for love

The body hurts.

When Xie Zhishu woke up, he only felt a tingling pain in his temples, and there was no pain anywhere in his body. The most painful thing was not the torn buttocks, but the heart that was beating rapidly in the left chest.

Who is so cruel to tear it up and step on it?

Yin Chengen lay sideways beside him, propped his face with his right hand, watched him wake up leisurely, and gave him a smile with a strange expression.

"morning."

Xie Zhishu turned his head to him, expressionless, obviously facing him, but he didn't seem to see anything.Then, still looking dull, he turned his gaze to the ceiling.

The smile on Yin Chengen's face disappeared suddenly.

"Is it interesting?"

"what?"

"Playing with me, is it fun?"

"..." Yin Chengen faintly felt that the man who was looking up at the ceiling coldly might not be asking him.

He seemed to have changed overnight.

What changed?He carefully observed the expression on the other person's face... No, to be precise, there was no expression on Xie Jiashu's face at all.

When Xie Zhishu straightened up more than ten minutes later and stood naked on the floor with his back facing him to put on clothes, Yin Chengen found out.

This man who was standing there stubbornly with his head bowed and his knees trembling seemed to have lost his heart...

When Xie Zhishu returned home, Pei Yin was sitting in the living room, dialing his phone number over and over again.

From no one answering to turning off the phone... This elder son who is ten thousand times more sensible than the younger son has never been like this.

"Zao Shu! Where did you go last night..." Pei Yin shifted his eyes from his son's face to his body, "What's wrong with you, you were robbed?!"

"Mom...we should get ready to go."

Pei Yin was stunned.

Xie Zhishu had never spoken so empty before.Even if he used to have a dull personality, speak dryly, have no tone of voice and stutter, but it will definitely not be like this now.Suddenly, the son has moved upstairs slowly.

"Zaoshu..." Is it her mother who doesn't understand her son?Why was it fine yesterday, but today seems like a different person?What the hell happened?

Robbed?Why does it seem that what was robbed was not money, but... soul?

Standing in the living room, Pei Yin suddenly felt a gust of cold wind blowing from somewhere, which made her shiver violently.

Pei Yin and Xie Zhishu took the afternoon flight from City B to Chicago, which is known as the "Wind City" in the United States.The two arrived at the airport an hour early.

"Jiashu is a brat who doesn't even answer the phone. Don't you know that mom and brother are going abroad? Don't tell me if you don't go home these few days, and don't even come to see you off. It's really a waste of raising this son." Pei Yin slammed the phone shut, muttering and complaining.

Xie Zhishu sat beside him, silently without saying a word, but when he heard the name "Xie Jiashu", his hands were clenched tightly, something flashed in his eyes, and then dimmed quickly.

"Zhishu?" Pei Yin turned to look at his son, "You...you haven't told me what happened last night."

"..."

Xie Zhishu raised his head, looking at him, Pei Yin's heart suddenly felt a sharp pain.

is he cryingPei Yin blinked.No, there were no tears.But... what happened to that real illusion just now?

Time passed bit by bit, and the mother and son sat in the waiting room without speaking.

Although Xie Zhishu looked blank, he didn't think nothing in his heart.

He is about to leave the place where he has lived for 20 years. He thought he would miss it before boarding the plane, but sitting here now, his only thought is to get on the plane and leave this place, and never come back again. Yes, just like that person said to him that day.

There used to be his love here, but everything changed last night.Love, is gone, only a scarred heart is left.

Already, I don't want to see that person again, I don't want to hear his voice, I don't even want to mention his name, I don't want to hear it.

How does it feel to give up and despair about someone?Xie Zhishu already knew.

When the heart dies, the pain like the heart being torn has disappeared, leaving only indifference.

hate it?hatred.What he hates is not Xie Jiashu, but himself.Hate yourself, why are you so cheap, why do you only realize that everything is just your own wishful thinking after being completely hurt and ruined.

Xie Jiashu was at fault, and the fault was not only on him.I am not without responsibility.Why do you trust him so unconditionally, why have you been obsessed with it?

From the beginning to the end, Xie Jiashu never had any affection for him. He is obviously so cowardly, where does he get the courage to love and follow?

It's just that the weak are obsessed with overestimating their capabilities.

In the future, never again.Already desperate for that person.The flash of pain when he heard his mother say "Xie Jiashu" just now was the last injury he suffered for him. From then on, he will never feel pain for him again.

While thinking wildly, Pei Yin's cell phone rang.

Xie Zhishu heard his mother's reproachful tone: "It's only now, what are you thinking about every day? We are in the waiting room, come here!"

In less than a minute, Xie Zhishu saw a pair of feet appearing in front of him.He heard the person standing in front of him panting, probably because he was too tired from running, his legs trembling slightly.

"I'm late……"

Xie Zhishu frowned, but the next second, with an expressionless face, he raised his head, and instead of looking at Xie Jiashu, he pointed to the seat in the distance and said to his mother beside him: "Mom, I'll go there Sit on the side."

Xie Jiashu watched his elder brother standing up with the suitcase, he no longer walked with shrunken shoulders as before, and he was much taller after straightening his back.

When he walked past him, Xie Jiashu grabbed his wrist anxiously and in a panic.

The two didn't speak, Pei Yin looked up at them.

After a long time, Xie Zhishu shook off Xie Jiashu's hand.

"Let go... I already, let go."

Xie Jiashu stared at the back of his brother leaving. For a moment, he felt that he had lost the most precious thing.

If you fall in love wrongly, then let him let go.

—End of the first volume [Wrong Love]—

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