for love

"Xie Zhishu, you are really useless."

Xie Zhishu tilted his neck blankly, staring blankly at Xie Jiashu who looked down at him with disdainful eyes.He seems to have said something... Did he hear it wrong? How could he...

"Being beaten like this and hiding it for that kind of person, I'm really fed up with your cowardice."

Even though she was so gentle just now, why did she say such things again...

"Weak and pathetic, you cry all the time. Do you think you are a three-year-old child? You cry so badly."

Yes, he sheds tears easily, whether it is moved or sad... He is indeed cowardly and pathetic, he can do nothing well, is rejected by this person or that person, and sometimes he even wonders what is the point of his life?In fact, Xie Jiashu was right, he was just... a dog of the Xie family.He knows that he is not good-looking, and he should be ugly when he cries, but...he should not make Xie Jiashu hate him.

He was hated but couldn't work hard to make the other person not disgusted, he couldn't restrain his emotions.

"Not only does it look stupid, but your brain is completely lacking. I really don't know how you got into S University. What can a person like you do for the Xie family?!"

"You don't look at yourself in the mirror. It's already annoying to look so ugly, but you don't have a bit of taste and look rustic. Are you a little self-conscious?"

"Bending your waist and drooping your shoulders every day, you look like a servile servant. You don't think of yourself as a human! At least the aristocratic dog still knows how to raise its head and wag its tail. You are no different from those **** dogs."

"The hairstyle is ugly."

"You are picky eaters, you can bully anyone who is skinny, men disdain you, and women don't even bother to look at you."

"Stutterers are inherently unpleasant."

The more I talked, the more I found out how annoying Xie Zhishu was. He deliberately covered up his distress just now and humiliated him mercilessly as if he was abnormal, as if he could become a normal self in this way.From one sentence to dozens of sentences, every cell in that person's body is disgusting, he is really despicable to the bone.

"Being useless is enough!"

Xie Jiashu said this in a nutshell. He didn't know what he was angry about. He kicked the bed that was not firm, and angrily trampled on the broken door panel a few times before walking out. .

Shrunk into a ball in fright from the bed board shaking a few times, Xie Zhishu stared blankly at the direction of the door, his face blank.

He really... really didn't seem to be useful at all, not likable at all.

In fact, in fact, he also has self-knowledge. He also knew that he was not likable before, so he avoided people every time, tried to avoid crowds, tried not to disturb others, and tried to minimize his own sense of existence, but... But it will still be annoying, he didn't do anything to make people angry on purpose, but every time he appears, something will inevitably happen to make him disgusted.

Although these are all facts, it is one thing to know it yourself, and another thing to be told it.

What's more... the person who said such a thing is still the person I cherish the most, the person I... love the most.

He twitched the corners of his mouth, wanting to smile a little, and pretended that he had never heard the words just now, but after working hard for a long time, the smile disappeared, but the tears fell again.

The worthless tears, the appearance of being disgusted by Xie Jiashu.Xie Zhishu also began to loathe himself.

What Xie Jiashu said was just superficial, there are more annoying things about him.For example, he is stingy, clumsy, has no money and loves snacks, and the important thing is that his feet are... disabled.Who would like a man like this?In fact, he still has another shortcoming, that is, as long as someone treats him a little better, he will be affectionate.Otherwise, just now, how could he think that Xie Jiashu's tenderness was due to his love for him.

Originally because of Xie Jiashu's tenderness and warmth, his body and mind suddenly cooled down again. His body, which was kicked, kicked and even beaten with sticks by those people, seemed to regain consciousness after the anesthesia faded, and even the bones ached.

Although they didn't hit anything fatal, the human body is not made of iron, even if it hit the softest stomach, it hurt him for a long time, and he even felt that his bones were about to break.

When I went home, I thought that Jiashu might be worried about me, so I didn’t fall down on the road. Just now, Xie Jiashu was so kind to me, which made him feel more comfortable, but the powerful mental painkiller has been used up, and even It was as if Xie Jiashu stabbed his injured body a few more times, every stab pierced his heart, causing him to die of pain, but he was helpless.

Xie Jiashu's indifference towards him may only make him realize the gap between himself and the other party, but this kind of care just for humiliation makes his life worse than death.

Perhaps ordinary people would find it ridiculous to describe a person's mood with the four words "life is better than death".What's the big deal? How could it be better to die than to live?But people who are not in the same environment or status don't know the pain of the other party. Xie Zhishu's pain is that he really has nothing.

Nothing, just living with love for Xie Jiashu, even his motivation to study is to be Xie Jiashu's right-hand man in the future, the only thing that can give him the courage to live is just a wish, he hopes that one day, he can get Xie Jiashu's love recognized.

But he didn't get the recognition, Xie Jiashu gave him only ridicule and disdain.

He is very stupid, and Xie Jiashu is so good.As long as the other party makes a comment, it can make him sad to the point of death.

It's just now...he doesn't want to give up on himself yet.One day Xie Jiashu will look at him with admiration, as long as he is willing to recognize him a little bit, as long as he can find a little bit of good in him, he will be happier than getting the whole world.

Although...he actually has nothing that Xie Jiashu can recognize...