time imprint

Ellen glanced at me as I got into the carriage and said nothing.After he reported my home address to the coachman, he closed his eyes and meditated without saying a word.

My mind is like a mess, and I'm still a little confused.I feel like I should talk to him, but I don't know what to talk about.

About last night?I'm so ashamed, I don't know what to do, what should I talk about?

If he has something to say to me, even if he punishes me severely, or even kicks me out of the mercenary group, I feel that I deserve what I deserve, and I can feel better in my heart.But he didn't seem interested in talking to me, let alone about last night.

Maybe to pretend it never happened?

have no idea.Anyway, I can't think of it first.It's too rude to do so.

But it is not quite right to say that I will be responsible.

Can I accept that the question of men has been ignored by myself, and after doing such a thing, can I, the culprit, still think about myself?I can only fight myself out.

Besides... Besides... It seems that the date is not so bad... Do I also like men?It's just that I didn't realize it before?No wonder I talked to so many girlfriends before but never got married...

The problem is that even if he likes men, he probably doesn't mean that to me at all.I forced it on last night, he also drank, maybe he didn't want to hurt me, maybe it was a one-night stand after drinking too much, it just happened...

I am the youngest in the mercenary group, only two years ago, and I am only 20 years old this year.If it weren't for the death of both parents, and the need to raise a younger brother, Yige, plus the recommendation from his father's friends before his death, and the fact that Mai Ni's martial arts skills were not bad back then, he wouldn't have been able to join the mercenary group in his teens.After all, this is a high-risk job, and young people with little experience are not likely to be accepted.

Because of this, I was taken care of. The companions of the mercenary group all treated me like a younger brother, and took care of me during the mission.The head of the group is seven or eight years older than me. Although he is rigorous and serious in his tasks, he is usually a very talkative person.I am also studying hard, in order not to lose my life, and in order not to drag these good people to me in the task.In the past two years, I have made rapid progress in learning battle qi, and I have enriched my mission experience a lot, so I gradually became a qualified mercenary.There is no need for them to keep staring at me while doing tasks, for fear that something will happen to me.

I love my companions, and I admire and respect the leader.

In a world where martial arts are respected, it is natural to respect the strong.And this strong man can help us become stronger. When facing danger, he saved our lives again and again. Without him, even if I didn't die, I would probably be disabled now.

Moreover, he can be regarded as Mai Ni's benefactor.Three years ago, the city encountered a natural disaster of magic planting, and Mai Ni's parents died.If it weren't for the joint attack of Alan and another mercenary group leader, Daxio, who is also a golden fighter, the magic plant would not have been wiped out, and they saved the lives of most people in the city.

Besides, he is not only strong, but also very smart.My brain is not very good, those plans, information, I always can't figure it out.But those Allen and military advisers will take care of it, so I just need to execute the order.It makes me feel good.

I thought I could live like this for many years, but now...

While I was thinking wildly, the carriage stopped.It turned out to be home.Without thinking, I got out of the carriage.I only thought of Allen when I was standing by the carriage... I haven't said anything to him yet.So he stood still again.

Allen didn't seem to want to get off the carriage.Just send me home first.Seeing that I was not moving, I asked lightly, "What's the matter?"

"No……"

"Then go home and rest." He pinched the space between his brows, looking a little tired.

I don't know why, but I feel guilty.Maybe it's because he's never looked tired, and I can't help feeling that it's all because of my... last night that made him tired.

"Well...how about...going to my house for dinner?"

He stared at me for a few seconds, "No, everyone is tired from this mission. Take a good rest for a few days. If you have something to do, you can come to the mercenary group to find me at any time."

"Oh", let's talk to him after he has rested and I have figured out what to do.I stepped back and watched the carriage drift away.I don't know what it feels like.

I have never had such a big disaster.I stayed in a daze for a long time before turning around and walking back to my home.

First go to Lucy's house next door to pick up Yige who lives there.Lucy was a widow ten years my senior.Her husband also died in the natural disaster three years ago.Her facial features were not very beautiful, but she was quite attractive, and she was very sharp and capable. After her husband died, she opened a small grocery store to make a living.We are neighbors. When I was on a mission, I left the young Ig at her home.

I also offer some protection when her grocery store gets harassed, or when she gets stalked by some drunken thugs.in return.

I was aiming at the marriage partner is her.I have been in love several times in my previous life. I have to say that falling in love is a very troublesome thing.Young girls always think too little or too much, those who think too little just want to fall in love and have fun, and those who think too much are always entangled in the question of "love or not", or entangled in me What kind of life can the future give her.But mature women don't do that.You must have thought about it before dating, and you will also consider the other person's situation when you are in love, so it won't make people too embarrassed.

I admit that I am a person with no romantic feelings.I was late to understand the matter of falling in love, and when I thought about this issue, I went straight to the plan of getting married and living a life.

I have never met a woman who can marry me, and I am quite depressed myself.

I didn't read much. After graduating from high school, I went directly to technical school to learn how to repair cars.After working in a garage for a while, the family got some money, bought a car and rented it out.Because of the relocation of the family, they got a modest house in Beijing, where every inch of land is expensive.My qualifications can only be said to be that of an ordinary citizen. Normally, I look good, I am tall, and I have little savings. I thought it would not be so difficult to find a wife.Who knows, it's that difficult.

Later, Aunt Zhang introduced me to a divorced woman who was slightly older than me, and my marriage was considered reliable.It's a pity that before it was completed, there was an elevator accident, and I also came here.

I didn't have much pain when I came here.I admit that I just want to be a family, and it has nothing to do with those loves, but as long as we get married, she will be my own family, and I must treat her better than myself.But just separated like this, it seems that there is nothing to miss.The only regret is that we haven't issued a marriage certificate yet.After my grandma passed away, I didn’t even have a single family member. Instead of letting the government take back my house and car, I don’t know who would benefit from it, I might as well give it to her.She is a divorced woman, so it's not easy.

Since then, though, I've grown more attracted to slightly older women.They are mature and sensible, and consider problems realistically.When I came here, I gradually became interested in Lucy.

Now that idea has been dismissed.I've messed things up myself, why should I even think about getting married?

"Brother, you're back." Yige jumped over cheerfully, climbed onto my back, and asked me to carry him.

I thanked Lucy, and gave her the food expenses for the next season of Yige. The gift I originally bought for her...an agate necklace...Since I gave up the idea of ​​pursuing her, naturally I couldn't give it to her .

"Brother, where are we going?"

"Brother, shall I take you to a restaurant for dinner?"

"It's so expensive there, let's go home and eat."

"Okay, then let's go shopping first."

Carry him to the vegetable market, watch him pick out fresh bread, vegetables, meat and fruits, and listen to him bargaining with the bosses.At only seven years old, he is already as smart as a little adult.

When I got home, the tables, chairs and ground in the room were spotless.This is again Iger's credit.In the past two years, he has become very sensible, except that I don't allow him to cook, lest he get burned, he is already able to do a lot of housework at home.

I'm actually a housekeeping idiot.In the past, there was a washing machine for washing clothes. When grandma was still there, she cooked. When she was gone, I ate indiscriminately.How many days can't think of cleaning the room.He is a standard bachelor who is incompetent in housework.

But in order to raise Yige, I have learned more or less now.At least I can cook simple dishes.As for the laundry, I still paid for it to be done by someone else, but Yige took care of the cleaning.I am not so qualified as a caregiver.

Carrying Yige into the kitchen and putting him down, he took over the things in my hand and went to clean the ingredients.Then I tied the apron again, and stood on the stool to direct me to cook.

When is the oil hot, when should the fried meat be turned over, when should seasoning be added, and when the dishes are ready to be cooked.

After finishing a few dishes, Yige cut the bread slices again, and we returned to the dining room with our lunch.After praying together, Yige asked me sweetly, "Brother, is it okay to eat?"

"Let's eat," I said with a smile.No matter what time it is, it is always fun to be with my brother.I temporarily forgot about my troubles, and wolfed down my lunch.I am indeed very hungry, what happened last night seems to have exhausted my energy.