What should I do if I continued the romance with Lily?

Waiting is never a good time.

Lin Qing thinks that she has a say in this matter. After all, after meeting Qiao Yu, she always seems to be waiting.

At first, they waited for Qiao Yu to fall in love with her, and after they communicated with each other, they waited for Qiao Yu to solve the problem of satisfaction, and then began to wait for Qiao Yu to come back.

She was not a person who was good at waiting, but she was willing to make an exception for Qiao Yu.

She guarded the lonely memory and waited for two years—perhaps a year and a half to be precise. After all, she was kept in the dark for more than half a year before Qiao Yu left, and she was only concerned about a certain moment of strangeness every day. confused.

If? If I can keep such ignorance all the time, maybe I will be happier than now.

——At least Qiao Yu seemed to think so.

Standing three steps away? That self-righteous person who is annoying, Lin Qing lowered his eyes, did not look at her expression at this time, and secretly felt lucky that she was obedient and did not approach or speak.

Lin Qing was very angry? Lin Qing was really angry? Qiao Yu was angry.

The four words of leaving without saying goodbye are enough for her to brew a pot of bitter wine during the difficult time.

What's more, she still didn't know anything about the fact that this person had returned.

There is nothing more offensive than learning the whereabouts of your lover from someone else.

Should it be said that "new hatred and old hatred" rushed into my heart together? Lin Qing quickly adjusted his heartbeat disturbed by Qiao Yu's unruly behavior just now, and asked calmly.

"I have something to ask you, is that okay?"

There was no response, Lin Qing took a quick glance and saw that Qiao Yu was nodding her head obediently, pursing her lips, implementing her prohibition very sincerely.

Not daring to look further, Lin Qing glanced away, and said, "I'll ask you to answer, don't say anything else."

"Ah."

Quickly comprehending? Realizing that this meant she was allowed to speak when she was asked a question, Qiao Yu made a nasal sound meekly, sounding no objection at all.But the more she was like this, the more complicated Lin Qing's mood became.

"Two years ago, what happened? What happened?"

This question that has been lingering in my heart and has been unable to be revealed in front of others until now can finally be asked to the Lord. This matter is like a fishbone stuck in Lin Qing's throat. It has grown with time, almost growing together with the flesh, like? When I was able to spit out today, there was a tearing pain, reminding Lin Qing that it was not easy to accompany him day and night.

It's not that Lin Qing didn't have his own guesses after thinking of Qiao Yu, but they were all unrealized fantasies.At that time, no one could give her a definite answer, and now she can't wait to cut? This old wound.

"..."

She heard Qiao Yu take a breath, and then speak slowly.

"...I changed the text I sent out at that time, and then my satisfaction became zero, and I was punished... Well, I was taken away from this world, which is equivalent to exile."

"Recently, my satisfaction has increased to one, and I can come back."

What she said was plain and straightforward, but Lin Qing's breathing was disturbed.

"You mean, you have been exiled all this time?"

She emphasized the word exile, and couldn't help raising her eyes to look at Qiao Yu, who hesitated for a moment and pursed her lips.

"Well, but the flow of time in the world of exile is different from that here—I don't think...it's been a long time."

She said? She put her hands behind her back a little awkwardly, raised her head and met Lin Qing's eyes softly: "I made a decision on my own at that time... I'm sorry."

"... until now, what are you talking about these useless things?"

As soon as she touched it, Lin Qing looked away lightly, but her heart was far from being as calm as she showed.

She struggled contradictoryly. On the one hand, she wanted to ask Qiao Yu about her exile, but on the other hand, she felt that it was by no means an understatement like what Qiao Yu said.

Lin Qing didn't have the confidence to complain to Qiao Yu after hearing that Qiao Yu had suffered.

But if it becomes like that, it's just a kind of delay, just like pretending not to see a huge scar hidden by dust.

The festering wound needs to be cut open to squeeze out the bad water and slowly recover. Qiao Yu did something wrong, so he just let it go and pretended to be the same? If we continue to get along as usual, one day these things will become The gap between her and Qiao Yu.

She still has a lot to say, and every sentence requires her to harden her heart.

"After you left, everyone forgot about you."

"Do you have any idea about this?"

Lin Qing's voice was calm, and he continued to ask as if he was doing business. He felt that the person in front of him suddenly became tense and his body tensed up.

"...That is, after I was exiled, the world treated me. Because I am a foreigner after all..."

"You knew it would? It would be like that, didn't you?"

Unrelentingly aggressive, Qiao Yu closed her eyes, nodded heavily, and was ready to be scolded.

But to her surprise, Lin Qing didn't have any special reaction, just motioned her to continue talking.

Qiao Yu's eyes were full of apology, and she lowered her head sincerely: "It seems to have recovered after I came back...It should be very confusing to suddenly think of me? I—"

"If you want to apologize to me for this incident, then you don't have to."

Lin Qing's eyes flickered, and the corners of his lips curled up.

"I seem to have missed a sentence in what I just said."

"...?"

Looking at Qiao Yu, who had a dazed expression, Lin Qing smiled gently, but with a kind of vindictive pleasure.

"After you left, everyone forgot about you—except me."

She looked at Qiao Yu with almost pleasure. The expression on Qiao Yu's face turned into an uncontrollable panic, and an inaudible laugh came from her throat, and her eyebrows and eyes were gently curved.

"I still forgot about you for more than half a year, but I suddenly remembered one day."

"Looking at you, you seem to be right about me? I don't know about you at all, well, I guess so."

"To be honest, I just felt strange at first, and I shouldn't be able to remember it—why do I remember it?"

Lin Qing stopped looking at Qiao Yu's mixed expression of shock and pain, and took out a neatly folded piece of paper from his pocket. It had been rubbed open so many times that even the quality of the paper became thinner. She took it out carefully, she could maintain a calm look on the surface, but she couldn't restrain the trembling of her hands.

She walked up quickly, slapped the piece of paper on Qiao Yu's chest, looked straight into Qiao Yu's eyes for the first time tonight, and smiled softly.

"fraud."

Qiao Yu took the piece of paper tremblingly, his hands were shaking uncomfortably, and he tried several times before he successfully unfolded it?

Almost as soon as she saw the words "wish list", she felt dizzy for a while. The following line of handwriting that belonged to her was terribly familiar, but now it all looked like shards of glass pierced into her eyes.

"why……"

She muttered helplessly? Even she didn't know what she wanted to ask.Why did Lin Qing think of her?Why wasn't this piece of paper erased with her disappearance?

Why does Lin Qing's eyes look calm and indifferent, but it makes people feel that she will cry in a second?

"what happened?"

With a relaxed tone that didn't fit the atmosphere, Lin Qing's voice fell on Qiao Yu's heart like a heavy hammer.

"Can you acquiesce in me forgetting you, but can't accept that I recall it halfway?"

Not knowing what to do? How to face her harsh words that were almost cruel, Qiao Yu's eyes were red, and she looked at Lin Qing almost beggingly.

"...Don't look at me like that? Me."

The other party's voice trembled for a moment, and soon became ruthless. He reached out and blocked her eyes, forcing Qiao Yu's vision into darkness.

"Don't presume it's a pity that I think of you."

"For me, let me forget you like that, that is my greatest misfortune."

When the vision is deprived, the sense of touch and hearing will become more sensitive. Lin Qing's palm is very cold, covering Qiao Yu's swollen and painful eyes like ice. Qiao Yu caught the trembling in her voice that could not be hidden gradually.

"...Why didn't you tell me when you were making a decision? Why didn't you tell me everything at that time?"

"Is it just based on how much older you are than me? So you can make some decisions for me that you think are good for me-do you know how self-righteous you are, Qiao Yu?"

The painful whine in his heart could not be uttered. Qiao Yu's throat seemed to be stuffed with cotton, and he opened his mouth in vain, then closed it again.

She seems to be doing something wrong.

He didn't want to put on Lin Qing the shackles that he didn't know when he would be untied, but he didn't think that it might not be a burden for Lin Qing.She had had the opportunity to tell Lin Qing frankly, but that might make Lin Qing worry? It would make her sad, but it was definitely better than Lin Qing's anxiety of not knowing where she was after recovering his memory unexpectedly, and being in constant fear.

Just thinking about that scene hurts—and the person she least wants to hurt in the world has suffered for so long because of her one mistake.

"Then two years have passed, and in this world, I am already in a higher grade than you. Shouldn't you listen to what I have to say?"

Lin Qing moved her palm away, and Qiao Yu was moved to tears by the sudden light. Seeing Lin Qing's face in a blur, she opened her mouth word by word.

"I haven't been happy at all for the past two years, it's all—"

Lin Qing's voice was stuck in his throat, and no matter how deep he took a breath, it would not help.Listening to her messy breathing, Qiao Yu smiled bitterly, and continued the second half of the sentence for her.

"...This is all thanks to me."

Qiao Yu blinked gently and shed a tear.

Does Lin Qing hate Qiao Yu? Probably.

Lin Qing thought of thousands of excuses for her behavior, resented her thousands of times, and forgave her thousands of times, but was always shattered by the bloody reality in the end.

I may have lost her.

It is inevitable that this kind of thought will come up, but just thinking about it will make my heart ache.

On the second birthday without Qiao Yu, Lin Qing looked at the birthday candles, smiled and closed his eyes, but his heart was empty.

The last birthday wish was not fulfilled, and things that may not be fulfilled should not be used to make wishes.

But I have no other luxury.

In the past period of time, she had nothing but vague memories, like a bird without feet that couldn't land.She thought that one day even she would forget about Qiao Yu. At that time, Qiao Yu would just melt into the wind as if she had never been in this world.

Lin Qing found that she was afraid of such a future, so she became more and more silent, guarding the memory that could not increase, and was restless all day long.

Does Lin Qingai Qiao Yu?

Lin Qing never thought that one day she would have hesitation on this issue, probably because most people in the world do not have such abundant emotions, and love and hate are the two most labor-intensive emotions. You can choose one, or vigorous love, or gnashing of hate.

She also had the feeling that she should have hated Qiao Yu from love.The panic when I heard Qiao Yu appearing in other people's mouths was because the person I hated appeared too suddenly, and was angry because Qiao Yu didn't invite her? It was because her resentment was hard to confide, and she was fidgeting at home and finally changed into an inconspicuous one. The clothes sneaked to the side of the hotel because she wanted to see what the person she hated looked like now-look, maybe it's a bit irrational, but it still makes sense, right?

But when Qiao Yu really appeared and ran towards her, Lin Qing had no choice but to make a sound to stop Qiao Yu from approaching, Qiao Yu's words, if possible, she even wanted to stop Qiao Yu's eyes - I don't know why Unable to speak out.

He just glanced at Qiao Yu and heard her say "I'm back."

Lin Qing's heart, which had been silent for two years, started beating wildly.

Why, why, Qiao Yu.

But now, when Lin Qing looked at Qiao Yu, who was crying silently, what came to her heart was still these words, sour and unspeakable, but it seemed that something hard was gradually melting away, making what was hidden inside unstoppable Head out from where you live.

"... Qiao Yu."

She couldn't even tell whether she was feeling annoyed or joyful at the moment. Lin Qing gritted her teeth and called her name. Seeing Qiao Yu raise her head at the sound, her red eye sockets were strained. Her amber eyes, which were always clear, sank like It is mixed with muddy pain and self-blame.

Is this the result Lin Qing wanted?

Lin Qing's mind gradually became chaotic, and he tried his best to maintain his clarity.

"why cry?"

"Because I... did something wrong." Still answering every question, Qiao Yu's voice was very soft, as if trying to restrain her sobs.

"Is it useful to cry when you do something wrong?"

what.This kind of lines.Lin Qing became agitated because of her indiscriminate words, and aware that she was about to lose control, she forced herself to take a deep breath and suppress it.

"..." Qiao Yu shook her head quietly, her tear-wet eyelashes drooping down, flapping like crow feathers. "I deserve more punishment."

Maybe it's because Qiao Yu looks too depressed now, or maybe it's because her chest is filled with unknown emotions, Lin Qing can't help herself, when she realizes, she has already grabbed Qiao Yu's tie, and forcefully makes him bow his head Come.

"...Then what punishment should I receive?"

No matter the words or actions, it was as if the body was making its own decisions. Lin Qing was shaking violently, but slowly wrapped her long tie around her palm, and her slender five fingers fell down one by one, clenched tightly.

She didn't miss it, and Qiao Yu's throat moved slightly.

It's already reached this point, if it's a little, a little closer...it won't happen? God damn it.

As if the dark sky was being illuminated by roaring thunder and lightning, Lin Qing suddenly understood where her feelings came from.

Why can't I bear it as long as you appear.

When I was young, I thought that love was all sweet, a gift from God, but how could I have imagined that it was actually a bitter medicine wrapped in sugar, an addictive drug.

These are all yours? Mine.Whether it is love or hate, it will all be attributed to you.

But as long as it's you, I seem to be all—

"Listen, Qiao Yu, I haven't forgiven you yet."

As if speaking to Qiao Yu, or to herself, Lin Qing said softly, raising her eyes.

"But now, kiss me."

She saw her lover with red eyes froze, blinking helplessly, and couldn't help tugging on his tie.

"What's wrong? Have you forgotten how to do it? Ask me to teach—"

Even if my heart is itchy and anxious like a kitten is scratching, I still have to say a few words, as if I can convince myself that I just want a little skin-to-skin contact suddenly, and it has nothing to do with feelings.

Fortunately, the obedient person who bent down didn't seem to be that dull.

Qiao Yu lowered her head and kissed Lin Qing.