci lit the cigarette several times in a row, but did not light it. Behind him, Lu Qingfeng turned sideways, and Meng Xinci lit the cigarette.

He was in a panic, afraid that there would be a taste in his mouth after smoking, and Wan Junxiu would be angry if he smelled it.Even the hand holding the lighter was sweating, and the cigarette between his fingers was trembling.

The first breath of smoke in his throat was absolutely choking, and Meng Xinci was choked and coughed before he could exhale.He also coughed violently, coughing up raw tears.

He didn't understand why so many people liked such things.

He bent over and coughed, his eyes were red from coughing, Lu Qingfeng patted his back to help him breathe, and said with a smile: "Oh fuck, I knew I wouldn't give it to you, why is the cough so bad? Are you okay?"

Meng Xinci shook his head, the cigarette was still burning a little bit slowly, after he recovered a little bit, he found that he was a little dizzy, this erratic feeling made him relax a lot.

The method is not a good method, but at least it can ease yourself a little.

"Although I don't know what you think, you... Are you interested in that person for a while or are you serious? But Meng Zi, you are a measured person. I think you have always been calm and able to make up your own mind. You If I think it over, I don't have anything to say, after all, who you like is your own business, and it won't affect our relationship, right?" After thinking for a long time, this is the only thing Lu Qingfeng can say, and I don't know if I can say it. Express your attitude.

Loving someone is free, as long as you decide.

Meng Xinci froze for a moment, smiled and breathed a sigh of relief, he also threw the cigarette butt on the ground, slowly raised his arms to embrace Lu Qingfeng, and said jokingly: "I know, hey, I just want to talk to you , like it or not, how much I like it, I know in my heart."

It was getting late, Lu Qingfeng's mother called several times to urge him to go home, but Lu Qingfeng replied impatiently and didn't feel like staying any longer.The two can only say goodbye to each other and go back to their respective homes.

There is someone who can listen to his speech, and the cigarette that makes him drift. Meng Xinci feels much more comfortable, and his mood is not as dull as before.

Before entering the community, Meng Xinci walked into the small shop by accident and bought a pack of the cigarettes he had just smoked.He had a hunch that he would need this thing very much in the future.

The phone rang, it was a WeChat message from Lu Qingfeng.

One is a WeChat transfer, with 2000 yuan.

Another one read: "Do you need money for hospitalization? Take it first and let me borrow it from you, and pay it back to me later. But I'm not in a hurry, this is my New Year's money, you can pay it back slowly. You really lost a lot of weight, so you still have to pay attention Body, don't make yourself too tired."

Meng Xinci almost shed tears, but felt that his nose was so sore that it hurt so badly.

His Adam's apple rolled, and he didn't know how to reply to this message after a long time.

Meng Xinci has always been thin-skinned and has strong self-esteem. He can apply for a bursary every year in school. He never talks to the teacher about his difficulties because of his face.

But at this time, face is just a fart, and the 2000 yuan will allow him to successfully register when school starts.

For him now, it was a timely help.

Meng Xinci clicked to collect the money, and mixed with the wind blowing in front of him, he sent a voice to the mobile phone: "You are like this, I don't even know how to thank you."

There are also two words sent by voice: "hypocritical."

In fact, he didn't expect Lu Qingfeng to give any advice, he was just too tired to maintain this unspeakable love by himself, and it would be a good thing for him to have someone hear about it.

The harvest tonight is not only that someone can hear his voice, Meng Xinci feels as if a little light has penetrated into his heart.

In a small, stuffy, cramped, and dark room, a crack was suddenly cut open.A ray of light came in, and along with it came in a cool breeze.

To decide this kind of thing, you have to do it yourself.

Since Wan Junxiu didn't have the courage to put on the armor for him, he took advantage of the faint light to sew one and put it on himself.

Going forward bravely and conquering cities and territories, he will do it by himself.

Wan Junxiu just needs to wait quietly for him to grow up.

Meng Xinci wiped his face, took a deep breath and walked home.

Tomorrow is a new day, sleep and come alive again.

At this moment, Meng Xinci inexplicably felt like an invincible warrior.

Wan Junxiu was recently forced to undergo rehabilitation in the hospital. Every morning, he was given a fluid infusion, and in the afternoon he had to go to another floor to do some rehabilitation exercises.

Originally, Wan Junxiu wanted to refuse, but the doctor told Meng Xinci with a straight face that based on Wan Junxiu's current physical condition, if his joints were so stiff that he couldn't even wear shoes if he lost his health.Not to mention that if this continues, even if he is discharged from the hospital, there will still be complications in the future.

Rehabilitation is necessary, and it should be regarded as a disguised form of exercise. When the patient recovers, he will be better in the future.

Rehabilitation, a self-funded treatment method, actually depends on the opinions of family members and patients, and most of Wan Junxiu's paralysis can be done passively.But the doctor still said to Meng Xinci earnestly: "Your family is in such a situation, it is still necessary to go, just treat it as you go to learn, and you can do it at home in the future. You should be able to reimburse the patient's hospitalization expenses in the previous stage." Well, the money reimbursed in this way can also cover this part of the expenses. You should think about it."

How could it be necessary to think about it? Meng Xinci didn't hesitate when he heard that he was right in the future. It would be a fool not to agree to this kind of thing.

However, the rehabilitation was too exhausting, and Wan Jun did not have the energy to transfer himself to a wheelchair after several times of rehabilitation.Lying on the rehabilitation bed and gasping for breath, Meng Xinci looked at Wan Junxiu through the glass door from a distance, and felt that he was like a fish off shore.

Seeing the rehabilitation doctor beckoning, Meng Xinci dared to go in and lift Wan Junxiu up and hug him. He couldn't even sit still, and he curled up in the wheelchair.

Wan Junxiu wanted to support himself with his hands to make him sit upright, but he found it was not very helpful.The exercise just now has made the two arms weak, and they will shake violently after a little effort.

Sitting in a wheelchair like this is like sitting on a big leather ball. I can't control the balance at all, and it seems that I will fall out in the next second.

It is impossible to sit still, and it is impossible to return to the ward smoothly.

Not only tired, but also hurt.It's also strange, he obviously doesn't feel any pain, and even wrestling doesn't hurt him these years, but such an hour of rehabilitation exercise made him hurt badly.Wan Junxiu took a few breaths and tried his best to recover as soon as possible.

But it doesn't seem to have much effect, on the contrary, it will be even more uncomfortable to be shrunk in the wheelchair.

"Xinci, can you hug me..." Wan Junxiu couldn't help but asked with a frown.

Meng Xinci thought that he was hugging Wan Junxiu horizontally as usual, and bent down to put his hands behind Wan Junxiu's legs.

"It's not a horizontal hug...you just hug me straight up..."

"Ah?" Meng Xinci didn't react.

Wan Junxiu said: "I want to stand up for a while, my body hurts badly."

Meng Xinci understood what Wan Junxiu meant, raised his two arms and put them on his shoulders, supported his waist and hugged him.

He said he was standing, but in fact Wan Junxiu's entire body was leaning on Meng Xinci.His body kept sliding, Meng Xinci could only hug him tightly to prevent Wan Junxiu from sliding down.

He looked down and saw that Wan Junxiu's feet were pinned to the ground in a strange posture, and he adjusted his posture again, Wan Junxiu's feet could be stepped on the ground like a normal person.

Fortunately, Meng Xinci was tall and strong, so he could hold it. He thought that Wan Junxiu should be able to "stand" more comfortably.

It turned out that Wan Junxiu was really tall, standing like this, with his head resting on Meng Xinci's shoulder.Even so, it is not much shorter than Meng Xinci, and it seems to be just on the same level.

This posture was like a hug, Wan Junxiu buried his head on Meng Xinci's neck, and there were dense beads of sweat on his head, all of which rubbed against Meng Xinci's body.

His heart was beating so fast that he didn't even dare to move, he could only hug Wan Junxiu tightly.After a long time, he gradually became less nervous than before, and his thoughts began to drift far away.

Warm, sweat is warm, skin is warm, breath is also warm.This kind of hug has never been seen before, and it is something Meng Xinci has never expected or expected.He thought that he and Wan Junxiu would never have such a hug in this life.

Such a two people are standing, hugging each other.

Even now it's not really a hug, but Meng Xinci feels in his heart that it is a hug.

One, as long as Wan Junxiu doesn't stop, Meng Xinci can always hold a hug that won't let go.

Even if Wan Junxiu will slide down and fall, don't worry, he will hold him tighter, so that won't happen.

Wan Junxiu's body faintly smelled like a hospital, a smell of medicine mixed with disinfectant.Wan Junxiu had a hard time during this time, even at night he was tortured by illness.Meng Xinci can't do much for him, even when he frowns, he will feel that he is useless at all.

He leaned against Wan Junxiu and asked him, "Is it uncomfortable?"

After "standing up", Wan Junxiu seemed to feel more comfortable, because his limbs were stretched, and it seemed that he really didn't feel so uncomfortable.

He shook his head, knowing that Meng Xinci was struggling to support him, so he also tried to raise his arms, trying to borrow some strength himself so that Meng Xinci's burden could be lightened.

It's just that the arms don't have much strength until now, so this kind of thinking can only be wasted.

Unable to bear Meng Xinci's hard work, Wan Junxiu decided to endure the pain and sit back in the wheelchair, "Put me down, you are too tired."

As he spoke, his body seemed to be sliding down, but Meng Xinci picked him up and hugged him even tighter.

Meng Xinci was reluctant, and Wan Junxiu was still suffering. He was reluctant to bear this hug, and he also hated Wan Junxiu's discomfort.

Then hug for a while, and then "stand" for a while.

Wan Junxiu was standing in this posture, and Meng Xinci lightly buried his head on Wan Junxiu's body in this posture.

He said sullenly: "I'm not tired, as long as you want, I can last for a long time."

The author has something to say: Meng Zai: Mom, mom, I want to go to college!I want to learn knowledge and culture, I don't want to work!

Spicy Pepper Chicken: Let's see how you behave, mom hasn't played enough yet!

Wan Junxiu: Don't ruin our poor pair of poor dogs, I beg you.

Pepper Chicken: Ah, so you agree to this marriage?

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Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Dili and Jiuge 1;

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