After Bai Yueguang's stand-in is passive and slow to work

He subconsciously hid the cigarette behind his back, knowing that Shen Heng didn't like the smell of cigarettes, so he didn't smoke, but just lit it and smelled it alone.

"Shen..." He hesitated to speak, walked quickly to the balcony door, and opened the door: "Why are you awake?"

He threw the cigarette butt into the trash can filled with water, and walked to Shen Heng's side, his tone and expression were extremely concerned: "Are you afraid of sleeping alone?"

Shen Heng lowered his eyes silently, saw the cup he was still holding tightly in his hand, and said slowly: "I'm a little thirsty, so I woke up."

"I'll get you some water." Jiang Zhiyu took the cup in his hand, reached out to turn on the light in the living room, Shen Heng squinted his eyes at the flash of light, and he sat down at the dining table.

Jiang Zhiyu quickly brought out a cup of warm water and handed it to Shen Heng: "Fortunately, there is still some hot water in the thermos."

Shen Heng took a few sips from the cup, then raised his eyelids to look at Jiang Zhiyu.

The hair on the forehead was a little disheveled by the wind, looking a little tired.

"What are you doing on the balcony?" Shen Heng put down his glass and asked.

Jiang Zhiyu seemed a little embarrassed, he touched his nose, "Nothing."

Shen Heng raised his eyebrows, and Jiang Zhiyu immediately replied honestly: "I'm addicted to cigarettes, but I don't smoke, I just smell the smell. If you don't like it, I'll take a shower before going to bed."

"What else?" Shen Heng continued to ask in a flat tone.

"It's gone." Jiang Zhiyu looked away from him.

"I'll only ask you this time." Shen Heng let go of the hand holding the cup, waited for a while, but still didn't hear Jiang Zhiyu speak again, he stood up: "It's up to you."

He didn't know why he cared so much about Jiang Zhiyu's abnormal behavior in the middle of the night, and wanted to force him to tell all about it. It was probably because Jiang Zhiyu's series of changes since the ring incident ended that day made him feel strange.

But he couldn't find a reason, couldn't find a breakthrough, so he could only hang half up and half down like this, which made him feel very uncomfortable.

"Shen Heng!" Jiang Zhiyu's tone was flustered, he got up and grabbed Shen Heng's wrist, "Are you angry?"

"No." Shen Heng stopped: "If you don't want to say it, I won't ask again in the future."

Jiang Zhiyu was in a daze, Shen Heng had already pulled his hand away from him, and turned to go towards the stairs.

Jiang Zhiyu's heart trembled uncontrollably. The grievances, sadness, and self-repair of the past few days finally broke through his defense line at this moment.

The back view of Shen Heng at this moment filled his heart with unreasonable fear, as if he was about to lose Shen Heng, he said loudly: "I tell you, Shen Heng, don't go."

The tremor in his voice was too obvious to be ignored.

Shen Heng stopped, turned to look at him, and saw Jiang Zhiyu walking over in a hurry, his face was full of grievances and tension visible to the naked eye: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kept it from you."

"Calm down first." Shen Heng frowned slightly, and said steadily.

Jiang Zhiyu took a deep breath, and when he relaxed, he was in a slightly better state than before: "Okay."

Shen Heng looked at him calmly, then, Jiang Zhiyu reached out his hand to feel in his pocket, and took out a silver ring that Shen Heng was familiar with.

His eyes widened slightly, looking at the little thing in Jiang Zhiyu's hand.

"I'm sorry, I was impulsive that day." Jiang Zhiyu lowered his eyelashes, and looked at the plain and delicate ring in his hand, with a hoarse voice: "I thought, I'll put it on for you while you're asleep. When you wake up every morning, you will acquiesce when you see it, so I won't be afraid of you rejecting me."

He suddenly laughed, but there was endless sadness in the laughter: "I was really confused at the time. On such an important matter, I made a decision without asking for your opinion. I even thought you would agree and acquiesce."

"So I saw you take it off and give it back to me the next day, I..." Jiang Zhiyu's voice suddenly stopped, as if he couldn't continue, he took another deep breath: "I don't know What should I do, these days I am in pain every day, I know you hate me, but I don't know what to do, I am afraid that you will leave me, I am afraid that you will bother me, I am really afraid..."

Shen Heng closed his eyes, but he couldn't avoid Jiang Zhiyu's sad voice in his ears.

Jiang Zhiyu is afraid, so isn't he afraid?

He can live with Jiang Zhiyu, sleep with him, accept him to send him to and from get off work, and accept the two of them doing what all couples do, but he is also afraid.Because he was afraid of repeating the same mistakes again and again, every time he wavered and softened his heart, he could personally cut off that tiny trace of affection in his heart again and again.

If he was really allowed to go through what he had experienced once again, he didn't know what he would become, he didn't dare to guess, even if Jiang Zhiyu showed how much he loved him, and how he tried his best to make up for him, he was afraid.

It is obviously him who should be afraid!

"It's very late." When Shen Heng opened his eyes, he had already organized his expression and look: "Go back."

Jiang Zhiyu stared deeply at him with those ink-like eyes, and Shen Heng couldn't see through the complex emotions in his eyes.

Shen Heng waited for a while, and seeing that Jiang Zhiyu didn't intend to speak, he moved his body and wanted to go back first.

Maybe I shouldn't go downstairs to drink this glass of water, Shen Heng thought to himself.

Jiang Zhiyu gently took his hand the moment he left, and under Shen Heng's slightly dazed gaze, knelt down on one knee, raised his head solemnly and focused to look up at him, firmly raised his left hand A ring: "Shen Heng, are you willing to..."

Before he finished speaking, Shen Heng quickly pulled his hand out of his palm, and took a step back at the same time.

Jiang Zhiyu's expectant and nervous expression froze instantly on his face, his eyes turned desperate almost instantly, his body did not move, he still maintained the motion of raising the ring, opened his mouth, and barely made a sound: " Shen Heng..."

His voice was dry and hoarse, as if someone had strangled his throat, but only Jiang Zhiyu knew that just saying Shen Heng's name like this at this moment seemed to have drained all his strength.

"You don't need to be like this." Shen Heng couldn't help being flustered in his heart, and he was still trying to maintain his composure at the moment: "Our current relationship and way of getting along is enough, you don't have to imprison you and me in this way."

Jiang Zhiyu's expression froze, and he looked at him with hurt eyes. After a long time, he said, "Confinement? Do you think this is just a kind of confinement?"

"Yes." Shen Heng nodded at him without hesitation, and seeing Jiang Zhiyu's eye circles immediately turned red, he continued cruelly, "I'm by your side now, living together with you, we can do anything , waiting for you later..."

He pinched his palm secretly, and then continued: "I'm tired of playing with me, I feel bored, I want to find someone else, or that Mr. Yu is willing to turn around, we can still separate without burden.

"Shen Heng looked at Jiang Zhiyu's eyes becoming more and more incredible, looking at him as if looking at a stranger: "If we have some kind of legal relationship, it will not matter to you or me... "

"Shen Heng!" Jiang Zhiyu's voice was filled with heart-piercing pain, he couldn't tell what mood he was in, Shen Heng's words were like a series of hot slaps, his face was so red that he could barely speak.

"Why, how can you miss me so much." Jiang Zhiyu's tone softened.

He stood up from the ground, kneeling for a long time just now, his knees almost gave way, but fortunately he held on, and walked to Shen Heng with two steps, holding his shoulders with both hands: "every word I said to you The words are all serious, you don’t need to believe me, you can consider me and examine me with suspicion, but Shen Heng, the only person I love is you, how could you! How could you think that the one I like is Yu Xiao? !"

"I'm not playing! I'm here with the idea of ​​spending my whole life with you,"

How could he convince Shen Heng?

A drop of tear "popped" down Jiang Zhiyu's cheek, Shen Heng was taken aback when he saw it, but Jiang Zhiyu didn't seem to feel it, he was still trying to speak, trying to make Shen Heng understand: "I propose to you, It's because I love you, and I want to be a fair and honest partner with you, this is my wish."

The tear just now seemed to be Shen Heng's illusion, Jiang Zhiyu's expression has become firm and serious: "I love you, Shen Heng, I love you."

"I hope you can trust me." Jiang Zhiyu leaned forward.He held Shen Heng in his arms, and wrapped his arms tightly around his shoulders: "From now on, I will tell you that I love you every day, until you believe me, I will continue to say it, and I will say it for the rest of my life."

Shen Heng's nose was sore, but he was forced to endure it.

Late at night, the living room was quiet, and he could clearly hear Jiang Zhiyu's heavy and warm breathing in his ear, which made him restless and at a loss.

He was only 25 years old, why did he seem to have spent his whole life, leaving only exhaustion, cowardice, and unwillingness.

How much he wants to love passionately, to give all his body and mind to fall in love with someone.

But that person is Jiang Zhiyu, so this choice is a gamble for him. Once he enters the game and waits for his end, there are only two extreme endings to go. The Abyss, or...have a real home.

But if he repeats the same mistakes, does he still have the courage to let go and leave decisively?

If the ending is the first one, will he and Jiang Zhiyu repeat the process of apologizing, forgiving, apologizing, and forgiving, no matter where he goes, Jiang Zhiyu is like a shadow behind him, following him like a shadow.

This seems to be a dead end that repeats endlessly, so wouldn't he have to fall into this kind of heart-piercing pain all his life?

Shen Heng suddenly felt a little hopeless.

By now, he found that he had no way out.

From the first glimpse in school, he has been firmly entangled with Jiang Zhiyu all his life.These vine-like fetters, as early as the years of involvement between the two, have been integrated into the flesh and blood, and they are inseparable.

Now he can only hold on to the tiny chip left in his hand, to believe in the love Jiang Zhiyu said to him, and the eternity he said.

"Where's the ring?" He heard his own calm voice.

Jiang Zhiyu slowly loosened his arm, and then opened the palm of his left hand, revealing the silver ring: "Here."

Shen Heng took the ring from his hand with a numb expression, put it on his left middle finger under Jiang Zhiyu's extremely shocked expression, then raised the back of his hand, and whispered to Jiang Zhiyu, "I agree."

"You..." Jiang Zhiyu seemed to be knocked out by the huge ecstasy. He couldn't speak for a long time. When he finally realized, he shook his voice and said as calmly as possible: " Shen Heng, although it is late at night, we are all awake."

"En." Shen Heng twitched the corner of his mouth at him.

Jiang Zhiyu was so excited that he wanted to hug him directly, Shen Heng took a step back: "I'm sleepy."

"Okay, okay." Jiang Zhiyu bent down and hugged him in his arms: "We'll go to bed when we're sleepy."

Although there were only the two of them in the room, Shen Heng still blushed and wanted to struggle. Jiang Zhiyu disagreed, and coaxed gently: "It's okay baby, I'm not tired."

Shen Heng glanced at him, resisted the desire to speak, and remained silent for a while.

Jiang Zhiyu gently put him on the bed, covered him with a quilt lightly, leaned over and kissed him on the forehead: "Good night, I love you."

The light in the bedroom was turned off, and Shen Heng closed his eyes. After a while, he felt a rustling movement behind him, and then an arm was wrapped around his waist.

Jiang Zhiyu knew that Shen Heng was not asleep, so he whispered behind him: "I don't even dare to sleep."

Shen Heng ignored him, and he continued to talk to himself: "What if I wake up and find out that it was a dream?"

"If you keep arguing, I'll make it really become a dream." Shen Heng said lightly.

Jiang Zhiyu was obviously frightened, the hands around Shen Heng's waist trembled, and then he closed his mouth, not daring to make any movement.

Shen Heng opened his eyes and looked at the darkness around him, silently listening to the slow breathing of the person behind him, suddenly hooked the corners of his lips, and smiled silently.

It was as if a boulder that had been pressing on his heart for a long time was suddenly unloaded, and he became much lighter from the inside out, and the gloomy and irritable things in his heart also gradually fell apart after leaving the living room.

He didn't want to taste the pain of mutual torture anymore. This time, he exhausted his courage and put all his eggs in one basket. He chose to respect his heart. Those feelings that had been suppressed and cut off for a long time finally broke through carefully. Under Yu's careful care and watering, he gradually grew up.

...

Early the next morning, when Shen Heng opened his eyes, Jiang Zhiyu was arranging his clothes in front of the full-length mirror in the bedroom. He perfectly interpreted the seven words "people are refreshed on happy occasions". They all seem to be excited a lot.

"Shen...wife, you're awake!" Jiang Zhiyu walked to the bed, squatted down, and kissed Shen Heng's side face: "Good morning, I love you."

Shen Heng was still in a daze, and felt that Jiang Zhiyu was a bit like a male peacock courting a mate, but he didn't express this description: "Morning." He opened his mouth in a hoarse voice.

"Breakfast is ready, and it's still warming in the pot downstairs. After you wash up, drink a cup of honey lemonade, and I'll make it for you to prevent hypoglycemia." After Jiang Zhiyu finished speaking, Shen Heng also sat down on the bed Got up, nodded: "Yeah."

Jiang Zhiyu was in a good mood, and there was a large table of Chinese and Western styles for breakfast, which was more than enough for two people.

Shen Heng drank half a glass of honey lemonade, picked up a potato roll with his chopsticks, and looked up at Jiang Zhiyu.Jiang Zhiyu was rolling his sleeves, when he saw Shen Heng looking at him, he smiled and said, "What's the matter?"

"Did you make too much breakfast?" Shen Heng asked casually.

"It's okay." Jiang Zhiyu looked at the results on the table with satisfaction, and said with a smile: "Today is the first day you promised me to get back together, of course it can't be easy."

Shen Heng smiled: "Then you finish them."

"Sticking to death counts as murdering your husband." Jiang Zhiyu said seriously.

"..." Shen Heng lowered his head and took a mouthful of shredded potatoes.

"Shall we go out for a walk later?" Jiang Zhiyu suggested after taking a sip of coffee.

"Where are you going?" Shen Heng asked.

"The swimming pool is opened by my friend, and the environment is not bad."

Shen Heng paused: "Okay."

Jiang Zhiyu looked happy, and heard Shen Heng say again: "Are there many people?"

"Fortunately, there may be more people on weekends." Jiang Zhiyu thought for a while before answering.

"Oh, there are quite a lot of handsome guys, all wearing swimming trunks?"

Shen Heng watched with his own eyes that the smile on Jiang Zhiyu's face disappeared, and then Jiang Zhiyu said in a blunt tone: "I still won't go."

"Why?" Shen Heng seemed puzzled.

Jiang Zhiyu glanced at his phone: "The weather is bad, swimming can easily catch a cold, and I don't like water."

After he said this, Shen Heng was stunned for a moment.

In the past, Jiang Zhiyu used to swim frequently in summer, and he even went to the swimming pool to find him once. At that time, he was squatting by the pool, looking at Jiang Zhiyu's vigorous figure, his eyes were full of happiness.

But he doesn't like water now, probably because of that...

"I'm just joking, it's just that I suddenly don't want to go." Jiang Zhiyu was sensitive to Shen Heng's emotional fluctuations, and immediately interrupted: "There is also a park that has just been built, and there is no sun today, shall we go on a date?" ?”

He looked expectantly at Shen Heng's expression, and Shen Heng also nodded: "Okay."

The hottest months have passed. Occasionally there is a little wind blowing outside. Walking on the road, not only does it not feel hot, but it is also chilly.

Jiang Zhiyu wore Shen Heng's windproof jacket on his forearm, in case he would be cold, so he brought it out specially.

The two of them didn't drive, but walked side by side in the bustling scenery of the nearby streets and cities, and arrived at the park that Jiang Zhiyu was talking about not long after.

This park is dominated by vegetation, focusing on greenness, nature and health. It was not long after it was built, and there were not too many people coming, so the two of them were unimpeded along the way, and they didn't meet many people on the road.

Because it is a new park, both the staff and the surrounding plants are full of enthusiasm and vitality. Along the way, the staff who gave directions greeted them, and Shen Heng nodded and smiled in response.

After walking for an unknown amount of time, there was a big tree in the middle of the open space in front of him. Jiang Zhiyu looked curiously at the red ribbon tied on it, and suddenly turned to look at Shen Heng, with surprise in his eyes and tone: "Shen Heng! Marriage Tree!"

Shen Heng also raised his head and observed carefully for a while, only to find that there was only one red streamer, on which was written the introduction of this tree.

While he was observing for a while, Jiang Zhiyu came back excitedly with a streamer and a black oil-based pen in his hand: "You write my name, and I write yours."

Jiang Zhiyu quickly lowered his head and kissed Shen Heng's side face. After being glared at by him, he still said happily: "We happened to be the first couple, and we will be each other's only ones for the rest of our lives."

I don't know where I learned it, but Jiang Zhiyu can always speak these love words.

After all, it was outside, Shen Heng was a little shy, but still took the pen and streamer, stroke by stroke, carefully wrote Jiang Zhiyu's name.

After the names of the two were written, Jiang Zhiyu found the thickest branch in the middle of the tree, raised his hand, and fixed his eyes devoutly in the center.

Shen Heng stood not far away, looking at him with a smile.

This is the life he once wanted, although it was too late, but it finally came.

He chose to accept, wanting to let go of the past and never look back.

This time it was Jiang Zhiyu who came to him with fiery sincerity and love, and he was willing to join hands again to live a longer and better life for them.

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It's over, there should be two more chapters about daily cookies~