extravagant hug

do you know?

I still remember the first time you smiled at me and stretched out your hand;

The second time you sprinted to the infirmary behind my back, the smell of sweat.

……

We promised: only good friends.We agreed: just be good brothers.

But, I'm sorry.I fell in love with you first.

But, I'm sorry.I killed her.

But, I'm sorry.I can't replace her after all.

But, I'm sorry.If I leave, the axis of time can be reversed, as if I have never been here.In this world, there will be no disasters and disasters.And you, my beloved, can also be happy...

──Lin Shu.

On the road around the mountain, a white BMW is galloping quietly, as if it is clamoring, responding to the hot and unbearable weather.

"Brother, why haven't you seen each other for three years, and you have become silent?"

"Huh? Is there?"

Lu Jinchu nodded slowly. The once cheerful and gentle brother now only had a cold look towards him.

Three years ago, the day before he rushed to study in the UK happened to be the day of sister Jin Liu's funeral.He saw his brother's dejected expression, but he never saw his brother shed a tear from the beginning to the end.Only his lips were tightly pressed, and the lines on his face were tense.In the entire lobby, he was suddenly in another world.

He was only 17 years old at the time and didn't know anything, only that it was after his parents left, and his elder brother acted so distraught again.Lu Jinsui, the man who founded the Jinfu Consortium with one hand and dominated the shopping malls.

After that, less than a year later, he heard the news of his brother's marriage, and the object was Lin Shu, his former classmate and good friend who had visited his home.He didn't attend the wedding because it didn't happen, and in today's society, although gay dating is allowed, most gay people don't make it public.If you really love each other, you can abandon the worldly vision.

When he was still on the plane yesterday, he thought that the elder brother he would see today would be red-faced, but he never expected the embarrassment at this moment.

"Jinchu, brother helped you arrange a house in the city center, closer to where you work. When you are free, go and see if it suits you." Flowing depressing music.

Lu Jinchu nodded meekly as before.Since his parents left, his elder brother has shouldered all the responsibilities, so all he can do is to cooperate, not to disobey him, not to make trouble for him.

The car drove slowly into a light blue villa in the mountains.

Opening the car door and getting out of the car, he saw the soft figure at the door, as if he had been standing there waiting for a long time.

Although they have met each other several times before, they have become a little blurred after years of caressing, and the special status at this time made both of them just smile lightly, which is regarded as a greeting.Lu Jinsui didn't even look at the man, he walked around him and walked in.

It was so hot outside, when Lu Jinchu thought of the whiteness and sweat on Lin Shu's face, besides sympathizing with him, he also had deep doubts.The elder brother's attitude towards him obviously shouldn't be that between lovers.

What surprised him even more was the living room's furnishings, which were extremely simple, and what hung on the wall was not a group photo of the owner of the house, but a photo of Lu Jinsuan and Jin Liu lying on the lawn hugging and smiling at each other.

Lu Jinchu looked at his brother in surprise, but Lu Jinsui didn't realize it, and said indifferently: "Jinchu, your room is the third room on the left of the stairs. If you are tired, take a shower first. I'm going to work."

After finishing speaking, he continued to walk up the steps, and at the corner, he inexplicably added: "You come early today."

Hearing this sentence, Lin Shu who had been standing next to Lu Jinchu was stunned for a moment, and then a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and his thin face seemed to be a little vaguely angry at this moment.

So, on the first day Lu Jinchu returned to China, with Lin Shu's help, he got familiar with the environment and sorted everything out. In the end, he just lay down in a daze and tired. After all, he had to report to the new company tomorrow.My brother didn't ask me to go to Jinfu, but let him choose a travel company that I like.

After Lin Shu took a shower, he quietly looked at his current figure in the mirror, and his lower abdomen was still as flat as before.

There was a happy smile on the corner of his mouth. He knew that Lu Jinsui hated him, and he also knew that his hatred was justified, so he resolutely agreed to register his marriage with him.

But there is also his selfishness in it.He loves him, even if the days are miserable, as long as he can stay by his side to watch him and take care of him, then what's the point even if he hates him?Let him vent his pain, and Lin Shu also believes that his feelings for him are firm enough.

This process, Lin Shu simply did it well with heart, and now it's not just him alone, but also the baby, their common flesh and blood.

Will he be happy?

Thinking of this, Lin Shu's pale face blushed unconsciously.It's better not to tell him yet, after all, I'm too nervous.

Lin Shu opened the door and walked lightly.

After a week of not seeing the person he had been thinking about day and night, he finally returned to a place where he could wait and see today.

Lu Jinsui lay with his back facing him, as quiet as if he was asleep.

Lin Shu walked over with light steps, and wanted to stretch out his hand to tuck the corner of the quilt for him, but unexpectedly he grabbed one hand, pulled it hard, and fell on the bed unsteadily. The man turned around and looked at him. But it was cold.

"What? It's only been a few days since you've seen each other, and you've been missing him forever?" He squeezed Lin Shu's bony wrist tightly, and Lin Shu secretly breathed in the pain, but he just tried his best to smile.

"Just come back."

The strength in the hand has increased.

"Bitch!"

Sure enough, Lin Shu's face turned as white as snow all of a sudden, deep guilt, heartache, and love floated in his clear eyes.

The other hand quietly comforted the little life in her stomach.

Every time Lu Jinsui wanted to stab Lin Shu, he would spit out these two words indifferently and contemptuously.

How much does he hate Lin Shu?

If this person hadn't gone to tell Jin Liu that he loved her, Jin Liu wouldn't have had a car accident that day without even giving herself a chance to explain.

Jinliu, Jinliu, Jinliu...

A lover who always has a warm smile, cares for himself, and tries his best to stay with him.

Countless nights, he woke up in cold sweat and tears.He tossed and turned between fame and fortune, flirting with different women, and marrying someone he hated deeply, just to torture Lin Shu and himself to calm his lover in heaven.The unpredictable mall masters are naive enough to use such tricks to hurt each other.

Lu Jinsui pressed heavily on Lin Shu, staring at him with bloodshot eyes.You probably haven't slept well these days.Lin Shu stroked his head instinctively, but what he got in return was painful biting and merciless pinching. Bitter feelings were deeply pressed in his throat. Although he had experienced countless times, his heart still ached. , One by one is more powerful.

For two years, his hard work has not returned a little bit of love and compassion.

Lin Shu quietly avoided the possible damage to the little things in his belly, secretly protected his belly, catered to the impact from the person on his body, and endured it silently, with faint groans and deep despair.

Lu Jinsui lost the gentleness and restraint that he should have in normal times. He seemed to be able to completely release himself only with Lin Shu.He is not the perfect master in the eyes of the world, he has too many emotions that cannot be vented, and he can only use this to balance the complicated emotions in his heart that he can't sort out.

"Uh... Jin Sui..."

Lu Jinsui's hand had already reached Lin Shu's lower body, and he brutally tore off his pajama pants.

The coldness of the air made Lin Shu tremble, followed by the entry of the person he cared about.There is no trace of love or hesitation, his hatred is so obvious every time, it is so obvious that Lin Shu's heart is crushed over and over again, but he still can't numb it, hoping to see even a little bit of him sad.

Jin Sui, I just want you to release your suppressed feelings, I just want you to give me a chance to love you well, I even greedily want to have a child we share, is that okay?May I……

Lin Shu had already asked himself thousands of times in his heart, but every time he thought of his cold gaze, he could only retract it bitterly.

Lu Jinran groped with one hand, and the person under him groaned softly, his body trembling slightly, but he still tried his best to please him and make him comfortable, but he lost weight day by day.

Thinking of this, Lu Jinsui's heart suddenly throbbed, and then continued to explore without mercy.When the wandering hand came to Lin Shu's abdomen, Lu Jinsui heard Lin Shu moaning softly, and took the initiative to pull his hand down.

He snorted out his nose full of disgust, but he didn't see Lin Shu's lustful face and the sudden solemn sadness in his eyes.

It's almost dawn.

Lin Shu's bed was just a pile of quilts in the corner. Lu Jinsui said, never dream of sleeping on his bed.Yes, the legal relationship between the two of them just made it easier for Lu Jinsui to torture him, and gave him hope but never allowed him to sleep together.

Lin Shu knew that in Lu Jinsui's heart, Jin Liu's departure not only deprived Lu Jinsui of everything, but also deprived him of the only fair opportunity he asked for.

Every time no matter how painful or tired he was, Lin Shu would get up and lie down on the made quilts. Only by wrapping himself tightly could he prevent broken moans from overflowing his throat, and prevent his empty soul from having nowhere to go. .

And tonight, the two-month-old fetus couldn't bear the shock, and declared his dissatisfaction. For the whole night, Lin Shu could only keep his eyes open, resist the physical and mental pain, and listen to the man's regular breathing to tell himself It's not just one person, there is another person, it's just that it's too late to find out that he is in love with herself.

When he woke up the next day, Lu Jinsui had already left.

Lin Shu rubbed his sore and swollen waist, and went to the kitchen to get himself something to eat.In this situation at home, there is no servant, so he has to do everything by himself.

Walking to the dining table, I saw a note unexpectedly.

"Brother and I will go home for dinner tonight. Thank you sister-in-law. Lu Jinchu."

The strong font is quite similar to Lu Jinsui's, but his is more chic and messy, and there is a big smiling face behind it.

There was a look of joy on the somewhat haggard face silently.

Lin Shu didn't have a deep impression of Lu Jinsui's younger brother. In his memory, he was just like a child, and he was always shy when he met him occasionally.After he came, Jin Sui should not be hangovered like before, even if he came back, it would be midnight.

In an instant, Lin Shu's mood was like the sun outside, the sun was shining brightly.

The car was still some distance away from the villa, and from a distance, I could see the dim yellow light in the quiet night.

Lu Jinchu sat in the passenger seat, tapped his sore arm, and looked out the window.

"Brother, look! The moon is still so bright!"

There was a silly childish smile on the already slightly childish face.

Lu Jinsui was taken aback by his younger brother's smile.

As if time has not passed so much, everything is still as good as ever, he has a considerate girlfriend, he can often get together with friends, and when he makes jokes with Lin Shu, that person will quietly blush.However, that is, after all, an irreversible past.

I don't know when, his world has been completely messed up, and he can only rely on layers of masks to keep himself living.

Lu Jinsui inadvertently raised his head to look at the sky. There were not many clouds in the night sky, but a bright moon was extraordinarily bright and warm.Suddenly, he remembered a sentence he had read with Lin Shu in the study room:

How time crawls through my skin, only I know best.

At that time, he was young and frivolous, full of ambition, and what he saw was only in front of his eyes. Unknowingly, these words settled in his heart over time.

"Jinchu, how are you doing abroad?" Lu Jin asked casually, glancing at his relaxed younger brother.

Lu Jinchu turned his face out of the window, the lights in the car shattered on his hair, and there were casual and relieved laughter in the car.

"Well. I always know that one day I will go home, so life becomes less difficult..."

There seemed to be a little more maturity on his face, and suddenly the topic changed, he hesitated, but finally said it out.

"Brother, it's been so many years since my parents left, but you are the one who has worked the hardest. No matter what, I hope you can feel happy."

Under the gaze of a pair of clear and sincere eyes, Lu Jinsui continued to concentrate on driving without answering.After a long time, when Lu Jinchu thought that he would not answer, he clearly heard Lu Jin's follow-up.

And the car also drove into the villa quietly, Lu Jinchu seemed to have a bottom line in his heart, and took some comfort.

Unexpectedly, Lin Shu was not seen until they entered the door.The two brothers exchanged glances strangely, and in the end it was naturally Lu Jin who went to have a look.

Lu Jinsui walked into the restaurant, and a table of sumptuous and steaming dishes had already been placed on the long glass table, but Lin Shu was not there.

The kitchen, the bedroom... are all absent.Just when Lu Jinsui was about to give up searching, there was the sound of rushing water from the toilet, and the door opened after a while.

Lin Shu leaned weakly against the door, closed his eyes for a while, the light cast a shadow on his fair face, just about to come out, but was surprised that Lu Jinsui was looking at him suspiciously and dangerously, Lin Shu's face appeared With a trace of haste, he looked down at his expressionless face and said apologetically, "The meal is ready, I just..."

Before he could finish speaking, Lu Jin said coldly: "Next time, don't hide in the toilet quietly, and also," after walking a few steps, he stopped, turned his head and watched him slowly Lowering his gaze, he said harshly, "Whatever you cook is the same to me, because it's all the same unappetizing."

The already uncomfortable body, coupled with Lu Jinsui's hateful and sharp words, made his heart ache slowly but clearly, causing his stomach, which was already a little uncomfortable, to start to hurt.

He quietly took a few deep breaths, his face haggard without much blood.

Lin Shu, hold on, hold on, don't fall...

Lin Shu kept cheering himself on, silently enduring the physical discomfort.When he returned to the restaurant, his face softened without pain.

Before approaching, I heard that clear voice praised: "Wow! Brother, you are so lucky, someone is willing to cook such a big table of sumptuous dishes for you!"

Seeing Lin Shu walking in, Lu Jinchu hastily and courteously helped him open the chair on the other side of Lu Jinsui, let him sit down, then returned to his seat, and winked mischievously at him quietly.

Lin Shu knew that he had misunderstood that he was having an affair with his brother, and couldn't help but feel warmed by his kindness, and couldn't help but wink at him to show his gratitude.Before he could see the shock of the two people on the table, he lowered his head and picked up the rice in the bowl.

During the dinner, Lu Jinchu excitedly talked about his interesting stories in England, and the atmosphere on the table was never too dull.

However, halfway through the meal, Lu Jinchu found that his brilliant speech lacked an attentive audience.

"Brother Lin Shu, what's wrong with you?"

Lin Shu's forehead was covered with cold sweat, and his hands were tightly clutching the cloth in his abdomen. He vaguely heard the concerned question, but looked up with a pale face.There was a vague mist in his eyes, and he was just about to answer that he was fine, but his body was softened by a burst of pain, and there was only an indistinct and suppressed moan left in his mouth.

Both brothers were confused by this sudden situation, and it was Lu Jinsui who stood up first, with a dark face, he directly hugged Lin Shu who was curled up in pain, and shouted to his younger brother, "Call Dr. Wang quickly."

Lu Jinchu, who was stunned by this scene, came back to his senses at this moment, hurriedly took out his phone, and was about to dial, but found that he didn't know the number at all.

"Hey! Brother, I don't know the number!"

Lu Jinsui did not carry Lin Shu into his bedroom, but carried him to a nearby guest room. After Lin Shu was settled, he took out his phone and dialed Wang Zimu's number: "Hey, Zimu, I am Jin Sui..."

After briefly explaining the situation to him, I noticed that Lin Shu was in unbearable pain on the bed. A trace of unbearable and another unspeakable emotion suddenly sprouted in my heart. I wanted to sit down and take a closer look at his situation, but suddenly found that he was in pain. The gray trousers were stained with dots of blood, and he gave him a complicated look.

Lin Shu knew that he was staring at him, but at the moment he really didn't have the extra energy to care about these things, he could only try his best to block the painful moans, and desperately resisted the throbbing pain in his abdomen and tightness in his chest.

"you……"

However, without further words, Lu Jinsui just pulled the quilt aside to help Lin Shu cover it, and then drove the worried younger brother out of the room. He took out the cigarette in his pocket and put it in the corner of his mouth, leaning against the window, holding his hand The lighter in the car was turned on and then capped off, but it never lit.

Lin Shu gritted his teeth and endured the pain on the bed, his clothes were drenched with sweat, while Lu Jinsui leaned against the window without saying a word.

When Wang Zimu arrived in a hurry, what he saw was such a scene that made him dumbfounded.

After seeing Lin Shu's reluctance, Wang Zimu had no choice but to seek help from others.

"Jin Sui, pick him up." While taking out the items in the medicine box, he beckoned his friends to come and help.

Lu Jinsui hesitated for a moment, but Wang Zimu yelled at him: "Everyone is like this, why don't you come here quickly, why call me here if you want him to die of pain?!"

He called himself here in the middle of the night, if it wasn't for the four years of friendship with his classmates, and his home is in the villa not far away, he wouldn't bother to come to see his stinky face.Wang Zimu couldn't help being a little annoyed, but he didn't neglect Lin Shu at all when he checked Lin Shu.

Lu Jinsui saw the person he hated tossing and turning on the side of the bed, but the pleasure of revenge that he should have had did not come. He walked over in a mysterious way, lifted Lin Shu, who was drenched in cold sweat, into his arms, and pulled Lin Shu into his arms again. He pulled away the hand that was tightly clutching the clothes, and held it firmly in his palm.

Lin Shu was made to forget the pain by his sudden tenderness, but he noticed that Wang Zimu's hand was about to take off his pants, and he struggled hastily.

"Don't... don't touch me..." Lin Shu gasped and tightened his legs, but flinched in pain from this movement.

"Lin Shu, how can I check for you if you don't move? Only by cooperating with me can I find out the cause of the disease." He said with more force on his hands, but the words did not have any effect.

Lin Shu still struggled to resist, although the intensifying pain in his stomach consumed most of his energy, but he still didn't want to lose face in front of the one he loved.I have already felt sorry for him and made an irreparable mistake, so at least, when he was still his nominal partner, he could maintain his dignity and Lu Jinsui's dignity.

no way.Wang Zimu could only look at Lu Jinsui for help, and only he had the ability to make Lin Shu cooperate obediently.

"Hurry up!" Lu Jinsui steadied Lin Shu's struggling body and urged Wang Zimu to move faster.

When Lin Shu was firmly grasped by his hands, he could only close his eyelids tiredly and resigned to his fate.

Lu Jinsui clearly saw Lin Shu's trembling and fragility, and lifted his body closer to him, then said softly, "It's okay. Continue."

This sentence seemed to be said to Wang Zimu, but also seemed to be said to Lin Shu, and then he felt the hand with clear bones in his hand gradually relax.

Wang Zimu looked back helplessly at Lin Shu who had fallen asleep from sleepiness, and closed the door gently.

In the living room, the morning light has softly sprinkled on the somewhat cold floor through the gorgeous floor-to-ceiling windows.Since Lu Jinchu had just joined the new company and still had a lot to do, Lu Jinsui rushed him back to his room early to sleep.

Beside the dark gray leather sofa, a standing lamp still emits a cold light.

Wang Zimu watched his old friend smoking one cigarette after another, and coughed awkwardly, trying to break the damned silence.

He scratched his head habitually with a smile, and asked as easily as possible: "Um... that... this kid..."

"Kill it."

Wang Zimu considered his words carefully, but before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by that cruel man.

What? !Wang Zimu couldn't believe that the child he had worked so hard to save all night, he dared to veto it so easily?

joke!He didn't care about the lunatic's opinion.Besides...Looking at Lin Shu's desperate efforts to protect the little guy in his stomach, I can't even imagine what he would be like if it were gone. After all, Lin Shu is like his younger brother. He and Lu Jinsui both thought so help him.

But, who would have guessed... Alas, good luck tricks people.

"I won't agree!" Wang Zimu also became serious all of a sudden, his piercing eyes were deep and awe-inspiring, staring at Lu Jinsui with firmness in his eyes, "Lin Shu won't even agree."

Lonely and intermittent laughter sounded in the empty living room.

"Heh, when is it your turn to object to my matter?" He said with a dangerous glance at him, "As for him..." His eyes narrowed slightly, as if there was deep-seated hatred, "Since he decided to follow I have lost the right to choose since the day we were together!"

The sun broke free from the shackles of the night, shyly revealing its sleepy eyes.

When Lin Shu woke up, it was already noon the next day, and the intense discomfort from yesterday had subsided a lot, but this kind of tranquility made him feel more scared than ever.

child?

The limp and feeble hand tentatively stretched towards the flat lower abdomen, and there seemed to be a misty glint in his eyes.

"Don't worry, he's still here."

Such a cold voice!

It was only then that Lin Shu realized that the man was standing in the corner, looking straight at him, and the original surprise dimmed instantly when he felt the fierce light in his eyes.

Lin Shu turned his head slightly, not looking into his eyes, suppressing the hesitation and stinging pain in his heart, a touch of relief appeared on his still haggard face, and his dry lips uttered weak words: "You all know already?"

Lu Jinsui let out a disdainful laugh from his throat, but it made people feel so cold that they just wanted to escape from this disdain.

"What? Am I not qualified to know? Or are you planning to give birth to a monster and then let me take this shameful responsibility?"

The ruthless words are like poisonous needles, reminding the past and the cruelty of reality.Lin Shu was originally weak and pale after being ill. After hearing the man's hurtful words, he was stunned for a moment, and then took a deep breath, still gently pressing his hand on his abdomen, but no matter how he tried to hide it, at this moment he All like stranded fish.

Even though he had expected it, when he heard his naked dislike and hatred for the child, Lin Shu's face turned as white as snow in an instant, and his heart ached unbearably.

Taking a deep breath, he tried his best to control the trembling of his voice, as if he had thought about it thousands of times in his mind, and said his decision.

"Well, why do you think that I want to use my child to demand you?" The words were full of desolation and sadness, "I shouldn't have come into this world with a body like mine. I owe you my job after the baby is born. You deal with it, okay? Besides, your Lu family has to have an inherited blood after all."

Lu Jin approached Lin Shu after hearing the words, and squeezed his chin jokingly, forcing him to face himself, forcing him to see clearly his disgust for him.

"Do you think I will admit him? Even if our Lu family loses its incense, we will never be ashamed to admit such flesh and blood! Oh! Haven't you realized it yet?" Shu's body trembled even more, "He, like you, shouldn't have come into this world from the very beginning!"

After finishing speaking, Lu Jinsui slammed the door and left, regardless of the panic and despair of the people behind him.

On the narrow bed, Lin Shu's emaciated body was tightly curled up together, his hands pressed tightly against his chin that was pinched by him, as if to restrain the fear and despair in his heart, mournful moaning and panting came from him. It overflowed from his throat like a dying bird abandoned by a hunter.

"Hello, brother Wang? I'm Lin Shu..."