imperfect lover

It seemed that a long time had passed, but in fact it was only a short week. On the first night after the two returned home, Wei Shengkai woke up in Yan Junxi's arms with a start.

"Having a nightmare?" Yan Junxi brushed away the hair on his forehead in distress.

"No." Wei Shengkai's voice came muffled as he burrowed into his arms, "I just want to make sure I'm still in the hospital."

Yan Junxi hugged him tightly and kissed his soft hair.

"Kay, when you are fully recovered, I will take you back to America."

"Why are you going back?"

"Let's relax." Yan Junxi smiled softly, "We haven't gone for a walk in many parks."

"Then what's your father's name when I see you?"

"Just call Mr. Yan."

"So unfamiliar?"

"That's what I called him when I was working in America."

"And said you two have a good relationship."

"He didn't like us calling him daddy, he said he was only 60 years old."

"So young."

"Kay, I didn't bring you back to meet him. I have my own home in Seattle. Maybe you'll like it there."

Wei Shengkai finally raised his head from his chest, frowning slightly.

"Why are you rushing me out of here?"

"I just want to lead you to live a different life than before. You forgot, we have to try to live a life at home without thinking or working, and live simply."

"Then you don't have to fly all the way to America."

"You don't want to go?"

"I didn't think about it..." Wei Shengkai lazily replied, "It's just that I can't think about it now."

"That's good."

"No, my mind is empty."

"It's not empty enough."

"Hmph! What about the money?"

"If we are only staying for a short time, we will entrust Yu Jie to take care of it as before. If we want to stay in the United States for a long time, we will bring the money with us."

"So thoughtful. What about Starry Night?"

"Xingye already has Shang Qing and the others, what are you worried about?"

"Why do I have the feeling that you don't want me to go back to Starry Night at all?"

Yan Junxi gently raised his face to look at him, and said seriously: "Yes, I don't want you to go back to Starry Night."

"Hey, that's my job."

"No, that's just your atonement."

Wei Shengkai's eyes widened suddenly, and then he sat up sullenly.Yan Junxi got up after him, but Wei Shengkai got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom, Qian Qian immediately rushed to his feet and spun around.

After slightly squatting down and touching its little head, Wei Shengkai walked to the balcony, not feeling sleepy at all, only feeling as if his whole body was empty.

"Kai..." Yan Junxi's voice sounded behind him, "Are you angry?"

"No." He wasn't angry, he just felt empty. "I can't think." Wei Shengkai rarely showed a blank expression. "Are you sure Dr. Feng cut my stomach, not my brain?"

Yan Junxi smiled.

"I want to smoke." Wei Shengkai leaned on him.

"I thought you quit."

"Quit, but you made me want to smoke."

"Stop smoking, I'll talk to you, and I don't have a cigarette either."

"You really quit?"

"I did what I said."

"Hmph! Don't beat around the bush and hurt people."

"You can't drink or smoke now."

"Okay, that's fine, don't say any more."

"Let's talk about it when you're fully recovered." That's how he spoiled him, and Yan Junxi found that the one who really didn't behave well was himself.

Wei Shengkai looked at the pitch-black night, the thick darkness before dawn, as if the whole city would be sucked into a dark vortex, it was so dark that one wondered if the sun would really come.

"Junxi, if I lose the starry night, what else can I do?"

"You haven't lost the starry night, I just hope it becomes a place for you to play. You can do a lot, but you never try."

"for example?"

"You have a clear mind and eloquence, and staying at the bar all the time is useless."

"That sounds nice." Wei Shengkai didn't think so.

"Kai." Yan Junxi circled his thin body and kissed his slightly cold forehead. "Don't be confused about the future, I will be with you and will not leave you alone."

"You see, I never thought the night view here was so beautiful, and in fact it's really not so beautiful. That seems to be my feeling about the future. I never thought I could have any expectations for the future."

These words, he had never spoken to Yan Junxi before, as if showing weakness in front of him would make him appear really lonely, but now, he just nestled in his arms and said words that he didn't understand.Only he himself knew that his heart had never been so peaceful like this time.

"Then you'll love the night view of Seattle."

"You just insist on taking me?"

"Yes, I insist."

Instead, Wei Shengkai didn't know what to say, he didn't want to go, and he didn't want to go.After a week in the hospital that seemed like a century, he found that the place was not as scary as he imagined. He knew that it was because Yan Junxi had been guarding him all the time. When the two places are separated, they can't leave each other. It's okay to lose anyone between them, so what is he still insisting on?

In fact, he hadn't insisted on it for a long time, but he couldn't adapt to this change for a while, and suddenly, his life no longer belonged to him.

Wei Shengkai actually felt uneasy, he was always unable to hand over his feelings, because he was too afraid of the pain of loss, the love that could not be grasped, it would be better not to make any promises from the beginning.

He always thought that Yan Junxi was the same kind of person as him and had the same thoughts as him, so they could maintain such ambiguity and freedom for so many years.

In fact, there is no such thing as freedom!Only now did he truly realize that as early as the moment he fell in love with each other, freedom was gone, and only when he saw each other could he feel that he was the proof of being alive.

Wei Shengkai turned around and buried himself in his arms, took a deep breath into his chest, and then opened his mouth to bite his chest muscles.

"What does this mean?" Yan Junxi laughed.

Wei Shengkai raised his head, his clear eyes were particularly bright in the dark night.

"If you don't want me, I'll bite you to death."

"I should be afraid that you won't want me."

"You are the first person I want to promise."

Yan Junxi looked at him with a smile.

"I am willing to believe and look forward to what you say to me, because I know that you will do what you say." Wei Shengkai wrapped his arms around his neck and pressed against his mouth, "You told me to die without you, So you have to be in charge of my life."

"That's what I'm going to do in my life." Yan Junxi smiled softly, just when Wei Shengkai was about to kiss him, he backed away slightly, Wei Shengkai immediately frowned, only to see him smiling profoundly, his big hands pressed against him eyes, and said softly, "Close your eyes."

"What are you going to do?" Wei Shengkai still frowned, and then he was taken aback, Yan Junxi hugged him up, he quickly wrapped his arms around his neck, and looked at him puzzled.

"Close your eyes." Yan Junxi still smiled softly.

"What are you doing?" He spat, but still closed his eyes.

Yan Junxi carried him back to the bedroom, gently put him on the bed, saw his eyelids move, and immediately said:

"It cannot be opened."

"Qianqian is calling, let it come in." Wei Shengkai said with his eyes closed, but in fact he just wanted to peek.

"I didn't close the door, so you can't peek."

Wei Shengkai couldn't help but pursed his lips, but was kissed unexpectedly, and was about to speak when he heard Yan Junxi's voice.

"You can open your eyes now."

Wei Shengkai slowly opened his eyes, and saw Yan Junxi kneeling in front of him, what surprised him was not only Yan Junxi's actions, but also the ring on his hand, Wei Shengkai looked at him stupidly, feeling his mind was even more blank.

"This is a gift I picked for you in the United States. If you really come to pick me up at the airport, I will kneel down at the airport and propose to you as you wish."

Wei Shengkai's eyes widened.Yan Junxi took his hand, put the ring on his slender finger, the size was just right, Wei Shengkai couldn't say a word, he could only watch him holding his hand and kissing him in a daze, and then gave himself a touch of tenderness. A smile that made his eyes warm. `

"Kai, I love you." This sentence is really going to become his mantra.

Wei Shengkai laughed, and with this smile, tears fell down without warning.He cried and laughed, looked at him but was tongue-tied, and could only utter one sentence in the end--

"You're fucking crazy."

Yan Junxi just looked at him with a gentle smile, and reached out to wipe away the tears that kept rolling down his cheeks.

"I'm the one who's crazy..." Wei Shengkai was still laughing, but he couldn't control the burst of tears, he didn't want to cry at all! "I actually feel so happy."

"Because you love me." Yan Junxi held his tear-wet face and kissed his wet eyes.

"I never told you..."

"I said, I will wait until the day you are willing to tell me that you love me."

"It's too hypocritical to say it at this time."

"You can say it whenever you want."

"You are too much."

"I thought you were going to say you love me."

"with this method......"

"You can tell me first that you want to."

"How could I let you succeed!" Wei Shengkai waved his hand on his cheek, and threw himself at him, both lying on the ground.

Yan Junxi hugged him and let him sit on his lower abdomen safely, Wei Shengkai bent down and kissed him frantically.

"Old Feng has explained, don't do strenuous exercise for the time being." Yan Junxi pecked his tender lips fondly and smiled.

"I remember he proudly boasted to me that the latest technology was used on me, and there was no need to open my stomach at all. He also said that this small operation has long surpassed the medical skills of other major domestic hospitals?"

"Old Feng holds an international medical license, and he often scoffs at the pedantic traditional concepts in China."

"So as long as you don't do strenuous exercise, it's fine!"

"I will love you tenderly."

"Then what are you waiting for..." A deep kiss was another charming and cruel seduction.

The night before dawn seems hopelessly dark, but when the dawn suddenly appears, no matter how dark the night is, it will be covered by light.

***

The night before their flight to Seattle, they stayed in Starry Night almost all night. It felt like the four of them hadn't gathered together for a long time, but unexpectedly it turned into a farewell night.

"Then how long will it take me to see you?" Yu Jie immediately lowered his eyebrows.

"Please, I don't want to immigrate." Wei Shengkai rubbed his head.

"Aren't you going to marry there? That's no different from immigration." Sun Shangqing immediately teased him.

"Sorry, even if I want to marry, I may not get a green card like him."

"If you want, I can help you get one." Yan Junxi smiled, and he immediately rolled his eyes.

"I'm just a rice bug, why do I need a green card?"

"Do you really want to raise this rice worm for the rest of your life?" Sun Shangqing asked him earnestly and sincerely. Before Yan Junxi could answer, Wei Shengkai's fist had already swung past him.

"Take a break for a while, let's plan for the future. I haven't had a vacation for more than ten years. It's good to think about the future direction at this time."

Wei Shengkai glanced at him, "Didn't you mean to let go completely?"

"Of course, but it can't be empty for a lifetime, you will be ridiculed by Shang Qing."

Sun Shangqing spat out his wine.

"Waste! Bullying, I can't drink now." Wei Shengkai said angrily.

"Brother Yan and Brother Kai are both people who can't take time off. Taking a vacation can be regarded as a great opportunity to recharge your batteries. On the contrary, you can have a clearer idea about the future." Yu Jie laughed.Wei Shengkai immediately stuck to it, with a narrow smile flashing in his beautiful eyes.

"Is this from experience?"

Yu Jie blushed suddenly, and Sun Shangqing immediately glared at Wei Shengkai who was snickering.

"Let's go for a walk in an American park to find inspiration." Wei Shengkai said to Yan Junxi with a smile.

"You can plan carefully what kind of shop Xingchen is." Yan Junxi looked at him fondly.

"Okay, okay!" Wei Shengkai's eyes lit up.

Sun Shangqing couldn't help but roll his eyes, "It's just right to call him Xingchen."

"The stars are very nice." Wei Shengkai smiled triumphantly.

"Don't tell me, next time you plan to come to another star to know my heart or something."

"Young Master Sun, you really are my good friend."

"Please..."

It also seemed that it had been a long time since he stayed up all night. When boarding the plane the next day, Wei Shengkai was listless, almost half asleep and half awake, being helped onto the plane by Yan Junxi.

After sleeping on the comfortable seat of the first-class cabin for a long time, Wei Shengkai finally woke up. He saw Yan Junxi beside him quietly reading an English newspaper. He moved his body to his lap and continued to lie lazily on his stomach, squinting his eyes and muttering He murmured, "Why don't you get tired?"

"I fell asleep, you go on resting."

"Looks like I'm a little hungry."

"I'll ask the waiter to bring you some food. You should take your medicine too."

"Junxi, let me tell you a secret." Wei Shengkai slowly opened his eyes, tapped his leg unconsciously with one hand, and said softly, "Actually, I'm also afraid of flying."

Yan Junxi smiled, reaching out to help him massage his neck and shoulders.

"I wasn't afraid before. Ever since I thought your plane crashed, I've been afraid of planes."

"So are you afraid now?"

"Don't be afraid, because I'm with you."

Yan Junxi's smile deepened.Wei Shengkai got up, climbed directly onto his lap, held his face and looked at him.

"If you are flying alone, I am afraid; if I am flying alone, I am also afraid. I am afraid that either of us will die first, and neither of us will be able to bear it, but now I am not afraid at all, because we are together , even if we have to die, we will die together, there is nothing to be afraid of.”

"I've never thought about death." Yan Junxi took his hand and kissed it, holding the back of his head forward with one hand, bringing their foreheads together. "But since you got sick, I realized that I'm so afraid of death."

"Actually, I'm not afraid of death, but that's because I thought I would have nothing to worry about."

"Just like you don't allow me to die, you have to live well for me."

Wei Shengkai laughed, "It seems inauspicious to discuss the topic of death on the plane?"

"I don't care, and there is no such taboo."

"Me neither, I'm just afraid that you won't be by my side when I die."

"Will not."

"I remember everything you said. If one day you forget or don't love me, these words will become evidence in court."

Yan Junxi replied with a smile: "There won't be that day."

"Okay, I believe you."

Wei Shengkai leaned forward and took the initiative to offer his tender lips. The densely pressed lips were lingering, like strong alcohol, and he became addicted as soon as he touched them. His willful and arrogant kisses have always been his charming and lovely Overbearing, Yan Junxi is willing to be tied up by him.

Just when the two were kissing like glue, almost passionately, when they were about to blow their guns, the hanging curtain was suddenly lifted, followed by the sweet voice of the dignified and elegant stewardess.

"Excuse me, what's the matter..." The words stopped suddenly, and the beautiful face of the stewardess suddenly seemed to be struck by lightning. After a second of petrification, the whole face flushed instantly, and then embarrassed The curtain was lowered again.

"Sorry to bother you." Then he left very politely.

Wei Shengkai turned his head to look at the slightly swaying curtain, then turned back to look at Yan Junxi who was smiling all over his face, and raised his eyebrows unaffected. "Is she intimidated or does she feel earned?"

"I think it's the latter." Yan Junxi laughed.

Wei Shengkai moved closer to his face. "It seems that you don't care about being seen!"

"My lover is so beautiful, why do I care about being seen by others?"

"So open?"

"Do you care?" Yan Junxi asked him back.

"If I cared, I wouldn't be still on your lap." He deepened his teasing look at him, and even deliberately rubbed his body against him, Wei Shengkai was like a lazy cat full of fatal charm, constantly provoking his self-control.

"I don't mind making out with you on the plane at all..." Holding his face, his slender fingertips sank into the hair roots behind his ears, Wei Shengkai's flirtatious breath touched his ears that were gradually heating up Sparks spread.

Pressing against his ear, hooking the tip of his tongue around his ear, Wei Shengkai's breathing sound entered his ears at the same time, those three words that he never told him, but always wanted to tell him--

"I love you......"

"The End of the Book"