what is the relationship between us

Holding a small crystal trophy, Meng Xinci sat in the interview booth backstage, silently facing the flashlight and the microphone.

The biggest dark horse this year is Meng Xinci, and everyone wants to get a few words out of his mouth.When he came to the stage to accept the award, those old-fashioned statements seemed to be written for him by the company, and they were boring to listen to, only the last few words of thanks were interesting.

Everyone present heard it, and what Meng Xinci said was: "I want to thank one more person... um... thank him... that's it..."

Meng Xinci has always talked less in front of people, let alone showing too many expressions.But when he said this, there was a little smile on his face, and then it turned into disappointment.

When Meng Xinci said this, everyone thought he would say something that the audience or netizens were more concerned about.

After all, there are many rumors in China that speculate that he is gay, and almost all of them have nailed the movie "Where Are You Settled"? It is very likely that he is the prototype.

But no one dares to be so sure about the pretentious matter, and they are all looking forward to him being able to bring this story to an end today to satisfy the curiosity of the audience.

Compared with those high-sounding words that say that he will continue to work hard in the future, I believe that the people who eat melons will be more interested in his intermittent and incomprehensible words that he swallowed back in the end.

From the time when the film was warming up in China, the reporters knew that this young director was really difficult to deal with, and few people could extract some eye-catching answers from him.

But what if?What if he mercifully opened his mouth?

The awards ceremony was a live broadcast. When Meng Xinci looked up and laughed, "awsl" filled the barrage.

Even if Meng Xinci's smile is more self-deprecating, or to relieve embarrassment.

It can be seen how popular the name Meng Xinci is on the Internet, and how many people are waiting for him to say something.

But now no matter how many reporters ask him, he still sits awkwardly, occasionally answering a few questions about movies and future career arrangements.As for his own personal problems, Meng Xinci would rather sit with a straight face than say a word.

If someone who didn't cooperate like this was placed on Xiao Xianrou, he would have been blocked long ago.It's a pity that he is behind the scenes, and what he sees behind the scenes is his ability. As long as he can continue to produce new works so well, others have nothing to criticize.

Meng Xinci was not the only one who attracted attention at this awards ceremony. The impatient reporters had already retreated, and they really didn't want to waste time in front of a stuffy jar.Finally, after asking a few dry questions, he slowly withdrew from his side, turning his head to follow other stars.

In the end, the only one that refused to give up was a new media entertainment account that had just started up. The reporter sent this time was a woman not much older than Meng Xinci, and she looked very friendly.

The question just asked was not so intense, which made it difficult for Meng Xinci to speak. Now he is quietly keeping a distance from Meng Xinci, but it seems that he does not intend to give up.

Meng Xinci smiled at him awkwardly, his ears were a little red, he pointed at the new TV queen who had just entered the backstage with his finger and said: "She is also very good this year, don't you want to ask for more useful news?"

The young female reporter turned her head to look at the bustling side, smiled and said, "The questions I want to ask are similar to theirs, so wouldn't tomorrow's headlines be the same? I just want to ask you, if It’s really lucky, maybe our company will get a little more clicks tomorrow.”

"You are sincere..."

The female reporter brushed her bangs with one finger, and her professional smile showed that she was kind and professional, "Then, for the sake of my sincerity, can you answer a few questions for me?"

Meng Xinci lowered his eyes again, pressed the sharp corner of the crystal cup with his fingers, and said with a little hesitation: "Actually, there is nothing to ask, isn't it all on the Internet? What's more, now you can say These are also very inappropriate, right?"

It was rare for Meng Xinci to speak. The photographer who had just turned off the camera hurriedly picked up the camera again, and the camera was aimed at Meng Xinci.

"Then you mean that the online guess is correct. Is the Weibo account 'Your Child' yours? Or is this Weibo account the source of inspiration for Where Are You?"

That Weibo account has been closed for a long time, it’s hard for netizens to remember it, and I don’t know who took the screenshots, and now there are still things written by Meng Xinci circulating on the Internet, it’s all blurred, and it’s still being annoying. stopped in various places.

Meng Xinci suddenly gathered his fingers and held the trophy tightly.After a while, he took a deep breath and nodded without a trace.

be the default.

By default, that Weibo account belongs to him, by default that he has someone he likes very much, and by default the source of the creation of "Where Are You?"

Then he broke into his second smile of the night, a relieved one.

He smiled and said, "Actually, there's no need to hold on to this episode. The movie is over, and the audience just needs to enjoy the story. When the story is over, let it be over..."

"Then in your acceptance speech tonight, the last person you said you want to thank is your lover?"

Meng Xinci had already spoken, so how could the reporter let it go? Although the first few sentences were almost equivalent to acquiescence, they were still ambiguous.

She was also sweating in her heart. If Meng Xinci was willing to answer this question, then she could almost complete the kip for this year, and there would definitely be a lot of clicks tomorrow.

But it seems that luck can only be done once. Meng Xinci answered so many questions earlier, she is considered lucky.Now that this question is asked, Meng Xinci starts to act like a mouthless gourd again.

Originally he didn't speak, at least he could look at the camera politely, but now he doesn't speak, he doesn't even look at the camera, his eyes are erratic, like he is in a daze, or he seems to be thinking about something.

The reporter thought that this question might still be a bit inappropriate, after all, there are not many people in the circle who disclose their orientation.Meng Xinci is just a young man who has just stepped into this circle, and he still has a long way to go, because it is immoral to ruin his career because of this problem.

She pursed her lips and thought for a while, then put on that gentle smile, and explained for Meng Xinci: "That's right, the movie is over, we should pay more attention to Director Meng's follow-up works. Then today's interview will be At this point, I also hope that our director Meng will present better works in the future..."

But Meng Xinci suddenly raised his head, looked at the camera seriously and said, "He is the person in this world who loves me the most, but is the least brave."

"He is the one who loves me the most in this world but is not brave."

This was the last sentence Meng Xinci said in front of the camera. In the next second, a young man appeared next to Meng Xinci, saying that they had other interviews to be completed. After speaking, he hurriedly dragged Meng Xinci away. .

Before Wan Junxiu could see Meng Xinci's expression clearly, Meng Xinci left with only a swaying back.

He reached out and used his knuckles to adjust the progress bar back, trying to see it more clearly, but his trembling hands couldn't adjust it back accurately.

Simply adjust to the very beginning, and read it again from the beginning.However, the screen of the mobile phone was broken, even if it was adjusted to the beginning, he couldn't see Meng Xinci clearly.

The shattered mark happened to block Meng Xinci's face, and he could only see his hand holding the trophy so hard that his fingertips turned white.

Wan Junxiu was a little angry, why didn't he think about pushing the phone into the dining table when he fell off the wheelchair last year, so that the phone wouldn't be dropped.

I can't see clearly, but I can always hear clearly. Wan Junxiu heard Meng Xinci's broken words when the award was presented, and the words he left in front of the camera.

Wan Junxiu could hear Meng Xinci's complaints in the last phone call last year when he cried until he lost his voice.

Suddenly, Wan Junxiu felt a little out of breath, as if something was stuck in his throat.

It's not that I'm not brave, but that there are better things waiting for you.

I have always loved you, I will always love you, but if there is a better choice, I hope you choose the better one rationally, not me.

Before Meng Xinci came back last year, a young and good-looking young man came to him.The man stood at the door for a long time before entering the small bookstore, and stared at Wan Junxiu several times after entering.

He asked tentatively, "Do you know Meng Xinci?"

Wan Junxiu felt that the young man in front of him looked very familiar, he should have seen him before, but he couldn't remember anything, and even wondered if his memory had made a mistake.

Not long after Wan Junxiu came back from Shanghai at that meeting, he was still indulging in the sweet memories of spending time with Meng Xinci in Shanghai. When Meng Xinci was mentioned, Wan Junxiu subconsciously nodded.

The man sneered, and asked again: "Then are you really in love with him?"

"Um……"

It seems that since he made up his mind, Wan Junxiu has nothing to shy away from. If he wants to be together, with Meng Xinci, he can make up his mind to go to such a far place to find him, so why would he be afraid to admit that he is with Meng Xinci? Relationship?

The young man looked Wan Junxiu up and down again, this look made Wan Junxiu feel like he was sitting on pins and needles, his hands that were originally on the counter subconsciously retracted, and his body moved twice, trying to sit up straighter.

He was also a little thankful that the weather was fine recently, and he didn't have a blanket covering his legs, so he looked more energetic.

The young man saw all these small movements, and he thought it was really funny, no matter how Wan Junxiu sat upright, in his eyes, Wan Junxiu was still that slightly hunched, thin disabled person.

The young man straightened out his thoughts, retracted his gaze from looking at Wan Junxiu, and said flatly, "May I ask, how old are you this year? Ah... I'm not saying that he can't fall in love with someone older than himself, but I'm just curious. That's all, you...will be thirty this year, right?"

"34..." Wan Junxiu didn't like this kind of dialogue very much, especially he didn't like talking to others with his head raised. He turned to ask the young man in front of him: "Are you our friend of Xinci?"

The young man probably sensed Wan Junxiu's displeasure, he walked to the door like a familiarity, borrowed a chair from the breakfast shop next door and moved it in, and sat opposite Wan Junxiu.

This man was tall and thin, wearing a patterned dress, he looked very elegant, and he smiled slightly.

He is obviously handsome with a cute face, but it feels oppressive to Wan Junxiu.

He glanced sideways at the high school attached to the teacher across the way, turned his head and said to Wan Junxiu: "I have known Meng Xinci for many years, and I have never heard of him being in a relationship. I used to think that he would only study hard. Okay, but it’s too boring. Every time I ask him out to play, he doesn’t go. But do you know? If I say I come to you to buy a manga or a teaching aid, he will take the initiative to ask me to go to a bookstore far away We seem to have been to you once in the third year of our junior high school. If I didn’t have a good memory, I remembered that you were the owner of the small bookstore opposite our school. I don’t know where he met you, and he could even fall in love with you. coming."

How could Wan Junxiu have forgotten what happened when Meng Xinci entered junior high school? The child entered the middle school attached to the teacher in a daze.Wan Junxiu will never forget the memory of a ten-year-old boy being caught in an environment richer and better than him every day, under such pressure that he lied to him.

In my memory, it seemed that it was also that time, they had the most quarrels, and in the end even Wan Junxiu compromised himself, and made an agreement with Meng Xinci to pretend that they didn't know each other.

Thinking about it now, it's really sad and ridiculous.

Thinking of this, Wan Junxiu couldn't help but excuse Meng Xinci: "This is what I told him, Xinci...the family conditions were not good at that time, and I was worried that his classmates would laugh at him when they knew I existed."

"Then aren't you worried now? Someone laughed at him before, but now it's gone?" The young man asked him back, his words were much more excited than before.

He paused, then said slowly: "Do you know what Meng Xinci is doing now? He just signed the film and television copyright, and he has a good teacher to guide him. Even if he can't become famous in one fell swoop in the future, he will always have some achievements and status. Others looked carefully, and his partner turned out to be... like you, wouldn't he be laughed at?"

"He will be more and more busy in the future. Is it possible that he will find time to come back to take care of you?" His chin was raised with a look of disdain, as if he had confirmed his conjecture.

Wan Junxiu was left speechless by the question, stared blankly at the young man opposite, and hummed a few words after a while: "I can take care of myself, I can take care of myself, Xinci should be knowing my ability Yes, I'm just a little slow at things..."

The young man froze for a moment, then sneered again, stood up, pulled the hem of his clothes and said, "Well, that's my trouble. I hope you will never block Meng Xinci's way, Meng Xinci It won't be like many years ago, I can only hide you, and I can be side by side with you forever."

After speaking, the young man bent down to pick up the chair and walk out of the shop.

He broke in suddenly and left quickly, just to say these few words, Wan Junxiu really didn't know what he was going to do, he didn't even know who the person in front of him was.

Wan Junxiu's mind was bewildered by those questions just now, and now he suddenly came back to his senses when he saw that he was about to leave.Wan Junxiu turned the wheelchair and came to the young man, raised his head and asked him: "Can I know who you are now? You just asked me these questions, which is actually very impolite. If you are Xinji's friend, I It can be regarded as you are thinking for Meng Xinci..."

The young man turned his head and smiled at Wan Junxiu again, "I am his friend and someone who has liked him for many years. Even when I didn't know you existed, I always thought that Meng Xinci should be with you. I am together. Of course, including now, I also think that I am more suitable to be with him than you. From all aspects, it is the same. But who makes Meng Xinci stubborn? The things he decides are generally not It will be changed, but I hope you can seriously consider it."

While Wan Junxiu was still in a daze, the young man walked out of the bookstore without looking back.Wan Junxiu never saw him again, it seemed that this person, these problems were just a dream of Wan Junxiu in a hot afternoon.

During the night video with Meng Xinci, he also asked Meng Xinci from the side if he would trouble Meng Xinci because of his existence.

Meng Xinci always laughed and said that he was too worried, as if Meng Xinci had never lived with Wan Junxiu.

It was probably because Wan Junxiu asked too many questions. Meng Xinci was a little annoyed, and pouted at the camera and said, "You don't know how good you are? Besides, if I'm with you I'm afraid, I gave up long ago, I just want to be with you."

Strictly speaking, they had only been in love for less than a hundred days at that time, and the content of their usual chats was almost all missing and nostalgia, and the rest was just like ordinary couples, their expectations for the future.

Their conversation didn't involve sickness, didn't involve old age.

It seems that these things have been forgotten, or that these things will not happen in their minds.

Even Wan Junxiu was paralyzed, thinking that there was nothing wrong with him, that he could accompany Meng Xinci for many years, and that he and Meng Xinci could go on so smoothly.

It wasn't until the white hair that he realized how big the gap between his imagination and reality was.

Suddenly recalling what that young man said that day, whether it was the body, age, or the difference in strength between the two.

Even Wan Junxiu was not the best choice for Meng Xinci. The people around Meng Xinci should at least be children like that young man that day.

In just a few seconds, Wan Junxiu could imagine what Meng Xinci would be like standing with him.

It is thousands of times better than Meng Xinci standing behind him and pushing the wheelchair for him.

You can go bravely for Meng Xinci, or you can retreat in time for Meng Xinci.

Wan Junxiu's eye sockets were sore, and a crystal fell off and hit the phone screen.Now Wan Junxiu was so dizzy that he couldn't see anything clearly.

He stretched out his hand to wipe off the water stains on the phone screen, the phone felt skin contact, exited the interface, and jumped to other videos.

It was an interview video of other stars at the awards ceremony, and the camera accidentally caught Meng Xinci, and Wan Junxiu recognized him at a glance.

He was far, far away, in a nice black suit.

He sat in the corner, looking alone and lonely.

——"Wan Junxiu, you don't want me anymore..."

Wan Junxiu felt so sad, why are you still alone now?

Is the person who is right for you not with you?After becoming famous, why is there still no one around you?

作者有话要说：倒数Chapter 3，今天双更，明天完结。感谢在2021-03-2606:25:16~2021-03-2707:02:38期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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