time imprint

Because of this kiss, my state of mind involuntarily changed again.Originally, it was because I was immoral after drinking, and I wanted to make amends in fear and so on.

What Alan was thinking I don't know.But I guess he thinks it's already happened, so try to see what it means to be with me.

So I have always been a little ashamed and feel that I am not good enough for him.I also secretly made up my mind that I must work hard to be worthy of him.

But this kiss happened completely when both of them were sober... Although I'm not smart, I'm not stupid either.I dare not say anything else, but at that moment, at that moment, I felt that he wanted me to kiss him.That's why I kissed him.Otherwise, how could I have the courage to offend the head of the group who I have always regarded as an idol and leader.

Before I kissed him, I just wanted to fulfill his wish.Otherwise, how could I, a man who just started to like men, think of taking the initiative to kiss a man?

But after the kiss, I have no time to think so much.I just feel beautiful.There is no smell of perfume, no hindrance from lipstick, no deliberate shyness... It's so refreshing, it makes me want to kiss it again... It's no longer a perfunctory rush just to go to bed like before.

It took a long time to kiss without knowing it.If it wasn't for my body getting hot and hot, and my mind starting to think about things that are not suitable for children, I'm afraid I would be willing to kiss him all night.

Because there are not so many chores at home, these days are real rest days.So in the next few days, Allen and I were really free.When Yige practiced martial arts, took a nap, and went out to play with neighbors and friends, Alan and I seized every opportunity, hugging and kissing in some corners where people avoided people.

I remembered that when I was in high school, male and female students were caught kissing in school by the high school teacher, and they had to ask their parents to punish them.At that time, I wondered, where can't they kiss each other, do they have to do this at school under the nose of the teacher?Isn't this too restrained?

But now I understand.This day and night together, right in front of your eyes, how could it not make your heart itch, even if you can hold back, you don't want to hold back...

Moreover, there is also a subtle feeling of cheating.

Alan is usually smarter than me, but also better than me.So I always respect him, worship him, and listen to his arrangements in major matters.

But when I kissed him, I would forget about that in an instant, and I just felt full of love for the person in my arms.I like to hold him in my arms, so that he can't move.Like picking him up a little bit, letting the weight of his body rest on top of me.Like to kiss his mouth.

Of course, after coming out of the kissing situation, I will return to that respectful and trusting attitude.This kind of respect and trust was created during many missions, this is a life-saving grace!Therefore, I can completely trust him, entrust my life to him to arrange, and when necessary, I am even willing to give my life for it in return for him.

Alternating between the two states, I was a little embarrassed and unnatural at first.But maybe it's because I'm thick-skinned, I got used to it after not many times.After all...that kiss is too tempting...even if I respect him in my heart, I don't want to miss the chance to kiss him.

I don't know when, I no longer have the mentality of atonement at the beginning, nor the hesitation of feeling unworthy of him.I just feel that I must be worthy of him because I like him.

And I think he likes me too.Hope I'm not being selfish...

In the evening, Yige had already gone to bed, and Allen and I had just finished a kiss and leaned together panting.

"Tomorrow I'm going back to the mercenary group, and I'm ready to go on a mission."

"Oh, I'm going too?"

"No," he said with a smile, "you haven't been notified, so you can go on vacation at home, the same as before."

How could it be the same as before? Even when I was on vacation, half of my time was spent in the mercenary group.But this time it was at home all the time.

A feeling of reluctance suddenly arose in my heart. He was about to go back, so I couldn't kiss him.Even if they go on a mission together, it's not as convenient as it is now to avoid people kissing.

Because of this reluctance, and with the idea of ​​kissing enough now, I kissed him again.Unknowingly, because the posture hindered the kiss, we changed from sitting together to him facing me and sitting on my lap.This is so much more convenient.

Like every kiss in the past, my hand involuntarily caressed his back, his waist, his... and then I realized that I started to think about pictures that were not suitable for children, so I forced myself to stop and take a breath.

Of course I thought about that, but I felt offended him.I don't know if he wants to.That's not the same as kissing.

And... and... and the man... I don't know much about it either.The only time I did it was because I was so drunk I barely knew how I did it...

Allen looked at me with a half-smile, his moist and shiny lips were raised a little by my kiss, his eyes swept over my lower body, and then at the hands I put behind him.

I reacted, and my face suddenly became hot.His hands quickly moved up, wrapping around his waist again.But I can control my hand, but I can't control anything else, I just feel more and more pain in my lower body.

Allen got down from my legs calmly, pinched his neck as if nothing had happened, "I want to take a bath."

I was stunned for a while, and then stood up, "Oh, then I'll boil hot water." It's dark and I can't go down to the river to take a bath, right?

He nodded and went back to the room.

I scratched my head, I was still kissing just now, why did I suddenly think of taking a bath?

After calming down for a while, I returned to the status of a loyal and hardworking subordinate, and I ran to the kitchen to boil water.

Later... one person taking a shower turned into two showers... and then... I did everything I should and shouldn't do according to the instinct of a man...

The first time it was drunk, it was like Zhu Bajie swallowed ginseng fruit, he ate it, but he didn't taste it.

This time I was completely awake...with my eyes, with my lips, with my hands, with my body...to taste carefully...to taste...