Sober candy

On this day, she was in a hurry to finish her work and was catching a plane. After getting into the bridal sedan chair, Ms. Lin was quite sleepy. She lay on the car with her flowers in her arms and squinted without talking to anyone.

Just after passing the expressway, Fu Jing slowed down the car, closed the windows, turned on some hot air, took off his coat, put it on Lin Xu, and then went to get flowers, and whispered, "Go to bed first if you're sleepy."

Lin Xu pulled his coat under his arm, raised his eyelids and glanced at him lazily, holding the flowers without letting go: "Is there any reason to go back for the things you gave away?"

Fu Jingle said a few times: "Isn't it because you are afraid that you will feel uncomfortable?"

"The flowers are quite fragrant, and I'm not uncomfortable." Lin Xu nestled in the seat, leaned his head against the edge of the window, and squinted his eyes again: "I'm a bride."

Fu Jing smiled and turned her head to look at him.

Lin Xu's outline is very soft, his head is tilted to one side, his chin rests on the flower cluster, his slightly curled long eyelashes cast a layer of shadow on his eyelids, his side face is fair and moist, with a tired and lazy look, charming and charming With the big red rose under his jaw, it seemed that he had withdrawn his aura, leaving all his flamboyance and amazement to him, and the sleeping person was also a peerless beauty.

His throat was a little dry, Fu Jing lowered his head and coughed lightly, turned his eyes away, and drove while staring at the road ahead.

There was a huge traffic jam in the evening rush hour. The cars stopped for a while, and the horns on the side of the road kept coming and going. The traffic flow seemed to be constipated, rushing along the road, and almost three hours passed. Lin Xu fell asleep two times. Woke up to find that they were still on the road.

Lin Xubu became refreshed after catching up on sleep, sat up and took a sip of water, and asked, "How long is it?"

Fu Jing was a little worried: "It will probably take another half an hour to be blocked."

"It's okay," Lin Xu nodded, "it's not too long."

"It took half an hour to pass the next intersection." Fu Jing repaired the knife quite melancholy.

Lin Xu sighed: "It's getting late, why don't you go home directly."

"We haven't eaten yet." Fu Jing was a little regretful: "It's not easy to rank the restaurant specially reserved for you."

"Let's order a delivery," Lin Xu said, "It's a waste of time to go there and come back."

"Okay," Fu Jing held the steering wheel with one hand, took out his mobile phone with the other to call the restaurant, tilted his head and said, "The candlelight dinner is gone."

Lin Xu couldn't help laughing: "Two big men, what kind of candlelight dinner are you having? It's not that much."

Fu Jing nodded, and told the restaurant that the deposit was not too much, and he didn't think about coming back, so he hung up the phone with a few instructions, Fu Jing ordered another Malatang, and estimated the time , it was delayed for more than half an hour, and it was just able to be connected when I went back.

Lin Xu went to see him when he heard people order Mala Tang, and when he hung up the phone, he immediately asked, "Did you not eat enough last time?"

"Which time?" The road was cleared, Fu Jing shifted into gear and started driving.

"The time you didn't add me on WeChat." Lin Xu was holding the flower upright in his seat, with an air of "I'm the wife I'm afraid of."

Fu Jing shrugged his shoulders with a smile: "Hey, will we not be able to pass this hurdle?"

"You asked." Lin Xu said while lowering his head and fiddled with the flowers in his arms.

"Okay, it's up to me," Fu Jing raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, and couldn't help but say, "You tease me first."

"I only tease you because I think you're cute, but who knows if you're not cute." Lin Xu glanced at him and said, "Fu Jing, you're quite scary when you're angry."

Fu Jing smiled, changed hands to hold the steering wheel, reached out and rubbed the person's head a few times: "I'm scared, Senior Lin, I'll eat candy when I get home."

Lin Xu: "Where do you get so much sugar?"

Fu Jing: "I bought it."

Lin Xu raised his eyebrows and tilted his chin, a little curious: "You bought it for me?"

"Well," Fu Jing thought for a while, and then said, "I bought it last time."

"Last time?" Lin Xu asked, "The time you didn't send WeChat?"

Fu Jing: "...Lin Xu."

Lin Xu laughed a few times, reached out and touched his head: "Didn't you eat enough last time?"

"It's not that I'm not full, I always feel that there is something missing," Fu Jing rubbed his head against the palm of the person, and said with a smile: "I can't enjoy those steaks, salads, foie gras and so on that you all love. I can’t get used to it, maybe everyone has their own love. Steak and foie gras, how should I say it, can’t sum up many flavors in one dish, and the taste buds can’t be satisfied. Chinese food is fine, the color, flavor and shape, a few dollars on the roadside A skewer and a bowl of hot and spicy Malatang for more than 30 yuan can be done, which is exciting enough and enjoyable enough to eat.”

"In terms of formal meals, Chinese food has a lot of flavor," Lin Xu commented: "There is a thousand-year-old food culture. Besides, China has a vast land and abundant resources, and the latitude and longitude are large enough. The natural belt is different, and the food ingredients bred are also diverse, and the taste is relatively different. There are plenty of other meals for sure. Western food is a rational diet concept, which emphasizes the combination of nutrition and calories. The ingredients in many dishes have nothing to do with each other, and there are really few dishes that can be blended together without conflicting. "

"Then do you want a Mala Tang?" Fu Jing enthusiastically reached out to take out his mobile phone: "Before they make it, I'll order another one for you."

Lin Xu smiled and stopped him: "Okay, it's enough for you to eat deliciously. I'm still suitable for eating dishes that have irrelevant tastes."

Fu Jing raised her eyebrows: "Huh?"

Lin Xu pointed to his face and said, "Control your diet, avoid oil and greasy."

"You can't do this," Fu Jing teased with a smile: "You just like this, how many good things do you have to eat in your life?"

"It's good to get used to it," Lin Xu said: "If you want to get it, you can give it up. Long-term benefits are more important than immediate benefits. The aging human beings in the natural law cannot resist, but the foreseeable losses can be avoided as much as possible."

"Hey!" Fu Jing turned back to the phone: "God Lin, you've become a celestial being in abstinence."

"That's how my parents came here." Lin Xu smiled helplessly: "Our family is like this, too rational."

"Inherited values," Fu Jing clicked, "That's why you have raised such a perfect and excellent son."

"Perfect what perfect..."

My son can't even go home now.

Lin Xu pursed his lower lip and sighed softly in his heart.

Fu Jing has Fu Jing's regrets, he has his helplessness, there is no perfect thing in this world, some people's fate is rough and rough, and they can still be their fresh selves after a while, while some people's fate , but being pushed forward by countless pairs of big hands, it was too late to refuse and think, because too many things were already in front of my eyes.

The smooth road is too smooth, so smooth that it will only mechanically repeat the pre-determined trajectory, the extremely correct and boring road, the hateful thing is that absolute reason will always suppress his heart that always wants to rebel and break free, making him always "just in time" at the last moment. turn back".Compared with Fu Jing's sincerity, no matter how much he gives, there is little. He often has guilt and regret for him, because he has never really given his all to do an uncertain thing.

He fought for it, got no response, knew he should wait, but he didn't.Reason defeated the heartbeat, and he was sad when he left. No matter what Fu Jing said, he was the first to let go.

During the few days of that business trip, he thought for a long time.The relationship between them was too ordinary, apart from being a little closer than ordinary friends, there was nothing special, they didn't even have a serious kiss, and he didn't quite understand how important Fu Jing was to him.

And whenever he approached, Fu Jing's panicked look would sting him, as if the relationship between them would become so dirty because of his closeness, there was disappointment and loss, Fu Jing failed to hand him over He didn't have all of them.

Maybe he is still too young to cherish what is easy to get, even though he really likes this little boy.Fu Jing in college was free and unrestrained, enthusiastic and brave, and the light shone into his heart with dazzling light, making his peaceful days a little more glamorous and moving.

Excessive inward self-analysis is prone to mental illness. His spiritual world has not collapsed, thanks to his rational restraint. During the days when he left Fu Jing, he kept reflecting and looking for a life other than Fu Jing. meaning.

His requirements for himself are so harsh that he wants to get the first place, he completes his studies in the shortest time, he wants to get the highest salary among people of his level, and he takes the youngest hiring age in the company to stride forward to what he wants to achieve. The place he wants to step into, he starts his own business, no matter how many years he, Lin Xu, has to do his best, he has to be the Lin Xu who is looked up to.

There seems to be nothing more satisfying in life than this, but it's not right, because he did something against his will at a certain stage, and he can't forget it.

Missing will torture people to the point of madness, and excessive self-condemnation will make him dissatisfied with everyone who appears around him afterwards.He likes Fu Jing, Fu Jing is his only one.Time will count, the more people around him, the sadder he will be.

He personally lost someone who could have been cherished.

The torment of demons tormented the memories between them, and he began to suffer from insomnia again.He called the person he really missed and wanted to be with, but the other party had already changed his tone.

When Fu Jing's voice stopped rising when he called him, when the elementary school boy who liked to run behind him had gone through many hardships and years, settled into a cocoon, shouldered everything, and walked on his own path, he knew that they would not come back. went.

He didn't dare to call again, so he picked up the phone numbers of all the old teachers and classmates for the first time.He called them one by one, trying to hear even a little news about Fu Jing from anyone.

The old professor of the school's journalism department was transferred to another school. Many old classmates changed their mobile phone numbers, including Wang Chao's and Feng Dao's. The call to Qin Shan was an overseas call, and the construction engineer was busy working. Tu Gaifang said that the contact had been broken long ago, so he called Zhao He, but Zhao He didn't tell him the truth at first.

He knew that Zhao He also blamed him.

Zhao He hurt Fu Jing, Zhao He did better than him.Friendship does not care about giving and rewarding. Friendship is selfless, but love is not. Love is only when two people are tied tightly.Two people trapped in shackles, when either of them wants to breathe, they have to hug the other tightly so that they can breathe.Love is taking.Ask for intimacy, trust each other and cling to each other, and ask people to swear a lifetime of loyalty.

Zhao He told him at the time that Fu Jing was very busy and had no time to talk about love with others. Fu Jing was desperate for work, said he wanted to live in a big house, and said he wanted to live like a human being. He wanted to bring his father here Stay, let him come again when these things settle down.

He said yes, he waited.

He waited for ten years.

It's not easy to make a name for yourself in the big capital. Fu Jing has had a hard time these years. Even though he hasn't seen it with his own eyes, he is counting every day like a year.

In the third year since Fu Jing started working, they have not been in touch again, and life is still going on. Fu Jing has a father to respect, and he also has parents to respect.

Endless blind dates, countless tricks, even dared to give him medicine a few times.He has a good temper, but he is not without boundaries. From the very beginning, he made it clear to them that he would give them what they wanted, and they would keep their limits.But there are always those who don't cooperate, and he is forced to bear the superficial disguise. He is tired of that kind of life, and he doesn't want to be the hands on the clock.Every few years, he can't help but come here to have a look.

He summoned old classmates who could be contacted to attend a class reunion that he didn't know why he wanted to organize. The person he wanted to meet was not in the same class as him, and the person who could contact that person didn't want to talk to him when he came.

Sure enough, he was self-inflicted, other than standing alone in the crowd with a wine glass and smiling wryly, he could only hope that time would pass faster.

Time flies so fast, it is ten years in a blink of an eye.

Fu Jing's father passed away, and Zhao He took the initiative to call him to tell him.

The idiot drank on the graveyard for several days, drank and fell asleep, fell asleep and drank, and even quit his job that was more important than his life.

After being hospitalized and then waking up, Fu Jing fell into a state of depravity.

He didn't wash his face, didn't shave his beard, his whole body was smelly, and he closed himself at home like a corpse, and no one could lift his spirits anymore.

Along the way, every step of his footsteps was covered with mud, blood and sweat, and those unattainable things that he had been pursuing so hard seemed to be annihilated into ashes with the disappearance of an old man.

One person can save another person.

When they got together again, the first time he saw Fu Jing, he almost didn't cry.

He wore the suit he used to wear, he sprayed on the perfume he used to use, he handed him a candy, smiled at him, and he still called him Senior Lin.

When he was nervous, his hands would still move non-stop. He was peeling an orange, uttering a bunch of hints in his mouth. He was still as cute as before.

The moment Fu Jing rejected him, he was indeed frightened. Even though he knew it was because of jealousy, he was still stabbed by that rough and fierce face.

Just like he once tried to get close, he pushed him away in panic.It was a posture of self-defense, it was a look of distrust.

Maybe Fu Jing didn't realize it himself, he is a person with low self-esteem to the bone.

After Zhao He told him about Fu Jing's family background, he lay in bed and didn't fall asleep all night.

He finally figured out what this "Senior Lin" really meant.

He didn't refrain from using his personal power, implying that Fu Jingshang's seniors would take good care of him and not let the child be wronged.Fu Jing himself is also likable, no one can resist the smile of the sunny boy, he is fine if he doesn't say anything, but he wants to be worthy of the kid's "Senior Lin".

Life is not an idol drama. He can bear the admiration of anyone, even his parents, because their admiration is just admiration. Fu Jing is different. The longer a person with low self-esteem looks up to others, the more dangerous his psychology will be.

He approached Fu Jing, he wanted to get close to him, he wanted to let him understand that he is also a mortal, there is no difference between them.

Destiny is like a circle, it circles endlessly, if a certain link goes wrong, everything will be lost.

Things didn't go as expected, and he left anyway. It was fate, and it was fate that Fu Jing should go alone or go alone.

Because of class differences, separation is the normal state of life.

Because of the laws of nature, no one can reverse it.

The author has something to say: Life is a profound philosophy

Overcoming the grinding of time, crossing the barriers of fate, and waiting peacefully for several years, the love that can still be together in this way is really sweet

PS: Lin Xu feels that time passing slowly represents suffering, and feeling that time passing fast is emotion, there is no conflict, everything is relative

Discussing the taste of dishes is just chatting, and I don’t mean to belittle the food of any country. The world is beautiful because of differences. I love the food of Great China and respect the food culture of other countries.

(By the way, circle a little bit, please remember that Senior Lin doesn't like to eat spicy soup)