choking game

The memory of some things began to blur.Guan Yin didn't know how long he could remember. There were many people and things he had forgotten, but He Junyuan seemed like he would remember forever.

Really loved that man, maybe even now.But there are some things that are not just about love.He used to think that there was love between them, but He Junyuan finally told him that he was just an object to be used.Or even useless value.

Thinking of the past, Guan Yin closed his eyes, and his body curled up on the sofa moved slightly, wearing loose-style white pajamas, making him look even thinner.Almost sleepless all night, he was very tired, but could not sleep.

Then, as if remembering something, Guan Yin stretched out his hand and touched his breasts, feeling the plump curves that belonged to women, but seemed to belong to another person.One thing is sad for him, after all these years, he still hasn't gotten used to this body.It seems that the soul is still himself, but he has changed his own body.

Who else would like this body that even disgusted him.

Tiredness still came up little by little, but not long after he closed his eyes, the knock on the door made him open them again.Glancing at the door, Guan Yin seemed to know who it was.This may be the induction, formed over the years.

He stood up and went to open the door, and as expected, he saw Guan Zhi standing outside the door, his chest heaving with panting, and his face was covered with sweat.

The four eyes met, and no one spoke for a while.Not long ago, they broke up unhappy, and suddenly reappeared. It always feels like the awkward quarrel is not over yet.

Guan Zhi took a breath, and the Adam's apple in his neck rolled, his mouth looked parched, as if he had run hundreds or thousands of meters.

After watching him for a while, Guan Yin sighed and said with a bit of heartache: "Why are you so tired? Someone is chasing you? It's like running away—"

Guan Zhi wanted to say that he could indeed be said to have "run away".

Damn it!Damn it!Damn it!After scolding all the way, Guan Zhi stopped and kicked the trash can on the side of the road hard.

The trash can with a wooden and metal base is fixed on the ground. Although it cannot be kicked down, it can be kicked to make a loud noise.His crazy behavior attracted the attention of passers-by, but no one dared to speak.All kinds of contempt and disgust looked at Guan Zhi, but Guan Zhi couldn't care about those anymore.

Now, the only thing in his mind is He Junyuan's "I don't know".

Fuck me!If he doesn't know anything, he can pretend that he has nothing to do!Throw the mess to him!Putting his hands on his knees, Guan Zhi bent over and panted heavily, the anger in his heart, kicking and breaking a few vases would not be enough to vent his hatred.

He Junyuan almost understood what He Junyuan said.No matter what the truth is, the sentence "I don't know" has almost declared the truth.Although he still dare not and cannot believe it now, He Junyuan has already given him half of the answer.

He Junyuan may not be able to lie to him, but only in this matter, he can believe that He Junyuan is not lying.

Going to bed with his own brother——When Guan Zhi thought of this, he felt that something was weighing him down.

Maybe it's the sense of guilt, the kind of oppression that is close to ethics, whether it's dirty or shameless, it may not be the most important thing to him.Because it was He Junyuan, he didn't dare to bother thinking about the word that represented their relationship.

The final answer, maybe only one person can give him.

Stretching out his hand to mess up his hair, straightening his body, Guan Zhi kicked the safety fence on the side of the road hard again.

During peak hours, it is not easy to stop traffic.Guan Zhi, who couldn't wait any longer, almost rushed all the way to the hotel where Guan Yin was staying. When he was in the elevator, he felt his throat was so dry that it was so dry that it hurt even to swallow saliva.

Standing in front of Guan Yin's room door, when he raised his hand to knock on the door, Guan Zhi hesitated, but it was only for a few seconds.

When Guan Yin came to open the door, he thought about turning around and leaving like this—but he didn't have time to think about it anymore. The door opened, and Guan Yin stood inside with a haggard face.

At that moment, Guan Zhi felt that there was something in his heart, as if it had been taken away.

The person in front of him is his sister.It is also his only one - relatives.

Without saying a word, he entered the room, the sky had already darkened, but Guan Yin did not turn on the light, and by the light outside the window, he could vaguely see his surroundings.

"Why did you come here suddenly? You didn't even call me—" Guan Yin reached out and turned on the wall lamp on the wall. The faint beige light was enough.Walking to Guan Zhi's side, he reached out his hand to wipe the sweat off Guan Zhi's face, and sighed helplessly.

Guan Zhi turned his head away and didn't speak.

"What's wrong?" Guan Yin raised his eyebrows and asked.This quiet method is not Guan Zhi's usual style.

After a few seconds of silence, Guan Zhi said, "I want to drink water."

It took a long time, just for this!Guan Yin gave him a blank look, then turned to pour water.

While Guan Yin was pouring water, Guan Zhi looked at his back, his dry lips moved, and when Guan Yin picked up the cup and turned around, he said, "I'm with He Junyuan."

The cup in Guan Yin's hand fell to the ground with a "snap" and instantly shattered.The water wet his shoes and trousers, but Guan Yin didn't seem to notice.

Guan Zhi knew—he was finished.

"What did you say?" Slowly frowned, Guan Yin even changed his face, looking at Guan Zhi as if he didn't hear clearly.

Without saying a word, Guan Zhi walked up to Guan Yin and knelt down, silently picking up the debris on the ground, not wanting to hurt Guan Yin.

"What did you say? Tell me again!"

Then he was grabbed by the collar suddenly, and he was almost picked up by Guan Yin.

Seeing Guan Yin's gritted teeth expression, Guan Zhi smiled slightly.

"I said, I'm with He Junyuan."

"What nonsense!" Throwing Guan Zhi away, Guan Yin yelled, "You're out of your mind, aren't you? With him? With a man you haven't even met a few times? You know he is Who? Ah~?"

"I don't think there is anything wrong." Guan Zhi looked down at the half glass in his hand, "I just like him, it doesn't matter to me whether he is a man or a woman."

The word "like" seemed to have stimulated Guan Yin, and he rushed to Guan Zhi in a few steps and knocked out the things in his hand.

"You're fucking crazy! Like? What do you like about him? What's so good about him? How long have you known him to like him?"

Guan Zhi can sleep with anyone, including He Junyuan of course, but in Guan Yin's consciousness, Guan Zhi will never like He Junyuan, or should not like it.As a result, He Junyuan's words have now become a prophecy, how can he not go crazy!

Guan Zhi frowned, the sharp glass cut through his palm, but it didn't hurt as much as imagined.Blood soon flowed from his fingers, he smiled and clenched his hands tightly.

"What's there to like about him? Don't you know very well?"

As soon as the words came out, Guan Yin was taken aback.

"Aren't you the same? You rushed over as soon as you heard He Junyuan's voice on the phone, and no matter how long I've been outside, you won't come here specifically for me, sister."

"Sister" at this time is already the best irony.Guan Zhi regretted it as soon as he finished speaking. He shouldn't have said that, even in this situation, but it was too late.

Guan Yin stared at him motionless, then turned his head away and panted heavily.He was suppressing himself, he didn't want to get angry with Guan Zhi, or say something irreparable, but this was not an easy task.

"Do you love him?" Guan Zhi asked suddenly.Then seeing Guan Yin's expression, he already knew the answer.

"Then why haven't you been looking for him? It's not like you. What's wrong with you? He doesn't want you? Or is it just not that kind of relationship between you? What happened to you before—"

"Enough!" Finally couldn't help it, Guan Yin yelled and interrupted Guan Zhi.

"What do you know? What do you know? Damn kid, don't think you know everything. What do you know? You don't know anything!" Guan Yin roared hysterically, accompanied by all kinds of abuse, Guan Zhi had never heard of it before. , even more powerful and ugly than now, but only this time, like knives, every word of Guan Yin pierced his heart.

"I won't let you be with He Junyuan! Absolutely not!"

"Why?" Guan Zhi gritted his teeth and asked, "Just because you like him too? Because you have slept together?"

"Because he is not human, he is a murderer! He burned his parents to death with his own hands!" Guan Yin roared, grabbing his hair with both hands, squatting on the ground and sobbing.

At that moment, Guan Zhi's mind went blank.

Guan Yin cried, he didn't know what he did.Obviously wanting to hide it from Guan Zhi, but he still revealed the secrets that had been buried in his heart for more than ten years, and couldn't stop no matter what.

"He burned everyone in that house, he's a devil! A 15-year-old kid set fire to the whole house, his parents, me and you! He lied to everyone! He Should go to hell!"

After that, there was no other sound in the room except Guan Yin's crying.His whole body was trembling for a long time, and he slowly raised his head to stare at Guan Zhi, with an expression as if someone had stepped on a painful spot.He seems to be awake, but also seems to be more indifferent.

Standing in place, Guan Zhi looked at the "woman" squatting on the ground with loose hair. He gave up everything about being a man, self-esteem, gender, and became what he is now, as fragile as a bird that will die at any time.And all of this may be for that man.

He knew that Guan Yin hated He Junyuan, but even so, it couldn't change the fact that he loved He Junyuan.He knew that Guan Yin was always thinking of someone, but he didn't know that that person was He Junyuan.

He can't remember everything in the past, but now it is like a fatal wound, hidden for more than ten years, and there is no chance to look back.Guan Zhi suddenly felt more and more ironic, like a farce, and they all became clowns in it.

And obviously, he's the funniest one.

"He Junyuan is my brother, isn't he?"

Guan Yin sat on the ground, his shoulders trembling and his head buried in his knees.A low and suppressed scream came out of his mouth, he had long expected that this day might come, this is life.Compared with Guan Zhi's calmness, he was about to collapse.

"He's your brother." He choked up and told the truth, with no way out. "We are not related by blood. That man is your brother."

More than ten years ago, he lost the man he loved. Today, he lost his only "brother".

"How did you--you fall in love with him?" Guan Yin seemed unbelievable, how could--you came to this point all of a sudden--

The current result of Guan Zhi and He Junyuan may also be the result he once wanted.

Nothing is more guilt-inducing than incest between brothers.They are both men, or biological brothers, step by step degenerate, bit by bit dirty, they don't even need the world's condemnation, they will want to repent.

He thought about taking revenge. Maybe it wasn't just because of his conscience that he brought Guan Zhi out of the fire.Now he has been hesitating and struggling, who knows that the final retribution will still be on Guan Zhi.

The blood on the ground accumulated drop by drop, Guan Zhi's body suddenly shook, and he fell to the ground.

"Xiao Guan!" Guan Yin called out and crawled towards him.

Guan Zhi propped up his body with his uninjured hand and sat up, which seemed to wake him up. Since just now, his face has been expressionless, as if he was listening to a story, his entire expression was numb.

Seeing him like this, Guan Yin felt that he should do something, but he couldn't bear it after all.He Junyuan has existed in his mind for more than ten years, but Guan Zhi has been by his side until now.

Stretching out his hand and stroking Guan Zhi's face, Guan Yin said sadly: "Give up. He doesn't like you—he just wants to make up for you. Just pretend you've never seen him before."

Guan Zhi didn't speak, nor looked up.

Guan Yin gently picked up his injured hand. The wound on the palm was obviously not very deep, but because of his tight grip, even the skin and flesh were about to be opened.

Tears dripped on his fingers, Guan Yin said: "Let's go back together, go home."

He has no way to take revenge on He Junyuan on his own, even if he doesn't meet, he may never mention He Junyuan again.But if everything now is punishment, he doesn't want Guan Zhi to be hurt.

Finally, Guan Zhi raised his head and watched him raise his mouth.

"sorry--"

The day when no one has it is much better than imagined.

The dusty rooms of the small, dingy hotels were almost overwhelmed with wine bottles and empty cans.The only "clean" single bed, the person lying on it seemed to have passed out, the empty beer can was next to the pillow, he turned over, and the can rolled off the bed with a "bang".

Guan Zhi snorted softly, slowly opened his eyes, but the glare of the sun made him close them quickly again.He's been here for almost a week, tired and full of stubble.

Nothing but wine.It seems to be challenging the limits of human beings, how long can you live with only drinking.

He didn't use alcohol to drown his sorrows, nor was he self-willed, he just wanted to find a place to calm down and rest for a while.He didn't do anything for himself. Now, as compensation, he wants to stay by himself for a while.

The mobile phone, which should have run out of power, rang again. The cheap ones bought for a few hundred yuan were still doing their job, and the harsh ringing kept ringing, disturbing people's dreams.The voice was right next to his ears, Guan Zhi frowned, and stretched out his hands to grope without raising his head.

When he was awake, he didn't answer all the calls.Guan Yin's, Nie Fengyu's, Yuan Zhanye's, Qian Ye's - and He Junyuan's.Several people took turns bombing until the mobile phone issued a low battery warning.Guan Zhi chuckled. On this day, it seemed that people all over the world cared about him.

Afraid of him committing suicide?He thought that no one would believe that he would do such a thing.

After finally touching the phone, Guan Zhi had a severe headache.He pressed a button at random and put the phone to his ear.He had to let someone know he wasn't dead.

"say."

"You haven't come to work for a few days?" Su He's voice came from next to his ear, obviously full of anger.

Strangely, listening to this man's voice today unexpectedly sounded pleasant to my ears.Guan Zhi laughed sarcastically.

"Principal Su University is going to fire me?"

"—Where are you?" The man was very keen, and within a few seconds he noticed something was wrong.

Guan Zhi hiccupped, turned over and lay down on the bed.

"I don't know either." He really didn't know.

"What are you doing? Are you drunk?"

"Ah~ ah~ Do you think it's possible for me to talk to you so calmly when I'm drunk?" Guan Zhi pouted, raised one leg and put it down immediately, unable to exert any strength.

"Su He~ Is incest disgusting?" He asked with a smile.

There's no sound on the phone,

Guan Zhi laughed out loud.He knew that Su He was frightened.

After a long time, Su He asked, "Where are you?"

Guan Zhi closed his eyes and threw the phone to the ground.

After falling asleep in the dark, Guan Zhi got up and left the room.After paying the rent and the money for buying wine these days, his pockets are empty, and he can't even afford a bun now.

After leaving the hotel, Guan Zhi walked on the road in a daze, his head still hurting.He didn't know where he was going next, his body was light and light, but he couldn't lift his legs every time he took a step.

The temperature was low at night and the wind was very cool, but after a while, cold sweat broke out on Guan Zhi's forehead little by little.

"Hmm~~" There was a tumbling in my stomach, and I drank almost on an empty stomach for a few days, and finally couldn't bear it anymore.Guan Zhi squatted on the side of the road and vomited out all the drinking just now.

After vomiting all the liquid in his stomach, he raised his head and looked at the person standing in front of him who didn't know when.

Like a kid at fault, he grinned at him.